There is a kind of love you know

The results of the second-mode test were sent out as I thought, neither good nor bad, but it changed after being told by the head teacher.

The parent meeting was held, I don't know whether I should tell them, but thinking about the past, I think it's better to forget it.

Telling them that they will not come to participate, it is the same as saying nothing.

What's more, it is impossible to get into a good university with my grades, and I don't want to work hard.

So this parent meeting did not include my parents. Of course, the result of this is that the teacher called my mother.

My mother answered the phone, and I don't know what the teacher said to her. After she hung up the phone, she just said coldly, "Talk to your father."

She left home, not knowing what to do?

My heart is cold, I never give up on her, is she really my mother?How come you don't care about me so much?

Fortunately, I'm used to her like this, so I don't particularly care.

But thinking of my dad, I think my mom and dad are a bit weird recently, they both come back late at night, otherwise they won't come back.

I can't pay special attention to them, maybe because I have too little family affection, and I have too little feeling for them.

Living alone at home is lonely, but I feel comfortable, without their quarrels and fights, it is so harmonious.

I was still in class as usual, but the head teacher called me into the office alone a few days later, probably because he wanted to talk about my study and exam situation.

I followed the class teacher into the office the day after tomorrow, only to find that Xu Jinyi was also in the office, but he seemed to be helping the teacher in his class with something, so he just took a look at me and continued to work on his business.

At this time, I prayed that the head teacher would not say those demeaning words, it could be done in front of anyone, but not in front of Xu Jinyi.

Even if Xu Jinyi doesn't know me and doesn't remember who I am, I feel ashamed.

"Wei Yuqi, let's take a look at your paper." The head teacher is a female teacher, and sometimes she speaks very harshly. I am a little afraid of her.

Picking up my test paper, I was silent, and I didn't know what to say, the score was like that, can I change it?

"Your parents didn't come this time, and they don't know about your exam status. With your current test scores, you can't even pass three books. Have you ever thought about your own shortcomings?" The head teacher stared at I seemed a little annoyed, "I'm not talking about you, if you don't work hard, you won't even be able to pass the college entrance examination, let alone the third degree."

I lowered my head and could only listen to what the teacher in charge said. I was in a bad mood, more dazed and irritable.

"It's the same with you in class! You always break down, what are you thinking? I don't know if you should focus on studying at this time?" In fact, the head teacher didn't like me a long time ago, so she simply let go of the previous anger this time. , "Your parents don't care about you, and you don't care about yourself? If you can't go to school, mixing in society is also a way out, so as not to torture you."

The head teacher said so embarrassingly, I clenched my fists a little bit, and felt uncomfortable, but I couldn't do anything.

"Okay, next month is the last exam, I hope you will do well in the exam, don't be so bad in the exam!" The class teacher bit the word "poor" very hard.

I nodded numbly, and as soon as I looked up, I found Xu Jinyi looking at me, and suddenly felt that the other party's eyes were so ironic at me, as if he was laughing at me.

I came out of the office in a panic and bumped into someone.

"Yes...I'm sorry..." I apologized to the man, and left in a hurry, even forgetting to pick up the test paper on the floor.

At this moment, all I had in my mind was Xu Jinyi's eyes looking at me, even though I knew he was just taking a glance, but at that time, that look was simply a kind of contempt for me.

I'm not afraid of what the class teacher will say about me, but I'm afraid it will be very uncomfortable to be said that in front of the person I like.

Will it be different if I try harder?

I thought so, and I went back and did so.

But I have no effect in class, and it even declines faster.

I was upset and I had nothing to tell anyone.

My house is too quiet now, they rarely come back for two nights, and I don't think about what's going on with them, I just want to study hard.

Forget that some things have reached the point of no return.

Those seemingly calm surfaces have long been rocky.

Apart from my parents leaving me money, I have rarely seen the two of them. My mother still comes back sometimes, and my father seems to be nowhere to be seen.

I was reviewing for the three models, reviewing blindly, I only knew to read books desperately, and that kind of depression has never disappeared since then.

Going to class every day, looking at those talking and laughing classmates, only irritated.

I also wished I had a lot of laughter too, but I have long since lost those bright days.

If... so many ifs, I know that many of them cannot be realized.

The three models are interleaved exams between our class and the fifth class. I was relieved to hear that.

Goodbye Xu Jinyi, I'm afraid I have to walk with my head down.

It's just that God didn't do what I wanted.

This day, after school in the afternoon, I was planning to go home. A boy in our class asked me to help him on duty. I didn't want to offend anyone, so I agreed.

I was on duty alone again. I was quite used to it. Anyway, I went back early and there was no one at home.

Carrying the trash can, I went downstairs, ready to go to the trash room.

"classmate?"

Someone stopped me, I turned around, but the expression on my face froze, it was Xu Jinyi.

He stood at the top of the stairs with his schoolbag on his back and looked at me. My heart was still beating fast, but I didn't dare to look him in the eye.

He walked up to me, and I couldn't even breathe.

"Well... can you help me take out the trash and put the bucket in Class Three and Four?" Xu Jinyi said, and I noticed the full trash can in his hand.

Silently, I nodded in agreement.

"Thanks." He smiled and handed me the trash can, then went downstairs, waved me back, and ran to the school gate.

I went downstairs with two trash cans, and saw Xu Jinyi standing with a long-haired girl outside the school. Although it was too far away, I couldn't see the expressions on their faces, but I saw Xu Jinyi hugging the girl The shoulder of the girl, I probably know the identity of the other party.

I feel sad, even more sad than the last time I was in the office.

It turns out that I actually don't have to bow my head not to look at him, even looking up at me is a luxury.

The bitter taste filled my heart, and I carried the trash can to take out the trash lonely.

I didn't know how I got back home afterwards, I just felt that my heart hurt so badly, like being pricked with a needle.

I lay on my desk and wanted to cry, but not a single tear came out.

This feeling is painful, and only I can know it.

I heard the slight sound of the door opening, but I didn't care, maybe my dad or my mom came back.

I continued to lie on my stomach, thinking about my own thoughts, until I heard a strange sound in the living room, I came back to my senses, and was a little scared to go out to have a look.

I opened the door of my room carefully, only to hear the sound of men and women making love in the living room, and my hand froze on the doorknob.

Even if I don't understand it, I know what it is, and that man's voice is not my dad!

What is my mother doing?I covered my mouth reflexively, and closed the door carefully. The blushing voice kept circling in my mind, and I felt extremely disgusted.

I was flustered, really flustered, I leaned against the door and didn't even dare to vent my breath, my mind went blank.

I can't accept my mother doing such things at home with other men behind my father's back, it's disgusting.

I don't even dare to imagine such a thing, I just pray that it's all just a dream and nothing happens.

But this is a fact!A fact that I can't believe myself!

I don't know how long they did it afterwards, but when I heard the sound of the door closing, I came back to my senses, only to find that my nails had sunk into the flesh.