The world is very bitter, you are very sweet

"Xu Jingheng..." Silin seemed to want to get out of bed, but just sat down again after getting up.He sat on the bed and looked at Xu Jingheng, and asked lightly, "Aren't you coming in?"

Xu Jingheng flinched, shook his head instinctively, and looked at Si Lin warily.

There was a moment of disappointment in Silin's eyes, but it was quickly replaced by indifference, "I said I would never hit you again."

Even though he never really did anything to Xu Jingheng, he just let those people beat and kick Xu Jingheng unscrupulously.

Xu Jingheng lowered his eyes, did not speak, and did not look inside.

His fear of Si Lin had formed a habit, and he would feel like sitting on pins and needles in the same room with Si Lin.

Silin saw his uneasiness, and said slowly, "I won't look at you, come in."

When he was about to pull up the quilt and lie down, Xu Jingheng gritted his teeth and turned around, striding away nervously.

Xu Jingheng's silence, his expression, his actions... all this made Silin grit his teeth in anger, but he was helpless.

When the sound of Xu Jingheng's anxious footsteps slowly disappeared in the corridor, Si Lin got up and got out of bed.He went out and stood in the corridor, watching Xu Jingheng running away, secretly clenched his fists.

One day, he will make Xu Jingheng no longer escape, or be unable to escape.

Xu Jingheng ran in the direction of Tang Geyu's house without stopping in the dark night.When he stood panting in the alley outside Tang Geyu's house, he was covered in sweat and his jaw was dripping.

Instead of patting the door of Tang Geyu's house, he walked outside Tang Geyu's room with swollen legs, picked up a gravel and lightly smashed it on the window.

He smashed it a few times and no one responded, he stood on tiptoe and looked in through the window, the room was pitch black, it seemed that Tang Geyu was not there.

He leaned his back against the wall helplessly for a while and then slowly ran away. When he got out of the alley, he wanted to find a hotel to open a room, so he could make do with sleep tonight, but when he came out he was in a hurry, and he didn't take his money or mobile phone. .

In desperation, he had to return to school again.

The uncle doorman knew him very well, and when he saw him, he would come over and open the door for him without asking a word.

There is no one on campus, it is very quiet.He walked to the end of the third floor of the boys' dormitory, and the sweat on his body was already dry.When the night wind blows, it doesn't feel so hot anymore.

He stood in front of the door of bedroom 309, looking at the darkness inside, feeling more and more stressed.

This was obviously his bedroom, but he didn't dare to go in because Silin was inside.

He tried to suppress the discomfort and fear in his heart several times, and opened the door to sleep, but every time Silin's face would break through his firmness, making him cowardly and afraid.

In the end, Xu Jingheng still didn't go in, and dragged his limp legs back to the classroom, lying on the table all night.

The next morning, Silin was the first to come to the classroom. When he saw Xu Jingheng sleeping on the table, his expression was astonished as never before, and his heart was also more disappointed than ever before.

He walked over with indifference, raised his leg and kicked Xu Jingheng's table leg.With a lot of force, Xu Jingheng's desk moved down.

"You sleep here?" Silin's voice was cold, because anger suddenly surged in his heart.

Xu Jingheng was startled awake, his body trembled.He opened his dim eyes, and when he saw who was in front of him, he thought he was still dreaming.

How could Si Lin stand in front of him... Isn't he in City S...

After Xu Jingheng blinked his eyes twice, he closed them again, tilting his head and trying to sleep for a while.

Silin looked at his bewildered expression, and suddenly felt less angry again, and his voice slowed down a lot, "Xu Jingheng, you slept here last night?"

"Ge Yu..." Xu Jingheng murmured unconsciously, and then clicked his mouth twice after murmuring, because he was very hungry and cooed all night.

He raised his head again, raised his hands to soften his eyes that could not be opened, his expression was a little dazed, he pouted and looked at the person in front of him, trying to figure out if he was dreaming, because the person in front of him really looked like Si Lin .

Ge Yu...

Silin knew who Xu Jingheng called, the owner of the table next to him.He glanced at the table, and Xu Jingheng's intimate behavior with that boy yesterday afternoon flooded his mind, and he felt a little bored.

He wanted to yell at Xu Jingheng, but after seeing Xu Jingheng's appearance and expression, he swallowed the words again.

Xu Jingheng sat up straight, his eyes softened and softened, and after softening, he blinked a few times, squinted his eyes and stretched his neck to take a closer look...

It’s over.

Not dreaming.

It's really Silin.

His heart sank gradually, and his cute face just now changed into a cold expression.

Xu Jingheng's expression made Si Lin unhappy, but instead of being angry, Si Lin smiled, "Is that why you don't want to see me?"

Xu Jingheng lowered his head and straightened the table.

He didn't speak, straightened his collar and got up to wash up.

Silin frowned.Xu Jingheng's actions of ignoring him all the time and avoiding him really made him feel depressed and more and more blocked.

He stepped forward to stand in front of Xu Jingheng, "Can't you hear me talking to you?"

"Let's go..." Xu Jingheng lowered his head, not wanting to look at Si Lin's face.

Silin raised his hand to pinch his chin, but he broke free forcefully, "What are you doing?!"

Silin raised the corners of his mouth in disdain, "You've lost your temper, why don't you let me touch you?"

Xu Jingheng rolled his eyes at him, "I still have something to do, can you let me go?"

"What's the matter?"

"Washing up in the dormitory..."

"Why didn't you go back to sleep yesterday?"

"Si Lin..." Xu Jingheng looked up at him, his eyes full of helplessness, "What else do you want? I already... didn't I let you fight for a year last year?"

Silin's eyelashes trembled twice, this incident made him never look up to Xu Jingheng.

When he saw Xu Jingheng at first, he thought it was pretty, and he liked it in his heart.But when I was young, I had a good face, and I didn't want to face my heart, and I didn't want to admit that I liked a boy, so I developed things to the present.

This time it was him who lowered his head, "Xu Jingheng...I...I apologize to you for what happened last year, I apologize..."

Xu Jingheng didn't understand why Si Lin apologized suddenly, he shook his head stiffly, "It's okay...you transferred here?"

"My dad was transferred here, so I followed. It just so happens that my grandma is also here, and I can still accompany her."

"Oh..." Xu Jingheng nodded lightly, he still didn't dare to look at Si Lin, and he was still nervous.

Silin took a step forward and moved closer to him, "Yesterday you said...you want me to pretend I don't know you?"

Xu Jingheng bowed his head in silence, and Silin said again: "You will also pretend that you don't know me?"

Xu Jingheng nodded, and moved his left leg slightly backwards, trying to separate himself from Si Lin.

"Okay." Silin asked him in a soft voice, "Then can we... from now on, get to know each other again?"

Xu Jingheng looked up at him, his eyes full of doubts.

Silin laughed, "Can you forget about those things in the past and get to know each other again?"

He stretched out his hand in front of Xu Jingheng, in a handshake gesture, "Make friends? I just came here, and I'm not familiar with the place where I live. There may be places where I need your help."

Xu Jingheng looked at the hand that pinched his chin, pulled his collar, and squeezed his wrist, and his heart couldn't stop the hairy, his temples throbbed until it hurt.

"is it okay?"

Silin asked him again.

He blinked his eyes in panic, fear and hesitation in his heart.He really thought that Si Lin came here to beat him, so he never expected that Si Lin would say these words.

If Si Lin really just transferred to study, as he said, his father transferred here and he followed him, if this is completely a coincidence...then...does he...do he want to settle down with Si Lin?

Silin saw his hesitation, his expression softened, and his voice softened, "I didn't expect that I would meet you again when I came here. I think...it's fate."

Xu Jingheng couldn't answer him.

Silin moved his hand forward again, "Xu Jingheng, I apologize to you."

Xu Jingheng's Adam's apple rolled, and he glanced to the right subconsciously. That was Tang Geyu's position. Tang Geyu was next to him, right next to him.

He has Tang Geyu, don't be afraid.

Xu Jingheng stretched out his hand cautiously, and before his fingertips touched Si Lin's, Si Lin took his hand and held it in his palm, squeezing frivolously.

Xu Jingheng felt uncomfortable with his actions. He wanted to pull out his hand, but Silin was surprisingly strong and held his hand tightly, not allowing him to pull it away.

Xu Jingheng was puzzled and looked up at Silin.

Si Lin took a step forward again, leaning against Xu Jingheng's body. With his other hand, he went around and patted Xu Jingheng's back twice, and moved his face to Xu Jingheng's ear, and said in a barely audible voice: "Don't be afraid. Now, I really won't bully you again in the future."

"You..." Xu Jingheng was slightly stunned, he didn't know what happened to Silin.

"Ok?"

"What do you want to do?"

Silin put his hand on Xu Jingheng's back, pressed him against his chest, and put his lips next to Xu Jingheng's ear, "I don't do anything. I just haven't seen you for a long time. Let me give you a hug."

"No..." Xu Jingheng didn't like to hug Si Lin, and the smell of Si Lin made his hair stand on end.

Si Lin's hand on Xu Jingheng's back began to slide down, Xu Jingheng's back went numb, he began to struggle, and began to push Silin.

But the more he struggled, the more Silin wanted to hug him tighter, "What are you afraid of, don't be afraid."

"Let go... let go..." Xu Jingheng pushed him and kicked him, "let go!"

Silin was not annoyed when he kicked him, "Be good, go back to the dormitory to sleep tonight? Shall we sleep together?"

Xu Jingheng became emotional, "No!"

Silin patted him on the back reassuringly, "I just want to start over with you and get to know you anew."

"Go away!" Feeling stuffy in his chest and feeling like vomiting, he said two words as if asking for help: "Ge Yu..."

Hearing these two words, Silin narrowed his eyes slightly.This is the second time Xu Jingheng has been called by this name.

He turned his face away to see Xu Jingheng's uncomfortable expression, and said in a cold voice, "Who were you calling just now?"

Xu Jingheng's hand that wasn't held by Si Lin kept pressing on Si Lin's chest, and he grabbed Si Lin's collar tightly, "Let me go!"

Silin asked him with a sullen face, "Why do you keep calling him by his name?!"

Xu Jingheng's eyes were dizzy from the yelling, and Si Lin's face blurred and became clear in front of his eyes.

He wanted to vomit and felt a little sick to his stomach.

Xu Jingheng's hand on Si Lin's collar slowly slid down, and finally fell limply, "Let go..."

"Tell me!" Silin stared at him, "Why did you call him by his name just now? Why were you so close to him yesterday? He... still touched your face..."

Xu Jingheng couldn't keep his eyes open, his stomach became more and more uncomfortable, and he felt more and more nauseous.He raised his hand and gently massaged his abdomen twice, but the stomach pain did not get any relief.

His head was pushed lower and lower, until it almost touched Silin's shoulder.

Silin sneered silently, the expression on his face was more sad than ever, "Is it necessary for you to behave like this in front of me?"

Xu Jingheng twitched his wrist again, this time Silin let go of him, and took off the hand that was attached to his back.

Xu Jingheng twisted his wrist, took two steps back, and ran out from the back door of the classroom clutching his stomach.

He went to the dormitory to wash up. His stomach felt uncomfortable, so he pulled out the box and ate a few bags of snacks.In fact, he wanted to lie down for a while, but at this time, self-study was about to end, so he had no choice but to go back to the classroom.

When I entered the classroom, I looked for Tang Geyu at first glance. After seeing Tang Geyu, I felt a little better.

Tang Geyu kept staring at Xu Jingheng. Xu Jingheng was not in good spirits, and he could tell at a glance.He moved to Xu Jingheng's side, and asked with worried eyes: "What's wrong, okay? Are you uncomfortable?"

"No." Xu Jingheng shook his head.

"I can't seem to keep your eyes open."

"It's okay." Xu Jingheng pushed him, "It's just that I didn't sleep well last night."

"Okay." Tang Geyu was still worried, and put his hand on his forehead, the temperature was normal, "Huh? No fever?"

"I don't have a fever. As I said, I didn't sleep well." Xu Jingheng held Tang Geyu's wrist and took Tang Geyu's hand off his forehead. "Go sit down and recite."

"Oh...but you..."

"I just didn't sleep well, how many times do you want me to tell you?"

Xu Jingheng was a little annoyed, and he also knew that Tang Geyu cared about him with good intentions, but he really didn't want to talk now, and the nausea in his heart hadn't gone away.

Tang Geyu pursed his lips and said obediently, "Then I won't bother you anymore. You should sleep well tonight."

Xu Jingheng asked him suddenly: "Were you not at home last night?"

"Well, sleeping at my uncle's house." Tang Geyu thought for a moment, "How do you know?"

"It's okay, just ask."

Tang Geyu wanted to say something else, but he was afraid that Xu Jingheng would bother him, so he obediently kept his mouth shut.

However, all this was once again seen by Si Lin who was sitting at Xu Jingheng's back table.

Silin held his pen, his eyes filled with frost.

When class was over at noon, Xu Jingheng got up first and took the initiative to drag Tang Geyu to the cafeteria for dinner. After eating, he stuck to Tang Geyu, even following Tang Geyu to the bathroom to smoke.

Fortunately, they were in the third year of high school, and they didn't have much free time. Most of the time was spent in the classroom, and Tang Geyu was also in the classroom, sitting next to him, which made him feel relieved.

After evening self-study, Xu Jingheng began to fidget again.

He didn't want to go back to the dormitory, he wanted to follow Tang Geyu, but he followed Tang Geyu home, wondering if his parents were there.If Tang Geyu went to his uncle's house tonight, it would be even worse for him to follow.

Seeing Tang Geyu go out from the back door, everyone in the classroom went out one by one, leaving only him... and Si Lin at the desk behind him.

Silin stretched out his foot and kicked him on the leg of the chair, "Why, aren't you going to sleep in the dormitory tonight?"

Xu Jingheng grasped the pen in his hand tightly and remained silent.

Si Lin tidied up the table casually, stood up, tapped Xu Jingheng's back with his fingertips, "Do you want to go back together?"

Xu Jingheng's emotions towards Silin had changed from fear to anger.

He felt that Silin was sick.

Definitely sick.For a while, it will be like this, for a while, for a while, I will apologize to myself, and for a while, I will be fierce again.

"I'm talking to you, Xu Jingheng."

Silin tapped him on the back again.

Xu Jingheng still ignored him, closed his book, got up, and walked out silently, and Si Lin followed him.

Smelling the smell of cigarettes on his body, Silin narrowed his eyes, "Did you go to smoke at noon?"

Xu Jingheng did not speak.

"Or are the three of them smoking?"

Xu Jingheng still didn't speak, because he really didn't want to speak, and felt a dull pain in his stomach again.

"Are you going back to the dormitory, or going somewhere else?"

Xu Jingheng didn't speak, and went downstairs silently.

"Are you hungry? My driver's car is at the school gate. If you're hungry, I can take you out to eat."

Xu Jingheng was speechless, unable to understand Si Lin.

Seeing that he was silent all this time, Silin felt a little anxious.

He was afraid that Xu Jingheng was really angry, after all... His purpose in coming here was to coax people well first, and then chase after Xu Jingheng.

He separated from Xu Jingheng for a year, during this year, Xu Jingheng's face would appear in his mind almost every day, and every time he appeared, it would remind him of Xu Jingheng's thoughts.

He admitted that he really liked Xu Jingheng, but their past was really bad, and every memory was unbearable.

However, in its current form, their relationship seemed... worse than before.

Thinking of this, Si Lin bit the bullet and ran forward to grab Xu Jingheng, "Xu Jingheng!"

He roared to turn on several lights in the corridor, and the white light clearly illuminated the indifference on Xu Jingheng's face and the worry on Si Lin's face.

Xu Jingheng didn't resist, he was too tired.

He didn't even look at Silin, too bad.

Silin stood on the stairs below him and looked up at him slightly, "You...I..."

He sighed softly in his heart, let go of his face and said the truth: "Xu Jingheng, actually I turned around because of you."

Xu Jingheng was surprised and looked up at him.

Didn't Silin say that he transferred here because his father was transferred here?

His eyes were full of doubts.