To my dear senior sister

"Is it because of your father?" Wen Lian asked speculatively with burning eyes.

"How do you know?" Gu Xianxi looked at Wen Lian suspiciously upon hearing this.

Wen Lian smiled without saying a word, and shook his head.Thanks to the gossiping nurses in the hospital, if they hadn't been nagging me in my ear all day long...I probably wouldn't have thought of this.

She knew that if this matter was not brought up, when something happened to Gu's father again, Gu Xianxi might choose to leave her for her own good.So she has been waiting for an opportunity, a chance to be frank with Gu Xianxi.

"Why didn't you tell me?" She asked, her throat squirming.If...if we could be honest earlier... maybe they wouldn't have to be separated for so long...

"We were still students at that time, tell you, what can you do? Besides, I can't rely on you all the time..." Gu Xianxi sadly sighed and said: "I will never be able to keep up with your footsteps, and I may still Drag you down, so..."

When Wen Lian mentioned rumors, the hand touching the penicillin suddenly stopped...

Wen Lian's hug after the Level [-] Exam, because she was afraid that people would see them intimate, so she deliberately pushed her away...

The candlelight on the cake concealed the gloom in the eyes, and the eyelashes cast a light shadow on the eyelids. "Once the wish is uttered, it will not work, stupid Wen Lian..." So we...may not be together forever...

Although these things were all signs of Gu Xianxi's decision to break up with Wen Lian step by step at the time, but now, they are not worth mentioning, and Gu Xianxi doesn't want to tell Wen Lian.

Wen Lian took a deep breath, held Gu Xianxi's hand in his palm, and asked sincerely: "Then I am able to help you now, would you like me to help?"

"Huh?" Wen Lian's words brought back Gu Xianxi's thoughts.

Wen Lian repeated what he said just now, then stared into Gu Xianxi's eyes, and said seriously, "Would you like me to help?" He only waited for Gu Xianxi's nod.

She didn't want to repeat the mistakes made seven years ago, and she didn't want Gu Xianxi to leave her again.If Gu Xianxi is willing to give her a chance this time, she will definitely do better than herself in the past.

Even if Gu Xianxi just said that she wanted to see her parents, she dared to bring Gu Xianxi to her parents immediately.Accept it or not, it's just a matter of time.

The eyes stared at each other for a long time, Gu Xianxi could see her persistence through her eyes.

The emotion in my heart cannot be expressed in words. In the blink of an eye, Gu Xianxi could only hug Wen Lian tightly with red eyes and said, "Thank you..."

With a smile on the corner of Wen Lian's mouth, he put his arms around Gu Xianxi's waist and hugged her back.

It would be nice if their relationship ended like this.

But... their lives will not stop here, time is still flowing, and there are still many things waiting for them to face.

Regarding the future relationship between the two, they both tacitly chose not to talk about it.

Gu Xianxi hurt Wen Lian too much before, so he had no face to make any request, as long as he could be by Wen Lian's side.And Wen Lian is because her life and death are uncertain now, and she has other thoughts in her mind.

If she wanted to use her dead self to kidnap her senior for her entire life... She would rather disappear completely in Gu Xianxi's world before she died.

At an angle that Gu Xianxi couldn't see, Wen Lian glanced at her ears from the corner of her eye, with a complicated look in her eyes, and she tightened her arms.

Now she can't do without Gu Xianxi, this kind of relationship is just right.

After the knot is untied, and then arrange everything, if the result is unacceptable to her, she can leave with peace of mind...

After a while, Gu Xianxi let go of Wen Lian, thought about it, looked at Wen Lian with tight lips, and asked, "But...do you have a way to stop my dad from gambling?" She thought Wen Lian could quit his father's gambling Addiction, so doubtful.Even her own daughter can't do anything to him, what can Wen Lian do?

"There's no way." Wen Lian spread his hands, twitched his eyebrows, and said cheerfully, "Honestly...for your father...except for breaking his leg...I really don't know, there is any way to stop it." of……"

Gu Xianxi smiled at her words and didn't care.

"But..." Before Wen Lian could finish his sentence, he pressed Gu Xianxi's palm on his cheek, with determination in his eyes, and said slowly: "I am willing to bear the consequences he brings with you."

He took my money, so he won't separate me and his daughter again.

Gu Xianxi suddenly wanted to cry again, Wen Lian always liked to touch her inadvertently, so she was not at all defensive.

This feeling of being out of control made her both hate and like it.I hate myself who is easily made to cry, and I like to give her the warmth that brings this feeling.

After returning home, Gu Xianxi went into the kitchen to prepare dinner.Wen Lian wanted to help, but was kicked out by her. In desperation, she could only sit in the living room and watch TV.

Holding up the remote control, Wen Lian pouted after browsing several TV stations.The current TV series are really getting more and more boring, and there are hardly many to watch.

She couldn't find a channel to watch, and she was about to put down the remote control when she saw a piece of paper under the glass cup on the table out of the corner of her eye.

Doubts arose in his heart, Wen Lian reached out and pulled the paper out from under the glass.

There is only one sentence in English written on the paper.

"I went to Tibet. When the results come out, let me know and I'll come back to collect your body." On the back is Joyce's flamboyant signature.

No wonder when she entered the door, she always felt that something was missing at home. It turned out that Joyce had left again.Wen Lian was angry and annoyed, and put down the paper dumbfounded.

Joyce loves running legs, she can't control it.Wen Lian was afraid that one day something would happen to her outside, and she didn't know it yet.As long as she goes out, her heart will always be on it.I was afraid that the call I received would come to tell me where Joyce was in the hospital.

Letting her go in her heart, when Wen Lian withdrew her hand, the back of her hand accidentally touched the handle of the fruit knife on the glass fruit plate, and the tip of the knife collided with the edge of the plate, making a clanging sound.

Wen Lian stared at the handle of the knife and held his breath, moved his fingertips over and moved on the handle of the knife.She turned her head to look at the kitchen. Gu Xianxi was concentrating on making soup and would not come out for a short time.

Just in case, she picked up an apple and a knife.Pretending to peel an apple, she took off the scabbard, and the sharp blade appeared in front of her eyes.

The thumb slid along the dividing line between the edge of the blade and the back of the blade.

The possibility of AIDS causing death is very low, but its scary thing is that it will lower the body's immunity and allow various cancer cells and pathogens to breed.

Wen Lian has seen those patients with skin abscesses, ulcers, sarcoma... all kinds of painful and disgusting deaths.

If she is really unlucky, out of the dignity of a doctor, she doesn't want to suffer from various complications and die in pain.

Isn't it a kind of freedom to leave cleanly?

Wen Lian went to a dark corner again.There is no sunshine here, no hope here, and the only thing she can think of is to commit suicide and die with AIDS.

Although the fruit knife is not as sharp as her scalpel, it is still easy to cut a piece of skin.

Holding a fruit knife, she gestured at her left wrist holding the apple, and then turned the tip of the knife to her heart, making a stabbing gesture.

What kind of death method should I choose so that it will not hurt?

No, even if she had to choose a way to die now, she had to choose a cleaner one.

Or pump air into a vein?Wen Lian put down the fruit knife and apple, staring at the veins on his wrist.

Like the first rabbit that died at her hands.Thinking of that sharp cry, Wen Lian would shudder.

That rabbit had left such a deep impact on her that she still remembers it vividly.

"Wen Lian, come over for dinner." Gu Xianxi came out of the kitchen with chicken soup, saw Wen Lian sitting in the living room, not watching TV, and called out.

"Oh." Hearing her voice, Wen Lian calmly put the fruit knife into the scabbard, put it back in its original place, and replied, "Okay."

Wen Lian told Gu Xianxi about Joyce, and Gu Xianxi was as worried about Joyce's safety as she was, but because he was not very familiar with Joyce, he didn't say much.

When it was time to go to bed at night, Wen Lian wanted to get out of the house to sleep on the sofa as usual, but Gu Xianxi hugged her pillow and refused to give it to her.

Gu Xianxi hugged Wen Lian's pillow tightly and curled up at the corner of the bed.In order not to let Wen Lian snatch it away, she even hid the four corners of the pillow.

Wen Lian tried several times to snatch the pillow back, but ended in failure.

With her hands on her hips, she sighed, tilted her head, and asked in a helpless tone, "Tell me, what's the condition?"

Gu Xianxi, with a cunning look of fulfilling his wish, grinned, stuck out his tongue, looked up at Wen Lian and said, "Stay in the room to sleep at night."

Without even thinking about it, Wen Lian rebuffed, "No way!"

Gu Xianxi pouted, and said pitifully: "But winter is coming, and I will be too cold to sleep at night by myself."

"This..." Wen Lian hesitated, remembering what happened when he went out for a walk at dusk.

Seeing that there was something going on, Gu Xianxi immediately threw the pillow, leaned in front of her, held Wen Lian's hand, and begged, "Wen Lian..."

Wen Lian couldn't stand her repeated pleading, and finally agreed with a soft heart.

When lying down, Wen Lian kept thinking about whether it was right or wrong to do so.

His gaze followed Gu Xianxi who was going to turn off the light, watching her press the switch of the fluorescent light, the room darkened instantly.Wen Lian's hand pinching the corner of the pillow refused to let go for a long time.

He opened his eyes wide, trying to find Gu Xianxi's figure in the darkness, but he couldn't see anything.She held her breath and waited for a while, and her ears were keen to hear the slight movement of Gu Xianxi coming to bed.Wen Lian's heart beat violently.

It's better to keep a certain distance, she was thinking, before she had time to act, Gu Xianxi had already held her hand and lay in her arms.A set of movements is done smoothly and smoothly, without hesitation, as if it has been premeditated.

Wen Lian was so startled that his eyes were wider than copper bells, and his brain stopped for half a second.

Gu Xianxi twisted her body, facing Wen Lian.Even though she was in the dark, her eyes were unusually bright, quietly waiting for Wen Lian to speak.

Wen Lian was no match for her, his stiff body relaxed, he pursed his dry lips, wanted to speak but didn't know what to say, so he forced himself to ask, "When are you going to work?"

Gu Xianxi shook his head, still staring into Wen Lian's eyes and said: "No, I'll go after your results come out."

"The day after tomorrow." Wen Lian rolled his eyes around and asked, "What if... what if I'm diagnosed?" She really wanted to know Gu Xianxi's answer.

Gu Xianxi held Wen Lian's hand by his side, and said softly, "Accompany you."

"Then what if I die?" Wen Lian felt a little nervous in his heart, but he didn't dare to show it on his face.If she left, she would be most worried about her parents and Gu Xianxi.

My parents are okay, but I'm afraid that Gu Xianxi will do something stupid...