Can I love you?

Soon, the summer vacation is over, and I am ready to go to school.Day by day, I didn't receive any information about her, but I always missed her, from the slightest in the beginning to the more and more later, the out-of-control thinking, and then to Then deliberately do other things to divert attention.

I thought I could be like before, even if I haven't seen her for a long time, it's okay, I just think about it occasionally, but then I will give up.I thought I could, but reality always slaps me in the face and tells me I can't.I miss her more and more. I didn't know that missing her could last so long and be drawn out so easily.When I see someone posting a picture of Window of the World in my circle of friends, I think of going with her; every time I eat tomato pasta, I pick out the tomato, and I think of her helping me eat the tomato that I don’t like; seeing two good friends When eating the same drink or feeding each other, I will remember that she once fed me something, and she had a flattering look when I didn’t accept it; when I saw someone wearing white canvas shoes, I would think of how I helped her put on her white canvas shoes After drawing a picture, she kissed me happily; when I took the undried underwear to the air blower, I thought she had blown my underwear for me; when I saw the skates, I thought we used to skate together, and I almost killed her as a prank Wrestling; seeing the pendant on the neck will remind her that she said to remember her...

A lot of memories, I didn't know that I could have so many memories in two days, and I didn't know that misses could be seduced by any insignificant thing.I asked myself why I miss her so much, I know the answer, but I don't want to admit that we are sisters!But I thought, since the same sex can accept it, why can't sisters be accepted?When I have this kind of thought, I feel very scared. I laugh at myself thinking that I will be struck by lightning, and I have such a nasty thought.

I suffer alone and dare not tell anyone.They asked me why I was so depressed every day, but I dared not tell, and no one dared to tell.What am I going to say?Am I going to say I'm in love with someone who's my gender and is my cousin?Do I have to say that?Can I say that?To announce to everyone that I'm not only in love with someone of the same gender as me but that that person is my cousin?I can't, if I can really announce it so loudly, why should I be in such pain.I can't love her, let alone tell anyone I love her, not anyone, including her.

It is said that the best way to forget someone is to love someone else, so I did a very stupid thing, very stupid.

There was a boy in the same department and class who was chasing me. The boy in the next class had known me for a semester. He confessed his love to me at the beginning of the semester, but I refused. At that time, I was always thinking about her.The boy in the same department is very handsome, with above-average grades, high ability, good family conditions, and is very kind and generous to his girlfriend. It was at the end of the last semester that I confessed my love. At that time, I never thought about falling in love, and I refused.He looks average, and his family conditions are average, but he has good grades and studies hard. I have never heard of him having a girlfriend, and it is said that he has never dated.

These two were chasing me at the same time, and in November, I accepted.I accepted the boy from the same department, I thought he was a playboy, he should get tired of playing soon, and it would not be so easy to get hurt after breaking up, and two or three months is enough for me to forget her.As for the boy in the same class, I don’t know what his attitude towards love is. I’m afraid I will hurt him. Instead of giving him hope first and then disappointing him, it’s better not to give him hope in the first place, and I don’t want to ruin it. His first love, after all, first love is such a beautiful thing.

I was with the boy from the same department. When I agreed to him, he seemed very happy, smiling like a child, jumping up and down.Seeing him so happy, I suddenly regretted it. I was afraid that he was serious about me. I didn't want to hurt anyone, and I didn't want to hurt anyone.

He treats me very well, he follows me in everything, and takes me out to play from time to time, shopping, eating, watching movies, going to the playground, and meeting his friends.Pulling me to take a lot of photos, from time to time, posting to my circle of friends, and pestering me whenever I have time.Facing all this, I was afraid, I was afraid that he would be sincere, I thought about breaking up with him, but I didn't know how to say it.

Once the two of us stayed together, he took me to take pictures with my mobile phone, his mobile phone fell, the screen was cracked and before he had time to repair it, he took my mobile phone to take pictures, he had been using his own mobile phone.

In the past, taking pictures were very simple group photos, without kissing the face, such intimate actions as love, I thought it would be the same this time, but I didn’t expect that the second I pressed the shutter, he kissed my face .I looked at him in surprise, and he said, this is the first time I've kissed you since we dated for a month.This sentence really blocked me, I don't know how to reply him, yes, we are boyfriend and girlfriend, it's normal for him to kiss me, but why do I feel guilty?Why am I not happy, let alone feeling my heart beating faster?I know because I don't like him.

He said that he wanted to send this photo to Moments as a commemoration, and I agreed, anyway, he had posted a photo with me before, so what’s the point of posting another one, it’s just a little more intimate , Besides, many people know that we are together.I thought of everything, but the only thing I didn't expect was that he said that he wanted to post to Moments by using my WeChat on my mobile phone.

"What are you doing? Didn't you say you want to post to Moments? Why are you still pressing my phone? Is it finished?" I calmed down in the toilet before coming out. When I came out, I saw that he was still fiddling with my phone and asked him.

"Send it to Moments." He said it as a matter of course, and before I could react, he said again, "Okay, it's sent."

"Did you use my mobile phone to post on Moments?" Hearing what he said, I immediately took back my mobile phone. What should I do if she sees it? My first reaction is not what to do when my parents see it, but what to do when she sees it.

Sure enough, he really took my mobile phone and sent that photo, without words, but with a loving emoji, anyone with a discerning eye will know what's going on at a glance.

"How can you play with my phone casually?" I questioned him, very angry and really angry, what if she sees it.Hastily pressed delete, only posted for 1 minute, she probably didn't see it, I hope she didn't see it, she shouldn't see it, no.Although I knew it wouldn't matter if she saw it, I still instinctively didn't want her to see it.

"I just asked if you could post it on Moments." He explained.

"I mean you can post it in your circle of friends, but it doesn't mean you can post it in my circle of friends." I said angrily.

"We have been together for more than a month. You have never posted anything about my circle of friends. You are so angry when I post one. Linlin, do you really like me?" He said to me aggrieved.

"These are two different things. You shouldn't play with my mobile phone without my consent, and use my mobile phone to post on Moments." I avoided the important point and said lightly.

"I'm sorry, it was my mistake. I won't do it again." He obeyed. He should be very wronged and sad. I'm really a bad girl. I used him from the beginning, used him to Forget the person in my heart, he doesn't know anything, he just treats me well, but I'm using him.

"Forget it, let's go back." I turned and left the coffee shop, and he followed me, as if he hadn't recovered from his sadness, I should have hurt him.

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ah! ! !Linlin has a boyfriend!Linlin was kissed!Where's Zoe?Where is Zoe?Still not coming back to snatch people?