Can I love you?

I walked into the room and picked up the mobile phone that I had ignored for a long time. The caller ID on the screen made my heart tremble, and the mobile phone almost fell to the ground.It's her, the one I miss and can't get close to.I told myself not to panic, it’s okay, she doesn’t know anything, she doesn’t know anything about my almost perverted dirty thoughts, she doesn’t know anything, so I just need to behave normally.

I slid the answer button tremblingly, and pretended to be very calm and gave a hello.

"Linlin, it's me, sister." Her voice came from the other end of the phone faintly and coldly. It was the first time she spoke to me in such a voice, which made me very scared. Did she know something? What, but, how would she know?

"Well, I know, what's the matter?" I asked her pretending to be calm, but my heart was in a mess, tears rolled in my eyes, God knows, how much I miss her, how much I miss her voice, how much I miss her. Every move, every frown and smile.

"I'm at the gate of your school, you come out."

"Where did you say you were?" Isn't she in England?Why is she here?I must have heard wrong.

"I'm at the gate of your school." She repeated patiently.I panicked even more, why is she here?Why did she come back so well?Is she on vacation?How am I going to face her later... I was thinking wildly.

"Come down, I'll wait for you here." After not hearing my reply for a long time, she spoke to herself.

"Oh, okay, wait for me to get off, I'll change my clothes." Almost without hesitation, I changed my clothes in a hurry and ran to the school gate.My mind is blank, I don't know why she came back suddenly, why she knows where my school is, and I don't know what to say when I see her.When I went to see her last time, I was worried, but now I am nervous when I go to see her, and I miss her deeply with a little resistance, especially contradictory and complicated mood.

"Linlin, where are you going in such a hurry?" When I was about to reach the school gate, I saw the back of that person. good.So I didn't notice that my "boyfriend" was less than two meters in front of me. He stopped me and asked me where I was going. I was a little anxious and didn't want to talk to him, but I was still patient.

"I, my sister is here. I'm going to meet her at the school gate." I was a little impatient, and wanted to leave after speaking hastily.

"Your sister? Show me to meet, I haven't seen your family yet." He said enthusiastically, compared to his happy look, I was a little confused, for some reason, I just didn't want the two of them to meet .

"Eh... next time, this time we have something to do, I'll go first." Before he could say anything else, he rushed towards that person, the person he had been thinking about for so long.

When I was about five meters away from her, I slowed down my pace and walked towards her step by step.She wore a large khaki coat, black cotton trousers, and short boots, which made her feel very airy and comfortable.She looked at me in place, watching me step by step towards her.As I got closer, she opened her arms, waiting for my hug.Without hesitation, I hugged her, tears rolled in my eyes, I closed my eyes, not wanting others to see, not wanting tears to flow out.

She hugged me tightly, her hug was so warm in this cold winter, she said, I miss you so much.I miss you so much, I miss you so much, I miss you a hundred times, a thousand times, ten thousand times more than you miss me.I said silently in my heart, not daring to tell her, so I could only hold her tighter.After hearing the words she missed, the tears that had been under control couldn't help the tip of the nose sore, and the tears swirled in the eye sockets again.Wronged, I don’t know why I feel so wronged, maybe it’s because she hasn’t contacted me for half a year, maybe it’s because of the dream last night, maybe it’s love but I can’t say it, I can only bury it deep in my heart.But those things are suddenly not so important at this moment, at this moment only this warm embrace is the most important and the most secure.I buried my head in her neck, her silky hair intertwined with mine.Every breath is filled with her faint fragrance, not the fragrance of perfume, but body fragrance, exclusive to her body fragrance.I really want it to be like this, I hope that time will stop here, always stop here, we keep this posture, keep this warmth.

She let go of me, straightened my hair, which was messy from running, and asked me if I had eaten.Her movements are so gentle and her voice is so beautiful, I can't help but indulge in this tenderness.I didn't dare to make a sound, I was afraid that my voice would betray my uncontrollable emotions, so I could only shake my head.

"I'll take you to dinner." She pinched my face, and I nodded in agreement, in such a gentle way, I guess I would nod in agreement if she asked me to jump off a building.

"It's more difficult to take a taxi here. Let's take the bus and then take a taxi." She said while pulling me to the bus station.She was right, it was difficult to get a taxi from the school, so we had to take the bus, but the bus knew that the nearby subway station couldn't reach the city, so we had to change transportation.Just how did she know?

At this time, there are many people on the bus, and the seats are long gone.We were squeezed into a corner, and she stood facing me, with her hands on both sides of my body, in the posture of a hen guarding a chick, she is a hen, and I am a chick, although I have grown up A little bit taller than her~ I laughed out loud when I thought about it, I don't know how such a romantic and ambiguous action would be thought of like this by me.After laughing, he felt bad again, so he glanced at her secretly, just in time to bump into her slightly puzzled eyes.

"What are you laughing at?" She whispered in my ear, itching, making me shrink my neck unconsciously, feeling the goose skin on my neck come out.

"Itchy." I dodged to explain.

"Then tell me why you are laughing." She continued to post, it was really itchy, I shrank my head again, my face suddenly became hot, why are you so close~

"Nothing." Can I tell her I think of her as a hen?cannot!

"Don't say it?" She blew on my neck, and the goose skin that had just disappeared rose up again in an instant, and my face felt hotter, oh my god, please~ stop it!You monster!

"It feels like you look like a hen guarding the chicks." I was tortured by her and had no choice but to confess honestly.

"Huh? Hen? Then you are a chick?" She pulled back a little and asked me with her neck tilted.The moment she withdrew, I was a little disappointed, yes, disappointed.I want to get closer to her.When I discovered this idea, I was suddenly scared.How can I think this way, if one day she finds out that I like her, then she must think I am disgusting and perverted, and then she will hate me and ignore me, always hate me, never ignore me, just like Same as that dream.

"Yeah." I answered her pretending to be calm, but my heart was already in a mess. I calmed down, controlled my desire to get close to her, and kept warning myself that if I didn't want her to hate me and ignore me in the future, Stay away from her now, and stay away from her.

"But I think this is very romantic. Don't you think it's like a boyfriend protecting a girlfriend?" She smiled softly, looking at me with watery eyes.

"I don't think so, you think too much." I replied pretending to be indifferent, turned my head and looked away, not looking into her eyes, I can no longer be immersed in her tenderness, I can't help but be attracted by her.Boy friend?girlfriend?How ironic, we'll never be a couple, ever.How cruel this cognition is to me, how heartbreaking it is, the feeling of loving but not being able to love but not being able to, who knows.

The atmosphere became a little awkward after I said that sentence indifferently, and the previous ambiguous atmosphere completely disappeared.I suddenly felt a little regretful, I shouldn’t have said that, it’s obviously my fault, it’s obviously my taboo to fall in love with her, it’s obviously my fault, but she’s always the one who gets hurt, I keep freezing her and attacking her , to widen the distance between us, but she has been gentle to me, tolerate me, no matter what I do.I suddenly hated her tenderness and tolerance. If she stopped tolerating me and turned around and left, would we all feel better?

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Zoe is finally back!But how can it be broken if it is frozen?