Blooming legacy

After Hao Lei left, I felt tired. I thought it was because I was tired. I hugged myself on the pillow and looked at the floor blankly. I never wanted others to know that I was alone. A big hole can’t be filled no matter how hard it is. It’s not like being alive when the heart doesn’t hurt. Only when it hurts can I feel life. God will punish me and enjoy passion in pain.No matter what lonely posture, I don't want to pretend to be strong to hide my sadness, I really want to cry.The skirt of the chest was wet, and the coolness penetrated through the clothes to the heart.Xie Chi stood by the door and looked at me for a long time without moving or speaking.

"You said, I died, how many people attended my funeral?" I broke the tranquility, but this question made the tranquility even more tranquil.After waiting for a long time, Xie Chi remained silent. "I don't have many friends. I always went to the hospital since I was a child. I don't think anyone knows me. When I was in primary school, I was hospitalized once. When I came back to the class, a classmate asked me what my name was. I said my name was Du Ruo. He said, I don’t know you, you’re a new transfer? I said, um, I’m a new transfer.” He held the door latch tightly and slowly turned his back to me. "I'm not vain. I don't need too many people to attend my funeral. However, flowers must always be placed in front of my tombstone to let me know that I am not alone...in a forgotten corner."

"Du Ruo! Stop talking!" He suddenly became hysterical and rushed to me and hugged me tightly.Originally, I hugged myself to keep warm, but with the addition of a pair of strong arms, I suddenly became much warmer.I buried my head on his shoulder, smelling the subtle fragrance behind his ears, let me hug, just hug like this, let me remember, always remember, I once had such warmth. "Du Ruo! Du Ruo...Du Ruo..." Xie Chi kept calling my name like that until my ears became callused.

"Say what you want to say, I'm so long-winded!" I couldn't stand him.

"Why do you say your name is Du Ruo? What does Du Ruo mean?" Halo, so he is studying my name?

"Oh! I'm not too sure. It seems to be a kind of traditional Chinese medicine, and some say it's a kind of vanilla. Hmm..."

"So, what's the moral?"

"It seems to be independent, fragrant, and clean."

"Du Ruo...what does Du Ruo look like?" Huh?Am I right in front of you?

"Huh? You mean flowers?"

"Could it be you? I don't have eyes?"

"Oh! Long stems and thick leaves, elegant and slender, the flowers bloom like butterflies, the colors are like clouds, as clear as jade, soft and elegant..."

"Hehe...does this mean flowers, or you?"

"Of course it's a flower!"

"Du Ruo has a strong personality. It blooms brilliantly overnight and withers quietly the next day. It has a warm and unrestrained fragrance, which is fragrant and sad. If you sniff carefully, a touch of bitterness lingers in your nose. It is so beautiful. It looks strong, but it is actually weak. It blooms too Too strong, although the branches and leaves are strong, but the petals are fragile, once they bloom at full strength, they are doomed to failure. It is not a durable flower. It is not durable... Who gave me the name at the beginning, hehe... It is really good. I... ..."

"Du Ruo! With me here, you won't be alone!" He leaned over and kissed my forehead lightly.Are you pitying me or caring for me?I don't know, I can't grasp this person's heart, he is like a misty cloud, wandering around everywhere, no one can live in his heart, right?

I broke free from his embrace, not wanting to get used to the warmth, because I knew that one day, everyone would leave me.I'm not the best choice for other people, and I suspect there's an air of resistance about me.If not, why did my parents leave me?In fact, I don't want my life to be so gorgeous, just like Du Ruohua, who is enchanting and fragrant, but blooms out of the crowd and is extremely lonely.I would rather choose a mediocre life in order to have a happy member.But God gave me a handicap, I don't know how to take a hard step to get closer to happiness.

"Go away! I want to be alone!" I don't want his comfort, his embrace, or his warmth.It doesn't matter if you say I'm a rock or leave me alone, just get used to it.

"Du Ruo! Hehe...Okay! I'm leaving, don't miss me!" Before leaving, he kissed my forehead again.not good!He has repeated this action many times today, if he continues in the future, I will definitely fall into this abyss of tenderness.

"Don't kiss me in the future! I'm not used to it!"

"If you kiss more in the future, you will naturally get used to it! Hehe..."

"I don't want to get used to it! You go!"

"I have to make you get used to it!" After that, it happened again.I reached out to push him, but was pulled into his arms.I can't resist anything now, I'm powerless. "Be obedient and obedient, otherwise you are the one who suffers! You are more fragile and cuter. I like it. I like to hold your hand and you don't resist. I like to hug you and you grab my clothes. I like to kiss you with your proud head bowed. I like your tears, your loneliness, being gentle with you, comforting you, and... teasing you! Hehe... Of course, maybe I will like to bully you in the future!" With a wicked smile, "I'll go Yes! Classmate Du Ruo! Take good care of yourself!" I watched him walk out of the room, accompanied by my flustered heartbeat.

When Xie Chi came the next day, his face was painted.He had a fight with Hao Lei, and there was really nothing he could do about the two brothers.Xie Chi said that it was Hao Lei who made the move first, and Hao Lei was too drunk, so he also fought back, saying that he was to let Hao Lei sober up.He also said that Hao Lei wanted my father to come and see me.I said no.I'm afraid, not a feeling of hatred, but fear.Afraid to see his vicissitudes of the face, afraid of him calling my name, afraid of his touch, afraid of his smile, afraid of all kinds of things he brings.Although I haven't met yet, I have imagined countless scenes of meeting in my mind, and every time it makes me palpitate.Since you gave up on me back then, why did you provoke me now?

"Hehe... I'm just like you, Du Ruo! When I knew my mother chose Hao Lei instead of me, I..."

"Do you hate her? Hate that she didn't choose you!"

"I have been hating until I met you! Do you know? In your eyes, I have never seen hatred, there are only moments of fear, loneliness, doubts, sadness, and I have never seen you really happy, other It is as calm as a lake. In fact, I have been paying attention to you for a long time. When I was a freshman, I saw Hao Lei was with you all day long. I felt at ease when I looked at you from a distance. But I am not reconciled. Hao Lei can be with you , why can I only look at you from a distance?" He spoke so seriously that I didn't want to interrupt. "The basketball game was requested by me and the Minister of Sports. It was originally decided by lottery with you Bambi. We played tricks just to meet you, say a few words to you, and make you notice me. I I feel like God has given up on me, but when I meet you, I feel like I have everything, and you are the best gift God has given me."

"Xie Chi..."

"That day I saw that your complexion was not right, so I chased you upstairs and saw that your lips were purple. Later, I found out that you had a heart attack. On the way to send you to the hospital, my heart was beating wildly. I just got the baby, so I want to go back? I am afraid, I am afraid of losing you. I have been hiding my emotions, and I don’t want others to know my thoughts, but Du Ruo! I want to be honest with you, and I only want to be with you Frankly, I hope you can redeem me." He hugged me gently, as if holding something fragile, and then kissed my forehead.

"Why do you always kiss my forehead?!" I was very angry, angry that he always took action without asking me if I wanted to.

"Oh? You don't want me to kiss your forehead?"

"Yes! I don't want to!"

"Oh! Then where do you want me to kiss you?" What?Thanks Chi!

"You... um... you... um... you let go... um..." Why?I love this sudden kiss.Because I've been hungry for too long?still me……

"Hehe... To be honest, you don't hate this feeling, do you?" Are you satisfied?

"No, I hate this feeling very much, I hate it so much that I can't hate it anymore!"

"Oh? I thought you were enjoying it? Then why don't you push me away?"

"Do I have the strength to push you away? Did you hear me when I said let go?!"

"Let go of it? I didn't hear it! Hehe...I'm too involved!"

"You..." Speechless.

"Du Ruo! Don't be angry, how about I kiss you to ask for your permission in the future? But if I want to ask for your permission, can I still do it? Hehe... So it's better not to ask for your permission!" Rascal, quite . "Don't talk? Is it a default? Good! Thank you, Du Ruo! I'll bring you delicious food tomorrow! Haha..."

"What's delicious?" I'm too lazy to argue with you, because I like your bright smile, it is the most heart-warming thing in this cold season.

"Hey... It seems that my charm is not as great as food! But I know one thing, it is very delicious!"

"What? Your mother made it?"

"Why did my mother do it? If I did it, it would be a bad thing, hehe...this thing...it's you!"

"What? You..." I was speechless again.

"Hehe... I just like your expression. You can't do anything about me, can you? I just want you to do nothing about me, so that I can control the development of things." Really?Do you think you can control it?What you think is too simple, can you let me have a healthy body?Will it allow me to live as long as I wished?Thanks Chi!When you are happy, maybe I am no longer there, but when I am happy, it is because of you.After all, I still need some warmth, even if it is a self-righteous memorial in the future.