You are the sunny scenery in my heart

"Where are you?"

Zhou Ran called me on Xin Jing's phone, which caught me by surprise.

"Are you still taking revenge on me? Come back, let me admit defeat to you, okay?"

I was still silent, but anger could be faintly heard from Zhou Ran's tone.It's an emotion I've experienced too, and I know full well that the brief burst of anger is followed by lingering remorse.Deep guilt overwhelmed him for a long time. He had no oars or sails, so he could only sink to the bottom of the sea in aggrieved condition.In the end, it can only float out of the water again because of the weight of no thoughts.Then he fell into the sea of ​​people in embarrassment, and since then he has been invisible in the market and has nothing to do with it.

That's how I came here.

At this moment of holding the phone, the past is vivid in my mind.

Gently press the "end call" button, thousands of miles away, maybe Zhou Ran will be even more angry at my cruelty, only I know that the two of us have just reached another period, obviously already dull like a glass of wine Plain boiled water, but intends to feed two fish that are diligently chasing their dreams.

One desires glory and applause in its place, the other longs for freedom and tranquility.How can two fish with dreams be willing to be bound in a fish tank the size of a water bowl?They are still in love, and love will not fade away because of time and space. Love surpasses all kinds of fine and dense networks woven by human beings for a lifetime. In a quiet place, love hides there quietly expecting to be awakened again.

I came to a heavy city, I don't know what kind of situation I will have here, and I don't know who I will meet here.What I have is full of energy, I want to pursue my own things, and I want to live a different life.

So I shuttled through this increasingly familiar city, breathing the smog that might not be a good thing for me, and eating the unkind bread that I didn't like to eat and couldn't do anything about it.As a newcomer, I expected to live a life of vicissitudes.

However, I did not expect to meet You Fan. I was working nightly at this 24-hour Chinese restaurant. When I took the menu to order for him, I found him reading a book I wrote.It is not difficult to see your own kind in a strange city.Go into any gay-themed bar and you'll meet a bunch of them.But this time is different, this time there is no deliberate encounter.

"What do you think of the writing?"

"That's right, it was recommended by a friend." He hastily turned off the phone screen.

"Do you think An Yu and Zhou Sheng will be together again at the end?"

He looked at me in amazement, although the two strangers were both lonely individuals in this city, there might be countless people around them, but none of them could dig their hearts out.At this time, it is natural to feel that it is too late to meet each other.

He waits until I get off work.

"Are you really with a man named Zhou Sheng?"

I smiled and shook my head, "That's just my wishful thinking."

You Fan is also a little famous person, he is a lyricist, he shuttles between singers who are not popular, and his seemingly glamorous status complains to me: "You are not forced to do one thing. You don’t know what racking your brains is.”

The lights in this city are very prosperous, much more prosperous than City C, but the atmosphere is also very depressing, making people feel that every minute is heavy and they are reluctant to waste it.So the tryst, which could have been very romantic, became hasty under the interruption of dazzling neon lights.Fortunately, there are two people with a heartbeat.

The two of them were drunk that night, and they both felt sorry for their underappreciated talents, and there was nowhere to scatter their blood.

you are necessary far fetched

Are you willing to step on Xia Ye's sound injury

you're going to be so angry

but was fettered to wander in the secular world

He sang softly next to my ear, but the magnetic voice poured into my heart directly along nowhere. I even felt that the person he said that made him feel far-fetched was me.There is no hidden emotion in his singing that he thought was still not vivid enough.

Suddenly, an almost crazy thought popped up in my heart: I want to follow him, wander with him, step on Xia Ye's hurt voice with him, and break free from the shackles together.And at that moment, I felt that my past was as dry as a pile of sand. In the past, no matter who was by my side, no matter who I fell in love with, it seemed that I was piled up like sand.

This kind of indulgence that I have never experienced before, the feeling of responding to the most sincere call in my heart.

Quit my job at a Chinese restaurant, thankful it gave me someone to cherish.

You Fan has his own CD store, but it has always been empty.I suggested to him that he might as well set aside half of the space for me and open a bookstore.You Fan's eyes lit up, so the two of them spent an afternoon transforming it into stores in two regions, with his CDs on one side and my carefully selected books on the other side.

Some people say that love can make a person stupid.I don't think so, a person who is in love will only become smarter, and their so-called stupidity is a state of selflessness and lack of good self-sufficiency.

Occasionally, You Fan would appear in the store, sitting beside me in a daze, or looking outside.

Occasionally I would appear on his bed, and the two of them rose from the ground to the sky, turned over and over again, and then slowly fell down.

Don't even want to stop shamefully.

You Fan said that he wanted to go on a solo trip to feel the nature and inspire himself to return to the original creative inspiration.

There is no reason to be disrespectful. Give him your own money as an emergency. At the beginning, he refused, "Aren't you afraid that if I get involved with your money, your money will disappear?"

"Your store is in my hands, and you are in my hands. What am I afraid of?"

He smiled and left a hickey on my forehead.He should be serious. I think he has already sold his CD at a discount a few days ago. It can be said that he spent a lot of money for this trip.But how can the thoughts of artists be understood by ordinary people like us?It makes sense to do crazy things once in a while.

The night before You Fan left, I slept in his arms, and he put his nose in the middle of my hair with peace of mind.

"Anji, you are too kind."

"what?"

"I said that you are so kind that people can't bear to hurt you."

"Tricking."

"What I said is true. In this world, no one should be worthy of liking you."

I was taken aback. I seemed to have heard this sentence from Gao Ze. At that time, I thought it was Gao Ze’s perfunctory sentence when I asked a question out of the blue. Now it is said by a lyricist like You Fan. , I really felt the weight of this sentence.

I suddenly hoped that he would not leave, or could take me with me. I knew that if I begged, he would agree, but wouldn't that disappoint my sacred image in his heart?

I fell asleep peacefully and had a dream.After meeting him, I often dreamed that there were two roses in the dream, staying close to each other.