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He Tianxi quarreled with Xing Congjing in mid-to-late July, packed up his things and went on vacation with others in early August, and returned to Crane City in mid-to-late August.

For a whole month, going back and forth, everything changed.

He didn't dare to go back to his home until the middle and late October. He bought the house when he was 25 years old. After graduating from college, he had nothing to do, and his good friends were all in Crane City, so he came back.

At that time, Xing Congjing had already been admitted as a civil servant and was working in a small county town two hours away from Hecheng. Her daily life was very busy, and she would go back to Hecheng on weekends.

In fact, if you want to count strictly, Xing Congjing didn't spend too much time there, and Xing Congjing didn't spend much time in any place.

After the age of 13, Xing Congjing lived in his house, and when Xing Congjing graduated from high school, he moved out of his house very decisively.Xing Congjing studied at the University in Hecheng, and it is not even an hour away from He Tianxi's house by taxi, but he never comes back, and he will not come back during the holidays.

He Tianxi called Xing Congjing after he entered high school and asked him if he was busy.

Xing Congjing said he was busy, but He Tianxi complained unhappily: "No matter how busy you are, you won't have no time, right? Our family has raised you for so many years, shouldn't you come to visit during the holidays?"

After the phone call, the boss told his family unhappy that Xing Congjing was too supercilious. He had been raising him for so many years, and he left without coming back to take a look.

When He Tianxi was in his teens, he was squeamish and couldn't speak well, although this habit seemed to get worse after he became an adult.But when he was more than ten years old, he felt that he could speak like this, and there was no problem. His family, his interpersonal relationship and everything around him gave him the right and confidence to speak like this.

Although the habit of speaking with teeth and claws after adulthood has been extended to his teenagers, if he has to be distinguished, Xing Congjing's mocking words to describe him are-"Strong on the outside but dry on the inside, embroidered pillows".

In the days that followed, the more he barked his teeth and claws, the more Xing Congjing could see his sternness, and he would look at him sarcastically like a clown: "Is that enough?"

He Tianxi can always squeeze out 100 million reasons from all the memory gaps to prove that "Xing Congjing hates herself".

Maybe Xing Congjing's impression of himself was "He Tianxi hates himself" until the last second before his death.

Sister Jialin said "like", He Tianxi didn't know what kind of facts to find to prove Xing Congjing's false conception of "like herself".

If Xing Congjing liked her when she was a teenager, she wouldn't call him and ask him if he would go home after she went to college and answer herself, "That's your home, not mine, figure it out".

Wouldn't he lower his face and ask him secretly: "If you don't come back, you won't come back, you can't even come and see me?" I miss you, don't you miss me?

He replied, "What's so good about you? You have two eyes, a nose and a mouth. There are a lot of people like you on the street."

He Tianxi's biggest worry in his teens was lack of freedom. Before he met Xing Congjing and left Xing Congjing as an adult, Xing Congjing became his huge worry, became a wall he would bump into every time, and became him. Every gnashing of teeth after hanging up the phone turned into the colorful world in his kaleidoscope, everything he didn't know, and a trap that he would fall into if he took a step forward.

He Tianxi sent messages to Xing Congjing during Chinese New Year - "Happy New Year", "Happy Lantern Festival", "Happy Dragon Boat Festival", "Happy Mid-Autumn Festival", "Happy National Day", "Although there is no festival but happy" .

Xing Congjing would answer him "happy", "happy", "happy", many "happy".

No one knew that this period of time turned out to be the last period of warmth and peace between him and Xing Congjing.

This is probably also the period of time when I can most tend to get close to what Sister Jialin calls "like".

In the future, there will be no connection with such words.

In He Tianxi's memory, the last time the two of them met was probably when he was 17 years old during a vacation. He took a taxi to Xing Congjing's university to play with Xing Congjing. That's it, I don't want any friends from the past."

Xing Congjing received him at the school gate, stared at him for a while, and finally shrugged: "It's good to know."

He Tianxi pounded Xing Congjing's shoulder with his fist, saying no, saying that Xing Congjing was pretending to be aggressive again, and pressed Xing Congjing's shoulder to ask him to invite him to dinner.

What Xing Congjing invited him to eat was ten yuan a bowl of Lanzhou ramen, and there was not much meat in it.

When He Tianxi ate it, he complained about Xing Congjing, saying that he said he was picky, and he came all the way to find him, but he only invited himself to eat this stuff, which is boring.

Xing Congjing didn't refute, and nodded in response: "It's really poor."

He Tianxi didn't eat two bites of noodles, grabbed Xing Congjing and took a taxi to a nearby shopping mall. He hummed arrogantly in the crowded shopping mall hall: "Xing Congjing, call Dad, which one is here?" If you want to eat in a restaurant, Dad will take you there."

Of course it was impossible for Xing Congjing to call He Tianxi "Dad". He stared at He Tianxi with an unpredictable expression for a while, and then spit out the word "idiot".

There are no good times to recall after that.

A few days before his birthday, he called Xing Congjing and asked him to come to his birthday party.

Xing Congjing replied, "I'm busy, I don't have time."

He Tianxi said: "Brother please, my mother invited the band she knew before to play, there are all kinds of people. A while ago, sister Jialin was not chasing stars. That little star might come. Have you ever seen a star? , don't you want to meet?"

Xing Congjing asked him back: "There are so many people on your birthday and you still need me? Is it because I am full?"

He Tianxi said: "My mother is even planning to invite the barber who often cuts my hair near the school. Why don't you come? Are you not giving me face?"

Xing Congjing laughed at him: "How much is your face worth?"

He Tianxi said: "Our family has raised you for so many years, and you don't come to my birthday, are you a white-eyed wolf?"

Many times afterwards, He Tianxi would think, Do you think I'm a cheap person? Xing Congjing doesn't want to come to her birthday party, doesn't want to celebrate her birthday, and she still wastes so much talking to make him come, if he doesn't come, he won't come , is not a big deal.

He Tianxi would think many times afterwards that Xing Congjing should not be allowed to come.

If Xing Congjing hadn't come, the two of them would have been childhood playmates at most, and their relationship had gradually faded as they grew up. After many, many years, they accidentally ran into each other, and at least they could nod at each other and say "Long time no see". "Relationship.

They will not torture each other as they did for so many years later, wishing each other to die quickly in anger and resentment.

He Tianxi shouldn't have made that call.

Then Xing Congjing wouldn't tell him something he didn't want to know because of this sudden unhappiness.

He Tianxi was not very happy to see Xing Congjing that night. He felt that Xing Congjing was taking Joe and pretending to be aggressive. own room.

Xing Congjing opened his door loudly half an hour later, locked the door behind him, and then walked in.

He Tianxi was lying on the bed playing with his mobile phone and chatting with his friends. He glanced at him and laughed at Xing Congjing: "Isn't it that you won't come even if you are killed, why are you here again?"

Xing Congjing walked to his bed and sat on the carpet beside his bed, her voice was very calm: "Your mother said that it was his baby son's birthday and wanted me to be there, let me come."

He Tianxi pulled his face, feeling a little ashamed, like a primary school student who was caught secretly complaining to the teacher, and he said in a stern voice: "Fart, I didn't tell my mother whether you love it or not."

Xing Congjing's fingers tapped lightly on the edge of his bed for a while, with obvious irritability.

He Tianxi said: "Whether you like to come or not, anyway, I didn't attend your birthday, it seems so amazing."

Xing Congjing laughed mockingly: "Not everyone will celebrate his birthday so grandly, young master."

He Tianxi said, "That's none of my business?"

Xing Congjing said: "I don't have a fucking birthday at all."

He Tianxi choked on a single word in his throat, and for a while asked back a little unreasonably, "So what?"

Xing Congjing tapped the edge of his bed with two fingers, looked at He Tianxi, and said with a bit of meanness and sarcasm as usual: "You are probably the only person in this world who would wish me a happy birthday. "

He Tianxi was taken aback when he heard the words. His emotions came and went very quickly, and he was immediately taken away by Xing Congjing's words. He asked: "Then you don't have any friends? Don't your friends wish you a happy birthday? After that, I will talk to you." Sister Jialin..." He originally wanted to say that both he and Sister Jialin could help him organize his birthday in the future.

Xing Congjing very quickly interrupted what he was about to say next, and he half-sneered, half-smiled: "Children who haven't even grown hair will do these fancy things all day long."

He Tianxi closed his mouth, swallowed the last half of the sentence, and cursed: "Are you a fucking idiot?" He felt that Xing Congjing simply didn't know what was good and what was wrong, and was no joke.

Xing Congjing said, his tone was calm, as if he was talking about other people's affairs: "Do you not know what's going on with me?"

He Tianxi thought about it silently, he knew that all members of Xing Congjing's family had passed away.

Xing Congjing continued: "When I was 12, everyone in my family died, you know? When I was 13, I lived in a distant relative's house that I hadn't seen twice, and then my parents took me to live with you. "

He Tianxi paused for a while, trying to comfort: "It's all over."

Xing Congjing looked at He Tianxi, and even smiled at him: "Do you know why your parents took me to your house?"

He Tianxi stared into Xing Congjing's eyes seriously, and he asked, "Why?"

Xing Congjing stared at him for a long time, and the two of them stared at each other in this room for a long time in silence. I laughed again after talking about a topic: "Oh, it's nothing. My family bought a new house when I was 12 years old. The whole family was in the house. I had an argument with my family and ran away from home. Then the six-story new house collapsed. The whole family is buried below."

"..." He Tianxi was stunned for a long time, unable to utter a word of comfort for a long while, he sat up, reached out and patted Xing Congjing's shoulder.

Xing Congjing grabbed his hand, rubbed it back and forth in the palm of his hand for a while, then raised his eyes to look at He Tianxi: "The house developer is Tianyi Group."

He Tianxi swished his hand out of Xing Congjing's, and his voice began to stammer: "It's not my parents' fault, they are not responsible for building the house."

Xing Congjing looked at He Tianxi with his half-smile and mocking eyes.

"This is not the fault of a single person, nor is it the fault of a single department, and this kind of thing has been done for so many years, and compensation measures must have been taken."

Xing Congjing looked at He Tianxi with an unchanged expression: "I didn't say anything, who are you rushing to defend?"

He Tianxi took a deep breath: "Besides, my parents brought you to my house. They have raised you for so many years, so they can be regarded as compensation for you."

Xing Congjing's expression turned cold.

He Tianxi opened his eyes wide and looked at Xing Congjing, with some disbelief in his voice: "Do you hate my parents?"

Xing Congjing didn't reply.

He Tianxi was struggling to explain: "If you want to hate them, you can't hate a specific person. What you should hate is the opening of the house, the construction unit, the design unit, and the supervision unit. If you feel that the follow-up treatment does not satisfy you, you also Blame your local authorities. This is not the fault of any one individual."

Xing Congjing reached out and grabbed He Tianxi's wrist, and squeezed He Tianxi's wrist with his fingers, until He Tianxi gasped, He Tianxi was a little powerless and incomprehensible: "Then what do you think should be done about this matter? "

Xing Congjing said: "I just think you don't always come to me, don't always stick to me, don't always learn from me, don't call me on your birthday and say, 'Look, Xing Congjing You idiot who has no father, no mother, no family, come and watch my happy life now'."

He Tianxi raised his voice: "I've never expressed it that way!"

Xing Congjing let go of He Tianxi's palm holding He Tianxi's wrist, and tapped his fingers lightly on He Tianxi's arm, and when he touched He Tianxi's arm, layers of goosebumps appeared.

Xing Congjing raised her eyes to look at He Tianxi who was sitting on the bed: "You know, I'm a scumbag. And one of the things a scumbag can do best is to bully the weak and fear the hard, bully the good and fear the evil."

"..." He Tianxi's eyes widened, and for a moment he couldn't understand what Xing Congjing said.

"I can't do anything about everyone you mentioned, and I can't do anything about your parents. Since you cling to me so tightly, I can't seem to find anyone else except you, can I?"

He Tianxi raised his foot and wanted to kick him: "You must be fucking sick, madman!"

Xing Congjing blocked He Tianxi's feet, and looked sideways at He Tianxi. The look in his eyes made the teenage He Tianxi think that he was looking at a beast without thoughts and feelings.

He Tianxi's upper and lower teeth were trembling, and he yelled: "You are fucking sick, is it Xing Congjing! What does this have to do with me?! What the hell is wrong with me?! Why do you blame me for this? On the head?!"

Xing Congjing pursed his lips, and he seemed a little helpless about it: "Who called me a scum."

"It's not my fault." He Tianxi's eyes were red because of this innocence.

Xing Congjing said: "At that time I was 12 years old, our family had just bought a new house, and my parents borrowed 2 yuan from outside. They renovated the house and deliberately emptied it for half a year to ventilate and purify the formaldehyde and other things in the house. , I had a big fight with my parents at night because I got a very stupid question wrong in the exam. I was playing marbles with some other children in the school playground. When I got home, I found that my family was gone. There's none left."

He Tianxi gasped and said, "But what the hell does this have to do with me?!"

Xing Congjing didn't describe his situation anymore, he looked at He Tianxi, and even smiled a little: "You are really ruthless."

"..." He Tianxi jumped off the bed, trying to run out of the room to calm down Xing Congjing, who looked a little strange to him.

Xing Congjing took his hand, grabbed him, and dragged him to the carpet. Xing Congjing put his hand on the back of his head and looked at him condescendingly: "There is nothing you can do, then you will make it up to me." gone."

He Tianxi said: "Are you fucking sick?!"

Xing Congjing pressed down on He Tianxi's arm and kissed him directly. He Tianxi was completely taken aback. He was trembling all over, shaking his teeth and cursing: "Are you crazy?"

Xing Congjing pinched his cheek: "Don't make noise, I'm not happy, I'm going to drag others to hell with me."

The author says:

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