want to be your person

Generally, I will update the article every weekend, and I have no time to go to school in the rest of the time, please forgive me. ——XL

Dingka stretched out the several hundred yuan in his hand to the boy's eyes, and shook them gently.

"You lost your money." Dinka smiled gently at the boy, but the boy's face was as cold as ice.

"Ordinary people would stuff the money they picked up into their own pockets, why? Did you give it back to me just to thank you?" Not only did the boy not show a grateful expression, but there was a kind of The pride of contempt and disdain.

Dinka now only thinks that there are all kinds of people in the world, and the boy in front of him is not bad.

"Then I'll accept it." Dinka pursed his lips into a line, as if provoking unconvinced.

The boy watched Dinka put the hundreds of dollars into his pocket openly, his complexion turned dark immediately, his eyes became more fierce, and the boy pulled his wine-red hair violently , some roaring.

"That's my money! I killed four or eight generations of your ancestors!" The boy gritted his teeth. You must know that no one in this school dared to make him angry like this, and no one in this school could provoke him!

"You don't want it?" Dinka deliberately opened his big black eyes, looking innocently at the mad boy.

"Who said I don't want it anymore?!" The man grabbed Dingka's thin shoulders, and suddenly realized that the boy in front of him who made him angry was really too thin. He was obviously much shorter than himself in height, and even his physique was even thinner than himself. .The boy looked at the sunken cheeks on Dinka's face due to morbid emaciation, and felt a little unbearably hurt, and gradually relaxed his grip on Dinka's shoulders.

"I'm just joking with you. I'm sorry. The money belongs to you. Of course I'll give it back to you." The more Ding Ka looked at the boy, the more he looked like Chen Mo, and suddenly he wanted to talk to him, as if he was talking to Chen Mo. Same as talking.

Dinka's eyes were filled with deep warmth, and his clear eyes suddenly became radiant.

Staring at the boy with that kind of eyes was a bit awkward and uncomfortable.

"What are you looking at? I haven't seen a handsome guy before. If I look at it again, I'll dig out your eyes!"

The man issued a malicious warning, clenched his fists in front of Dinka's eyes, in a threatening gesture.

"Chen Mo..." Dingka was stunned, as if his eyes were covered by something, and he couldn't distinguish anything. He was trapped in a cloud of misty sea fog. Obviously the lights on the lighthouse were flickering, but as soon as he got close, I can't see it...

"What did you say?" The boy frowned sharply, a little puzzled.

Looking at the boy's wine-red hair blown by the wind, and the black sparkling earrings dotted on the boy's earlobe, Dinka's heart sank suddenly, and the streamer in his eyes hadn't overflowed before he retracted it.

"I admitted the wrong person..." Dinka lowered his head and muttered in a daze, then walked away without looking back.

"Inexplicably gay, it's disgusting!" The boy frowned.I don't know who first spread the news that Dinka was a G in the school, and those rumors and rumors engulfed Dinka's fragile nerves.In school, except for Xia Jian, Mu Yang and Qian Xiaosan, Dinka hardly had any friends who could talk to him. Everyone hid him far away, and he was like a monster infected with an infectious disease. It's like making others afraid to approach him.

Dinka turned his head and suddenly cried, tears streaming down his face, he didn't understand why so many people in this world don't understand homosexuality, two men can have a beautiful love, why?Why doesn't anyone say a word of blessing?Why do you feel sick?Just because they're all men?Chen Mo, I miss you so much, I can't hold it anymore...

"It's disgusting!" The boy cursed in a low voice, watching Dinka's disappearing back.Homosexuality or something, it's disgusting!

From then on, Dinka seldom spoke in school, and devoted himself to studying every day, doing endless materials.I spend the whole day in the school library on weekends, and sometimes I play with the ring on the necklace around my neck in a daze, motionless like a weathered sculpture.Carefully covering up his own pain, living in pain under the eyes of others' discrimination, Dinka doesn't know how long he can last, after all, the long wait is a painful and tormenting guardianship, what's more frightening is that Dinka doesn't know what is happening now Whether Chen Mo's situation in a foreign country is good or bad, he is afraid that one day, Chen Mo will forget himself...

Dinka also wants to go abroad to look for it, but now is not the time, I really want to see you, how are you doing?

The years turn by turn, if you are still here, I will be better, I think about you almost every day, it has become the hardest habit.

The four seasons are always there, if you return, I will stay where I am, I wait almost every day, and it has become the most frustrating romance.

Xia Jian felt that Dingka had changed, becoming cold and gloomy. Dingka was depressed every day and refused to talk to others. Xia Jian was afraid that Dingka would suffer from illness. In fact, Dingka already had a little neurasthenia and a little bit of spirit depression.Every night, Dingka always suffers from insomnia, struggling to and fro on the bed, overturned in the memories of Chen Mo, during that time Dingka bought a lot of sharp blades, some masochistic thoughts, as long as he thinks of Chen Mo, Ding Ka cut a small deep gash on his arm, and seeing the blood flow, Dinka knew that he was still alive.

On this day, Xia Jian had to take Dingka to the cafeteria to have dinner with Mu Yang and Qian Xiaosan.

"Let's go, let's go eat together, aren't you hungry?" Xia Jian dragged Dingka to the cafeteria.

"I'm not hungry." Dinka never ate at night, but was so hungry that his stomach hurt all the time, and he didn't want to eat anything.

"But I'm hungry, you have to eat with me!" Xia Jian dragged Dingka domineeringly forward.

Dingka heard someone calling Xia Jian's name, and turned around to see the boy who had been watching Xia Jian play basketball on the playground.

"Someone is calling you, why are you ignoring others?" Ding Ka poked Xia Jian's waist, reminding him kindly.

"I don't want to talk to him, I'm hungry and I'm going to eat!" Xia Jian didn't even turn his head.

Dingka looked back at the boy with a gentle temperament, and he also looked at the direction where Dingka and Xia Jian were going away, standing alone in the distance, Dingka felt that he was very sad, he was sad.

"That boy seems to have been paying attention to you recently."

"Why are you ignoring him?"

"I think you are a good match..."

After Dingka finished speaking the last sentence, Xia Jian's face seemed to be covered with a layer of black veil, and the strength of holding Dingka's wrist gradually increased.

"Go and eat!" Xia Jian was angry, he shook Dingka's hand fiercely, and walked forward without looking back.

Ding Ka silently followed Xia Jian to the door of the cafeteria.

There were so many people in the cafeteria that it was crowded, and the noise made Dinka, who had been deserted for a long time, feel a little overwhelmed and disgusted.People who are too lonely forget how to smile naturally, even if they laugh, it is bitter.

"Senior, here!" Dinka saw a very beautiful girl sitting not far away, a little enchanting like a vixen, but she smiled purely and cutely.

Dingka didn't recognize Qian Xiaosan for a while, until he sat down with Xia Jian and saw Mu Yang next to him very considerately helping the girl next to him pick out dishes he didn't like from the food plate, Dingka woke up like a dream .

This girl is Qian Xiaosan?!

Qian Xiaosan looked at Dingka's astonishing gaze towards him, feeling a little proud.

"Senior, I have become so beautiful now, do you regret not accepting my confession at the beginning~~~"

Qian Xiaosan is indeed Qian Xiaosan, she has lost a lot of weight, but her character is still so flamboyant!

"If I didn't know if I could abduct Chen Mo from your family with my current appearance in the past~~~Wow Kaka~~~"

Qian Xiaosan said that he was bald, and Xia Jian usually emphasized in front of Mu Yang and Qian Xiaosan not to mention Chen Mo...

Xia Jian stomped on Qian Xiaosan's little feet under the table, desperately.

"Hiss..." Qian Xiaosan let out a pained sound.

"I didn't mention Chen Mo on purpose!" Qian Xiaosan mentioned it again.

Mu Yang looked at Qian Xiaosan speechlessly, and stuffed the steamed buns in the bowl into Qian Xiaosan's mouth.

"You'd better stop talking, don't think that if you become a beauty, I will become a toad!"

Mu Yang was still so venomous.

Seeing the loving and sweet interaction between Mu Yang and Qian Xiaosan, Ding Ka felt a lot more relaxed.

Dingka knew that he couldn't be depressed like this anymore, he had to wait for Chen Mo to come back.

"Sorry for worrying everyone..." Dinka felt lucky to have these friends.

"Dingka, we all know about you and Chen Mo, we don't say anything, I, Qian Xiaosan, will be the first to support!!! What happened to the two men?! Like is like, love is love, unlike a certain I don’t dare to fart, I hold everything in my heart and dare not confess to me, and I have never said any nice love words to me!” Qian Xiaosan looked at Mu Yang who was eating leisurely , as much resentment as there is resentment on the expression.

Dingka and Xia Jian couldn't help laughing.

To be happy forever like this, very good, very beautiful, very sweet.

I'm still waiting for you, I'm still waiting for you, I'm still thinking about you,

You'll be back, I know it.

Hush, listen, happiness stays on the willow branches, singing quietly in the cold winter night.

Changes alternately in winter and spring, the only constant is to love you, love you more...