night fades

After a while, a person came out of the operating room and said something to the group of people. Ling Zi stood by and looked at them with a sneer. Those people shook their heads and dispersed.

Song Yan also sneered and stood up, whispering: "It seems that I can't die."

She walked over and whispered to Ling Zi for a while, Ling Zi looked at Lin Ye from time to time, he was a little uncomfortable, and went back to the stairwell to light a cigarette.

When a cigarette was almost finished, someone came and patted him on the shoulder. He looked back and asked in surprise, "Mrs. Zhou?"

Ling Zi was noncommittal about this title, Lin Ye thought, this woman almost became his stepmother, oh no, if Fate hadn't joked with them, this woman might be his real mother.

"Zhou Ning'an is out of the dangerous period with one blow, and then he just needs to wait for him to wake up and continue to do some medical treatment and psychological counseling. I won't wait here anymore, do you want to stay?"

Lin Ye felt guilty for some reason when he was stared at by her, and stammered, "Ying, I should wait for him to wake up."

Ling Zi took a deep look at him, patted him on the shoulder, and told him as if sighing: "The decision on this matter is in your hands, you should think about it carefully."

Lin Ye was a little confused, did he have the right to decide?decide what?

"No matter how you choose, I will respect your choice. You don't need to worry about other things, just choose whatever you think. You...you are really similar to your father." Ling Zi gave him a sad look, not knowing Will the choices made by such similar fathers and sons be the same?

That look contained too many meanings, Lin Ye was stunned for a moment, thinking that she probably saw through the long time of more than ten years from his face.He froze for a moment, Ling Zi was about to leave, Lin Ye called out, "Wait a minute!"

Ling Zi turned her head and looked at him curiously. That posture unconsciously carried some girlish expectations. Lin Ye finally saw her romantic charm in her eyes.

Lin Ye walked over, stretched out his hand and hugged Ling Zi's shoulder, gave her a hug with a little distance, and whispered in her ear: "My father's passing was not painful. It's been so many years, and everything that should be in the past is in the past. Well, Zhou Ning'an is your son after all, if possible, treat him better."

Ling Zi's eyes widened in his arms, and their sockets were red all of a sudden, they didn't actually have physical contact, Ling Zi closed her eyes, thinking at that moment that he was back.Since he let himself let go, let it all go.

No matter how much you don't let go, he will never come back.

Ling Zi patted Lin Ye on the back, Lin Ye let go, and looked at her a little uneasy. She had recovered her calm in such a short time, as if the person who was looking forward to like a girl just now was not her. Same.

Ling Zi packed up her emotions and left here. Lin Ye looked out of the window, not knowing what the decision-making power she gave herself was.

After a while, the door of the operating room opened, and several people pushed Zhou Ning'an to the ward. It took him a while to wake up. Lin Ye took a look. Zhou Ning'an was wearing a ventilator, and his brows were slightly frowned, as if Very painful look.

I don't know what he's suffering from, the medicines he's taking, or the things that healed him.

Does Zhou Ning'an hope to be rescued?Lin Ye closed his eyes and thought about it seriously, but couldn't find the answer.

Lin Ye followed the medical staff to the ward. Song Yan originally followed, but then went out to answer the phone, as if she was in a hurry to leave. Before leaving, she glanced at Lin Ye anxiously, shrugged and said, "You... don't care if you discuss it. What is the result, I think I can't influence his decision, and of course I can't influence yours, it's useless for me to be here, I have something to do, so I'm leaving first."

She looked free and easy, Lin Ye nodded, and she also left in a hurry followed by her entourage.

The corridor, which was so lively just now, was suddenly quiet now. Lin Ye sat down on the floor along the wall, thinking that each of them said that the decision was up to him, but he didn't know what to decide.

He sat here for a while, and the more he sat there, the more he wanted to smoke a cigarette. Before he could take out the cigarette, a man came out of the elevator, dressed in casual but elegant casual clothes, about forty or fifty years old. Come here.

Lin Ye looked at him leaning towards Zhou Ning'an's ward, and couldn't help but wonder what this person's identity was. That person glanced into the ward, turned his head to see him, but hesitantly called out his name: "Lin Ye?"

Lin Ye stood up, wondering how this person knew his name, and he didn't look like those of the Zhou family who were waiting to share the inheritance. He said, "I'm Lin Ye, are you?"

"Xu Pingchuan." Doctor Xu stretched out his hand to Lin Ye. Lin Ye shook hands with him, and heard him say, "You haven't met me, but I've heard a lot about you. I'm Zhou Ningan's psychiatrist. Been in charge of counseling him since he was 12 years old."

Lin Ye was stunned for a moment, 12 years old?It happened to be the year when he drove Zhou Ning'an away.

Doctor Xu smiled at him, but Lin Ye suddenly felt that he was at a loss. Zhou Ning'an took him as a life-saving straw, but he pushed Zhou Ning'an off the cliff with his own hands.

"Doctor Xu, is he... because of me?" Lin Ye asked in a low voice.

"No, no, he has been prone to depression for a long time. It can be said that before he met you, he lived in depression all his life. You are his blind medicine. But I have been worried for a long time. If one day you The situation may get worse without him, but it's not your fault, he tends to go to extremes when encountering things, which I've been worried about for a long time." Dr. Xu comforted, Lin Ye felt that he deserved to be a psychopath. Doctor, a few words can make people feel better.

"He came to see me. He said that this was the last time he saw me, but I ignored him. If I hadn't left, if I had known..." Lin Ye pulled his hair angrily and whispered.

Dr. Xu waved his hand, "You don't have to blame yourself too much. I am actually responsible for this. I prescribed all the medicines he took. I didn't think that he would not take medicine because he was with you, and I didn't find out in time. He's not in the right state, it's the doctor's fault, normal people, people who don't understand depression, no matter how close they are, they can't help like a doctor. He went to you, maybe he was sending a distress signal, maybe he really just wanted to Farewell to you, I don't know exactly what he thinks, but people with psychological problems will easily go to extremes if they are not treated in time, and he has been too emotional recently, it is not your fault that he has such a behavior."

Lin Ye said gruffly, "I never even knew he had depression, and it was so severe."

"Depression is a disease that is difficult to see, and he still deliberately conceals it. You think that this person is mentally healthy if he laughs every day and lives a step-by-step life every day. In fact, it is far from the case. Many people who are sick People even refuse to admit that they have mental problems, thinking that they are not insane. In fact, mental illness is not insanity in a broad sense. It is a psychological problem that cannot be adjusted by oneself, so they need the help of a doctor. When Zhou Ningan came to me, he He already had the idea of ​​committing suicide, he felt scared so he came to me, I have been helping him improve and reduce this idea all these years, unfortunately, my medical skills are not good, and I always treat the symptoms but not the root cause.”

"What is the root cause?" Lin Ye asked.

Doctor Xu glanced at him and sighed, "Zhou Ning'an was a precocious and sensitive child at that time, he had already realized that his mother didn't like him, and mother is usually the first source of love, people who lack maternal love After adulthood, I often feel insecure, and even find it difficult to find the experience of loving someone. Later, he met you, which is his luck and his misfortune. You are a kind of benign stimulus to me, depression The most common mentality of patients is actually numbness and lack of interest in life, so appropriate emotional stimulation is a good thing. But this kind of stimulation is too unstable, which will aggravate his mood swings. How much does he fluctuate upwards? Well, when it fluctuates downwards, it may be a double blow. The goal I can give him is to help him control this emotional fluctuation and try to guide him to think about things from a positive perspective, but I can't cure the root cause, because Zhou Ning'an There is indeed a lack of love in my life, and this is not something I can change."

"Then...then what are you going to do?" Lin Ye asked a little confused.

"When he wakes up, I will definitely counsel him. I'm afraid he will need some medication to interfere with the emotional changes, but I'm not sure how far I can go. For so many years, I have always thought that I can do it in his case. What I can do is too limited, I can only do my best to help him, maybe he needs to be hospitalized for observation for a period of time, and he can leave only when his mood is stable."

"But... But, if his emotions are stable, won't he be in pain? He won't want to commit suicide anymore?" Lin Ye couldn't help but grabbed Dr. Xu's arm. He could understand why Zhou Ning'an didn't want to wake up again. , if one wakes up and faces such a life, who is interested in living it well?

"I can't guarantee these. After all, psychiatrists are not gods. We need the cooperation of patients and their families. In Zhou Ning'an's current state, he may not necessarily cooperate with my treatment, or even resist passively. That's why he needs to be hospitalized for observation to avoid recurrence. Drastic move." Dr. Xu gave Lin Ye a meaningful look, "What I need to know more is, what is your plan?"

"Me?" Lin Ye scratched his hair, "I just want to wait until he wakes up and see if he's okay before I leave."

Dr. Xu waved his hand, "If that's the case, I don't suggest you do this."

"Why? Didn't he come to me and want me to stop him? He should want to see me?"

"He really wants to see you, but if you just want to take a look at him and leave, I suggest you don't." Dr. Xu pushed his eyes and said with some seriousness: "I can't do anything to satisfy your guilty conscience." And let Zhou Ning'an take a risk, if you don't plan to stay forever, then I hope you don't show up again, it will be easier for his treatment."

Lin Ye choked. He never thought that he had such a great responsibility. If he didn't plan to stay, then he would never see him again?

"Let me think about it, you go in first, I'll smoke a cigarette." Lin Ye said, regardless of whether it was in the corridor of the hospital, he took out a cigarette and lit it for himself, and walked out with a cigarette in his mouth. tone.

Doctor Xu didn't care about his smoking. The little nurse who smelled the smoke came out to discipline Lin Ye. Doctor Xu waved her to leave him alone, and told Lin Ye to sit in the corridor by himself without disturbing anyone.