Pet me, are you addicted?

Christmas is here, but not on weekends. On the night of December 12th, Christmas Eve, Fan Fan asked me to go shopping in the pedestrian street in the city center.

I know that Fan Fan only regards himself as a good friend, and Fan Fan cherishes the friendship between the two of them.Even so, I thought, then I can also keep a friendly distance from Fan Fan.

So, after finally jumping out of the deep water area, I was attracted back again.I seem to have reached a kind of reconciliation with the deep water in my heart. As long as I stay at the appropriate depth in the deep water area, the deep water will not submerge me.

However, I underestimated the controllability of the perceptual world.In fact, once I was in deep water, I would slowly sink to the bottom without realizing it, and drown myself.

Fan Fan and I went to the downtown pedestrian street together, like old friends reunited after a long absence.We walked in the bustling streets, passed the lively shops, listened to the love songs on the side of the road, looked at the dazzling array of goods, and ate delicious meat skewers, just like a young couple.

I did feel like I was in love, but I suddenly became conflicted inside.In my opinion, Tu Hao just satisfied his physical needs, but it was Fan Fan who satisfied his psychological needs.

My mind suddenly split into two sides.On the one hand, how much I wish Fan Fan in front of me was Tu Hao.On the other hand, I want to confess to Fan Fan, hoping that Fan Fan can accept my love.

We walked from the northern section of Huangxing Road to the southern section, and then headed back home.The apartment was also filled with a festive atmosphere, and a group of students gathered at the door of a cafeteria.It turned out that someone was setting off fireworks.

We stopped and waited for the fireworks to bloom.After the fireworks were ignited, everyone looked at the sky together.The dark night sky was instantly lit up with colorful lights, illuminating the innocent smiling faces of the students.

On December 12, the TV station will broadcast live the New Year's Eve party in the evening.I have been hesitating all day whether to go to Tu Hao or not.How much I want to spend New Year's Eve with Tu Hao, two people in one room, and choose a New Year's Eve concert.

After dinner, I decided to go shopping for clothes first, and then go directly to Tu Hao's place.When I was going out, I sent a text message to Tu Hao, saying that I would go to his place later.

But when I reached the commercial street, Tu Hao still hadn't replied to the text message, and my heart started to feel a little flustered.I dialed Tu Hao's mobile phone with trepidation, and there was a voice prompt to turn off the phone.

I walked around the clothing store dejectedly.After shopping for clothes, I walked all the way back to the apartment.Turn on the computer, and the New Year's Eve concert on Mango Channel has already started.

When I saw a couple singing a sweet duet on stage, my vision gradually blurred.This is the first time I envied a couple in love.

On the chat software, I saw that Tu Hao was also online.He told me his phone was broken and had to be repaired.I was dubious, mixed with sorrow and joy.

After the two roommates came back, they also sat next to me and watched.I seemed to have a warm company suddenly, and the feeling of sadness was swept away.

At 23:[-], the housekeeper aunt turned off the switch.Although the laptop has a battery, but the network has no power, no traffic, and the concert is stuck.

The time ended an hour before the New Year's Eve.

As the final exam week approached, Fan Fan disappeared from my sight again.I felt that I lost Tu Hao and Fan Fan at the same time, so I couldn't calm down my mind to review and prepare for the exam.

I guessed that Fan Fan was studying in the library, so I searched for Fan Fan layer by layer.Finally, in the new book reading room on the fifth floor of the library, I found Fan Fan sitting in a corner.

But I didn't go forward and sit beside Fan Fan.I thought that my sudden appearance might make Fan Fan feel how much he couldn't do without him.Although this is the case, I don't want Fan Fan to know.

What's more, beside Fan Fan, there is a fellow of Fan Fan, who is from our professional class.Besides me, he is the only one who is often with Fan Fan.So I don't want to appear in front of Fan Fan.

I feel that the more I cling to Fan Fan, the more Fan Fan will avoid me.If he pretended to avoid Fan Fan, Fan Fan might come to me on his own initiative.

I actually believed that Fan Fan still wanted to be with me a little bit.So, I sat far away in the corner of the reading room, took out my mobile phone, and waited for Fan Fan's call. He would definitely ask me where I was.

At that time, I will openly appear beside Fan Fan.But until the library was about to close, Fan Fan not only didn't call, he didn't even send a text message.

Half of my mind said, give in, go up to him and say hello casually, and walk back to the apartment with him, talking and laughing.The other half of the mind says, no, never!

Finally, I packed my schoolbag, left Fan Fan and his fellow villagers on the other side, and walked back to the apartment alone.I seem to be determined, unless Fan Fan takes the initiative to find me, otherwise I will never look him in the face or say a word in person.

The next day, Fan Fan still did not take the initiative to find him, and disappeared again.I searched every floor of the library, but Fan Fan was not in the library.

Like crazy, I ran around the campus, searching every classroom on every floor of every teaching building.I searched for Fan Fan like a needle in a haystack, but miraculously I found it.

In the study room on the first floor of Shaw Building, I opened the back door and saw Fan Fan's back.I was so excited that I almost cried. Just as I was about to enter the classroom, I saw Fan Fan's fellow countryman sitting beside Fan Fan.

I exited the classroom door vigilantly and closed the back door.At this moment, my mood seemed to have knocked over the five-flavored bottle, and the excitement just now disappeared.I couldn't imagine that I would be jealous of Fan Fan and his fellow villagers.

My mind is full of fantasies about Fan Fan being with his fellow countrymen. I can't accept that Fan Fan likes being with fellow villagers more than me.I walked into a study room next door and took a seat in the back row.

People around me must think that I am like a dumb doll.But in reality, my heart is like a rough sea.I even thought about letting Fan Fan know that I had a crush on him.

I have an open book in my hand, but my mind is full of all kinds of fantasies about Fan Fan, and I can't hold any exam content.To make matters worse, I don't like to take an engineering book and memorize it.

I suddenly had a hunch that I couldn't bear the end-of-term exam this time.

When I go home during the Spring Festival, I ask Tu Hao to come and play at home.Tu Hao said that he did not celebrate the New Year in his hometown, but in the provincial capital.So the plan to meet during the winter vacation fell through.

Seeing that the winter vacation was coming to an end, I came to the train station alone, preparing to leave home and return to school.If a city is compared to a besieged city, then the station is the gate of the besieged city.

People in the siege pass through this gate and escape from the siege.People outside the siege pass through the city gate and enter the siege.From this point of view, the station is a place where fish and dragons are mixed, and any possible encounters will happen here.

At the age of 21, I sat on the K1683 train.The train started slowly and left the platform.The long body of the car obediently followed the direction of the railroad tracks, shuttling through the ignorant night.

The Spring Festival has passed, but the weather is still in the cold winter.

There seem to be more passengers standing than sitting in the carriages. Of course, this is the Spring Festival travel rush.The passengers—whether standing or sitting—were not yet a little tired.

Some were chatting, some were eating snacks, some were listening to MP3s, and some were reading books. Everyone was good at enjoying the comfort of the journey in a harsh environment.It can be said that it is hard to have fun, and the joy is harmonious.

That's all, it's Changsha again.In a blink of an eye, I was already a sophomore in college.I shouldn't have the sadness of being away from home, but the scene that suddenly appeared in the waiting room just now made me reluctant to part.

A few hours ago, I dragged my luggage and once again walked into the train station of this small city in my hometown.ah!I'm going away from home again.In the past two years when I went to Changsha to study at university, getting together and going back and forth between stations has become commonplace.

I gradually got used to staring wide-eyed in the crowd, carefully identifying everyone in the crowd.I thought, maybe in such a place where fish and dragons are mixed, we can reunite some people who have been separated for a long time, or simply say that exact person.

In the small city of my hometown, there is only one railway station.According to my observation, the train bound for Beijing entered the station only a quarter of an hour later than the train bound for Changsha, and Li Xuan was studying in Beijing.

In other words, if Li Xuan bought today's ticket like me, then he would be waiting here at this time, and we would most likely meet here.

But in fact, what I say is most likely wishful thinking.I don't even know when Li Xuan will leave, or even if Li Xuan ever came back.

Of course, you might call me stupid.In this era of advanced information technology, I can directly send a short message to Li Xuan, asking when he will return to school, or more directly, asking him if he is waiting at the train station.

However, I can't do that, we haven't seen each other since high school, and cell phones and the internet have only thickened our diaphragms.

Now I desperately need an unexpected encounter with Li Xuan, maybe to prove something called fate.

So today, when I came to the waiting room, waiting for the train to Changsha, I looked around as usual.I was sure in my heart that I would definitely meet Li Xuan this time, as if it would have been an accident if I hadn't met Li Xuan again.

At that time, the train bound for Changsha was about to arrive at the station in less than 10 minutes.I sat on the cold iron armchair in the waiting room, and more and more passengers lined up for ticket check in front of me, filling my sight.

Just as I was about to join the queue in disappointment, a familiar figure flashed into my line of sight, in the direction of my two o'clock.I took a closer look, and it turned out to be my Li Xuan.

Li Xuan's clothes became more fashionable, and his handsome face became more mature.I still can't help myself, still attracted to him.

My heart suddenly flustered. It turned out that the encounter with Li Xuan was not as simple and romantic as I imagined.I feel that the various motor units that constitute the same muscle in the body receive nerve impulses from each other, resulting in incomplete contraction.

I can't suppress the tension in my heart, I really want to mobilize the faster-than-light thinking to think about what the hell is going on with this fate.