Nancheng, nothing old.

32

I met Zhao Yi in December, when Suxin and I were shopping.Su Xin went to interview a small well-known foreign company that month, the interviewer had a good impression of her, so she confirmed it on the spot, and just waited for her to do some research and sign a tripartite agreement.Su Xin was in a good mood, and said she would treat me to a big meal, and we went to Xidan.At that time, I met Zhao Yi and his new girlfriend.

I haven't seen him for more than two years. If he doesn't see me, he will never recognize me.He changed his hairstyle, dressed in fashion, and brought a beautiful girl by his side.

"Lin Jiangming, long time no see."

Standing on the street, chatting for a few minutes in the cold wind.He introduced his girlfriend to me and said that I was his high school classmate. The girl smiled at me, but I couldn’t remember the name. Su Xin stood behind me. She was beautiful. What Su Xin introduced to him.

We exchanged cell phone numbers, said we had time to make appointments, and parted ways.In front of his new girlfriend, I didn't ask about Li Sumian, but when I contacted her in September, they were obviously fine.

I looked back at Zhao Yi holding his new girlfriend intimately, sighed, and asked me Su Xin, and I told the truth about their high school love story.Su Xin comforted me and said that the perfect things in the world are always half and half, such as love, which is so beautiful that most of them exist in stories. Of course, there are also half and half in real life. Maybe the story you encountered is not that half. There is no way to have a couple from one generation to the next, but it doesn't mean that he and she are having a bad time. What you see and what you speculate are just what you think, but you are not someone else.Most people will not only love one person in their life.

what about me?What about Lu Yian?I silently asked myself.But in order to stir up Su Xin's interest, I quickly changed the subject and asked her how to make her bleed heavily tonight and have a good meal.She said everything was up to me, so I took her arm and walked around.

In the evening, I called Li Sumian, fearing that she would be sad, so I tried my best to conceal and euphemistically say that I met Zhao Yi and his beautiful girlfriend on the street.But she wasn't as sad as I thought.

Wow!So that's the case, is that girl really beautiful?That kid has good eyesight.

"Su Mian, are you really okay?" I couldn't tell the truth from the fake.

"Jiang Ming, the long-distance relationship was too hard. We struggled to maintain it during that time, and we couldn't go on. It so happened that one had a new girlfriend and the other had a new boyfriend. Do you think it was luck or misfortune? Later, slowly Only then did we understand that love is not as simple as it is in novels. At that time, we read too many TV novels before we believed that loving someone was willing to travel thousands of miles for him. However, we discovered in ourselves that buying A plane ticket is so tight."

"Su Mian, it's because you don't like it that much, and you have someone more suitable around you." I retorted.But she did not confront me.

"Jiang Ming, maybe you're right. I don't like it that much anymore. We are separated from each other. Every time we call or video, we always talk about our own life, but the other party doesn't understand at all. The people he knows, the things he said, In fact, I don’t know anything, and sometimes I have to pretend to be very interested. Slowly, I began to get tired of talking with him like this. Instead, I felt that I could do something that I could touch and see during these hours. .”

"Maybe I don't understand. After all, I haven't had a good relationship yet."

"Or maybe it's because you read too many books and believe in love too much." She continued over there.

But only 21 two, I forgot the feelings of seventeen or eighteen years old, if it is 25 six, what should I do?

"Do you still like Teacher Lu?"

"Huh?" I pondered for a moment and said, "I don't like it anymore."Shaking his head, he nodded again.But she couldn't see it on the other side of the phone.

"That's good, this road is too difficult, it's better not to like it."

On the other end of the phone, she said something about her new partner, which was similar to how she talked about Zhao Yi to me every day when she was 17 years old. I kept listening to her, and when it was almost time, I hung up the phone .At that time, Su Xin was already asleep, so I sneaked into the room and sneaked into the bed.Glancing at her raised quilt, she didn't move, and fell asleep with confidence.

On the New Year's Eve in 2011, I was going to spend it with Su Xin. We even planned a week ago to go to Beijing on the night of the 31st to welcome the arrival of 2012 with a bunch of people, or just the two of us, simple and simple Single, or we go to the subway to sell singing, she is in charge of singing, I am in charge of collecting money, then the proceeds will treat me to a big meal, and the extra can go crazy for a few days on New Year’s Day, we set the latter, because I I believe there must be someone who is willing to stop for Su Xin's voice.Together we count down and look forward to that day.

however.

affairs of the world.

It's never as simple as we like it to be. Sometimes misfortune comes like a drama, suddenly, making people feel in a trance, and it's hard to tell whether it's a nightmare or a reality.

After sitting on the ground for only a moment, before tears were shed, I quickly got up and packed the necessary luggage, and booked the nearest high-speed train to Shanghai by phone, leaving only the standing ticket.It was only noon at that time, Su Xin went to the bar to help, I went to find her, Su Xin was really beautiful that day, with exquisite makeup, wearing the jasper vintage earrings I gave her for Christmas, and wearing a gorgeous purple dress , she put on a long down jacket, despite this, she was still shivering, and dragged me into the bar, where everyone was hanging up lanterns and balloons for the evening event.

Su Xin thought I was here to help.

"Jiang Ming, we can go to the subway station to sing in the afternoon, come here later, they have prepared a lot of activities, we can eat and drink for nothing."

Su Xin looks so pretty when she smiles, she put on lip gloss tonight, very attractive.While she was still talking, I held her head and kissed it. It wasn't the first time I kissed a girl.But for Su Xin, I just pressed her lips and saw some surprise in her eyes. Her lipstick was sticky on my lips. Amidst the surrounding voices, I let her go, but did not wipe off the lipstick. .

"Su Xin, I have something urgent to go out, I can't spend it together tonight, but wait until I come back, okay?"

"Is it necessary to go?"

She tugged on my sleeve, with sudden sadness in her eyes.

"Because of Lu Yi'an?"

"You wait for me to come back."

I took my bag and walked out of the bar quickly.In this way, go and end everything, and when you come back, it will be a new year.

I called Lu Jiang to pick me up at the station, and it took me six hours to get there.Between Shanghai and Beijing, this is the third time. This is the trip with Lu Yi'an these few times. I never really went to see Lu Jiang specifically as I said in the third year of high school.

Lu Jiang and her girlfriend came to pick me up. Her girlfriend Weiwei looked familiar, probably because she had seen her photo in Renren.Lu Jiang's hair was long and tied back, and he wore gold-rimmed glasses. He was well-mannered but stylishly dressed. He really looked like an artist.

"You're still here."

I smiled and said, "Sister Lu is so kind to me, I should come and take care of her, and I will go home and ask Aunt Li to come back at the end of the year."

Lu Yian, Lu Yian like that makes me feel bad, the person we like has turned into such a bad appearance for others.In the staff dormitory of her company, I saw her curled up in the quilt on the last night of 2011.

Lu Jiang went to wake her up, she rubbed her eyes and looked at me with sleepy eyes.I haven't seen her for a year, but her baby face has lost weight rapidly, but she has become a bit mature, 24-year-old Lu Yi'an.She looked at me with a quick and shallow smile on her face: "Hey, Jiang Ming, long time no see."

"It's been a year. Sister Lu got up and invited me to dinner. After standing in the car for several hours, I was exhausted, and I haven't eaten yet."

"Alright, you and Xiao Jiang go to the living room and wait for me first."

Lu Yi'an has completely changed. The innocent childlike person in the past has gradually disappeared.She has loose hair, wavy hair, chestnut color, wearing a pink woolen coat, high-heeled shoes that look familiar, and her gestures are seven or eight points more feminine.Perhaps, she is really 24 years old. Lu Yian, who has lost a lot of weight, is like a petite and quiet girl. Many men like her.She can no longer go to the stadium like this, now even I can knock her away.

A group of us went out, it was drizzling that night, the streets were not very lively, Lu Yian was afraid of the cold, so he bowed his whole body, I walked side by side with her, Lu Jiang and his girlfriend walked behind.

"Sister Lu, I'm sorry, I owe you this sorry for a year. I haven't visited you for more than a year. Is your injury okay?"

"Jiang Ming, I know you visited me. Although I was unconscious at the time, I knew you had been here in a daze, and Qinghan told me later. As for the injury, it's nothing serious, anyway, I won't After playing, it’s not your fault, people are floating on the court, how can they not be injured, right?”

I looked sideways at me with a quiet smile in my eyes.

"It's me, I'm sorry, I know that Qinghan blamed you, but she was angry at that time, and I didn't defend you."

"It's ok."

"By the way... Sister Lu."

"Well, what happened?"

"It's okay, I'm hungry, let's go to the place to eat. I came here by high-speed rail, but I'm poor, and I'll depend on you for food and lodging."

Lu Yi'an nodded, and looked at me with a smile, a little spoiled.

I want to ask her why she never contacted me, didn’t tell me when she came to Shanghai, and completely cut off contact for a whole year, even though I’m just an ordinary friend, just a neighbor in my hometown, but it’s not dispensable .

Lu Yi'an put his hands in his clothes bag, curled up and shivered, and I reached out to hold her arm.We went to a Shanghai restaurant and ordered boiled chicken and five-spice smoked fish, Lu Yian's favorite dishes. Lu Jiang said that she had lost her appetite for a long time, and she seemed to be suffering from anorexia.

I put vegetables in Lu Yian's bowl, she said thank you, let me not be polite, and introduced each dish to me next to each other, asking softly.When I saw Lu Yian again, he was more gentle and polite, but his face was pale and his body was weak. To the ancient sickly son of an aristocratic family, forgive me for describing it as a son. When I met her, she was more lively and not so quiet, but now, she is more bookish, like a person in the 30s, who has just come into contact with new cultural ideas, and has old etiquette.If she is a little more frivolous, she must be very Wang Zuxian, like Rong Lan in A Dream in a Garden, and Lu Yi'an is very suitable for wearing a retro blue-gray robe.

"Jiang Ming, Jiang Ming, what are you thinking?"

Lu Yi'an stretched out his hand and shook it lightly in front of me, and then I came back to my senses.

"It's nothing, it's just that I haven't seen Sister Lu for a year, and I've lost so much weight, it's really distressing."

The food I picked up for her moved a little bit, thinking of the past, Lu Yi'an often gorged himself on the delicious food at the table.

"No appetite?"

"Recently, I can't eat anymore. I feel sick after eating a little too much. Xiao Jiang and Ge Yun are welcome, please take care of Jiang Ming for me. I've been like this recently, you know."

After dinner, the four of them walked along the street.Later, when the rain stopped, the Bund is very beautiful every New Year’s Eve. Lu Jiang’s girlfriend pulled her and said that she would go to the Bund to watch the fireworks. She kindly introduced me and invited me to go with her. Lu Jiang and the others went, the fireworks were too noisy and she never liked it.She was on her side, looking lonely.I smiled and said, "I've always been afraid of fireworks, and I was timid. When I was a child, I always thought that things would fall on my head. I'd better go back with Sister Lu. Besides, I'm very tired today."

Lu Yian's room has one bedroom, one bathroom and one living room. The bedroom is simple, with a double bed, wardrobe and desk, and the bookcase is placed in the living room.There were two pairs of shoes of the same style in the shoe cabinet, and several pairs of disposable shoes from the hotel. I took a pair of them and changed them. I sat on the sofa and watched TV while Lu Yian took a shower, and I called Su Xin by the way.

At eleven o'clock in the evening, her side was very lively, and her voice was full of joy.

"Jiang Ming, I made a lot of money singing with A Xing on the subway tonight. We ate a ton, and now we're playing in the bar. I'll keep your share until you come back."

Su Xin's joy infected me, and I said with a smile: "How can you be sure that I will come back, what if I won't come?"

She was silent for a while, and then said: "No, Lu Yi'an doesn't like you, so come back to my arms. Jiang Ming, they called me, goodbye, I'll wait for you to come back." She quickly hung up the phone and left I was watching Hunan Satellite TV’s New Year’s Eve performance on the sofa, which happened to be Karen Mok’s "Suddenly"

"Suddenly, the sky is dark and the world is fine, but suddenly there is nothing."

I hugged my legs and curled up on the sofa. Someone downstairs was talking loudly, but the room was quiet. I turned down the sound of the TV and heard the sound of water splashing in the bathroom.

There are too many times when I don't know what to do with my life and it's a mess.Just like at this moment, I don't want to be between Lu Yi'an and Su Xin, it's just a love that I can't let go of, and the one that is close at hand is mine.