Nancheng, nothing old.

Su Xin said, this restaurant is the only place to eat hot pot.

Just this store.

When she met Zhang He, she came to eat hot pot alone.

When it came time to check out, we bumped into each other at the cash register.

"Sister Zhang He."

"Jiang Ming." She had a forced smile on her face, she was wearing a down coat and she wasn't too bulky, but she was very haggard. I don't know if she was sad because of Su Yan, I think maybe, and I hope so.When we feel sorry for each other and suffer from each other, we can think that this is love for each other, and it is still worth it. It is so strange that there are so many people.

We happened to be on the same road when we went out, she walked to my left and chatted a little.I introduced Su Xin to me, my girlfriend.Zhang He held her small bag, walked calmly, and said with a smile: "It's rare that you don't like Lu Yi'an."

Lu Yian!I looked at Su Xin, but she didn't look at me, maybe she was pretending to be indifferent, looking at the food stall across the street.

It's rare that everyone knows that I like Lu Yian.Even if I don’t say it, I can’t cover it up after a long time, the wind and sand blow and blow, the time is so long, I’m tired of covering it up, the long knife has worn away the stone and skin, and the bone is inside, that’s the secret, that’s love and pain.

That is, Lu Yian.

We know each other well, so there is no need to ask too many questions, I don't want to mention Lu Yi'an in front of Su Xin.

Just like if Zhang He didn't say anything, I wouldn't mention Su Yan in front of her.

When parting, Zhang He said: "Jiang Ming, I am [-] this year, and I get married at the end of the year, can you come to participate? This is the way I am all my life."

I burst into tears suddenly, and Su Xin said that I love to cry too much.I grabbed Zhang He's hand and said, "Sister Zhang He, it's a long life for a person to live in the infancy of their parents for the first 20 years, and surround their husband and children and grandchildren for the next 30 years. Is it possible that you only have ten years to live? Your ten years, this one I spent ten years with Sister Su Yan, what will I do in the future?"

Su Yan said, Lu Yian and Zhang He are the same person, did I see Lu Yian at this time in advance?She said that ordinary is mediocre, and mediocrity is worse than death.

A moment of grief.Zhang He just held my hand tightly and patted my shoulder.

"Jiang Ming, if you want to be brave, you have to be brave earlier. I have no chance. Sometimes I think, if my father dies, I will be free, but how can he die? I want him to live a long life and enjoy my blessing .”

"Jiang Ming..."

She looked at me, then at Su Xin again.

"Fate tricks people."

In the end, she only said these four words, and didn't even say goodbye. She hugged her bag tightly in her arms, bent her body, and strode away.

The cold wind pierced my bones, my whole body hurt and cold, Su Xin held my arm tightly, and leaned her head on my shoulder.

"Jiang Ming, we want to be happy."

We want to be happy.

Aunt Li is hospitalized.When Su Xin and I went, the doors and windows of her house were closed, so I asked the neighbor. I still have some impressions of that aunt, who is very good with Aunt Li. When I lived here, I occasionally greeted her, but I guess she is not. Get to know me.

"Li Chengjun! It's just a crime. What kind of homosexuality is a good girl, and she will be angry at the hospital." Aunt Li has always had headaches, but it's time. Lu Yi'an is 27 years old. If he is like Zhang He, wait a few more years. Parents are half-terminally ill, unable to move forward or retreat.

I was a little worried, but I also hoped that Lu Yian would take this opportunity to come out of the closet smoothly, and I would never want to see her like Zhang He.

"You said her family, Yi'an, was so good before. She has been the object of our children's study since she was a child. She works in a prestigious university with a high salary, but she can make her couple beautiful and boast every day. I also want my doll to be as worry-free as her. Thank goodness it wasn't, if you want to follow Yi An's example of homosexuality, I'll be pissed off." She put her hands on her waist, looking angrily.

This woman chattered endlessly, telling strangers about other people's family affairs. She was jealous for a long time, and when she saw a good person, she wished that someone would make a mistake immediately. She could talk about it, which was disgusting. I asked her where Aunt Li was hospitalized and left quickly. , bought fruit with Su Xin and went to the hospital.

Going to the hospital, Lu Yi'an sat on the blue plastic chair in the corridor with his eyes closed.She was the only one sitting on a row of chairs.

Lu Yian.

She raised her head, brushed her hair, her eyes were red.

"Aunt Li is inside?"

"Well, just go in, Lu Yiping is here, she doesn't want to see me."

I was going to see Aunt Li first, Su Xin said she would wait for me outside, she handed me the fruit and sat down next to Lu Yian.

Lu Yiping was peeling apples for Aunt Li. In the past two years, he has lost a lot of weight, and he looks more mature. When he smiles, he is exactly the same as Lu Yian. His youthful and childishness has faded, and he has a more refined taste.Aunt Li was sitting against the wall, she didn’t know what Lu Yiping said, it made her laugh all the time, compared to Lu Yian outside, she didn’t look like a patient, I was very happy to see her, let Lu Yiping pick up my fruit , to say some polite words, I also asked her politely, she only said that she had a headache attack, maybe it was a serious problem, she didn't say anything about Lu Yi'an, and she didn't even mention her to me.In the past, she always kept talking about Lu Yian, but now she keeps talking to me about Lu Yiping and his girlfriend. The two are preparing for the civil service exam at home. If it goes well and the job is stable, they will get married. farther and farther away.She asked me about my recent situation and answered each one in detail. When it came to my boyfriend, I said that I had just broken up after graduation and had no plans for the time being.She nodded and said earnestly, girls should find a good partner after graduation and settle down.I said some more casually, and I was about to leave, but Lu Yiping said to see me off.

We're standing by the door.Looking over there, Su Xin and Lu Yi'an didn't know what they were talking about, and they both had shallow smiles on their faces.

Jiang Ming, he also spoke softly. Such a boy should be loved by parents. He is completely different from the fat man who only played games and made parents worry.

He said, Jiang Ming, do you remember that I told you about baseball heroes before?When the attention-grabbing younger brother died, the elder brother should bear everything.I originally liked a peaceful life, so now I should serve my parents, let Lu Yian live the life she wants to live.

When did you know about it?

When he was 15 years old, he smiled and said, I know a lot. For example, I also know that you like Lu Yian. At that time, I often thought, if it was you, it would be great. If you like it, you might accept it.If it were you, Lu Yi'an wouldn't have run so far.

Too bad it wasn't me, I said with a playful smile, pretending not to care.If it were me, at least I would be willing to stay with her in this small county.But what about Su Xin?How can people be so greedy.

"Where's Sister Qinghan?" I sat next to her and asked her.

"It's in the hotel, my mother doesn't want to see her." Lu Yi'an looked tired, she lost weight again, and kept getting thinner, as if she was eating her meat again and again, and every year she got older, she lost some.

"Sister, let's go. Since Mom doesn't want to see you, you and Sister Qinghan go back and go far away. I will take care of Mom and Dad, and one day she will calm down."

I also advised her to leave early, parents are far stronger than we thought.

Lu Yi'an looked up at me, his gaze seemed to be shaken.

"Don't even think about it." A white pillow fell on Lu Yiping's head, and Aunt Li held the door and stared at us.

"Lu Yi'an, if you want to leave today, just walk over the corpses of me and your father. You didn't see your grandfather for the last time when he passed away. Now, if you walk over our corpses, we can close our eyes and see each other. you."

Aunt Li held the door to pant for breath, Lu Yian siblings quickly went to help her, she waved Lu Yian away.

"You unfilial girl, if your wings are hard, you will forget how your father and I raised you. You forgot that you went to school early. When you were young, your father carried you to school. Every day at noon, you will have meals for you, from childhood to adulthood. , your dad and I didn’t even let you wash the dishes, that’s how you repay us. You used to swear that you would honor us, but now you can’t see each other all year round. I said it’s for what, it’s for a woman.”

Aunt Li pulled Lu Yiping with one hand, and cursed at Lu Yian with the other.Lu Yian kept his head down, unable to see his expression.

Aunt Li cursed and cursed, and started crying when talking about the past.

Knees and tears are what you have to face when you come out of the closet.

Lu Yi'an endured it silently, listening to Aunt Li's scolding gradually turned into crying.Fortunately, the emergency room next to it was full of people, and the fight, police and blood attracted most of the people.In the corridor, it was so noisy that no one noticed the episode.

Aunt Li's tears were fierce, but I don't know if they are [-]% real.I saw Lu Yi'an raised his head and looked at Aunt Li. From my angle, I could only see the corners of her eyes. I don't know what kind of eyes she used to look at Aunt Li, which made her stop crying instantly.Looking at each other, I can only see Aunt Li's eyes and face suddenly calm down, without emotion.

"I'm not leaving, I'll never leave. I'll stay here from now on. When the county recruits teachers in April, I'll take the exam. Then I'll buy a new house and live a good life like this."

Lu Yi'an said very calmly, talking about her future life.She compromised, and Aunt Li knew she would compromise.

"Don't think I don't know that the high-speed rail you bought back will be the day after tomorrow."

Lu Yi'an took out two tickets from his satchel, tore one in front of Aunt Li, and put the pieces into his pocket.

Aunt Li didn't say anything more.Lu Yian asked Lu Yiping to take good care of Aunt Li and said that she would go back to catch up on sleep. When she left, she didn't talk to Aunt Li and left alone.I bid farewell to Aunt Li quickly and followed her closely.At this time, I can't do anything, just follow her.She put her hands in her trouser pockets, raised her head lightly when walking, and didn't look at the road much. She was bumped several times by hurried pedestrians in the hospital along the way.When I was about to leave the hospital, she gave me Chen Qinghan's bus ticket, which was still in her hand, crumpled, and I don't know if it can still be used.

"Jiang Ming, bring it to her for me, the Qitian at the intersection of Chang'an."

Her calm appearance made my heart burst into flames. I grabbed her. This is the person I fell in love with, and I gave up silently. If it was me, if that person was me, what should I do? good.

"Lu Yi'an, you just gave up like this. Sister Qinghan accompanied you home, and you just left her here in silence like this."

She didn't speak, but stubbornly handed me the ticket.

"I don't want it, I want to give her yourself. If you want to go with her, can't you tell her?"

"I don't understand."

She stuffed the ticket into my pocket.

"Jiang Ming, please." She broke away from my hand, turned and left.Probably chasing her is meaningless, my feet are filled with lead, my hands are filled with lead, like I have watched her back countless times, I will stand there watching her walk towards the narrow streets and alleys, passing by people , Vendors, vehicles, horns, wheels, vendors, in a noisy world, among so many people, that lonely figure is my beloved Lu Yian.She didn't say anything, she didn't cry, where would she go like this alone?

Lu Yian.Her lonely back finally made me unable to hold on any longer.I squatted on the ground, grabbed the ticket, and started crying bitterly.I knew that Su Xin was right behind me, she didn't touch me, she let me on the street, sobbing.

Jiang Ming, in fact, you have always loved Lu Yian.

Yes.

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