the name engraved in your heart

After learning that he would be transferred to the social group, Ah Han was in a particularly sad mood those few days.However, he is still happy because he will be transferred to Xinban, that is, Birdy's class. Just thinking of his mother's tears, he has a deep sense of guilt that he has failed his mother's expectations. She loves him very much. , although he never asked about his grades, but he knew that the moment his mother received the lecture, she was sad, not because of embarrassment, but because she was worried about the future of the youngest son. He was a little absent-minded during the band practice, and he also learned from Ahan's class teacher that Ahan was about to transfer to another company, so he guessed it more or less, so he asked him to stay alone for a chat after finishing.

Father Ou took Ahan to a small room next to the orchestra’s practice room. They said it was Ou’s secret paradise, and they said that he was smoking marijuana and watching porn while hiding in it, but the small room was actually full of musical instruments. , no electricity, no marijuana, only a single sofa, a small wooden coffee table, two wooden chairs, a vinyl record player playing the trumpet, a few scattered records, a siphon The coffee machine, and the misty sunlight coming through the transom "Do you want coffee?" Father Ou asked Han and shook his head, but Father Ou still made coffee. Sa, at the beginning, Ahan was curious to see that his father was different from the priest in Ahan's impression, not so serious, a little lazy and casual, and he was dismissive of many secular regulations.

Seeing Ah Han staring at the cigarette, Father Ou picked it up with a smile, lit it and handed it to him, saying: Smell it, it smells like roses. "Ahan took a deep breath, and there was a faint rose fragrance. Father Ou suddenly raised his head and said to the transom window: "Don't peek, you come in too!" After a while, Birdy held a broom in his hand, with an embarrassed expression Father Ou came in with a smile and poured a cup of coffee, and while Birdy was drinking the coffee, Father Ou asked Han: "Are you going to transfer to the social group?" Han nodded and said, "Because the grades are so bad... ..." "Are you sad?" Father O asked.

Ah Han thought for a while and said, "Everyone thinks that only those who are incompetent will go to the social department. My mother must be very disappointed in me." Ah Han thought of his mother's tears, sighed, and Father Ou took a deep breath. After taking a puff of smoke, he said: "When God created something, do you think he named it at the beginning?" "Isn't everything in the world named after God?" This is the first time Ahan heard someone Asking this, I feel a little puzzled.

But Father Ou shook his head and said: "There are many things that cannot be called in the earliest Hebrew texts. Later people gave these things names for identification and memory, but it also limited the possibility of this thing. He took a deep look at Han, "No one is useless! Don't let a name limit you!" These words shocked Han. It turned out that having a name is what limits Birdy. Beside him, with his shoulders, handed the coffee cup to his mouth. Ahan didn't like coffee, but he still took a sip and frowned slightly, and said: "It's so hot, is it there yet?" Birdy reached out his fingers to touch his lips, the interaction between the two was natural, but Father Ou saw something People. Everything, everyone, has meaning in this world, Han, and so do you. You don’t have value only if you get good grades and make a lot of money. You have to believe that you are valuable, you understand? The value is not given to you by others. After finishing speaking, the priest raised the cigarette in his hand, waved it in front of Han, and asked: What is this?" "Smoke!" Han said, "No! This is my worry. Grass! Father Ou said that Father Ou then got up and picked up a kettle filled with water from beside the coffee pot. Birdy, what is it?

"Water, Birdy said, "No! It's fireworks!" Father Ou said. Father Ou picked up an empty coffee cup, raised the kettle with the other hand, and deliberately poured the water into the coffee cup facing the sunlight. The sunlight penetrated the water, and the water column The instant colorful powder is just as brilliant as fireworks bursting out in the summer night sky ?It seems that grades limit a person's possible development, but his life will not score for you." Birdy also took an empty cup, took the kettle from Father Ou's hand, poured it into the cup, and took a big gulp. Facing the sun, he spit out a large mouthful of water, and the sprayed water droplets instantly formed a rotten rainbow under the sun.

"Birdy! You've made this place dirty!" Ah Han shouted.

Father Ou didn't care too much and said: "It's dirty, just clean it up." Birdy handed the water glass to Han, who was playful for a while. Seeing that Father Ou didn't object, he also took a sip of water and spit it out towards the sun.

Another rainbow appeared and Han smiled happily.

Father Ou came over, patted Ah Han on the shoulder, and said, "Your mother is not disappointed, but distressed. She is afraid that others will look down on you, so you have to be more confident and work harder to let her know that even if you transfer to the social group, you will be the same in the future." It will be promising." Ah Han nodded after hearing this, and looked at Father Ou gratefully.

＊After leaving Father Ou's small musical instrument room, Birdy took Han to the roof of the school building, facing the huge cross standing at the school gate.

Birdy took out a cigarette from his pocket and handed it to Ahan. Birdy lit his own cigarette first, and then leaned over. Ahan bit the cigarette and moved over. The burning cigarette butt quickly lit another person's cigarette. mouth, and said: "It doesn't seem to be as good as the cigarettes of Father Ou just now?" Father Ou's cigarettes are very special, and you can only buy them abroad.

Birdy didn't answer, but looked at Han thoughtfully while smoking a cigarette, "What are you doing?" Han looked a little confused by him, "So, you didn't read the test paper I gave you?" Birdy asked Han and shook his head He doesn't want to cheat.

Moreover, does he want Birdy to steal the test papers for him every time he takes the test?

His physical and chemical grades are indeed not good, and cheating is just to increase his score for a while, and there is no guarantee that he will get the same high score in the university entrance examination in the future, not to mention that if he is found out, it must be miserable. But these psychological considerations, he Instead of telling Birdy, he said: "I did it on purpose! You can only transfer to the social group if you have poor grades! Then I can be in the same class as you!" Birdy laughed, "Crazy, you have a good idea! Then I will transfer to the natural group! "Ahan strangled Birdy's neck and said with a smile: "It's the best! Hurry up and transfer to the natural group, we don't want to be in the same class, I hate you to death!" The two laughed for a while, and Ahan suddenly asked: "In the future Do you want to study abroad?" Just now in Father Ou's small musical instrument room, the aroma of coffee floating in the air from the siphon coffee machine, the record player, and the melodious music from foreign countries made Ah Han I can't help but feel a yearning for foreign countries. In foreign countries, is everyone like Father Ou, with beautiful blond hair, blue eyes and snow-white skin?Are they all drinking coffee, smoking rose-flavored cigarettes, and speaking good English?

"Of course I want to go abroad, but can I not go to school?" Birdy replied. Han looked at him, smiled, and said, "Okay." It seemed like an unexpected answer, but in Ah Xin, it was already a promise.He began to imagine, what kind of life would he and Birdy have after going out?Three days before the summer vacation, during the military training class, the instructor announced a shocking news.The Ministry of Education plans a new policy, hoping that gender education in schools will develop normally, so starting from next year, special middle schools will experimentally enroll two classes of high school girls.

After the instructor finished speaking, all the male students below cheered, but some people couldn't believe the bus and booed: "Instructor! Don't fool us! Today is not April Fool's Day!" The instructor said angrily: "Who cares if you believe it or not?" , we don’t want to, okay?” Who doesn’t know that adolescent high school boys are full of sperm in their heads, and it’s too late to stop them from having girlfriends and messing around, and now the Ministry of Education wants to send female students to their boys’ school?Isn't this creating confusion?

Pointing at the beaming male students, the instructor warned sharply: "You boys, show the demeanor you should have, don't make a face! Also, except for necessary activities, boys are not allowed to talk to girls in school, especially Chasing schoolgirls is strictly prohibited! If anyone violates the rules, I hope you don’t take chances!” The boys were quiet for a while, but they still felt an indescribable joy secretly flowing relative to other boys In response to their excitement, Ah Han was very calm, and did not expect any changes that the addition of girls would bring to the school.

All he wanted was to get off the summer vacation as soon as possible, because after he didn't have to go to school, he didn't have to live in the school, so he would have more time to spend with Birdy. On the first day of the summer vacation, Birdy came to Ah Han to watch a movie. I watched three movies, namely Dai Huang, the third episode of First Blood, and The Long and Short Foot which is about to be released.When they walked out of the movie theater, it was already dark outside. The two of them were so hungry that they had no money, so they shared a bowl of beef noodles at a noodle shop near the theater. Birdy was talking about the movie while eating noodles. Love to watch, and said that the biggest dream in the future is to be a film director and make a film of his own. "You just watch too many movies, so you are so weird!" Han laughed at him, "Don't you think movies are more interesting? Reality The life in the film is too boring.” Birdy said, “Then what kind of movie do you want to make?” Han asked.

Birdy thought about it carefully, and said: "I want to shoot a story like this: One day, a man was riding a bicycle home and hit something on the road. He took this thing home, and then "hit what?" Ah Han Interrupting him "He bumped into... an alien!" Birdy didn't know whether to be serious or kidding, "Then, because the alien was injured and was dying, the student decided to keep the alien. He kept the alien Dangwu, two very lonely creatures, every day, every day, slowly start to talk about Birdy while talking and looking at Ahan and smiling. In this story, Ahan feels that he is the student, he is on the road He bumped into an alien, that is, Birdy, two very lonely creatures. Only then did Han realize how lonely he was before he met Birdy, and he always felt that no one understood him.

He suddenly remembered the story that Brother Rong told.

In the far distant universe, there is a galaxy. In this galaxy, there is a planet called B519. In that planet, there is no difference between boys and girls. A lonely creature, what happened in the end?Did you have a baby?Because aliens can have their own babies, can't they?

"And then?" Han asked expectantly.

"Then, they're happy together with Birdy," smiled.

"What an idiot story! You better be able to film it!" Han said.

However, he likes happy endings.

"Would you like to study movies together in the future?" Birdy asked him, "But I don't watch many movies!" Han said that today, if Birdy hadn't asked him out, he wouldn't be able to go crazy like watching three movies in a row Things, until now he felt that his ass didn't belong to him anymore.

"I'll take you to watch it together! Birdy agreed!" Seeing Birdy's warm invitation to Ah Han, he was very happy, nodded and said, "Let's go to the film department together! You can study abroad! In the future, if you make a movie, I will help you write it." Movie theme song!" "That's it!" Birdy said as if the future had been set, and that future was so beautiful, full of ideals and freedom, the two boys looked at each other and found that each other's eyes were shining.

Ah Han, who was watching late at night, was very nervous.

Birdy likes the movie poster of the third episode of First Blood very much, and wants to steal it home. Birdy has successfully torn off the poster on the billboard outside the cinema, and was carefully rolling it up, when someone shouted: "Hey! What are you doing?" ?” Birdy winked at Han, and the two ran away!

Ahan jumped on the bicycle, urged Birdy to jump on the back seat, and then rode forward with all his strength!

The man was still chasing the bicycle and didn't let go until it passed two or three streets. Birdy beat Han on the shoulder and blamed him: "Didn't you want you to watch out?" "He came from the other side! Don't steal it next time." La! I was scared to death by you! Ah Han complained.

If you ride faster, you won't be able to catch up. What are you afraid of? "Birdy laughed at him and Ahan muttered: "I've already ridden very fast." If there is a car, it will be fine , Han on the side resisted the pungent smell that he could never get used to, and said: "I want to buy a motorcycle!" The father who was arguing was sweating profusely, and replied: "No." "I need it very much! Of course Ah Han didn't give up. His father didn't even look at him. He was frying his familiar homemade vegetables neatly in his hand and refused: "What do you do with the motorcycle? Don't you want to go out to play all the time? Just after the summer vacation, you spend all day No one is there! You can just concentrate on your studies now, what kind of motorcycle should you buy? Damn it, it’s already embarrassing enough to study rough in society..." Ah Han endured the displeasure in his heart, and continued to beg in a low voice, but was thrown out of the kitchen by his father.After his father retired from the army, he opened a small restaurant. His father was the chef, and he knew how to cook local dishes. At that time, many people from other provinces who lived in Taichung liked to come here to eat. The business was not bad. My father rarely cooked at home. , unless there are important guests.

On this day, my brother took a special trip back to his hometown with his girlfriend who was about to talk about marriage. My father was so happy that he cooked the dishes by himself. The table was full of rich dishes, such as spicy chicken, green beans fried beef with tofu, steamed meat mash, red fried potherb Eggs, cold cauliflower with pepper oil, braised pork with bamboo shoots, bitter gourd pork ribs soup, a table of five people can't finish it.

My brother's girlfriend is named Zhang Xiaoting. She is very handsome and polite. Although she blushes from the spicy food after eating a few mouthfuls of food, she drinks tea desperately, but she doesn't complain. She still smiles nicely and makes people feel kind. .

The family was eating, chatting about the brother's recent situation, the mother entertained the future daughter-in-law in front of her, and kept saying that the food was poor, hoping she would not mind.

"Are you still used to eating?" Mother asked Xiao Ting Xiao Ting nodded, and deliberately replied in Taiwanese: "Jin Hou!" Ah Han's mother was amused and laughed.

During the dinner, Ah Han looked at his future sister-in-law and asked curiously, "How long have you been dating?" The elder brother gave him an annoyed look, and before he could speak, his father said with a stinking face, "Why do you care so much? Take care of you first." Let’s talk about it yourself! When you go to college, I don’t care how much you have to pay!

Ahan was reprimanded inexplicably, feeling depressed, he lowered his head and slammed into the rice while he was eating. He took a peek at Xiao Ting. Xiao Ting found out and smiled kindly at him.Ah Han suddenly felt much better.

"Brother, can you lend me the car tomorrow?" Ah Han said to his elder brother that his father gave Han a look and said impatiently, "Are you finished? You don't even have a driver's license. Why are you arguing to buy a motorcycle? Waiting for you I’ll buy it for you as a prize if you’re admitted to university!” “You buy it for me first, so I don’t have to wait for the bus to go to the library, so I can have more time to study! Ah Han is determined to convince his father, of course, it’s not him The reason why he really wanted to buy a motorcycle was that his father was not an idiot, and he flatly refused: "I don't have any money!" Han felt angry.

You obviously said just a moment ago that you would buy it for him after you were admitted to university, but now you say you have no money?Of course, Ah Han knew that because of his poor grades, he transferred to the society and made his father feel very embarrassed, but when he was in the rebellious period, he was so angry when his father thought about it, he said coldly: "You have money for gold. Going back there, why don’t you have the money to buy me a motorcycle?” The atmosphere at the dinner table dropped to freezing point instantly, everyone stopped for a while, and then my father threw the chopsticks to the ground angrily!

A chopstick flew up from the ground and almost hit Ting. His father blushed, pointed at Han, and cursed, "Am I so hungry?" Family, he has never ignored it, and he has worked so hard to bring up his two sons!

"Then why did you take so much money back?" Ah Han was still dissatisfied.

He always felt that this home in Taiwan seemed to be just a backup, not the real home in his father's heart.

"You don't care how I spend my money!" Father said loudly, "This is your home too!" Ah Han also raised his voice.

Since they have already started a family here, why do they still care about that side?

After the lifting of the martial law, cross-strait visits were opened, and my father almost couldn’t wait to return home with several gold necklaces bought with years of savings, but he didn’t speak for several days after he came back. My mother asked him the whereabouts of the gold chains, Instead, he got angry, saying that the money he earned was spent by himself, so why would a woman care so much?

Since then, no one has mentioned this matter again, as if it has become a taboo, and no one dares to touch it.But Ah Han inevitably wondered, would one day his father just leave this home in Taiwan and go back there?

Even Ah Han thought so in his heart, let alone his mother?

Back then, she would have married this man from another province. Apart from the fact that he was still in the army and had a stable salary, she also considered that he was alone in Taiwan. If she married him and didn't have to serve her in-laws, life should be relatively easy. He treated her well. The people in this family have never been hungry or cold, but she never imagined that one day, the other side will be opened, and her husband can go back, and then what?After he goes back, will he come back again?Do you remember that he still has a home in Taiwan?But in front of the family, the mother never revealed her hidden worries. Seeing the embarrassing scene at the dinner table, she quickly smoothed things over: "It's over! It's rare that Xiaoting came to lose her temper!" The father stared at his youngest son, not knowing that he was taking the opportunity to divert himself He still wanted to hide his anger, and said loudly: "Isn't the Nianshe group not enough people? You still have the face to think about buying a new car all day long? Why do you? Tell me?" Ah Han blushed, breathing In a hurry, I don't know how to refute.

My brother also came out and said, "In fact, there is a social group in our class. He applied for both the natural group and the social group. He got into the department of dentistry with super high scores in English and Mathematics, so he is not good at physics and chemistry, so he can still work hard. , especially biology, as long as you memorize it hard, you can get extra points °1 "Did you hear that? Then you can apply for both groups, and see which one does better in the exam?" The father's tone is not so much a suggestion as it is It was the tyrannical order that Han resisted the urge to overturn the table.

Everyone wants him to be admitted to a good university, preferably a medical department, and then what?

Will being a doctor in the future lead to a happy life?

These people wanted him to be admitted to a good university. Is it for him or for their own face?

After dinner, Ah Han sat alone on the steps in front of the house sullenly. His mother yelled several times, but he turned a deaf ear to it.

Feeling extremely depressed.

His mother finally came out, sat down beside him, patted his head lovingly, and said with a smile, "Why are you so angry? If you get money in the future, won't you take it home?" Ah Han couldn't help but feel a little guilty. At this moment, he was only thinking of going abroad to study movies with Birdy, but he never thought that he would earn money in the future and take it home to honor his parents.

"Don't blame your dad, he just wants the people over there to know that he is doing well, and he is doing well." The mother pleaded for her husband.

Ah Han was silent for a few seconds, and suddenly asked: "Mom, why did you marry Dad?" She was stunned for a moment, and then said with a smile: "At that time, when the age came, the family said it was time to get married! It seems It seems that your father is not bad, so I chose him." "So you don't love him at all, right?" Han can't imagine that two people who have no love for each other can live together for a lifetime.

"Oh, how old are you talking about love? If you didn't marry your father, how could you exist?" "You are just multiplying." Han said angrily, "What is reproduction?" Mother asked .

"It's time to have a baby!" Ah Han said angrily, "If there is real love, it would not be like this at all!" The mother looked at her child with a smile, and remembered the first time she saw her husband when she was young.This boy Ah Han really looks like his father when he was young.

"You are still so young, how do you know what love is?" Mother said, "Stop thinking about it, and study hard first!" Ah Han turned his head and did not make a sound.

The mother got up, and before entering the house, she whispered to him: "Go to the car dealership to have a look yourself, and then tell me that I still have some money here. Ah Han didn't say anything, but his mood was very complicated, and he even felt a little bit guilty. He lied, but his mother believed him, or it should be said that his mother just felt sorry for him being blamed by his father, so she wanted to make up for him. Ahan stood up, followed his mother back to the house and closed the door, and his mother whispered: "You, Be careful when you ride, don't worry me, you know?" Ah Han nodded before his anger and displeasure were swept away, and his heart was filled with irrepressible joy