the name engraved in your heart

The car Ahan picked was the most popular wind speed 125 at that time, and the TV commercial also invited the popular Wang Jie's high-pitched and passionate singing voice and passionate theme song. One and then got a temperament beauty like Ma Cuiru. In terms of color, he hesitated between the officially recommended yellow and the low-key black, and finally chose the former, just because he thought Birdy would prefer the bright and insolent yellow.

On the first day of leading the car, he happily asked Birdy out. The two let go and yelled at the same time on the seaside road in the evening. Hat, Birdy didn't even care.

In Wang Jie's music MV, didn't he and Ma Cuiru also wear hard hats?

Who would be so obedient and really wear a helmet while riding a bicycle?

"Do you like it?" Han turned around and showed off to Birdy, "Your car, as long as you like it!" Birdy shouted back, "From now on, this will be our car!" Han said, from now on, this will be their car.

In the future, they will have many, many things together.

After the test ride of the new car, they went to the cinema again at night to steal posters.

This time, he stole the poster of "Three Dads and One Baby". Birdy has never stolen a poster of a Chinese or Hong Kong movie. The beauties are never interested, and most of the posters I like are handsome male protagonists. At this time, it started to rain, Birdy cherished the posters, and looked worried. Han took off his shirt and asked him to wrap the posters.

Birdy smiled gratefully at him, and said, "I'm riding a bike, you help me protect the poster!" On the way home by bike, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, and Birdy was already soaked in the bike, so he took off his shirt. He even accelerated the speed of the car, yelling excitedly. Ahan hugged his naked upper body tightly with one hand, and carefully held the poster with the other hand. The rain kept hitting him, and he could only see patches of rough rain reflected by the headlights of the locomotive. He couldn't even see it, the whole world was filled with vast ocean and darkness, but he didn't feel cold or afraid at all. He heard the sound of the rain and Birdy's cries in his ears, as if there were only the two of them left in this world, tightly Snuggling, naked, he suddenly hoped that this journey would never end.

The rain was so heavy that Birdy had to stay overnight at Han's house after taking him home. The two drenched in a shower, lay on the bed in Han's room, chatted and fell asleep up.

Ah Han's mother passed by the door of the room and saw that the door was slightly open, and the electric fan was blowing directly on the two boys, fearing that they would catch cold if they were exposed to the rain and turned on the electric fan again, so they opened the door and walked in to adjust the electric fan a little. location, don’t blow on the two people, and then half-close the open window, so as not to let the rain into the house. Before leaving the room, she looked at the bed and saw the two fell asleep facing each other. Han stretched out a hand, Birdy She fell asleep with her pillow on his arm. She looked at the two children with a smile at first, but suddenly, she felt something was wrong.

But what was wrong, she couldn't tell for a while.

She just hoped she was worrying too much.

She left the room and closed the door, subconsciously not wanting others to see the scene in the room.

The slight sound of closing the door seemed to have disturbed Birdy. He turned around, and Ahan, who was sleeping next to him, stretched out his long legs and straddled him almost subconsciously. His upper body also rubbed against him, and hugged Birdy from behind. Even in his sleep, he didn't want to let go of Birdy＊

The summer vacation spent with Birdy is the sweetest and sweetest memory of Ahan's life. After the summer vacation, Ahan was promoted to the third year of high school.

In the world outside the campus, with the lifting of the law, the ban on the party and the newspaper, the power that has been suppressed for a long time in the whole society has finally burst out, and protest movements have begun to appear on the streets, fighting for more basic rights of the people.But Ah Han always feels that those things have nothing to do with him. Even if the government allows family visits on both sides of the strait, it is a matter of the previous generation. He was born and raised here, and his home is on this island, so it is impossible to have any involvement with that side. The lifting of the ban made him feel that the world was really different.In addition, the lifting of the ban on books and songs has also allowed students to come into contact with more diverse ideas and cultures.

Outside the campus, that era of turmoil is really going away.

On the first day of the semester, Ah Han returned to school. He had grown his hair a little longer, instead of a crew cut.

He found a towering barbed wire fence built on the campus. He looked at the fence in wonder, not knowing when it was built or what it was used for. After passing by, the boys on the other side of the wall immediately made a commotion. Ah Han suddenly realized.

Is this wall used to separate male and female students?

It's ridiculous, don't they meet these girls when they go to school and after school?

Make the school like a zoo, but now I don't know which side is the animal to admire.

Bus and Lao Fei saw Ah Han from a long distance, and immediately came over to say hello.

They also all grew their hair, and the bus specially ordered new uniforms, changing the original oversized trousers into the most fashionable nine-point narrow trousers. "You are not afraid of being caught!" I didn’t say it couldn’t be changed like this, so let’s talk about it when you get caught!” The bus replied that Lao Fei suddenly gave a look, and everyone looked over and found that Birdy was walking slowly from a distance.

The hair ban was lifted, and the male students grew their hair long, but Birdy still had a crew cut without any change.

The handsome chicken stared at Birdy and muttered: "Weird!" Birdy walked up to Ah Han, who smiled and reached out to touch his prickly crew cut.When Daba and the others saw this, they couldn't help but look sideways, wondering when did the relationship between the two become so good?So good...it makes them feel very wrong!

Birdy ignored the gazes of the bus and others, and walked to the barbed wire fence, looking at the female students curiously.

Lao Fei pulled Ah Han over and whispered to him: "Be careful of that weirdo!" The bus also came over and said: "If he dares to do anything to you, as long as you call, we will definitely rush over to help you! He looked at Birdy's back with contempt, and said, "It's better not to get close to this kind of person.

Such people.

In their eyes, what kind of person is Birdy?

Although in the past two years of high school and high school, he often hung out with Daba and the others, it was only because of the relationship between classmates and dormitories. For him, getting along with Daba and them was not so much friendship or peer friendship. It is an interpersonal coping.

Although the school environment is relatively simple, it also emphasizes realistic group relationships. If you are alone, you will be kicked out of the social circle over time. If you are more "special", you will easily become the target of bullying.

For example, that skinny schoolboy.

Ah Han smiled, put his arms around Birdy's shoulders in front of the bus and them, and said loudly: "Let's go!" The bus and others were stunned, and Lao Fei shouted: "Ah Han, why are you walking with him?" Ah Han I walked a few steps with my arms around Birdy's shoulders, and then turned around and said, "I'm in the same class as him in the social group now! If I don't go with him, where will I go?" Although I have entered the high-pressure senior year of high school, I have to start from scratch Preparing for the exams of the social group, but being in the same class as Birdy made Ah Han feel less depressed.

It was almost the middle of the term, and the school held a heavy singing competition, and they had to participate as high school seniors.Many high school seniors complained that practicing military songs took up a lot of precious reading time. Ah Han thought it was a chance to relax and was happy to join. Whenever he had free time, he would read the music score and even Birdy persuaded others to participate in military songs The students in the competition want to have a different performance during the competition, attract the attention of the referees, and expect to get high scores.

One day, when the bell rang for the end of get out of class, Birdy went to the welfare agency to buy snacks. Han stayed in the classroom and looked at the score. Suddenly there was a commotion outside the classroom, followed by the sound of something falling over. Birdy's embarrassed figure ran past, followed by the bus and the others chasing after him!

He immediately dropped the music score and rushed out, grabbed the slowest Shuai Chicken, and asked: "What are you doing?" "Leave it alone!" Shuai Chicken shook off his hand.

"Where did Birdy offend you?" Ah Han chased after him, "I just want to see him upset!" Shuai Ji replied to him at this time, the bus had already suppressed Birdy', and he kicked wildly with his fists, while Lao Fei kicked hard at the side, Ah Seeing this, Han jumped up in a hurry, covered Birdy's bus with his whole body and pulled Han away forcefully, saying, "We are helping you!" Running forward, the bus and others chased after him, and Ah Han also chased after him, wanting to help Birdy escape, so he chased and asked Birdy to run to the second floor, suddenly jumped onto the low wall next to the corridor, turned his head, and faced the bus Waiting for someone to smile, "Damn, you are going to jump off the building!" Lao Fei shouted.

The bus and others all stopped, not daring to act rashly again.

Birdy smiled, turned around, and stretched out his hands, like a big bird spreading its wings. At that moment, the young actor named Birdy in the movie "Birdman" appeared in Ahan's head, standing on the high wall Go up, open your hands, and then "Birdy!" Ah Han couldn't help shouting.

He doesn't really want to jump, does he?

At that moment, Birdy's figure had disappeared on the wall!

Everyone exclaimed and rushed to the wall to look down. Birdy actually jumped to the first floor without any injuries. Dancing happily, "What the hell are you doing?" Ah Han was furious, and pushed the bus hard, "Ah Han, you'd better not hang out with him in the future, otherwise people will think you are gay too!" The bus looked at Birdy , Contempt once again appeared on his face.

Such people.

Han suddenly understood.

Birdy on the first floor heard what they mean by "this kind of person" on the bus, and smiled wryly at Han, then turned and left slowly even though Han called him, he didn't look back.

Looking at the back of Birdy leaving silently, Ah Han suddenly had the illusion of being abandoned.

Birdy flew away from his arms like a bird.

And everything changed from that day on.

After school that day, Ah Han and Birdy went to wind band practice as usual.

Ah Han deliberately sat between Birdy and the bus, wanting to protect him. Although the bus and others are very upset, but with Father Ou around, it is not easy to get angry again. In addition, there is a junior high school girl coming to practice for the first time today, so they pay attention Most of the strength was also taken away, and I didn't have the intention to trouble Birdy with the girl's arrival. The boys couldn't help but feel a little distracted. Some were nervous, some were snickering, and some were playing abnormally. Seeing the wound on Birdy's face, Han felt very distressed. He secretly took out the ointment from his schoolbag and wanted to rub it on Birdy, but Birdy turned his head stiffly and said, "No need." I twitched, and at the same time as my heart beat faster, I felt a pain that could not breathe.

It was the first time Birdy had turned him down.

Probably, because he was bullied too badly by the bus and others, so he blamed him?

Ahan comforted himself like this and at the same time he wanted to stop worrying about it. "Then you take it!" He handed the ointment to Birdy. Birdy shook his head and smiled at him. He didn't take the ointment. Ahan could see that Birdy's smile was alienated from him. at a loss.

Why did Birdy suddenly treat him so coldly?

His first thought was, did he do something wrong?

At this time, the instructor suddenly walked in angrily, and the students immediately fell silent.

"Who allows boys and girls to practice together? Let me separate! Don't think that I can't control you if you are in the club!" The instructor said loudly. Say?" "Father, you don't know how perverted adolescents are! If they mess up like this, they won't be able to get into college!" The instructor said it seriously, as if these boys only had contact with girls. If you can fail the ranking, you are doomed to fail in life.

Father Ou retorted disapprovingly: "Study and lectures are two different things. You can ask them to study hard, but you should not separate them as prisoners!" Father Ou's tolerance for students has already caused the school to criticize. He came out to hold back his temper and said, "Father, can you not bother so much? Yes, God wants you to teach them love, but not to teach love between men and women! This is a school rule, priest, please don't trouble me!" Father Ou He did not give in at all, but took a step forward, as if to defend these children, saying: "This is a wind band, I am in charge, and I have my own method!" The instructor disagreed, saying: "Your management method , just to lock everyone in this basement and mess with the relationship between men and women? What the school is most worried about is places like bands, where boys and girls are locked together for a long time, who knows" "Does the instructor's speech have to be so ugly?" A slightly immature and clear female voice suddenly sounded.

Everyone looked at the owner of the voice, only to see a petite girl standing up, her face full of suppressed anger.

"Which eye of yours sees that my speech is ugly?" The instructor shouted back ferociously. No one likes their authority to be challenged, especially female students who in his eyes will only cause trouble.

The petite female student was not afraid, but replied seriously: "I heard it with my ears, I don't want to see it at all!" As soon as the words came out, the male students on the side snickered that the instructor was ugly, and the students secretly I also seldom joke about his appearance, but this is the first time someone often confronts the instructor's appearance.

Unable to lose face, the instructor walked up to the female students and asked, "Which class are you in? Who allows you to talk to the instructor like this?" "The instructor doesn't need to be so cruel to us! Why do you want to talk about us so badly?" The female students were not to be outdone to ask back.

"I don't say that, will you take it seriously?" the instructor said. Suddenly, Birdy stood up and interjected: "So separating the boys from the girls will prevent us from messing with men and women? What about going out of school? Do you want to trouble the instructor to divide the world outside the school into two sides? Like the barbed wire in the school?" When the connection was choked by two students, the instructor blushed with anger and yelled at Birdy: "What the hell are you talking about? West? This is the school! This is where you can go to college!" Birdy still had a provocative look on his face, and said, "Oh, so as long as you go to college, you don't need to learn other normal social activities, do you?" The instructor was very angry, and the reason was still the same: "You are students, you should abide by the school rules!" "So which one of the school rules stipulates that the seniors in the brass band should not teach the girls to play instruments?

Trouble the instructor find out and let me have a look? "Birdy laughed at the petite girl who stood up and yelled at the instructor at the beginning, and now she also chimed in: "If the school really stipulates this, then what's the point of us joining the brass band?" Ah Han couldn't help but feel a little nervous when he saw the two singing together. Is Birdy crazy?

They are already in their third year of high school, why bother to steal the limelight?

Could it be... Ah Han glanced at the petite female student, and suddenly felt an unprecedented strong jealousy in his heart. The instructor was speechless for a while when he was blocked by the rain man, and in a state of desperation, he pointed at the two of them, very threatening: "Okay! Very good! I've got my eye on you!" Ah Han hurriedly winked at Birdy, telling him to restrain himself, but Birdy actually said loudly, "Then please remember the instructor, I'm Xinban, a third-year senior, Wang Bode!" That The petite junior high school girl looked at Birdy, her eyes sparkled slightly, and she also said, "I am Class A of senior one, Wu Ruofei!" Several students seemed to agree with Birdy and wanted to get up. He blushed again and roared: "Who dares to say one more sentence!" Father Ou couldn't stand it anymore, and said: "Boys of this age are already curious about girls. Since the school wants to recruit female students, Boys and girls should learn how to get along well, why should they be so strict and limit their contact?" As soon as Father Ou finished speaking, the students around him immediately applauded enthusiastically!

Bus and Lao Fei cheered a few times on purpose.

Finally someone speaks their minds!

Father Ou walked to the door, gestured, and said, "Instructor, please leave, we have to continue practicing." The instructor wanted to show off, but was sulking, and couldn't come up with any other reasons to refute, and finally had to leave. .

When the young students saw the instructor being pissed off, they cheered a few more times. Birdy looked at the little Wu Ruofei with admiration in her eyes. She noticed Birdy's gaze, and turned her head to meet his eyes, revealing a shallow smile. With a slight smile, Ahan watched all this from the side, and the strong jealousy began to wrap around his heart like a poisonous snake, making him almost unable to breathe. He always thought that the world revolved around him and Birdy.

But from that day on, the world he thought of began to disintegrate.

The naked reality finally came to light. The next day, during lunch time, Ah Han came to the restaurant, deliberately looking for Birdy. Birdy ignored him this morning, even if he was a classmate, he shouldn't be so alienated, right?

Birdy sat alone at the long table in the corner eating Chinese food. Ahan carried the plate and walked over to sit down. Birdy glanced at him, didn't even greet him, and didn't even smile on his face, just buried his head and continued to gorge .

Why did he suddenly become so indifferent?

Had he really done something wrong so Birdy punished him like this on purpose?

"What's the matter?" Ah Han asked in a muffled voice, "What's the matter?" Birdy ate as if nothing had happened, "Why have you been doing this these two days?" Ah Han looked at Birdy, and found that the other party was obviously avoiding his questioning gaze, "Didn't our summer vacation go well? Did I do something wrong?" Birdy picked up the bowl and drank the soup in one gulp, interrupting him: "I just think that the entrance exam is about to come and we should work harder!" Ah Han wryly smiled, Said: "I'm working hard, but you have to be more serious!" No, this is not the reason that Birdy is just perfunctory him, but Han has no courage to expose Birdy's lies, because he is afraid of knowing the truth.

Yu repeatedly, Ah Han still said: "I think...wouldn't it be better for you to talk less with the students? So as not to be troubled by the instructors?" Birdy has never been, and he especially likes to challenge school rules. He has long been regarded by teachers and instructors. Headache character.

Birdy finally raised his eyes to look at Han, with a disapproving expression on his face, and even frowned, saying, "How are you different from those annoying instructors?" Han was speechless for a while.

This was the first time Birdy denied him, and it was so direct and merciless.

This is actually very similar to Birdy's style. Birdy has always expressed his opinions on things he is not used to. He hates those outdated rules. See him that way too.

It felt like he was originally in a high heaven, enjoying a unique status, and now he was demoted to the world by Birdy, and he was on the same level as all other ordinary and boring humans in Birdy's eyes.

Ah Han really wanted to argue, he didn't mean that, he just hoped that Birdy would stop causing trouble, but Birdy had already stood up with a cold face, picked up the plate and left. Ah Han sat on the seat and looked at his back, feeling unprecedentedly lonely suddenly He found that someone was watching him and turned his head. It was the skinny elementary school boy who had been bullied by the bus and others. He was sitting at the dining table not far away, staring at him.

There were many more scars on the junior's face. When the junior came out of the restaurant, Ahan who was hiding in the corner stopped him with his hand.

The junior came up to him, and he looked at the wound on his face, and couldn't bear to ask, "Why... did the bus do it?" The junior smiled indifferently, and said, "It was done by another class. Yes." He pointed to the bruise at the corner of his mouth, "This is what our class hit with a brick and here - he showed the scars on his body one by one, as if showing off his medal.

But Ah Han turned his face away subconsciously, he didn't want to see the scars that made him feel uncomfortable at such a close distance, he could clearly see how hideous those scars were, and felt even more guilty in his heart, condemning him for being punished by his junior. The bullying actually chose to turn a blind eye.

He obviously knew everything about why those people bullied his junior, but he didn't want to stand up.Maybe it's because he's actually afraid that the secret deep inside himself will be discovered by those bullies...

"Senior, do you have anything to do with me?" The junior asked Ah Han, only then did he remember his purpose after he regained his composure.

"That... I want to ask you..." He stopped talking for a while, and then asked in a low voice, "When did you find out that you only like boys?" The junior's eyes flashed, and he looked at him provocatively. Not afraid, he said: "Why is it bothering you? Do you want to hit me too?" Ah Han quickly shook his head, thinking that maybe the way he asked was wrong, so he asked a question: Have you ever thought about having a girlfriend? "After hearing this, the junior student wanted to laugh at people who knew his sexual orientation, either spurned him or tried to change him, but he was born to like boys, and he couldn't change it.

He looked at Ahan, getting closer and closer, Ahan was a little surprised, but he didn't dodge.

The junior suddenly held Ah Han's face with both hands, and wanted to kiss him forcefully. Han was frightened, and tried desperately to break free, but found that the junior's strength was unexpectedly strong, just when their lips were about to stick together , the junior let go of him and laughed.

Ah Han was embarrassed, turned around and wanted to escape, but his junior called him: "Senior, I have known that I like boys since I was a child, and I have never changed." Han was stunned, turned his head, the junior looked at him, obviously The junior is the one being bullied, but at this moment he looks at Han with sympathy.

Ah Han felt a slight soreness in his chest.

Maybe in this school, the thin and small student in front of him is the one who really understands him.The two stared at each other silently, then the junior turned his head and left.

Ah Han stood where he was, looking at the back of his apprentice leaving, unable to control himself for a long time.