sun washed by spring rain

18. (10)

The summer vacation was coming to an end when the summer was coming to an end, and it was time for Yan Qianming to return to school to continue his studies. Fortunately, after this period of time, the storm of the accident has calmed down a lot, and Yan Qianming did not hide in vain.

Zhang Ke worked for a summer, and gave Yan Qianming all his salary, but that salary was obviously far from enough for Yan Qianming's father's medical expenses in the hospital.And at this time, the former rich son finally understood what it meant to be a penny that stumped a hero.

This period of time is basically a bad memory in life for both of them.There are many reasons for Yan Qianming, such as the huge gap from rich to poor in an instant.His first love girlfriend and friends left one after another when he was in trouble.Freedom is restricted, and I feel anxious and fearful every day.And... the guilt and boredom of having a physical relationship with Zhang Ke without knowing the relationship... In short, for Yan Qianming, this period of time is really indescribably dark.

Zhang Ke is also having a hard time...Since that time, he seems to be getting deeper and deeper. Even though he knows that Yan Qianming still has no love for him, he still can't help but fantasize, almost paranoidly greedy for every bit of it. The warmth generated between the two, even though it was insignificant, even though it was not real.

After that, the two had two more relationships. I don't know who took the initiative, but neither of them refused in the end... Maybe it was the psychology of cuddling each other to keep warm, or it was a kind of comfort to the empty heart.And the only thing that can be determined is the love of only one side...

Yan Qianming and Zhang Ke had no protective measures for the first time, and neither did they for the last two times. It may be that the perfect physical fit will make both of them feel a sufficient sense of security, or they may think that it is good for men to have fun. , why bother.But there is one thing, Zhang Ke deceived Yan Qianming...

It would be a lie to say that he is not worried or afraid. About Yan Qianming’s last question about whether he has a sporty physique, Zhang Ke reacted for a while, and subconsciously said no.In fact, Zhang Ke already knew his situation clearly before the college entrance examination did not have a physical examination, but no one has ever mentioned this matter. It has been so long that he almost forgot it, and Yan Qianming's impulsive He didn't expect that, until he was reminded like that, he reacted in astonishment.

Yan Qianming's worries and concerns are understandable, and now there really can't be any accidents in this situation, and between the two men... Yan Qianming has always had a hurdle in his heart...so after that time, Zhang Ke Immediately went to buy contraceptives... After that, I bought some pregnancy test papers and was always prepared in a panic. In order to prevent Yan Qianming from becoming suspicious, there were no protective measures for the next two sexes, and Zhang Ke did not refuse... As for the pregnancy test Paper, after trying several times, there is no response, Zhang Ke is glad on the one hand, but on the other hand feels a little lost...

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Yan Qianming's summer vacation was over, and Zhang Ke also took the train back to City A with him, returning to the place where they had been together for three years.

Speaking of which, this was Yan Qianming's first time making a train.The green-skinned train was running very slowly. Originally, it only took two or three hours to get back to City A by plane, but now, he had to sit on a hard seat on the train for a whole day and night.

In order to save money, the hard seat was bought by Yan Qianming on his own initiative, and it is only now that he knows that the fare of the plane is several times that of the train.

Yan Qianming is also considered a person with perseverance. Originally, for Zhang Ke, who is so spoiled like him and has never been on a train, if he is asked to sit on a hard seat for a day and a night, he must have yelled and shouted as early as halfway. I had asked the conductor a long time ago, and planned to give Yan Qianming a hard sleeper when he couldn't stand it anymore, but I didn't expect Yan Qianming to persevere all the way without saying a word, even though he got out of the car afterwards because his legs and feet were swollen because he couldn't get used to sitting for the first time He got up and complained a few words, but Zhang Ke still looked at him with admiration.

In the senior year, there are basically only half a semester of courses, and it is time to prepare for graduation and job hunting. While preparing for these, Yan Qianming also has to consider economic issues. After returning home, he is very busy, and he has not seen Zhang Ke again However, when Zhang Ke saw Yan Qianming again, the track of the future changed its direction again...

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The weather is getting colder again, and Zhang Kena's work at the hotel is not going well. The hotel's foreman is a middle-aged man, and he has been harassing him from time to time recently...

It seems that the two haven't seen each other for a long time, and this time Zhang Ke couldn't help but take the initiative to find Yan Qianming, without informing him in advance, thinking that if he was busy, it would be better to watch secretly.

Zhang Ke walked halfway, unexpectedly saw Yan Qianming at the entrance of an empty alley on the side of the road.The man was wearing a suit, leaning on the wall and bending over, vomited at the trash can at the entrance of the alley, Zhang Ke frowned and trotted two steps closer.

The man's face was obviously abnormally red, and the strong smell of alcohol could be smelled from the man's body from a long distance away.

"Hey, you are here..." Zhang Ke walked over and patted Yan Qianming's back and asked hesitantly.It's just that before the question was finished, Yan Qianming, who turned around after hearing the sound, was startled.

The man didn't know whether it was because he just bowed his head, vomited and congested, or because he didn't have enough sleep, his eyes were bloodshot and damp.Now he was looking at this side with these wet eyes. After seeing the person clearly, after reacting for a while, he suddenly seemed to take off all the camouflage, and the whole person slid against the wall and sat on the ground with an expression Twisted, as if crying in the next second.

19. (11)

The sun had quietly set at some point, and occasional gusts of cold wind blew past the ears. Few people on the road tightened their collars and walked in a hurry.

Zhang Ke looked at Yan Qianming who was sitting at the entrance of the alley with a decadent expression on his face, and he couldn't help feeling angry again.

"What's the matter with you?" Zhang Ke said this in a blunt tone, not at all hiding his dislike of Yan Qianming's current appearance.

"I... I went to find a job... Shit, those people are really fucking inferior, I am like a grandson in front of them! When did I suffer this kind of wronged! And those so-called friends, In the past, everyone fawned on me, please me, MD, I didn’t know how much money I spent to invite them to play, but now it’s so good, everyone sees me like seeing the plague god, and I dare not even dare to borrow money Let it go! I'm so fucking blind!" Yan Qianming obviously drank too much wine, his face was flushed, and he vomited bitterly unscrupulously with the strength of the wine.Zhang Ke took a deep breath, as if he saw the half-dead man in the bar a few months ago, drinking away his worries.

Zhang Ke leaned over and squatted beside him, frowning.

"What? Now you finally feel the cruelty of reality! You used to be able to rely on your father to be rich! Now you have nothing? Let me tell you, you want to do well outside. If you have no money or power, you have to pretend to be a grandson Look at you, dumped next to the trash can, it’s really no different from trash!” Zhang Ke said harsh words, he is not good at speaking nice words, let alone comforting others, he wants to wake up Yan Qianming now , so that he can face up to himself, and don't feel like the sky is falling when he is wronged. Now that he has no backing, he has to learn to be independent.

"Even you look down on me, don't you! You've finally spoken your mind, right! You think I'm nothing but a piece of trash! What about you, you can bear it, and you're not being fucked by my piece of trash!"

Zhang Ke's eyes widened, and he couldn't believe that the words came out of his mouth. As soon as Yan Qianming finished speaking, he felt a sharp pain in his cheek, and then there was a whirlwind.Zhang Ke had already stood up, just looking at him with an angry face, his right hand trembling slightly.

"Yes! I'm not capable at all, what can I do? But I just can't understand how useless you are! Do you think drinking and drinking will solve the problem? Oh, I'm a bitch to let you fuck, but I'm It's cheap!" Zhang Ke was also mad with anger, what Yan Qianming said was really heartless, looking down on him?If you look down on him, you won't do so much for him!

Yan Qianming, who fell on the ground, rubbed his swollen and painful cheeks. This was the third time Zhang Ke hit him, and it seemed that he was merciless every time he hit him. Yan Qianming was in a daze for a while, and finally raised his head, but saw When Zhang Ke turned around and was about to leave.

"Don't go! I was wrong, don't go, if you go, I really have nothing, don't go..." Yan Qianming still fell on the ground, crawled over and hugged Zhang Ke's feet without thinking Wrist, completely forgetting his dignity, he hugged desperately, not giving the man a chance to break free.

Yan Qianming's tone was full of pleading, Zhang Ke seemed to be frozen there, he couldn't take this step, although he sneered at Yan Qianming's decadent appearance, but now Yan Qianming is more like a Poor child, he couldn't help feeling distressed.

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After that night, Yan Qianming seemed to have learned a lot, and he no longer complained easily. He was actively submitting resumes and interviewing for jobs all day while preparing his graduation thesis. He seemed to be more energetic.On the contrary, Zhang Ke gradually became sad, with bitter brows.

This day is still the same as usual, the hotel has passed the peak passenger flow at noon, and the chefs and employees are sitting together to eat.Zhang Ke sat alone in a corner with a lunch box, poking his chopsticks back and forth in the lunch box as if he had no appetite, and sighed softly from time to time.

"Why are you sitting here alone, do you feel that today's food is not delicious?"

A person's voice suddenly appeared above his head. Zhang Ke was startled. When he realized it, this person had already sat next to him. It was the employee foreman who had paid special attention to him these days.

"No, no. I'm just not hungry..." Zhang Ke responded and lowered his head not to look at him.

"Have you encountered any difficulties recently? Are you short of money?" The middle-aged man's voice was filled with a smile, and Zhang Ke felt a chill behind him, feeling that it was not a good thing for this man to pay so much attention to him recently.

"No, no!" Zhang Ke answered him subconsciously. In order to hide his nervousness, he began to eat the food in front of him with big mouthfuls.

"After all, you are a young man, all your thoughts are on your face! Don't be so nervous, I won't eat you, on the contrary, I can help you." The man looked at Zhang Ke and smiled slightly. When he said this, he was deliberately low He lowered his head and leaned close to Zhang Ke's ear.

"Thank you foreman, I think I don't need other people's help now..." Zhang Ke swallowed the food in his mouth. He felt extremely uncomfortable being too close to unfamiliar people, and instinctively moved aside hide.

"Don't say it too early. With your current income, it will take several years to solve the predicament... You have waited... Have you waited for other factors? And young people, you have to learn in due course Use the capital you have, don't be content with the status quo..." The man paused in the middle of his words, as if there was something in his words.

"What do you mean!" Zhang Ke frowned, he didn't like this kind of beating around the bush very much.

"It's just... I have another job here. It may take a little sacrifice, but it will definitely help you make a lot of money in a short period of time!" The man said excitedly, even raising his eyebrows.

Zhang Ke lowered his head again. He didn't intend to talk to him anymore, but he couldn't help but want to ask him what kind of job he is... Maybe the foreman has observed him for so long, just to confirm that he really needs money now at this point.

"I don't do things that go against my conscience!" Intuition told Zhang Ke, where in the world is there such a good thing that the sky will fall, and you can make a lot of money in a short period of time?Don't try to drag him into the water with some anti-human business.

"Hahahaha." Unexpectedly, after hearing Zhang Ke's words, the man laughed out loud. After laughing, he looked left and right, and then whispered something in Zhang Ke's ear.

"This..." Zhang Ke's expression suddenly became strange after hearing this, and a layer of blush was unconsciously smeared on his face.

"It's not something that violates conscience! I'm only looking for you based on your suitability. You really need to think about it carefully. You don't have to do it. I don't force people." The man smiled again after speaking, and then stood up He patted Zhang Ke on the shoulder, turned around and left.

Zhang Ke sat there alone again, his eyes were empty, as if his heart was beating faster.

20. (12)

It is still very strange that Yan Qianming came to Zhang Ke on his own initiative, especially when he was so busy recently.

It seems that the job search is still not going well. Yan Qianming's mood is not high, but he is not like before, complaining about others and giving up on himself.

This time, Yan Qianming helped students from the same school build a few websites and earned some extra money. Thinking that their life was too miserable recently, he pulled Zhang Ke and thought about eating something good.

Originally, Zhang Ke wanted to persuade Yan Qianming not to waste money if he had money, but to save it, but since these days, Yan Qianming's life seems to be worse than him, and the whole person has lost weight because of these things.Thinking about it, he hasn't had a good meal recently, and he doesn't want to spoil his interest. Besides, it's not bad if he has money or not.

In fact, it was a good meal, and the two of them just came to the dumpling restaurant where Yan Qianming invited Zhang Ke to dinner last time. Unexpectedly, now Yan Qianming has learned to live on a budget... and Zhang Ke still remembers this place, I can still remember the last time they discussed going to a concert here...

Yan Qianming might not have had a good meal for a long time. He ate two whole plates of steamed beef dumplings by himself, while Zhang Ke didn't seem to have much appetite, so he couldn't eat any more after trying a few.

"Hey, why don't you eat? Are you hungry?" Zhang Ke ate voraciously, but he still hadn't swallowed what was in his mouth. He looked up at Zhang Ke, feeling that he was preoccupied and thoughtful.

"Well... I'm not very hungry, you eat slowly, I won't fight with you..." Zhang Ke smiled, looking at Yan Qianming with distressed eyes.

"Hey, I know you won't snatch it from me. In fact, it's interesting to grab it when it comes to eating!" Yan Qianming also smiled, and then took a sip of dumpling soup.

Zhang Ke didn't answer him, just watched, and when Yan Qianming was completely full, the two started talking again.Yan Qianming was a little dull looking at Zhang, so he took the initiative to speak this time.

"Well... I also have something to tell you this time." Yan Qianming glanced at Zhang Ke, and found that he was staring at him, without any intention of interrupting, and continued: "The job search is not going well these days... I think, Start your own business."

"Start your own business?" Zhang Ke finally responded.

Yan Qianming nodded. "Well, the current job is not particularly easy to find. Even if a fresh graduate finds a job, there will be a long internship period. I can't wait that long now. Although my mother is now borrowing money everywhere, my father has enough treatment fee, but it is not an option to continue like this. The treatment cannot be interrupted, and the money cannot be borrowed all the time, and what is borrowed must always be repaid, and there is interest, so I want to start a business, which can be faster, so these days I'm not looking for a job, I'm looking for investors...but investors don't seem to be easy to find..."

Yan Qianming lowered his head again as he spoke, and he didn't have the confidence to say the last sentence.

"Starting a business...will be very risky..." Zhang Ke asked tentatively.

"Indeed, but now I have to choose to take the risk, and I will really go crazy if I wait like that..." Yan Qianming's tone suddenly became agitated. He didn't know that starting a business was too risky, but this was the only one he came up with. There is a way.

"Trust me!" Yan Qianming suddenly raised his head again with a firm expression on his face.

"Of course I believe you... Then, if you start a business... how much will it cost?"

Zhang Ke asked, here Yan Qianming froze again. "It's worth hundreds of thousands... I've already written a plan, and I believe someone will appreciate it! Hey, let's not talk about it, do you still eat it? If you don't eat it, I'll pack it up, save it A breakfast."

Zhang Ke nodded and pulled the corners of his mouth reluctantly.

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Time flies, and Christmas is approaching in a blink of an eye. It seems that every Christmas will make the weather extraordinarily cold, and this year is no exception.

It seems that Yan Qianming's entrepreneurial plan has not made much progress. Although the plan has been drawn up and several other freshmen have been attracted to follow him, it is all empty talk if there is no funding.Yan Qianming frowned almost every day, and the energy he had finally accumulated was almost exhausted... He couldn't sleep at night, feeling like he was doing nothing, but he was always clenching his teeth hard, at least in Zhang Ke's life. It seems so.Ever since Zhang Ke gave Yan Qianming a slap in the face, it seems that Yan Qianming has never complained in front of Zhang Ke... He really wants to make up his mind, and he doesn't want others to look down on him...

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Zhang Ke asked for leave from the hotel, and he is going to give an answer today... He has thought about it for a long time... To say that at first he thought this decision was absurd, but after so long, the change of that person He sees it all, wishing to divide one day into two days, and wishing to divide one meal into two meals, it seems that he hasn't smiled happily for a long time, and he will never talk to him again when he encounters difficulties and grievances... Zhang doesn't know Should he be happy that Yan Qianming didn't tell him any troubles anymore, did he really not want him to worry, or... that person was scared by his over-motivating words? ...But he obviously wanted to help him share the burden...

Zhang Ke shook his head and smiled wryly. He suddenly felt a little disgusted by the dampness and coldness that seemed to penetrate the bones in this season in this city.

"Have you really thought about it?" The foreman of the hotel staff led Zhang Ke to stand in front of the door of a big house. The cold air around made his words obviously form a trace of mist in the air.The environment here is a suburban area, which looks deserted, but the roads around the house are clean and tidy, as if there is no dust at all.

Zhang Ke nodded dully, then followed the foreman into the house.

"Let me tell you, don't be afraid. This family is a very rich and big family with their own family business. This time, they are forced to find a surrogate. It is fate. The young head of the family, the husband and wife The two had an accident while traveling, the woman died on the spot, and the man also became a vegetable. It is said that the brain damage is too serious and he may not live long. The only thing left for everyone is an old lady. The owner's mother, she, wants to leave a queen for his son. I heard that her dead daughter-in-law has been difficult to give birth to, and she has frozen her eggs before. This time, the old lady asked a doctor to take his son's The sperm needs to be artificially inseminated to form a fertilized egg, so why not find someone quickly..."

Entering the yard of this house, the man seemed to be worried that the quiet atmosphere would scare Zhang Ke, so he kept talking. The yard is very big. The two walked for a long time. When they reached the door of the house, Zhang Ke suddenly stopped. pace.He finally spoke his question.

"Why don't you find a woman?"

The man paused and said, "It's not because the fertilized egg is too fragile to wait. The doctor said that the woman's body is not strong enough, and I'm afraid she won't be able to support her... Hey, don't worry, your body is so good, you must No problem, let's go..."

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Zhang Ke swears that he really has the urge to escape desperately now, sitting opposite him is a woman who looks very young but is actually over 50 years old, and is using a penetrating gun at this time. Her eyes looked him up and down, in her eyes, Zhang Ke almost felt that he was...

After that, a man in a white coat appeared and asked him many questions, including many private ones...Have you ever had a child before, and have you ever had sexual experience... Zhang Ke took a deep breath and answered them one by one with a blushing face. Then I heard the woman who had been very serious on the opposite side speak.

"We will give you a physical examination first, and if it is ok, we will start the contract. This contract is for a period of one year. During this year, after the embryo transfer operation is successful, we will arrange your accommodation and provide all the items you need during pregnancy. Find a special person to take care of you until you give birth to your child and take care of your body. During this period, you cannot communicate with the outside world. Everything must follow the arrangement. Although you are a surrogate, the child has no blood relationship with you. If there is any relationship, we will give you 40 yuan after the matter is completed, and we will give you a down payment of [-] yuan first, and sign if you agree." The woman spoke without the slightest emotion, and Zhang Ke shuddered.

"I...I want 50!" Zhang Ke was a little trembling, but he still mustered up the courage to say something.

The woman opposite raised her eyebrows and looked at him meaningfully.

"Hey! You kid, you still have to push your feet. You go and find out, those places outside can give so much money! It's not enough! Tell you, don't force them to find someone else!" The hotel head waiter looked at the place. The woman's face, speaking excitedly, seemed to be afraid that the other party would suddenly regret it.

"You can't wait any longer, can't you... Since you have been dragging on for so long, you still haven't found a suitable candidate... I, I will follow the arrangement, but I need so much, the first payment, give me 20 first!" Zhang Ke Staring at the woman and suppressing his nervousness, he was betting.

"Okay, but if the result of the physical examination shows that you are not suitable, or if there is any deviation in the process...then, you will be responsible."