I'm not the only one in the mountain

For a long time, Xiao Greed huddled in Gu Donghe's arms, motionless, curled up into a ball with his eyes open, and Gu Donghe groped along his back one after another. When he realized it, it was already dark.

"Are you hungry? I bought something to eat. Have some?"

Xiao Greed's reaction was a little sluggish, as if he didn't understand what he said, his eyes rolled a bit, and his expression was a little confused.

"Are you hungry? Have something to eat?" Gu Donghe coaxed him slowly and patiently, "It will hurt my stomach."

Xiao Greed finally moved slightly, and nodded slightly.

Gu Donghe heaved a sigh of relief - at least he didn't insist on making trouble with his body.

Carefully put one hand through the bend of the knee, and support the back with the other hand, stabilizing the person on the pillow.

He had hugged him before, but this time it was obviously much lighter, and his bones were protruding and painful.

Gu Donghe came in after heating up the food in the microwave, turned on the light, and saw Xiao Greed staring at him with bloodshot eyes.

"Let's rest after eating," Gu Donghe said, feeling the pain in his heart that he had finally suppressed, and he was ready to move.

Xiao Greed sat up silently, he just felt tired all over, for no reason.

I have no energy, I want to sleep, my head is still dizzy, and I don't want to talk.

And Gu Donghe just fed it mouthful, pretending to be something heavy in his heart.

Gu Donghe leaned over and kissed Xiao Lian on his forehead after changing the medicine in his hands. Looking at the white gauze wrapping his arms, his eyes gradually became gloomy, and the corners of his lips no longer faced Xiao Lian. Instead of being gentle when greedy, it is straight, sharp and indifferent.

He picked up his phone and walked out of the room, and his whole person changed instantly.

Putting away the gentleness and caution in front of Xiao Greed, his face sank, his straight back was as sharp as a blade.

The coldness around him made people shudder.

He called Song Li again and briefly told about Xiao Greed's situation.

Song Li was silent for a long time, and finally expressed his judgment.

"...PTSD."

PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

Gu Donghe listened calmly, it was almost as he had guessed.

That's probably why Xiao Greed went to see a psychiatrist at the beginning, but the psychological problems couldn't be completely resolved after all.

Even now, he is unwilling to do things that seem futile to him.

Just muddle through, live casually and negatively.

Gu Donghe didn't know much about this area. After all, he wasn't a professional. He could only give a rough idea if he asked Song Li. If he wanted to find a doctor, I'm afraid Xiao Greed would not be willing.

Difficult.

Gu Donghe rubbed the center of his eyebrows tiredly, and let out a long breath.

But at least you know what the problem is.

He comforted himself, hung up the phone and opened the chat software.

A long list of Lin Su's messages lay on the phone, Gu Donghe sneered and turned them off without even looking at them.

The price you need to pay cannot be less at all.

I will double the pain you inflicted on Xiao Greed.

Gu Donghe dialed a number.

Don't try to escape.

"Hello, Lao Zhong." The phone was connected, "Help me make an appointment."

The night shrouded the land, and when the lights came on, it was time for the show to begin.

The fierceness and coldness in his eyes faded within a few seconds of opening the door. Gu Donghe took his clothes to take a shower, came back and lay down next to Xiao Lie, took the curled up person into his arms, and gently rubbed against him. The man's cheek.

A long sigh fell into the darkness, with trepidation, and faint expectations.

Fall asleep together.

Gu Donghe was awakened at night, and felt that Xiao Greed beside him was not sleeping soundly, his body twitched unconsciously, his head rolled back and forth on the pillow, his hands hit Gu Donghe's body, probably touching the wound, and there was a sound or two from his lips. A soft moan.

Gu Donghe didn't have time to put on his coat, turned over and hugged him in his arms, gently patted his back and coaxed him, and finally calmed down, but Gu Donghe couldn't fall asleep.

Xiao Greed huddled sideways beside him, lost his usual aura of baring his teeth and waving his claws, the coldness between his brows dissipated, his facial features softened, he looked pitifully like a bullied puppy.

The little wolf dog who was making waves outside looked like this when he was injured and weak.

Gu Donghe just felt that no matter what kind of Xiao Greed, he made himself miserable.

I love his ability to deal with people with ease, his long-sleeved dancing skills, his squinting and sneering smiles that are seductive and charming but not coquettish, I also love his obedient and gentle softness in my arms, and love his stubborn and lonely licking wounds alone.

Gu Donghe thought, his life was a disaster.

Who can not love such a gentle, proud, stubborn and seductive soul.

If the world doesn't understand, why bother telling others.

He straightened his back, put away all the fragility and grievances, covered up the unspeakable anguish, and only taught people to see him as romantic and hearty, to see him as sharp and rational, to see him call friends and make friends, and to see him come and go freely and carefree.

I can't bear it, so I can go.

But in life, it is not enough to go through it.

Things that come over but can't let go are like dormant demons, ready to bite back at any time.

Xiao Greed's backlash was not God's will, it was man-made, and it came vigorously, dripping with blood.

Because he can't let it go, can't take it off, so people can take advantage of it.

Gu Donghe didn't feel sleepy anymore, so he sat on the head of the bed with his legs propped up and one arm resting on top, thinking quietly.

He wanted to smoke, but he definitely couldn’t do it inside the house, and he was afraid that Xiao Greed would have another nightmare and couldn’t go out. Gu Donghe rubbed his fingers a little irritatedly, and even thought about why those people would die, but his reason stopped him. He, he can't let something happen to him.

Although Xiao Greed didn't completely accept him, he could still think that if he pulled away at this time, it would be too cruel to Xiao Greed.

Xiao Greed needs to come out by himself, but he cannot lose his reason to come out.

He closed his heart because there is no one who can understand. Xiao Li clearly knows that there is no empathy in the world, and he doesn't expect others to understand and tolerate.

It's too extravagant for others to say "understand".

Either it's the blood dripping from the heart, or it's a one-in-a-million risky attempt.

Xiao Greed didn't know who could understand him, but he knew very well how difficult it was to meet someone who could understand.

Just forget it, Xiao Greed can't afford such a risk.

Gu Donghe didn't know that Xiao Greed didn't know how to gamble, he was already broken and put together with difficulty, and only then did he put together the Xiao Greed who was talking and laughing on the surface.

So he can only take the initiative, even if he cruelly tells those sealed facts, just to tell Xiao Greed that he is that person.

The one who understands and tolerates everything about him.

Gu Donghe sat until dawn, watching the sunlight streaming in through the curtains.

Xiao Greed moved, as if disturbed by the light, Gu Donghe patted him on the shoulder to comfort him: "Sleep a little longer? I'll cover it for you."

The eyelashes fluttered, and when he opened his eyes, Xiao Lian waited for a while before opening his mouth: "What day is it?"

Gu Donghe was taken aback: "Thursday."

"Oh."

Xiao Greed didn't seem to have woken up yet, and after answering, he fell silent again.

"I'm going to buy breakfast, why don't you rest for a while?" Gu Donghe lifted the quilt and stood up, but was grabbed by the corner of his clothes.

"Don't go..." Xiao Greed buried his face in the quilt, unable to see his expression, "Stay with me for a while... okay?"

The three words "cautiously" were like a needle pricking Gu Donghe's heart, the pain was slight but clear.

"it is good."

Gu Donghe returned to the bed and lay down on his back. Xiao Greed immediately leaned over, put his hands on his shoulders, and leaned his face against the side of his neck. Gu Donghe could feel the warm breath blowing on his skin, and his body was honest to him. respond.

"You are actually hard."

Xiao Greed may feel better after venting his emotions, and he has more trust in Gu Donghe than ordinary people, so he opened his mouth.

"If a man is in bed with someone he likes, if he doesn't respond," Gu Donghe was slightly relieved when he saw that he was willing to tease himself, and lowered his voice to tease him, "Either he doesn't love him, or he doesn't want to. "

Xiao Greed lowered his head and smiled, with a strong nasal voice.

"Gu Donghe, what do you like about me?"

"Are you a little girl?" Gu Donghe also smiled.

"What do you like about me?" Xiao Greed asked persistently.

"I like you to laugh, I like you to cry, I like you to be good-looking, I like you to have a great figure, I like you... hey!"

Before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by Xiao Lian's slap on the stomach.

"You don't have to murder me even if you don't like me?"

Gu Donghe pretended to be wronged and smiled bitterly.

Xiao Greed slowly withdrew his hand and remained silent.

There was a long silence, neither of them spoke.

"I...I may not be able to like someone right now, Gu Donghe, I still can't do it now."

"If you want to ask me when I like you, I can't tell." Gu Donghe ignored what he said, and started another topic on his own, "I don't believe in love at first sight, but I just think about it a lot. , and suddenly found that I fell in love with it.”

Gu Donghe turned over to face Xiao Greed and lay on his side: "So why do I like you? I don't know the answer to this question myself."

"Things that have no cause will not end for this reason."

"As for my feelings for you, there is no reason and no end."

"How long I can wait, I can afford to wait."

"I won't go, if I want to go, I will get closer and closer."

Xiao Greed looked into his eyes, the man's appearance could be regarded as masculine, but the tenderness in his eyes seemed to overflow, his tone was firm, his voice was low, and every word sounded on his heart.

His nose was a little sore, Xiao Li felt that he had cried too much recently.

"You look like a scumbag to me."

"Scumbags are scumbags, I like you scumbags too." Gu Dong put his hand on the back of his head and rubbed it gently.

"Are you the affectionate second male lead in a bloody romance drama?"

"Just be your male second."

Xiao Greed really didn't know what to say, his illness hadn't healed yet, and his mind seemed to be failing.

"... Nauseous, I can't bear it."

He carried it on his back, leaving the back of Gu Donghe's head dark.

Gu Dong and Ren Jun couldn't help but said, "We still have to eat breakfast, if we are sleepy, we can sleep a little longer, I'll buy it and call you."

"Go away."

Xiao Greed ruthlessly chased him away.

So Gu Donghe took his wallet and went out, and before leaving, he didn't forget to grab Xiao Greed and kiss him.

Xiao Greed was caught off guard, he didn't expect him to come out, and he was stunned.

When he realized that there was no sign of Gu Donghe, he could only grab the bed sheet and curse secretly.

Gu Dong and you bitch.

Grass.