I'm not the only one in the mountain

"Why haven't you slept yet?"

In the evening, Gu Donghe walked into the room after taking a shower, and saw Xiao Greed staring out the window in a daze.

"Can't sleep."

"Are you often insomnia?"

"Ah."

Xiao Greed turned to look at him, and moved to make room for him.

"That's great, give me some space."

Gu Donghe smiled, lifted the quilt unceremoniously and sat in.

Xiao Greed didn't answer him, and he did it out of habit.

This person has only been around for a long time, and he has already formed a habit that he basically never thought of before.

"Don't you need to take care of the company?" He looked at Gu Donghe holding the computer and started typing, "You should be very busy at the end of the year, right?"

"Yeah." Gu Donghe kept opening the mailbox in his hand, "But it's almost done. I worked overtime a while ago and did a little bit. I just finished a relatively big project. It just happens that the Chinese New Year is coming so I don't get too tired. gone."

Xiao Greed responded, not knowing what to say, he had held his breath alone for so many years, and suddenly stepped on the ground, lying on the bed at night, and there was someone beside him who could say a few words at any time. The never-before-seen scene left him a little at a loss.

"What are you thinking about?"

Gu Dong and Yu Guang caught a glimpse of this person starting to be in a daze again, fearing that he was thinking about something unhappy again.

"No." Xiao Greed slipped into the quilt, lay down, looked at the ceiling, "thinking about myself."

"What do you want to do?"

Xiao Greed shrank his head under the quilt, only showing a pair of eyes: "Think about what I can do."

Gu Donghe blinked at him for a few seconds before reacting, and smiled: "You..."

With a flick of his finger, he pressed the send button, and said, "Is there anything I can do? Just do it if you think about it."

Xiao Greed sneered: "Mr. Gu doesn't seem like such a naive person."

"I'm naive. I have no ideals other than pursuing a better life."

While discussing things with his subordinates, Gu Donghe talked nonsense with him.

Xiao Greed "cut" and ignored him.

"Do you know why people keep climbing up the ladder?" Gu Donghe said to himself, "In order to let myself have a choice, not to be judged by others in the position of choice."

"Actually, the previous generations in my family were all involved in politics, but I'm not interested. I prefer playing with money rather than playing with people's hearts and power."

"What about you now?"

"When I walked on this road, I found out that they are actually very similar." Gu Donghe calmly narrated, and his low voice was especially soothing at night. Xiao Li felt that his emotions that had been rambunctious for several days gradually calmed down.

"What do you mean by Jin Yong's words? Where there are people, there are rivers and lakes. Playing with people's hearts and power in this line of work is not inferior." Gu Donghe smiled self-deprecatingly, "At that time, I was young and ignorant, and I thought I Independence."

Xiao Greed listened quietly.

"Who has never cheated or been cheated before?" Gu Donghe took it lightly, and didn't say much, "My dad has many relationships that he can use, and I don't pursue any self-made and self-sufficient self-sufficiency. Why not."

People have to survive, and only after they survive can they have the capital to talk about higher-level things.

People with high morals are worthy of admiration because they are, after all, a minority.

It cannot become the confidence of moral kidnapping.

What's more, often only people who are not morally qualified will criticize others.

"That's not easy, is it?"

Xiao Greed opened his mouth, half-closed his eyes.

"I haven't thought about it." Gu Donghe didn't know when to stop the movement of his hands, "I've come here, is tolerance very important?"

"You can think about it."

"You should think about it a little bit more," Gu Donghe simply put his hands behind his head, "There are too many people who can't think about it. If you think about it a little bit more, you will be one step ahead of others, and your life will be better, how wonderful .”

"Ideal enough."

"When I have the conditions to live a better life, why don't I just live a better life? Xiao Greed, I'm not a saint, everything I do is just to make my life better." He turned his head to look at Xiao Greed, "Now It's to make you feel better."

Xiao Greed lay sideways facing him, not knowing what he was thinking.

"What everyone can do is limited, it's useless to think about it," Gu Donghe freed up a hand to gently rub the top of Xiao Luan's head. The upper level is soft, "It's useless to be dissatisfied with the world, angry, those are empty words. What is useful is that you continue to grow stronger, change within your ability, fight for it, and do what you want to do."

"People live for themselves, some for their own well-being, some for their own peace of mind, some for satisfying their unspeakable desires, and some for satisfying their own moral needs."

"Actually, I don't believe in selfless dedication. Human behavior always has a starting point, but people have their own aspirations. The starting point is not a good or bad judgment."

Gu Donghe seemed to be telling Xiao Greed again, but it seemed more like he was trying to persuade himself.

Without knowing it, I subconsciously said a lot of things that I didn't quite understand.

Xiao Greed grabbed his hand on top of his head and looked at him with burning eyes: "Gu Donghe, what about you, what do you want?"

"I want you."

Gu Dong slipped out a word smoothly.

Xiao Greed didn't move, just looked at him calmly.

After a long time, Gu Donghe stopped laughing and lowered his head slightly.

"I do not know."

he said softly.

"Xiao Greed, I don't know."

Xiao Greed propped himself up on the bed, closed his computer and put it on the bedside table, and then turned off the desk lamp.

The two lay side by side in the dark.

"I have a younger sister named Gu Lan, who has the same mother and half father." Gu Donghe said without warning, Xiao Li didn't speak, and listened to him.

"Her...'s father, no one knows who it is."

"My mother died giving birth to her, my father married his current wife and they have a son."

"My father has always been ashamed of my sister, because she was..." Gu Donghe stopped talking, and exhaled, "Being raped is why I have my sister."

"I want to take her away after graduating from university, but he won't let me take my sister away. He often beats and scolds her when he's drunk. I can't help it."

"I reached an agreement with my stepmother. I don't want a penny of my father's property. She will help me take care of Lan Lan until I reach adulthood."

"Lanlan? Your sister?"

"Well, Gu Lan, that Lan from Shanfeng."

Xiao Greed responded and signaled him to continue.

"So I have to have the capital to convince her."

"She can fulfill our agreement."

"How did you get her to agree?"

Counting it, it should have happened before Gu Donghe went to university, his stepmother would definitely not believe what a child who has no independent ability said for no reason.

"The night they got married..." Gu Donghe frowned, "I don't know how to say it."

Xiao Greed said, "Then let's not talk about it."

There was silence for a while, but both of them knew that the other was not asleep, Gu Donghe turned over and hugged Xiao Lie, Xiao Lian struggled meaninglessly for a while, so he let him go.

Gu Donghe just wanted to hug him, and after holding him in his arms safely, he didn't do anything, just hugged him quietly.

Like two hedgehogs, soft and hard, hugging each other for warmth.

"Tomorrow... go back."

"Huh? Stop playing?" Gu Dong asked with his chin resting on his shoulder.

"Go back and deal with Lin Su's affairs."

"No need," Xiao Greed was taken aback, Gu Donghe sniffed the milky fragrance on his body, and kept sticking to his body, "I've taken care of it."

"What have you done?"

Xiao Greed turned his head to look at him, Gu Donghe was almost indulging in the faint fragrance of his body, and he didn't want to talk about the things that made him angry.

"He didn't dare to talk nonsense," Gu Donghe opened his eyes in dissatisfaction, and said sadly, "It's just a small trick, and the photos are all deleted."

Xiao Greed frowned slightly: "Gu Dong and you..."

"I can't bear it." Gu Donghe's voice was a bit hostile, and his words carried the emotion of a child being robbed of a toy, "Xiao Greed, I can't bear others treating you like this. Don't worry about it. I'll take care of it, okay?"

Xiao Greed was silent for a while, then raised his hand to rub his head: "This matter has nothing to do with you."

"I asked Song Li about PTSD, right?" Feeling Xiao Li's body froze, Gu Donghe knew he had guessed right, and hugged him a little more tightly, "If it wasn't for Lin Su, you wouldn't feel bad, he deliberately went to If you do, whether it is direct or indirect, it is his problem that caused you to be injured, so I will find him."

"What kind of mess are you..." Xiao Greed didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

"Do you know how scared I was when I saw blood all over the floor when I entered the door?" Gu Donghe's breath was blowing against his ears, and Xiao Tan felt his body was getting hot.

"I was..." Xiao Greed said with some difficulty, "I don't know what I'm doing, I just feel like back then, I finally broke free from the people looking at me, I want to go out, otherwise it will be worse than death. "

"I hate myself and I hate them too."

Gu Donghe squeezed his palm, and gently exerted force: "It's okay, it's over, no one will hurt you anymore."

Xiao Greed closed his eyes, feeling the strength of being hugged.

For many years, I have never been lying on the bed with others like this, simply hugging and chatting.

Everyone comes with desires, and leaves when they are satisfied, without tenderness, let alone sincerity.

Xiao Greed has never found himself so greedy for such a feeling, warm and safe.

He turned sideways to face Gu Donghe, his eyes were bright.

"Do it?"

Gu Donghe blinked at him, as if he didn't understand what he said.

Xiao Luan's legs had already rested on Gu Donghe's body, hooked his waist, and pressed his forehead, his voice was low and hoarse, grinding Gu Donghe's eardrums, as if a small electric current was running around his body.

"I said, do it?"