every breath

It was September when the freshmen had just entered school. After half a month of military training, the campus life finally officially opened for this group of freshmen.There are always various booths on the school road: colorful flags, banners, posters, leaflets, each of which is colorfully calling for fresh blood to join.

Qin Xuanyang did not participate in the military training for freshmen because of his health, so he always felt that he and his classmates had a sense of unfamiliarity and could not integrate into the group very well.

After the military training, he was not very interested in recruiting new members from various clubs. When his roommates were busy going to interviews for clubs, he either slept in the dormitory or went to the library to read.

He is not very keen to join a certain group, the scene of the crowd gathering is not attractive to him, and he even rejects those large-scale entertainment activities.So that day, he didn't know what was wrong with him, and he went to watch the welcome concert held in the school square.

The open-air square is surrounded by layers of stairs, which can be used by hundreds of people to watch programs at the same time.When there are no activities on weekdays, people from the roller skating club will practice roller skating here.That night Qin Xuanyang was walking out of the dormitory, planning to walk all the way to the library.When passing the lawn outside the square, I heard bursts of cheers and music coming from the other end.

Anyway, he had nothing to do, so he walked slowly and stood on the outside watching.A school band in the center of the square was singing an impassioned rock song, and the drumbeats hit the audience's eardrums like raindrops, making the already sweltering September night even more restless.

At the end of the song, the cheers of the audience resounded through the sky.

Qin Xuanyang didn't applaud, but he noticed that among the band members waving to the audience, there was a slightly immature face.He did not stand on the edge of the stage to call the curtain like other members, but stood stiffly next to the drum kit, clutching the guitar strap on his shoulder nervously.

It may be a new member of the freshman year, not yet adapted to the stage.Qin Xuanyang thought so.

The host of the party came to the stage and started the routine interview process. It was nothing more than asking the old members of the band what they wanted to say or suggestions for the new freshmen. They all responded one by one, either very official or very humorous , when it was the turn of the electric guitar player, he scratched his hair that was already a little messy, and smiled awkwardly: "I have nothing to suggest, because I am a freshman myself."

The audience laughed, and the host also smiled: "Then can you tell me about your plans and expectations for the next four years of college life?"

"Expectation?" He scratched his hair again, and Qin Xuanyang noticed that his eyes would wander around when he was uneasy, "Well...it seems that I don't have any special expectations. Just, live well and live happily."

The people on the field laughed again. The interview should have ended here, but the host seemed not particularly satisfied with the answer: "This answer is too general. Don't you have any expectations for your college life?"

"Expect too much and it is easy to fail. If there is no expectation, life is full of surprises."

His witty and humorous answers won warm applause from the audience.

The band members left the stage one by one, and Qin Xuanyang also turned around and left the square, heading for the library.

It was almost eleven o'clock when the library closed.Qin Xuanyang was the last batch of students to leave. The lights in the hall on the first floor were almost turned off. He walked outside under the starlight and walked back along the edge of the lawn.

The lawn in front of the library is the best place for gatherings and activities of various associations every night, and this time is no exception. Several groups of people are distributed in different positions on the lawn, playing games in a circle, and occasionally laughing The voices and screams were a bit noisy.

The wind wasn't too hot on a September night, and it was very comfortable to blow on the face.Qin Xuanyang slowed down and planned to walk back slowly.At this time, a person suddenly stood up from the grass and turned around, bumping into him.

"Ah, I'm sorry." The man apologized with some panic.

"It's okay." He responded briefly, and it wasn't that he was hit too hard. He looked up and found that the person under the streetlight looked familiar.

Oh, it was the man who performed in the square just now: like him, a freshman who had no expectations of college life.

Qin Xuanyang didn't think much, just wanted to move on.A few boys sitting together on the lawn in front suddenly shouted to this side: "Hey, Zhuang Yu, but you said it, the first person you saw when you turned around! Isn't this the one in front of you?"

The freshman looked a little embarrassed, and said to them: "But this is a man."

"What's the relationship between men and women, anyway, it's just an individual."

Qin Xuanyang recognized that the people sitting together were the band members who performed just now, and it seemed that they were also doing club activities here.

The senior's words seemed hard to disobey. The boy named Zhuang Yu looked at Qin Xuanyang with some embarrassment, and explained embarrassingly: "Well, it's like this. We're playing a game called Truth or Dare. I lost , you have to follow their instructions to complete one thing.”

He swallowed, and continued: "There is something that may require your cooperation..."

"What's the matter?" Qin Xuanyang stood in place, neither saying to cooperate nor saying not to cooperate.

"That's it..." He leaned closer to Qin Xuanyang, lowered his voice and was about to say, when the group of seniors who feared the chaos of the world came from behind him: "Hey Zhuang Yu, we just said to 'call' out, Who can hear you like this!"

"Damn, this is going to kill me." Gritting his teeth, he turned his head and glared at the seniors, took a deep breath, as if he had finally made up his mind, and shouted to Qin Xuanyang with the courage to see death as home:

"Please let me be your boyfriend!"

The sound shook the mountains and rivers.

Under the light, he tightly closed his eyes, not daring to look at the person across from him.So he didn't know, the stranger on the opposite side couldn't help laughing when he saw his serious and funny expression.

He responded jokingly:

"Okay."

That was their first encounter.

See you again, until three years later: the same summer, on the hot seaside, the same thing will happen again.

It's just that one of the parties involved has completely forgotten the encounter they had, while the other one remembered it firmly, and then he seized the tail of the opportunity and kept that person by his side in the name of a game.

At that time, it was only a year before his youthful and splendid Flower of Life was adjusted to zero.

At the end of his life, he chose to talk about a selfish love.