Male heart trembling

Every weekend after that, I rarely get alone with Mr. Tang.We have our own things to do. He and Ms. Zhao will appear in various gatherings of friends to show the intimacy between each other before, and further strengthen the sense of presence in front of others while acting.And I always go to Beijing to find Ms. Xu. The reason why I go to her every time is entirely because she needs to show that she has a boyfriend in front of her classmates, while I don’t need to show that I have a girlfriend in Tianjin.

Maybe Mr. Tang has no enemies, or maybe his enemies dare not deal with Mr. Tang. I believe that this matter between me and him cannot go unnoticed. Mr. Genuine Relationship.

I am very grateful, grateful to those who knew the truth and did not expose me, so that I was less likely to be engulfed by gossip, let alone trouble Miss Xu to come to Tianjin to act with me.

Because of my handsome appearance, Ms. Xu became very happy, not because I was handsome, but because everyone's topic gradually changed from doubting that she was gay to being curious about me.They are tired of talking about homosexuality and non-homosexuality. Now they are curious about my identity, my wealth, my education, and they will continue to focus on my appearance.I am indeed handsome, and I can perfectly match Ms. Xu's beauty and temperament. Except that I am not tall, I am simply a perfect golden boy with a beautiful face and a lot of gold, living in other people's conversations.

Ms. Xu gave me a watch, which is super stylish, but also super expensive.Ms. Xu said she didn't buy it, but Ms. Zhao asked her to give it to me as a thank you to me.With Mr. Tang's financial resources behind him, the price of this watch must be astonishingly high if it wants to be upscale and justifiable.

But I prefer the scene when Ms. Xu stood at the door of the beverage store, turned around with two glasses of freshly squeezed juice, and handed the drink to me with a gentle smile. That is when two people who love each other play together The happiness and the scene should be there, instead of pushing an expensive watch that you don't want to wear from one side of the table to the other side of the table, just open it and say thank you.

I am envious of everything I do with Ms. Xu as a couple, not because I like her, but because I long in my heart to appear in front of everyone hand in hand like Mr. Tang, without caring about other people's gazes or minding You are different, don't worry about whether it is appropriate to do so, just stand happily with him, chat while walking, laugh wantonly, hold hands wantonly, hug wantonly.

Ms. Xu is a mirror, reflecting the most basic and enviable side of a couple, but only Ms. Xu is in the mirror, and Mr. Tang's appearance cannot be seen at all.

It was smoggy in Beijing that day. Although there is very little smog in summer, it still happened to me.Ms. Xu's voice entered my ears through the mask, and she asked, "If we love each other, will it be easier than it is now?"

I said, "If we had the chance to really love each other, there would only be one result, and we wouldn't know each other at all."

Miss Xu sighed and said, "Yes, if it wasn't for them, we wouldn't have known each other at all."

Acting is acting after all. Although there is a moment of romance, we all know that the reason why we enjoy the longing brought by romance is not because we have any love for each other, but because we think about the person in our hearts.Sadly, those two people are also acting.

Is physical marriage really good?Even if you can get breathing space, even if you can get temporary happiness, but looking at it, is this really good for the rest of your life?

I have thought about this question for a long time, from summer to autumn, from autumn to winter.Mr. Tang took me on constant trips, gave me all kinds of valuable things, satisfied my various foodie desires, and even made my sex in bed more enjoyable every time.I knew he was making it up to me, making up for me accepting his marriage, making up for my regular meeting with a woman for the stability of their marriage.

Every time Mr. Tang returns from Beijing on weekends, he will greet him with a complete and intense skin-to-skin contact.At first I thought it was the miss I hadn't seen for two days, but later I realized that it was Mr. Tang declaring his possession of me.Even though I don't like women, he still keeps telling me that I like men and I can only be fucked by men. This is a constant fact.

Later, I discovered that Mr. Tang didn't simply remind me, he also wanted to warn himself in this way that he didn't like Ms. Zhao, and the relationship he and Ms. Zhao showed was nothing but a lie, and he wanted to vent it with full force. Tell yourself that what he likes is a man, and what he enjoys in bed is also a man.

The physical marriage has been going on for longer and longer, have we been brainwashed?We keep forcing and persuading ourselves to accept women. When such self-hypnosis is infinitely added to the spirit, maybe we all have a certain brief moment when we feel that we can accept women.

Because of this, he frantically fucked me, and I kept warning myself to stay awake and not to be brainwashed by myself.