you are my star

From seven o'clock in the evening to ten o'clock in the evening, Zhao Jingchen didn't come back, and the phone was turned off when he called him. Zhao Xingjian sat by the bed and looked out the window again. The rain was getting heavier and heavier.

After another half an hour, Zhao Xingjian really couldn't sit still anymore. Zhao Jingchen's place of work is not far from where he lives, and he can drive there in half an hour. Even if it rains, he should have arrived by now. Suddenly there is a bad feeling.

A strange phone call came, Zhao Xingjian answered it anxiously, the other side of the phone said that it was the police, saying that Zhao Jingchen had an accident while driving on the road, and asked Zhao Xingjian to go to the hospital immediately.

After hanging up the phone, Zhao Xing saw that he was only in a daze for a few seconds, then smashed the door lock with a stool, opened the door and ran out.

On a rainy day, the road was slippery and many cars were rear-ended. The car Zhao Jingchen was driving was in the middle, and the car was directly crushed. Zhao Jingchen died on the way to the hospital.

The police found his mobile phone and found that the last call a few minutes ago, he noted his lover.The police thought it was his wife, but a man answered the call.

When Zhao Xingjian rushed to the hospital, Zhao Jingchen had already been pushed to the mortuary, and his third uncle and aunt also rushed over. Zhao Xingjian followed them to identify the corpse. He saw Zhao Jingchen's bloody face and didn't want to admit that it was him.

Yang Qiaoqin passed out after crying a few times, Zhao Haicheng helped her to rest on a chair outside, and it took a while to recover.

Zhao Xingjian also went outside, then knelt down in front of Zhao Haicheng and Yang Qiaoqin with a "plop", crying and said, "Third Uncle and Third Aunt, I'm sorry for you, if I hadn't called and insisted that Second Brother come back, he wouldn't have come back." There will be a car accident."

Yang Qiaoqin looked at Zhao Xingjian in shock, and it took a while to react, then she stretched out her hand towards his head, his face, and his body, beating and scolding, "Your aunt is right, you are You bastard, it’s not enough for you to kill your father and your grandma, now you’re going to kill my Jing Chen, you give me back my son, you give me back my son..." She hit harder and harder, Zhao Haicheng next to him tried to stop him, but why? Can't stop it either.

Zhao Xing didn't hide when he saw it, he just knelt straight and was beaten, his tears seemed to flow out, and he couldn't cry now.

There was still lightning and thunder outside, the thunder was frighteningly loud and crackling, every time it struck Zhao Xingjian's heart.

The door lock of the rental house was very weak. Zhao Xing saw that it opened after a few hits. He always thought, wouldn't it be enough to open the door by himself?Why did Zhao Jingchen have to come back and open the door for himself?This question is always hard to figure out, as long as Zhao Xingjian thinks about it, he can't bear the headache.

After knowing the reason, Yang Qiaoqin didn't want to see Zhao Xing again, she didn't even let him attend Zhao Jingchen's funeral.Zhao Xingjian stood outside Zhao Jingchen's mourning hall, looking at his posthumous photo. He had a cropped cut, and the corners of his mouth were slightly raised. It was a photo of Zhao Jingchen when he was in high school, and it was also when Zhao Xingjian loved him the most.

Zhao Haicheng and Yang Qiaoqin also moved out of the courtyard and returned to their hometown.I heard that that place is also going to be demolished, but even if it doesn't, they won't live there anymore. Every corner there has the atmosphere of Zhao Jingchen's existence.

After Guyu, Zhao Xingjian went to grandma's house to have a look again, and went to the empty yard, but the ivy on the wall was still growing hard.Zhao Xingjian stood blankly in the yard. He seemed to have seen that year's New Year's Eve, the family sat around eating dumplings, and later he followed Zhao Jingchen out to set off firecrackers. Yu Chong asked his parents on the phone for a happy new year. I also told myself Happy New Year, but the sound of fireworks and firecrackers was so loud that I couldn't hear it clearly.The picture in his mind flashed again, Zhao Xingjian saw the mulberry tree at the base of the wall again, when he stepped on it to get the shuttlecock for Yang Yang, Zhao Jingchen looked at him worriedly under the tree, and told Gao Mingyuan that he fell If he comes down, he will feel distressed.

I took out the mp4 that was too old to be used anymore from my pocket, and buried it under the mulberry tree. The wind blew the leaves of the ivy, rustling, and Zhao Xingjian stood under the tree in a daze, and silently dropped two lines Tears came, "Zhao Jingchen, goodbye."

In the second half of the senior year, he was busy writing papers and doing internships to find a job. Zhao Xingjian moved out from Zhao Jingchen and went back to school.

It was fine on Sunday afternoon. Zhao Xingjian was reading in the library when he suddenly received a call from Jiang Nan. Jiang Nan said, see you Zhao Xing. I have something to tell you. Can I come out and meet?

Zhao Xingjian didn't know what Jiang Nan was looking for, but she was in a hurry on the phone, so Zhao Xingjian didn't dare to delay, so he got up and left the library.

This time, we still made an appointment at the coffee shop, but Jiang Nan chose a corner seat, and when he saw Zhao Xingjian walking in from the door, he quickly asked him to come and sit.

Zhao Xing saw Jiang Nan as soon as he entered the door, and walked towards her, but when he got closer, he realized that Jiang Nan's complexion was not very good.

Sitting across from Zhao Xingjian, Jiang Nan seemed to have something to say, but he hesitated and did not speak.

Zhao Xingjian asked her: "Didn't you say you have something to tell me?"

Jiang Nan looked up at Zhao Xingjian, and before she could speak, her nose became sore, "Zhao Xingjian, I... I'm pregnant... I went to the hospital for an examination yesterday, and the doctor said it's been more than two months..."

Zhao Xingjian looked at Jiang Nan in shock, and asked her, "Whose?"

Jiang Nan's eyes were red: "Brother Jingchen's. I didn't dare to tell my parents. If they knew that I was pregnant without getting married, they would definitely beat me to death. No one dared to say that I only want you in Beijing." A friend, I just told you. Brother Jing Chen is gone now, see Zhao Xing, what do you think I should do..." Jiang Nan became more and more anxious as she spoke, two lines of tears flowed down her pale face .

Zhao Xingjian suddenly remembered why the smell of perfume on Jiang Nan's body was so familiar that day, because he had only smelled it on Zhao Jingchen's body a few days ago.

Zhao Xingjian started to have a headache again, Jiang Nan didn't know what to do, neither did he.This child belongs to Zhao Jingchen, and is the only bond he left with this world.

Zhao Xingjian held his forehead and thought for a while, then said to Jiang Nan, "Jiang Nan, you can give birth to this child."

Jiang Nan originally wanted Zhao Xingjian to go with her to get rid of this child. Although she liked Zhao Jingchen, but now he is gone, she never thought about giving birth to this child. She is only 22 years old. It's just the beginning, so you can't just be dragged down by a child like this.

Jiang Nan looked at Zhao Xingjian in disbelief and was speechless for a moment.

"Jiang Nan, please give birth to this child." Seeing that Jiang Nan didn't respond, Zhao Xingjian continued, "If you don't want to, I will raise him in the future, and I will marry you after graduation. You two get a certificate, you secretly give birth to the child, and I won't stop you wherever you want to go."

When Zhao Xingjian said this, Jiang Nan's expression became even more shocked. She asked Zhao Xingjian, "This is Zhao Jingchen's child, why do you help him raise the child? You..."

Seeing that Zhao Xing didn't speak, Jiang Nan seemed to understand something suddenly.She said, "You let me think about it..." and got up and left the coffee shop.

Zhao Xingjian felt guilty for Zhao Jingchen now. He always thought that if it wasn't for him, Zhao Jingchen wouldn't have died at all.Zhao Jingchen was the only child of the third uncle and the third aunt, and now that he was gone, Zhao Xingjian didn't want this child to disappear too.

Jiang Nan returned to the dormitory in a daze. She had a premonition before that Zhao Jingchen actually had someone he liked, but at the time she loved him so much that she ignored a lot, but she never expected that she would meet Zhao Xing.Only then did she realize why Zhao Xingjian moved to live with Zhao Jingchen. She thought they were brothers, so they were together...

Jiang Nan pulled the corner of his mouth and showed an ugly smile, not surprising, Zhao Xingjian, he always liked men...

Jiang Nan said that he would consider it, but after thinking about it for a few days, there was no news. In the end, he didn't answer the text message or answer the phone. Zhao Xing saw that he was waiting impatiently, so he went directly to her school to find her.

The girls' dormitory couldn't get in. Zhao Xingjian thought about what Jiang Nan had mentioned to him before, the classroom where they had classes, so he looked for it.Graduation is approaching, and there are no more classes. The students are busy with graduation, and rarely go back to school.

A short-haired girl came out of the classroom. Zhao Xing had met him several times. He used to be with Jiang Nan. He stopped the girl and asked, "Student, do you know where Jiang Nan went?"

The short-haired girl looked at Zhao Xingjian, thought for a while, then pointed to the playground and said, "I just heard that she said that she seems to have an appointment to play badminton. Would you like to go to the playground?"

Seeing that Zhao Xing thanked the girl, he suddenly remembered something and ran to the playground.

When she ran to the playground out of breath, she saw Jiang Nan playing badminton with someone there. Zhao Xingjian ran over, took her arm and walked away without saying a word, leaving the remaining girls looking at each other.

Pulling him to an inconspicuous corner of the playground, Zhao Xingjian asked Jiang Nan, "Do you not want this child? Do you want to get rid of him?"

Jiang Nan blushed and stared at Zhao Xingjian, and she said, "That's right, I just don't want this child, and I still can't see it now. In summer, my belly will be big, what do you want me to do? I still want to graduate and get As for the degree certificate, I can't give birth to this child for you and Zhao Jingchen."

Jiang Nan said it categorically, Zhao Xingjian knew that she was determined, and he also knew that it was unfair to Jiang Nan, but this child really couldn't live without.

Seeing that Zhao Xing knelt down for Jiang Nan suddenly, Jiang Nan was startled, and hurried to pull him, but he couldn't.

"Jiang Nan, I beg you, please give birth to this child. I will raise him, and I will never drag you down. In fact, there is nothing to do in the past six months, and you don't have to go back to school. I will rent a place for you outside. House, after graduation, I will go to get the certificate from you. I will take care of the child after it is born. I will not tell your parents. Trust me, I will arrange everything. I just ask you to take care of the child. After birth, this is Zhao Jingchen's only blood."

Jiang Nan pulled Zhao Xing and saw that he couldn't move, so anxious to cry, seeing him like this was even more uncomfortable, sobbing and asking, "See Zhao Xing, why are you doing this, he is already dead, what are you trying to do?" ..." Jiang Nan knew that Zhao Jingchen died because of Zhao Xingjian, and even went to Zhao Jingchen's funeral, but Zhao Jingchen's parents didn't let Zhao Xing meet. Jiang Nan knew that Zhao Xingjian felt guilty, but he knew better Zhao Xingjian was reluctant to part with Zhao Jingchen. When she was with Zhao Jingchen, she secretly looked at Zhao Jingchen's cell phone. Zhao Jingchen had a habit of storing only names in the address book. There was only one difference. What Zhao Jingchen noted was his lover.Jiang Nan didn't know who it was before, but thinking about it now, it should be Zhao Xingjian.

Maybe they really love each other.

Jiang Nan also loves Zhao Jingchen, from the time he helped her, from the time she unconsciously mentioned him, Jiang Nan knew that she loved Zhao Jingchen, and she loved Zhao Jingchen so humblely that she knew that someone in Zhao Jingchen wanted to be with him. Going to bed, it's just that she loves herself more, she thinks that she should be far less in love than Zhao Xingjian.

Zhao Xingjian looked up at Jiang Nan with firm eyes.

Jiang Nan stopped pulling him, straightened up and said helplessly, "Okay, I promise you..."