you are my star

Yu Chong was going to bring some change of clothes for Zhao Xingjian, but when he went home to search, he accidentally found the black and white checked scarf, which he gave to Zhao Xingjian as a birthday present that winter. Stayed for so many years.Yu Chong wrapped the scarf around his neck, and lowered his head to smell the smell on it. It was the laundry detergent that Zhao Xingjian liked to use.

After being discharged from the hospital, Zhao Xingjian was still lethargic because of his head injury, and Yu Chong didn't bother him. Every time he kept the food warm, Zhao Xingjian would feed it to his mouth when he woke up.

Ye Shuya made some nourishing soup and brought them over. She sat on the edge of the bed and looked at Zhao Xingjian who was still asleep for a while, tears streaming down uncontrollably.

Yu Chong sat face to face with Ye Shuya on the sofa, with his head lowered, his elbows on his knees, and he said to Ye Shuya in a muffled voice, "Auntie, if you didn't have time to take good care of Zhao Xingjian, why didn't you leave him to me?" Well, he already has such a serious mental problem, I don't understand why you don't know..."

Listening to Yu Chong's words, Ye Shuya recalled how little she cared for Zhao Xingjian these years. It was obviously the flesh that fell from her body. Her heart ached no less than Yu Chong's.

"I know that I have done many wrong things to Zhao Xingjian, and none of them are even right. I have been bad-tempered since I was a child and have never been controlled. Everything is done by my own temper. I like Zhao Xingjian , I have to force him to be nice to me. If he doesn’t like me, I will use force. I was lucky and forced him to like me. I don’t agree with him breaking up with me. I will imitate my father’s way of beating me Hitting him, I know that I beat him so hard that it hurts, I know I made a mess again, so how many times I beat him that night, I locked myself in the room and beat myself, it really hurt, no wonder he would Crying. After being together again, I still have a bad temper. I know that I have a strong desire to control and I want to suppress him, but I never thought that Zhao Xingjian is also a man. Why would I be willing to let me suppress him? After thinking about it, he is because he loves me I always feel that I love deeply, but I have never loved anyone, and I have never given Zhao Xingjian the trust that he deserves. When he was lonely and helpless, I actually wanted to escape instead of staying by his side..." Yu Chong tried his best to speak calmly, but his gradually choked voice and slightly trembling shoulders still betrayed him.

Yu Chong raised his head, looked at Ye Shuya with red eyes, and said to her, "Auntie, do you know? As long as I think of Zhao Xingjian who had to get drunk because of heart disease and was taken home by some strange man, I will His heart is cut like a knife... He is so drunk, he can't resist what others do to him, I will thank God if nothing happens...Since you have a new family and don't have time to take care of him, why didn't you leave him to me Woolen cloth……"

Seeing Yu Chong like this, Ye Shuya also shed tears. She cried and said, "Auntie, I'm sorry, and Auntie will never stop me. I just hope you can accompany us to see each other in the future."

After Ye Shuya left, Zhao Xingjian was still asleep, so Yu rushed into the room, carefully took off his shoes and got on the bed, lying beside Zhao Xingjian.Zhao Xingjian was woken up by Yu Chong, his long eyelashes trembled slightly, and then he opened his eyes. He put one arm on Yu Chong's stomach, and opened his eyes quietly in a daze.

Yu Chong knew that Zhao Xing had woken up, but seeing that he didn't speak, he didn't dare to disturb him, so he just lay down quietly with him.

Seeing that Zhao Xing kept his eyes open and blinked them from time to time, his eyelashes were like two small brushes. Yu Chong looked down at him, feeling extremely cute.

After a while, Yu Chong sat up from the bed, held Zhao Xingjian half in his arms, then took the mobile phone, passed his arms under Zhao Xingjian's armpit, and asked next to the person's ear, "Is it true? Feel bored? I recently downloaded a new game, do you think I can play games?"

Zhao Xingjian nodded.

Yu Chong skillfully tapped his fingers on the screen, Zhao Xingjian still felt a little dizzy watching the screen flickering back and forth.Yu Chong still had some skills, and after playing two rounds, he was ridiculed by his teammates. Zhao Xingjian couldn't help laughing out loud.

Yu Chong's hands suddenly started shaking, he threw the phone away, then hugged Zhao Xingjian tightly, buried his face into his neck, and said in a muffled voice, "Xing Xing, you finally laughed, I'm afraid you won't laugh anymore .”

Zhao Xingjian raised his hand to touch Yu Chong's stiff hair, and said to him, "It's just that the facial expressions these two days will be tiring, don't think about it, I'm fine."

Yu Chong still didn't let go of Zhao Xingjian, and hugged him tightly.

Zhao Xingjian also wanted to play Yu Chong's game just now, Yu Chong went to the bedside to grab Zhao Xingjian's mobile phone, "Okay, I'll play one for you too, we are online, you take me to fly."

He clicked on Zhao Xingjian's cell phone, and the screen stopped at the chatting interface, Yu Chong looked at Zhao Xingjian's note to himself, feeling sad and funny, he lowered his head and asked Zhao Xingjian, "So you called me an impulsive ghost? "

Zhao Xing smiled and asked him back, "Aren't you an impulsive ghost?"

Yu Chong hugged Zhao Xingjian tighter again, kissed Zhao Xingjian's wound that was still wrapped in gauze lightly, and said to him, "I'm too impulsive, why don't you ask me to change my name? How about Yu Wen? Where's Yu He? You can call me Yu Counseling."

The more Yu Chong talked, the more out of shape he became, Zhao Xing laughed again.

"Star."

"Ok?"

"I'm sorry." Yu Chong hugged Zhao Xingjian and apologized to him, "I was thinking, if I hadn't forced you to do that to you back then, if I hadn't forced you into my world, would you have lived happily? Some? I keep saying I like you, say I love you, but I find that I never know how to love, I force you, force you, force you, I think this is love, but it bothers you no?"

Zhao Xing heard Yu Chong's hoarse voice, and suddenly fell into a trance. He has always been a soft-hearted person, and the moment he fell in love with Yu Chong, all the resentment towards him disappeared.He doesn't know if other people love so painfully, but he loves Yu Chong, and he really loves Yu Chong very painfully.

"I don't blame you anymore." Zhao Xingjian said, "Yu Chong, I don't blame you a long time ago. I just want to have a good time with you and live the rest of my life."

Yu Chong rubbed his face against Zhao Xingjian's forehead again, and said to him, "Okay."

Although he took good care of it, Zhao Xingjian still had a scar on his forehead, but he didn't care. He usually had his hair covering it, so he couldn't see it. Yu Chong looked distressed, and every time he kissed him, he had to be there Rubbing on the scar for a while.

Later they went to the hospital for reexamination. The doctor said that Zhao Xingjian would choose to forget some things because of his heart disease and mental problems caused by excessive intake of alcohol. Some psychological counseling, but the most important thing is to keep the body and mind relaxed and not to be stimulated anymore, Yu Chong wrote down all of them.

Yu Chong didn't want Zhao Xingjian to go to work anymore. It was fine for him to raise Zhao Xingjian and Zhao Si by himself, but Zhao Xingjian's temperament was not reconciled to letting Yu Chong take care of him, and he refused to listen to him. Yu Chong didn't want to screw him, so he secretly greeted the director Zhao Xingjian and asked him to take care of him more.

Ma Weixu was taken away by the police because of intentional injury, and Zhao Xing saw that a stone fell from his heart.

A few days later, Jiang Nan still sent Zhao Si back. When Zhao Si saw Zhao Xingjian, he threw himself into his arms and cried out of breath.

"Let her follow you, I can't coax her well." Jiang Nan only said this, then turned and left.

At night, Zhao Si lay in Zhao Xingjian's arms in his favorite bear pajamas, and said to him, "Dad, Mom's new husband is back, so she sent me back. I knew it was your last Love me." After speaking, she raised her head and asked him, "Are you really not my father?" Seeing that Zhao Xing did not speak, she tilted her head and asked Yu Chong next to her, "Aren't you my father?"

Yu Chong shook his head, Zhao Si's eyes turned red all of a sudden.

Zhao Xingjian patted Zhao Si's head lightly, and said softly, "I'm not your father. When you grow up, I'll take you to see your father, okay?"

"Where is my father?" Zhao Si asked.

"He is far away, but he has been watching you." Zhao Xingjian said.

Zhao Si suddenly plunged his head into Zhao Xingjian's arms, and whispered, "But I think you are my father, and I don't want to be separated from you."

Zhao Xing saw that the arms holding Zhao Si tightened a little more, and said, "Okay, then let's not separate."

After Zhao Si came back, he was more clingy to Zhao Xingjian than before, almost every day he had to coax Zhao Xingjian to fall asleep. In this way, Yu Chong and Zhao Xingjian had fewer chances to sleep together. They were used to sleeping together every day. , it is inevitable that you will not adapt now.

Zhao Xingjian came out of Zhao Si's room rubbing his sleepy eyes and saw Yu Chong leaning on the sofa watching TV, but the TV was on and he was already asleep.Zhao Xingjian walked over quietly, lowered his head and kissed Yu Chong's forehead, but Yu Chong grabbed his arm and dragged him into his arms. Then he turned over neatly and pushed Zhao Xingjian into the sofa.

"Are you pretending to be asleep?" Zhao Xingjian asked.

Without saying a word, Yu Chong lowered his head to find Zhao Xingjian's lips, and said vaguely, "I miss you to death."

"Go to bed." Zhao Xingjian looked at Yu Chong with a smile.

Yu Chong got up and pulled Zhao Xingjian up from the sofa, then entered the room with his arms around him.