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In the next few days, I lived in a muddle. Every day I was covered in bed and forced myself to sleep.I thought that if I didn’t listen to it, watch it, or think about it, I wouldn’t feel so badly hurt.But no, he obviously has a splitting headache, but he can't fall asleep no matter what, even if he closes his eyes, his mind is full of Chen Feng's figure.He was so hungry that he had stomach cramps, but he couldn't eat anything. If he forced himself to eat, he would vomit it out immediately.Seeing a doctor for injections and taking medicine didn’t help. The doctor said that it might be a psychological problem, and suggested that I see a psychiatrist.A face-saving person like my mother naturally refused, because she and my father began to quarrel frequently because of me. Once I even heard her crying and saying that she was going to get a divorce.

The word "divorce" was like a slap in the face, and I knew that if I went on like this, I would not only ruin myself, but my entire family.My life is already a mess, and I can't let it continue to deteriorate.So, after avoiding for nearly a week, I stood in front of my parents and said that I wanted to go to school.

I am willing to go out of the house and go back to school, which is undoubtedly a good thing.Parents were very happy and immediately communicated with the school.My mother, who has never given me a good face since I came home, even got up early the next morning, cooked a table of sumptuous breakfast, beckoned me to eat, and said gently that she would send me to school.

Even though I couldn't eat, I still forced myself to drink a cup of hot milk.My parents didn't force it, probably because they were afraid that I would vomit after eating.The moment I walked out of the house, the sun was so strong that I squinted my eyes, only to feel that everything around me was so strange, so strange.

Sitting numbly in the back seat of the car, my mother seemed to be very happy, and kept talking, with my eardrums buzzing. I couldn't hear what she said, but just stared at the backward scenery outside the window in a daze.

Suddenly, the figure that haunted me broke into my sight.

My heart was beating violently, and I sat up straight suddenly.

"Chu Mu! Chu Mu..."

As soon as the car drove out of the gate of the community, Chen Feng rushed out and slammed on the window on my side.I threw myself on the window of the car, staring at him tightly, breathing unconsciously.

"This shameless thing..." Mom gnashed her teeth and scolded, stepped on the gas pedal suddenly, and the car flew out at a high speed.

Chen Feng was slammed by the car and fell to the ground.

"Chen Feng!"

I yelled and didn't even want to open the door.

"Sit back for me!" Mom scolded angrily.

The car door is locked and cannot be opened.I hurriedly stood up and looked back, only to see the figure of Chen Feng limping and chasing the car getting smaller little by little, and finally disappeared from sight when the car turned a corner...

However, after being away for more than a month, Nanhai University seemed so strange to me.Whether it is a teacher or a classmate, they all seem to be strangers.It was only later that I learned that after returning from the "five;? one" holiday, I was divided into classes in arts and sciences.Because of my absence, my parents helped me choose science.The class I was in could be said to be brand new, but at the time I was in a trance and didn't see it at all.I didn't even know that I had changed my deskmate, I just stared at the blackboard with my eyes fixed on the figure of Chen Feng chasing the car.

He looks... so tired...

His complexion is also very bad, is he sick...

Looking at each other through the car window for a few seconds just now, the heavy pain in his eyes climbed up to my neck like a thorn, tightly strangled.I felt suffocated, I wanted to scream, but I couldn't.

despair.

Always only despair.

"Hey."

A pair of hands suddenly slapped my table with a "bang", and everything on the table jumped down.I was startled and looked up blankly.

In front of him was Shi Shi's distraught face: "What do you mean, you dead wood? Why don't you answer? Are you deaf?"

I stared blankly at her for a while before I recognized her: "Shi Shi..."

"It's your aunt! Don't you just go abroad for a month? Is it necessary to act like you don't know me?"

"..."

Shi Shi realized that something was wrong: "Hey, what's wrong with you? It feels so strange, are you okay?"

"..."

"Why don't you speak? Are you dumb?"

"..."

"Hey Chu Mu, what's the matter with you? Your eyes are so dull, can you hear me? Chu Mu?"

"..."

Shi Shi wanted to say something more, but when the class bell rang, she had no choice but to say: "Let's have lunch with me at noon, I have a lot to ask you."

But the family didn't give me a chance to have dinner with Shi Shi. At noon, my mother drove over to pick me up, and didn't send me back to school until the afternoon.In fact, the memory at that time was already very vague. I don’t remember what other people said or what I did. I was just like a puppet, obeying anyone’s orders—because I couldn’t tell the difference at that time. Who is who.

There is a physical education class in the afternoon, boys play basketball and girls play volleyball.I walked silently to the stone chair by the playground and sat down. No one cared about me, and I didn't want to pay attention to anyone.

Chen Feng...

I don't want to think about it, but I think about it uncontrollably.

Every time I think about it, it is an unbearable pain.

Like a curse.

Life after life, there is no end.

Unable to bear it, I pulled out the ring hanging on my chest from my clothes. There was still body heat on it. I stroked it carefully, closed my eyes, and gently kissed it.

Chenfeng, I miss you so much...

"Chu Mu, Chu Mu..."

who is calling me?

Silently putting the ring into my clothes, I opened my eyes and saw Shi Shi standing not far away and waving at me.Seeing that I was indifferent, she stomped her feet anxiously, glanced at our physical education teacher hesitantly, then gritted her teeth and ran over to pull me up and ran: "Come with me."

Why is she here?Shouldn't you be in class at this time?And she was wearing sportswear.

I felt a little strange in my heart, but I couldn't bring myself to ask.At that time, I didn't even know that Shi Shi and I were in the same class, my heart was empty, I couldn't hold anything except Chen Feng.

It doesn't matter anymore, it's already...it doesn't matter anymore.

She pulled me all the way to the top floor of the library, and mysteriously knocked on the closed roof door, and it was still very rhythmic "three longs and two shorts".Just as I was feeling baffled, the roof door opened from the inside, revealing Xiao Wang's face: "Why has it been so long? Come in!"

Seeing Xiao Wang so unexpectedly in such a place at this time, I couldn't help being stunned.

Shi Shi said fiercely, "You are too late to find it yourself", and pushed me in.

Xiao Wang smiled while closing the door: "That's not what I meant..."

I was still amazed by Xiao Wang's appearance and the obviously ill-fitting Nanhai school uniform shirt on his body, but he was suddenly dragged by a huge force and hugged him tightly.The familiar embrace, the familiar temperature, and the familiar smell enveloped me. After being shocked for three seconds, my breathing gradually became rapid, and I said hoarsely, "Chenfeng..."

Chen Feng didn't make a sound, but his breathing was also very unstable. He hugged me with great strength, my back was hurt by his strangulation, but I just hugged him back even tighter, wishing I could... Rub it into yourself.

How nice it would be if we could be fused with each other and never be separated...

"Cough." Shi Shi suddenly coughed dryly, and said, "You...what's the situation?"

Chenfeng and I ignored her.

Xiao Wang seemed a little embarrassed: "Hey, what...Chen Feng, you are in a hurry to ask me to ask Shi Shi to help me sneak into the South China Sea, just... just to see Chu Mu? Then why take so much trouble? Why don't you just make an appointment?"

We still ignored him.

Shi Shi belatedly said, "Why...they feel weird..."

Xiao Wang was silent for a while, then suddenly pulled Shi Shi's wrist, and said, "Let's go somewhere else." After speaking, regardless of Shi Shi's yelling, he forced her to leave the rooftop.