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With the sound of closing the door with a "bang", the tears I held back for a long time finally fell: "Chenfeng..."

Chen Feng remained silent.

His body trembled slightly, as if he was suppressing some emotion.

After embracing each other for a long time, when I was intoxicated in this sudden happiness, Chen Feng suddenly pushed me away without warning—not gently, but with a lot of strength.Unprepared, I slammed into the iron door with a loud "bang", and the severe pain in my back made me almost unable to stand.

Chen Feng rushed over and grabbed my skirt, and lifted me up.

His face occupies the entire field of view.

I was finally able to clearly see the haggard and tired marks on his face.

And near the black pupils, there are blood threads intertwined on the whites of the eyes like spider silk.

He was so angry, like an enraged lion.

"Fuck you! You bastard! Are you kidding me? Huh? Have you been kidding me all this time!?"

I could only shake my head desperately, the grief and resentment in his eyes burned my eyes, tears flowed down my face uncontrollably, I choked up and couldn't speak.

"Why did you leave so nicely? Why did you run back without saying a word? Ah? Say it! Say it! What do you mean by leaving that letter? Break up? Ha, you're so ridiculous! What right do you have to say break up, you bastard? ? Ah? What the hell are you doing?! Why!? " He grabbed my skirt and shook it vigorously, obviously extremely angry, but his eye sockets were bit by bit red and moist.

I couldn't say anything, I just stared at him, afraid that he would disappear from my eyes in a blink of an eye.

He stared at me with tearing eyes: "Why don't you talk? Ah? Do you think I'll let you go if you don't say a word? Chu Mu, I want to kill you!"

I opened my mouth and whimpered, "I'm sorry..."

"Don't you fucking talk such useless nonsense! Tell me, what happened? Why did you break up why why!? Tell me! You were the one who provoked me first! Why did you break up? ! Who do you think you are? Who do you think you are!? Damn you!”

With a "bang", an iron fist hit his head, and a dent appeared on the iron door immediately.

I was so scared that I hurried to hold his hand: "Chen Feng, don't do this, please, don't..."

Chen Fenghong looked at me with such a fragile expression: "What about me, do you still care..."

meeting!Of course I care!

Do you know, you hurt yourself, I hurt more than you.

But...these words can't be said, can't be said...

I hugged his fist to my chest, closed my eyes and couldn't bear to see his expression.

His voice seemed to be exhausted: "Chu Mu... tell me, there is no such thing as breaking up, tell me, you are not leaving me, tell me quickly..."

His words are like knives, I can only cry, only cry.

Chen Feng...

Even if you told me that men don't cry easily, even if you say I look like a woman, I still can't control my tears.I'm just so useless, so weak, I'm not worthy of you giving up your life and your dreams for me.Even though I am a useless man, I still want to... protect the one I love...

Do my best.

"Chu Mu, you still love me, don't you?" He let go of my skirt, held my face in both hands, and asked coaxingly.The expression is earnest, pleading, with humble expectation.

I wept and avoided his sight.

"You fucking look at me!" he snarled angrily, pulling my face hard enough to make eye contact.

My heart ached, and I tried my best to avoid his hurt eyes.

He let go of my face in a daze, and took a step back unsteadily.

"It's true..." He said foolishly, "So you really want to break up..."

So sad.

I feel terrible.

Pressing my stomach that was constantly cramping, I leaned my back against the door and barely supported myself to stand.

"Even you...will abandon me..." Chen Feng raised his head, facing the sun, and smiled strangely: "Hehehe, hehehe..."

His appearance made me afraid: "Chen, Chenfeng..."

The wind messed up his hair, and his laughter seemed sad and desolate on the empty rooftop.

I was trembling all over, and I kept getting goosebumps.

Finally, the laughter stopped, and he slowly lowered his head to look at me, with a half-smile on his face, his peach eyes were darker than ever before, so dark that there was no trace of expression, just like a dry well, with a faint hint of addiction. The cruelty and madness of blood: "Do you think I will let you go easily?"

Before I could react, I was pressed hard against the door and began to gnaw and kiss frantically.

It hurts.

It wasn't a kiss anymore, it was more like a revenge bite.My lip was bitten, he licked the blood on my lip, his cold smile swirled wildly in his eyes.I tried to turn my face away, but he bullied me and wrapped my tongue around it. In an instant, the smell of rust filled my mouth.

"Woooo...Chen Feng..."

Sensing my struggle, he suddenly tore off my blazer.

I was stunned, Chenfeng in front of me was so unfamiliar, and the disparity in power made me tremble with fear.

"Chen, Chenfeng...don't..."

He didn't seem to hear my pleading, and started to tear my sweatpants with brute force.Realizing that he was serious, I was so frightened that my heart almost stopped beating, and I yelled in spite of myself: "Don't, don't! Chenfeng, don't do this! Please, don't... This is a school, if someone sees..."

He stopped, looked up at me, and still had that weird smile on his face: "I just want everyone to see that you belong to me."

Before the words fell, the brutal tearing action started again, even more forcefully than before.

With a few "stabs", he actually tore my sweatpants with one hand.

As soon as the wind blew, my thighs felt chilly. I couldn't help shivering several times, and my voice shivered along with my legs: "Chen...Chenfeng...no no no...don't..."

He didn't listen to me at all, pushed my legs apart with one knee, strangled my wrists with one hand, and started to untie his own belt with the other hand.

Fear crawled up my back like thousands of ants.

I burst into tears uselessly: "Please don't do this, don't... You said you wouldn't hurt me again, you said... Chen Feng, Chen Feng..."

These words were like a slap in the face, Chen Feng's whole body shook violently, and then all crazy movements stopped.

He stared blankly at me who was crying all over the place, his face turned pale in vain, and he loosened his hand like an electric shock.

I slid along the door and sat on the ground. My tracksuit had already turned into rags. I could only curl up and hug my knees tightly.

"Chu Mu..." Chen Feng's voice was trembling.

I flinched and didn't look up.

He knelt down slowly, hugged me carefully, and choked up: "I'm sorry..."

So painful, so hopeless.

Heart, like being split in half by a giant axe.

I buried my face deeply into his arms, as if seeking comfort, sobbing: "I hurt so much, it hurts so much, Chen Feng, Chen Feng..."

He hugged me tightly and coaxed me in a low voice.

Some hot and humid liquid hit my back vaguely, and I shivered from the heat.

Chenfeng kept saying "I'm sorry" in my ear, I was hoarse from crying, I couldn't say anything, I could only shake my head desperately.

Chenfeng, you did not forgive me.

If you have to say "I'm sorry", it should be me.

If you hadn't met me, if I hadn't been pestering you, you wouldn't have endured these tortures.

You are right, I provoked you first.

Even after all these years, in retrospect I still don't know if my original decision was right or wrong.

But if I turn back time and do it all over again, I will still make the same choice.

Let go of you, my heart is pierced.

But if I see you being pointed at and maliciously slandered, I'm afraid... life would be worse than death.

So forgive me, forgive me, forgive me...