Before and After Divorce

"Su Yan, I really feel that the role of Gu Fei is really born for me..."

Xia Tingwan's breathing was a little short, he couldn't describe the excitement in his heart.

From the moment he read the novel "Xun", he wanted to play Gu Fei.

This urgent desire to interpret a character has never appeared in his many years of acting career.

When he took over the filming of "Whale Language", he accidentally became the leading actor and became famous in one fell swoop.

Maybe it's something that is too easy to get, and you don't think it's so great at an ignorant age.

But looking back now, I'm actually really emotional.

Five years ago, he still always remembered his miserable childhood, and he hesitated a lot when playing the role of Xiao Xia, instinctively wanting to hide his true self.

But he is a complete experientialist. He doesn't have much skill in acting. If he wants to really enter the show, he must devote himself wholeheartedly.

Under the guidance of a national treasure-level director, he finally got out of his own shell.

After playing the scene where Xiao Xia committed suicide in despair, he cried secretly for a long time, and couldn't get out for a month or two.

He always wonders if Xiao Xia is another self, a more hopeless and fragile self to some extent.

Time has passed, and now he has more sorrow.

He has an adult's loss in the face of love, and he has tasted the sad happiness and sweetness.

He understands the feeling of wanting to chase the one he loves, and also understands the feeling of loneliness.

Five years ago, he might not be able to play Gu Fei, but now, he thinks he can.

Xu Zhe told him that a good actor must use all his life experience to add flesh and blood to a character that does not exist.Therefore, a truly shocking performance must flow from the heart.

If you think about it this way, his acting life and his own life trajectory seem to fit together like fate.

In and out of the play——

Destined to achieve each other.

"This is not an easy role to play." Su Yan's tone was very calm: "Gu Fei is mute, which means that he has no lines throughout the whole process, and all emotions must be mobilized by expressions and movements, which is not easy."

"I know."

"Besides, nude scenes and same-sex sex scenes are very challenging. Not only do you have to trust the director, but you also have to... trust the actors who play opposite you."

When Su Yan said this, his speech speed became a bit slower. When he looked at Xia Tingwan, he showed a faint look of concern: "Who is Xu Rong's role determined?"

"Not yet. The teacher said that Xu Rong's role is very important. He has an actor he would like to invite, but he didn't tell me who it is."

Xia Tingwan shook his head, as if he had thought of something, he suddenly moved his face closer to Su Yan, tentatively, and whispered: "Su Yan, if... I mean if. If we If there is no divorce, do you mind if I make such a scene?"

Su Yan was silent, and after a long time, he said in a blunt tone: "There's nothing to worry about."

Xia Tingwan looked at Su Yan's stern face, and was so angry that he wanted to bite Su Yan.

The guy who is suddenly very defensive, once he is keenly aware that his mind is being spied on, he will suddenly put on a serious and rigid face, making it impossible for people to get close.

Xia Tingwan also got angry and stopped talking, and the two of them fell into a silence.

"When is the audition scheduled?"

After a while, Su Yan took the initiative to ask.

"I don't know." Xia Tingwan turned his head away, deliberately not looking at Su Yan.

"Xu Zhe didn't say?"

"No." He answered two words coldly.

"...I would mind."

In the end, Su Yan still couldn't hold him back, and replied in a low voice with a little helplessness: "If we didn't get divorced, I would mind. But I will only think about it in my heart, and I won't tell you."

Xia Tingwan turned his head, wanted to laugh, but wanted to hug Su Yan for no reason.

He thought of Su Yan's trouble with Li Kaiwen three months later, and felt that Su Yan's answer at this time was absolutely telling the truth, so honest that he was almost pitiful.

Su Yan sighed slightly, and continued: "Acting is your job, no matter who will be with you in the future, you shouldn't be jealous about it, and you shouldn't think about these unimportant things. You want to play Gu Fei, Just try your best to win, Xu Zhe has always been very demanding, since there is an audition, it is impossible to be partial—”

"I know."

Xia Tingwan was suddenly confused when he heard the words "no matter who is with you".

As Xu Zhe said, Su Yan's attitude towards him had indeed softened.

Su Yan could no longer say no to him as forcefully as he did a few times before.

But what followed was that he felt more and more that Su Yan was facing him with an unprecedented weak attitude.

Like a tired and cowardly old cat, dejectedly ready to part ways with him.As long as he stretched out his hand to get closer, he would turn around and run away at any time.

Su Yan has never been like this.

He felt an uncontrollable and indescribable panic.

"Su Yan, can you do me a favor?"

Xia Tingwan looked at Su Yan and said softly, "I, I really want to get ready for the audition, but the part Xu Zhe wants to watch is the first time Xu Rong draws Gu Fei nude. It's really hard for me to figure it out by myself. Can you accompany me?"

"What do you mean?" Su Yan raised his head suddenly, his eyes became alert all of a sudden: "A play with you? A naked play?"

"um, I……"

"No." Su Yan directly refused without waiting for Xia Tingwan to explain more, and repeated his tone firmly: "Impossible."

Xia Tingwan was a little sad.

He knew that Su Yan probably felt that he had other thoughts in his mind, and he also understood Su Yan's embarrassment.

He admitted that he missed Su Yan and wanted to have as many opportunities as possible to get along with Su Yan.But he really didn't use filming to deliberately get close.

Xia Tingwan actually has his own sensitivity and insights in script analysis.

The atmosphere of that scene was wonderful because of the relationship between Gu Fei and Xu Rong—it wasn't just two ordinary young people talking about love with their eyes.

Rather, it is gaze, the relationship with the gazed.

A mute boy, lying naked on the bed, was drawn stroke by stroke for two hours.

Gu Fei was being watched.

Furthermore, Gu Fei is being watched by the boy he secretly loves under the condition of self-knowledge and sobriety.

Shy, ambiguous, narcissism is entwined with the awakening and indulgence of lust.

This kind of emotional tension is definitely one of the most difficult scenes to grasp in the whole movie.

So he needs Su Yan.

He needs Su Yan to be his Xu Rong.

Because only in front of Su Yan can he approach and restore the design of that scene most easily.

Only with Su Yan, he felt extremely safe.

He can take off his clothes in a relatively relaxed state, and quickly become Gu Fei in the best state.

"As you said just now, this kind of play requires me to trust the actor who plays opposite me from the bottom of my heart."

Xia Tingwan said aggrievedly: "During the official filming, I can slowly build up trust with other actors. But what about when I'm groping for an audition? If you don't want to, who do you think I should find to accompany me?" Match?"

What he said was actually tantamount to asking Su Yan—who should he go to to relax and take off his clothes.

Su Yan's face was livid and his lips parted slightly, but before he could speak, he saw Wen Zichen walking towards them with Yin Ning.

Wen Zichen smiled and said to Yin Ning: "Ning Ning, go show Brother Su Yan, what did you draw today?"

Yin Ning listened to Wen Zichen's words very much, and ran to Su Yan with his painting in his hand to spread out the paper: "Teacher Wendy asked me to draw it today."

"Well, let me see."

Su Yan quickly collected his emotions, reached out to touch Yin Ning's head, and held the drawing paper on one side.

Sitting next to Su Yan, Xia Tingwan could of course see it clearly.On the snow-white drawing paper, Yin Ning drew a small brown house with crayons. Inside the house were three simple people. It could be vaguely seen that there were two tall men holding a little boy together.The sun and flowers and plants are also painted with childish brushstrokes outside.

"What is this?" Su Yan asked patiently, "Ningning tell me."

"Teacher Wendy said, draw the home in my heart today." Yin Ning pointed at the three people in the painting earnestly: "This is me, brother Su Yan on the left, and brother Zichen on the right."

Xia Tingwan's body froze all of a sudden.

He looked down at the colorful crayon drawing, and for a moment, he was so sad that he almost wanted to cry, all supported by a stubbornness that he didn't want to lose face here.

The most real desire is hidden in the childish words of children.

Yin Ning hoped that he would be with Wen Zichen and Su Yan, that was the home in his heart.

What is he.

Su Yan was willing to go to bed with Wen Zichen, but he refused to play with him, and even resisted seeing his body.

But Su Yan used to be the one who kissed every inch of his body over and over again.

Xia Tingwan knew rationally that the more he thought about it, the more extreme he became. Thinking like this is simply mixing everything together, which is unreasonable.

But he couldn't stop himself, the grievance of being rejected by Su Yan, and the disgust of Yin Ning, all these things added together almost penetrated him.

He was so embarrassed and humble, he didn't know if he was unrequited love, which made him feel so wronged.

Su Yan seemed a little surprised. He looked at the painting carefully again, and suddenly asked, "Ning Ning, did Teacher Wendy ask you to paint the home in your heart?"

"Yeah." Yin Ning nodded.

"The real home in Ning Ning's heart, is there no mother?" Su Yan frowned. Although he was asking Yin Ning, he raised his eyes and stared sharply at Wen Zichen.

But Xia Tingwan didn't want to hear the three of them continue chatting anymore, he stood up and said quickly: "I have something to do, I'm going back first."

After speaking, he turned around and left without looking at Su Yan's expression.

-

Intellectually, it's not that Xia Tingwan doesn't understand Su Yan.

Su Yan doesn't like children at all.Taking care of Yin Ning is entirely because he is responsible for his car accident.

After chatting with Xu Zhe, Xia Tingwan secretly thought about it——

Su Yan's kindness to him was never expressed in words, but was hidden in his heart secretly.

When Su Yan was first responsible for Yin Ning, not only Xia Tingwan didn't know about it, but Yin Ning's mother also disappeared because of drug abuse.

Su Yanming knew that once he took over this burden, he might have to take care of Yin Ning for the rest of his life, so he still made the decision resolutely.

A man is willing to silently take responsibility for a child's life for a fault that does not belong to him.

This not only requires great courage, but also a deep commitment.

Every time Xia Tingwan thought of it, his heart was moved.

It is true that Su Yan didn't mention a single word, but it's not hard to imagine how many difficulties and awkwardness he has in life.

He really needed someone to help him take care of Yin Ning, even if it wasn't Wen Zichen, it would be someone else.

So although Xia Tingwan was sad before, but she really didn't want to blame Su Yan.

But this time, he couldn't help but get angry with Su Yan.

He is a man of his own pride.

He could bow his head for Su Yan's love.He can go to Su Yan to beg for mercy again and again, admit his mistakes, and show weakness in front of Su Yan, and he doesn't feel how humble he is like this.

But he didn't want to get entangled with Wen Zichen.Such an ugly tearing and tearing, even if he was passively involved in it, there was a feeling that two people were trying their best to compete for Su Yan, which was vulgar and shameful.

He felt sick when he thought about everything that had happened before.

He was angry with Su Yan, who gave Wen Zichen confidence and hope, even if that confidence was only from one or two sexual relationships.

To put it bluntly, behind the anger, what really made him sad——

It was Su Yan who might have given up on his love for a moment.

If it weren't for that moment of giving up, no one would have had the chance to intervene in their love.

At the end of that weekend, Xia Tingwan did not go to Xiangshan, but asked Zhao Nanshu to drive to pick Yin Ning back.

Su Yan didn't look for him, and he didn't take the initiative to contact Su Yan.

On the way, Ji Zhan called him, saying that he was going to work in City H next week, and he might stay until the concert.

Ji Zhan is still the same Ji Zhan, and he is not polite at all: "Xia Tingwan, treat me to dinner then! I don't mean just a meal, you have to bring me all the best food in H City. "

"No problem, I'll take care of the food." Xia Tingwan said, "But you have to accompany me to karaoke—and, you have to sing your own song."

"Tch, then you still don't admit that you are a fanboy."

Xia Tingwan couldn't help laughing.

Talking to Ji Zhan always makes him feel refreshed and happy.

In fact, he had secretly worried before that if the vague ambiguity between them, like the hazy relationship between him and Xing Le back then, would lead to an embarrassing situation after it was revealed, then for him, losing a sincerely admired friend again, It's a very sad thing.

But fortunately, Ji Zhan is simple and pure.

That night when He Jizhan was in Chiang Mai, it was like a summer breeze in Thailand, blowing over his face cleanly, without leaving any excess stickiness.

……

On the other hand, Xia Tingwan did not give up hope of getting along with Yin Ning.

In the past few days, while repeatedly reading the script of "Looking", he also tried to interact more with Yin Ning at home.

He bought a set of coloring books of "Secret Garden" and wanted to color with Yin Ning.

There was a drizzle in City H, perhaps because it was almost autumn, and the night wind was getting cooler. Xia Tingwan opened the window a little, made a pot of orange tea and put it on the table.

In fact, if it wasn't for the close relationship with Yin Ning, this could be regarded as a very warm scene.

Xia Tingwan opened the picture book and asked Yin Ning to pick a page with relatively simple lines, then spread out a set of 120-color watercolor pencils on the table, and asked seriously: "Ning Ning, teach me, what color to choose?" nice?"

Yin Ning lowered his head and didn't speak at first. After a while, out of a dozen pencils in brown tone, a few lighter ones popped out and stuffed them into Xia Tingwan's hands. Then he pointed to the owl in the picture book and whispered: " You paint the owl's head—"

"it is good."

Xia Tingwan was very obedient, and picked up a pencil to draw according to Yin Ning's instructions.Yin Ning picked out several green pencils and colored the complicated leaves around the owl.

Xia Tingwan didn't know anything about painting, and hadn't held a paintbrush for many years, even if it was just coloring, he felt that the strokes were extremely clumsy.

Yin Ning was very demanding. As soon as he saw Xia Tingwan drew a line, he stretched out his hand and opened Xia Tingwan's fingers, and obstinately lowered his head and wiped off all the blemishes with an eraser.

Xia Tingwan clearly felt the disgust from the little boy, and touched his nose.

Yin Ning has impaired vision in his left eye, so he has to tilt his head slightly when drawing. Sometimes when his face is not turned around and his left eye sees blurryly, the color will be drawn out of bounds.

Yin Ning seemed a little paranoid again.

There was a leaf that was not painted well, so he repeatedly wiped it off with an eraser with great strength—the color fell off, and he reapplied it again. Frayed a small piece.

"Ningning—" Xia Tingwan raised his head worriedly, and just spoke.

I saw Yin Ning suddenly slammed the pencil in his hand to the ground.

He seemed to be still angry, and pushed Xia Tingwan's hand away again, tore the page of the picture book that the two of them drew together from the book, crumpled it up and threw it out.

The boy's eyes were red, his chest heaved violently, and the expression on his small face contained a kind of violence and anger that made Xia Tingwan afraid.

"I hate you."

Yin Ning covered his eyes, lying on the table, with a whimper in his voice: "I can't see clearly, my left eye is always unclear, I don't want to draw anymore, never want to draw again."

Xia Tingwan looked at Yin Ning's thin back, raised his fingers tremblingly and wanted to touch the boy's shoulder, but he still didn't dare to put it down.

Hearing what Yin Ning said, he was so heartbroken that he was about to cry.

-

"sorry Sorry……"

Xia Tingwan said tremblingly: "Ningning, you already know, don't you?"

Yin Ning lay on the table, his body trembling all the time. After a long time, he whispered: "I...I asked brother Zichen why I must live with you. Did brother Su Yan want me? He told Said, because you did something wrong, you want to make up for me, you want me to forgive you... I, I knew it was you. I thought about it before, why you also have scars on your face, and when you see me, you... ...just weird."

Xia Tingwan was a little distracted when he heard it, but it was indeed expected.

He knew in his heart——Yin Ning would know sooner or later, and there was no way to hide it.So he never thought of trying to cover it up.

When he saw Yin Ning for the second time, he kept apologizing in a gaffe, and had to pull him up from Su Yan to force himself to stop himself. In fact, his performance at that time was already enough to make people suspicious.

He has no position to blame anyone, even if Wen Zichen and Yin Ning said it, logically speaking, he did nothing wrong.

He thought before that maybe after repairing the relationship with Yin Ning, it would be better to talk about it slowly, but actually thinking about it carefully, what's the difference? He hit someone with a drunk driving after all, so there is nothing wrong with him.

Xia Tingwan tried his best to calm down, he took two deep breaths, lowered his head and put the scattered pencils into the iron box one by one, then looked at the back of Yin Ning's head lying on the table and said: "Ning Ning, I'm sorry. "

He repeated those three words, thinking of the boy lying on the table saying that he didn't want to draw anymore, he felt powerless, and continued softly: "Actually, I also know that it's useless to say sorry ten thousand times now." ... Taking care of you is indeed to make up for it, but for you, this kind of compensation is already a remedy after the damage has been done. You, you should hate me. "

Hearing what he said, Yin Ning couldn't help but raised his head, stared at Xia Tingwan and said, "I hate you, and I don't want to forgive you, no matter what you do, I will never forgive you."

The boy's eye circles were red, but he stubbornly refused to shed tears.

Xia Tingwan's nose was sore, he knelt down, but he didn't dare to look into Yin Ning's eyes, lowered his head, and murmured: "Okay, don't forgive me, Ningning don't forgive me."

Yin Ning pushed him away, turned around and ran into his room, and locked the door behind him.

……

In the middle of the night, Yin Ning suddenly had a stomachache.

Xia Tingwan wanted to take him to the hospital, but Yin Ning curled up in the bed and covered his face.

No matter what Xia Tingwan said, he refused to go for life or death, but kept clamoring to find Wen Zichen and ask Wen Zichen to accompany him.

Although Xia Tingwan was worried, he couldn't be tough like an ordinary parent, and he couldn't hold back Yin Ning, so he had to call Su Yan in a hurry.

"Hey?"

It took Su Yan a long time to answer, and he had a strong nasal voice when he opened his mouth. His voice was originally deep, but at this moment, it sounded like he was almost covering his words in his throat.

"Su Yan, do you have a cold?"

"Well," Su Yan replied in a deep voice: "Fever."

"You, are you okay?" Xia Tingwan's heart suddenly tugged.

"I'm fine." Su Yan's tone was still very steady, and he quickly asked, "What's the matter with you?"

"It's Ning Ning." Xia Tingwan told about Yin Ning's affairs, and after he finished, he still couldn't help asking again: "Su Yan, shall I go and see you?"

"No need." Su Yan refused very simply. After thinking for a while, he said in a hoarse voice: "It's midnight, and there's no way to keep going on like this. There happens to be a doctor here in Xiangshan, so I'll ask the driver to pick up Wen Zichen first. Then go to your place and bring him back to have a general look, don't delay. You don't have to worry too much, go to sleep first. If the situation is not good, I'll see how to deal with it."

Xia Tingwan felt a little uncomfortable.

He knew that there was nothing wrong with Su Yan handling Yin Ning's matter like this.

Yin Ning competed with him and refused to listen to him. It would not be good if his illness was delayed because of this. Su Yan was ill, so calling Wen Zichen was helpless.

This is not what he suffers from.

"Su Yan, is that why you don't want to see me?" He forced out a sentence from his throat.

"No." Su Yan said two words subconsciously, he coughed several times, and then said in a hoarse voice with difficulty: "Ting Wan, I'm almost healed, don't come here, what if you come back again by then? Infected, be obedient—”

When Xia Tingwan heard this, he hung up the phone suddenly.

He slid against the wall and sat on the floor, burying his head between his knees in frustration.

He was so frustrated, he felt that everything was so frustrating.

Su Yan has a healthy lifestyle and works out every day, so he seldom gets sick.

They had been married for five years, and Su Yan had only had two colds, but each time they came on violently, and the fever would last for a week or two intermittently.

At that time, Su Yan was afraid that he would be infected, so he ran to sleep in the small bedroom connected to the study.

But he couldn't sleep in the master bedroom alone, so he quietly ran to the small bedroom at night, got into Su Yan's bed and huddled with Su Yan.

Su Yan took the medicine and fell asleep, but subconsciously held him tightly in his arms.

When he got up the next day, he really had a fever of his own accord.

At that time, Su Yan was so angry that his face turned pale, he yelled at him several times for being ignorant, and then unceremoniously drove him back to the big bedroom.

After yelling, Su Yan felt sorry for him again.

While instructing the housekeeper to take good care of him and let him recover from his illness, he sent him several WeChat messages, but there was nothing fierce in WeChat.

He still remembers the message Su Yan sent him, "Be obedient, baby."

-

When the two are sweet, the word obedient can always calm down all his restlessness and uneasiness.

Although he was full of rebellious thorns, in his heart, he was so infatuated with the tenderness and tolerance that Su Yan gave him.

As soon as he heard those two words, he felt safe.

But now he is so powerless.

He is so lame, he can't do anything except weakly ask a few words, he can't get close to Su Yan, so he can only hang up the phone childishly and lose his temper, but what's the use of this, I feel discouraged when I think about it .

The relationship between him and Su Yan is like duckweed in the wind, he can feel and see the weak existence, but he can't grasp it no matter what.

I can't catch it.

Sure enough, Wen Zichen would arrive soon, and Xia Tingwan had no interest in talking to him.

On the contrary, Wen Zichen enthusiastically added Xia Tingwan's WeChat, saying that he would be informed immediately if there was any situation.

Xia Tingwan thought about his relationship with Yin Ning, and Su Yan was sick and didn't want to disturb him all the time, so he still endured the discomfort and added Wen Zichen, and once he passed, he threw Wen Zichen into the group where he couldn't see his circle of friends.

After Yin Ning left, Xia Tingwan lay alone on the bed in his new house with his eyes closed, a thin layer of mist formed on the window, as if he could see the fallen leaves quietly falling in the autumn night.

At that moment, indescribable loneliness permeated from the skin.

He curled his whole body into the bed, rubbing the fabric lightly with his skin—so lonely.

He really longed for Su Yan's hug, longing to make him as vulnerable as a newborn kitten.

……

In the early hours of the morning, Su Yan and Wen Zichen both sent him messages, saying that Yin Ning was fine and just had a normal stomach upset, so he was sleeping in Xiangshan.

Su Yan also took a photo of him, it was a thermometer.

It showed 36.5 degrees, and Su Yan added another sentence: The fever has subsided, it's fine.

Xia Ting replied "Understood" late, and then fell asleep tiredly.

After the night passed, Yin Ning returned to Tianlan Pavilion.

A day later, he started to behave very uncomfortable again, lying in the bedroom and telling Xia Tingwan that he had a stomachache and wanted to find Wen Zichen.

After making a fuss all afternoon, I still complained of a stomachache, and refused to eat dinner anyway.

Zhao Nanshu has something to do with his family. He has not been in City H for the past two weeks, and Su Yan has a cold again. He doesn't want to delay Su Yan's rest because of these trivial matters, so he doesn't even have anyone to discuss with.

Xia Tingwan was exhausted physically and mentally, he didn't know what to do with Yin Ning, he felt as if he was going to be tortured and fell ill.

In the end, he obeyed Yin Ning's wishes.

This time he didn't even contact Su Yan at all, he went directly to Wen Zichen, and asked Wen Zichen to take Yin Ning back to Xiangshan for a night.

But Xia Tingwan didn't expect that such a situation would actually get worse.

After Yin Ning came back, he changed his reason two days later, saying that he had a headache.But Xia Tingwan touched Yin Ning's head, but it wasn't hot at all.

Of course, what Yin Ning was arguing about was still the same thing - asking Wen Zichen to accompany him.

Xia Tingwan really couldn't bear it this time.

In fact, the second time Yin Ning made trouble again, he was already suspicious.He also came from childhood, this kind of trick is not hard to guess to be honest.

He didn't have a good relationship with Yin Ning, and he didn't want to make the children unhappy too much, so he pretended to be sick and went to Wen Zichen once or twice, even if it made him embarrassing in front of Wen Zichen, he still endured it.

But this third time, he also lost his temper.

He treated Yin Ning sincerely, Yin Ning could not forgive him, but he was really aggrieved by being deceived and fooled all the time.

He didn't show anything to Yin Ning, nor did he directly expose Yin Ning, but he squatted beside the bed as calmly as possible and said, "Ning Ning, I'm not letting you go to Xiangshan, but I'm really worried that you keep getting sick like this .You asked me to take you to see a doctor, prescribe some medicine, and reassure me, and then I will send you to Xiangshan.”

"I don't want to go to the doctor." Yin Ning curled up under the blanket, he didn't look at Xia Tingwan, but stubbornly turned his head to look at the corner of the bed.

The boy's unscrupulous expression and behavior made Xia Tingwan feel a little annoyed.

"Ningning, you have to go to the hospital with me." Xia Tingwan stared at Yin Ning and repeated word for word: "I'm not discussing with you, since I'm sick, I have to go to the hospital."

Yin Ning couldn't help being stunned for a moment, he raised his head, and looked at Xia Tingwan with a pair of black eyes in a state of bewilderment.

Xia Tingwan has never been so tough on Yin Ning.It never occurred to him that he would also be angry with Yin Ning.

He thought that his guilt and guilt would allow him to fully tolerate everything.

But it turns out that getting along with each other in real life is really too idealistic.

What's more, Xia Tingwan herself is a little peacock who has been doted on by Su Yan.He was used to being held in the palm of his hand, and he was indeed unfamiliar and clumsy when it came to caring for another injured child.

"I, I won't go..." When Yin Ning spoke again, his tone obviously wavered, not as firm as before.

"If you must do this," Xia Tingwan took a deep breath and paused for a while, seeing that Yin Ning still refused to let go, finally he could only continue: "I will ask Su Yan to find a pediatrician to come over and give it to you carefully. Check it again and let Su Yan see what the problem is."

This is his trump card.

Sure enough, when he mentioned Su Yan's name, Yin Ning sat up all of a sudden.

The little boy clutched the quilt with his fingers, his eyes were full of tension, and he stared at him vaguely annoyed.

Xia Tingwan made up his mind, stood up and said: "You change your clothes, I'll wait for you outside."

Xia Tingwan is a person who has a keen observation of emotions.

Although neither Wen Zichen nor Su Yan had said anything to him, he could clearly sense that Yin Ning was close and dependent on Wen Zichen, but towards Su Yan, Yin Ning had a subconscious sense of authority over his father. image of awe.

To put it bluntly, wasn't he the same back then.Su Yan is gentle, but also has an invisible sense of majesty and weight.

Even when he was at his most willful and stubborn, he always had an inexplicable respect for Su Yan in his heart. Su Yan never attacked him, but when his face darkened, he instinctively wanted to ask for mercy.

Of course, he can understand how Yin Ning feels.

Xia Tingwan went to the living room to wait for Yin Ning. He stood up so hard just now that he felt a little dizzy.

In the past two days, he was in a bad mood and state, and he ate irregularly. He felt a little weak in his feet. He reluctantly took a piece of chocolate and put it in his mouth, but he didn't care too much.

After a while, Yin Ning came out wearing a light blue coat with his head bowed. He ignored Xia Tingwan and just stood there silently.

Xia Tingwan didn't say anything, walked ahead and opened the door, but when he walked to the elevator room, he found that the elevator was not working due to maintenance, he couldn't help feeling a little irritable for a while.

He lives on the fifteenth floor. Normally, it's okay to walk down, but now...

Xia Tingwan turned around and walked to Yin Ning's side, held Yin Ning's small hand, and the two walked down a few steps, Xia Tingwan thought for a while, but said helplessly: "Ning Ning, can you go downstairs? Will you feel dizzy? Do you want to call a doctor?"

He was indeed basically sure that the kid was pretending to be sick, but even if there was only a [-]% chance that it was true, he was still worried about Yin Ning.Afraid that Yin Ning was really sick and would feel dizzy and uncomfortable when he went downstairs, he became stubborn and refused to tell him.

But unexpectedly, Yin Ning misunderstood what he meant, and suddenly raised his head: "What exactly do you want?"

Xia Tingwan couldn't help being stunned, Yin Ning stared at him with eager eyes, but there was deep resentment in his eyes.

Yin Ning really hates him.

His heart was empty for a moment, and in a daze, a sad feeling seeped out of it again. He stood on the stairs and paused, lowered his head and asked softly: "Ningning, actually... are you Are you not sick at all?"

He still couldn't control himself, and exposed Yin Ning's lie face to face.

Yin Ning's eyes widened. He didn't seem to have expected Xia Tingwan to ask such a direct question. His face flushed suddenly, and the corners of his eyes twitched slightly. The redness was so intense: "I, I..."

"The first time you got sick, I tossed around in the middle of the night and woke up Su Yan too, but in fact you were lying to us from that time on."

"I do not have!"

Hearing what he said, Yin Ning fiercely wanted to break free from Xia Tingwan's hand. He stared at Xia Tingwan tightly, and the sullen and irritable expression when he tore up the drawing book appeared again in his eyes. .

Xia Tingwan subconsciously clenched the boy's hand, and continued slowly: "Then the second time, and then this time..."

"I said, I didn't!" Yin Ning roared loudly.

He shook his hand violently, seeing that he still couldn't get rid of Xia Tingwan, suddenly he lost control and gave Xia Tingwan a hard push.

"Bang -" a sound.

Xia Tingwan never expected that Yin Ning would push him so hard.

He was already a little weak, and before he even had time to hold onto the railing, he staggered and fell heavily from the stairs that were four or five steps away.

"I didn't..." Yin Ning was still shouting, but this time he didn't finish shouting, he panickedly looked at Xia Tingwan who was rolling on the marble floor in the stairwell, and the last syllable stopped abruptly.

For a moment, Xia Tingwan almost thought he was dead.

The sudden soaring into the air was followed by severe pain, as if it wanted to penetrate his body, and his whole body went out of his body for an instant.

Xia Tingwan breathed heavily, he couldn't tell what was wrong with his body for a moment, he subconsciously leaned on the railing and wanted to stand up, but as soon as he exerted force on his feet, he couldn't restrain himself from screaming out loud -

Only then did he realize that it was his right foot that was hurting.

Xia Tingwan lowered his head with cold sweat all over his face, he couldn't see the injury of his feet through the moccasins, but the trousers on his left leg were slipped by the iron carvings on the railing of the stairs and a long strip was torn, and the flesh and blood on the side of his thigh were also torn. Scratched, it looks bloody and scary at this time.

But even so, he gradually recovered his sobriety, and realized that he was only traumatized, at most his right foot was broken, but it should not be life-threatening.

At this moment, Yin Ning stumbled down the stairs, saw him, and knelt down in front of him with a plop, his small face was pale, and his lips trembled incoherently because of fright: "I, I... "

Xia Tingwan looked at Yin Ning in front of him, the little boy was so frightened that he shed tears when he opened his mouth, and his voice trembled like it was broken.

That kind of helplessness and fear cannot be pretended.

At that moment, he actually felt distressed.

He understands.

It was the same the day he just found out that he had bumped into someone.

He fell to his knees in the hospital with a plop, fear like a deep well, and he was falling infinitely.

Xia Tingwan took a deep breath, his body convulsed slightly due to the pain, slowly stretched out his hand, and finally touched Yin Ning's face.

Yin Ning couldn't restrain himself anymore, and burst into tears with a "wow".

"Don't be afraid. I'm fine." Xia Tingwan struggled to show a pale smile.

He took out his cell phone from his pants pocket, unlocked it, and dialed Su Yan's number.

Just such a simple movement caused him to gasp for several breaths of air. He was in so much pain that he couldn't speak a long series of words. He handed the phone to Yin Ning tremblingly, his voice became smaller and smaller: "Help, Help me, ask brother Su Yan to come over."

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I have a cold, so I also write a story about a cold, which is really nice!

Today the author has something to say. (About 3 minutes of reading time, no harm in skipping.)

In fact, I have been wanting to talk about it for a few days, but I feel inconvenient to mention it when the emotional plot is more intense, because I don’t want to spoil everyone’s reading experience, nor do I want to interfere with everyone’s judgment on the love between two people.

From the very beginning, this article has often been caught in bipolar disputes over characters.

Whether it's the dislike of being self-willed, the dissatisfaction with Gong Zichen's relationship with Wen Zichen after marriage, or the unfairness of Xia Tingwan's reluctance to develop further with Ji.

Speaking of it, many readers seem to be a little worried about this, so I can always see the consolation that persuades me not to take the comments to heart and write according to what I want.

It's hard for me to understand this concern, because the feedback from readers is actually a very powerful thing, and being around it is both satisfying and sometimes confusing.

For a period of time, I felt very depressed, and even had an inexplicable sense of powerlessness. I wanted to rest for two days, but I felt that it would be good to grit my teeth and stand up. After I survived, my mood calmed down a lot.

At the beginning of writing this article, I actually knew that such a way of writing is bound to cause misunderstanding and controversy.

Xia is a well-known character. His mood, shortcomings, and pain are all on the surface. He is easy to understand and empathize with.

But Su Yan is not. Su Yan is a character hidden in words, memories, and details, and gradually pieced together bit by bit. The test is the skill of "hiding".

I don't dare to comment on my "hiding" skills, but my original intention has not changed.

I am grateful for everyone's participation in this article. I am an author who likes to read comments. I will read every message carefully.

In fact, everyone comes from my refined comments and replies.