Before and After Divorce

"It's so cold..." In the late autumn weather, Xia Tingwan was still dressed a little thinly, he blew on his fingers, waved to Yin Ning, and quickened his pace: "Why do you want to eat McDonald's so late. "

"Suddenly want to eat." Yin Ning kicked the thick fallen leaves on the ground.

"Okay, just call me if you want to eat, and I'll take you there."

Xia Tingwan laughed. He took a look into the bright McDonald's storefront and saw that there were not many people sitting there in the middle of the night, so he didn't worry too much. hand went in.

Standing in front of the counter, Yin Ning carefully looked up at the several set meals. He had a bad eye and had to turn his head to look at them. After hesitating for a while, he said, "I want to eat spicy chicken."

Yin Ning is very introverted and not good at communicating with strangers, so he only whispers to him when ordering food, instead of directly speaking to the clerk.

Seeing his appearance, Xia Tingwan felt a pity and guilt in his heart. He touched Yin Ning's head and said, "Go and sit down."

After returning with the plate in hand, Xia Tingwan and Yin Ning sat in a corner by the window, while Yin Ning was eating, Xia Tingwan looked at him with one hand on his face.

Yin Ning gnawed on the fried chicken leg, and couldn't help hiccupping while eating. He glanced at the chicken leg in his hand and sighed. For some reason, the circles of his eyes suddenly turned red.

Xia Tingwan froze for a moment, then asked softly: "What's the matter?"

"I... miss my mother." Yin Ning lowered his eyes, tears dripped down on the back of his hand.

Xia Tingwan looked at the little boy in front of him, and his eyes couldn't help sour, "Ningning..."

"When I did something right in the past, my mother rewarded me with a McDonald's. At that time, I thought that McDonald's was the most delicious food in the world, and I always wanted to eat it——Later, Brother Zichen said that McDonald's was unhealthy, so he didn't want to take me to eat it. I I just listen to him. I miss my mother very much, and sometimes brother Zichen, but they can't stay by my side all the time. I feel very sad."

Xia Tingwan reached out and touched the back of Yin Ning's head, and said softly: "I'm sorry, Ning Ning, I'm sorry, in the end it's still my fault."

"Stop apologizing all the time."

Yin Ning rubbed his eyes, he raised his head, his eyes were red: "Actually, I don't hate you all the time. Sometimes, I really hate the whole world, so I hate you even more. But sometimes I feel You are okay too. When you accompany me to draw pictures, eat McDonald's with me, and hide things about pushing you for me, I think you are, you are... very good. So don't keep apologizing, you apologize, I wondered in my heart whether to forgive you, and when I thought about it, I couldn't help but want to hate you again. I just wanted to talk to you for a while, I don't know why, but I think you are the only one who will listen carefully. "

"You know, I don't seem to remember that I have a stable home since I was a child. I have been staying with my mother everywhere with relatives, but I will be kicked out after a short stay. Everyone hates us. I feel like It's a mouse. Sometimes I can't help but think that it would be nice if I didn't exist. My mother is sometimes gentle and sometimes very scary. I miss her very much, but I am also afraid of her. Brother Su Yan said, when my mother is well, Just let me go back and live with my mother—you say, my mother, will she be okay?"

Xia Tingwan couldn't answer this question for a while.

This is the first time that Yin Ning has opened up his heart to him, and it is also the first time that he has discovered that this little child also has very complicated and deep emotions in his heart.

Yin Ning lowered his head, took a sip of Coke, and murmured: "Before moving out this time, brother Su Yan told me a lot. He said, you were very unhappy when you were young, and your mother left very early. Yes, Dad also hurt you cruelly. So you can understand my feelings and treat me sincerely. No matter what happens to my mother in the future, you will always be responsible for me, so I can rest assured."

"He also told me that he regarded me as a half-adult, so he discussed with me seriously-he said that he didn't do well enough to hand me over to you before, and he ignored my wishes and let me I feel scared and uneasy, and he will never do this again, so I will try my best to let me decide where I want to live this time. But you are the person he cares about most in his life, so please let me take his feelings into account , don’t hurt you like last time. Give you a chance, even if you don’t want to forgive you, try to understand you a little bit.”

Now Xia Tingwan's eyes turned red: "Did Su Yan say that?"

"Yeah." Yin Ning nodded, he put the last French fries in his mouth, raised his head and said, "I haven't decided whether I should go back to Xiangshan or not, but I think... I, I would like to know more about it." A little bit for you."

"Thank you, thank you."

Xia Tingwan said stammeringly.

He couldn't describe how grateful he was in his heart. He knew that he didn't deserve Yin Ning's forgiveness, but between him and Yin Ning, even a little bit of effort to understand each other and take a step forward was already gone. Enough to make his heart tremble.

Before leaving, Yin Ning wanted to eat Mai Xuanfeng again.

Xia Tingwan bought two, ate one with Yin Ning and went out.

When stepping out of the door of McDonald's, Yin Ning suddenly raised his head, hesitated for a moment, and asked softly, "Brother Tingwan, can I never see Brother Zichen again? I, I really miss him... After the car accident, Su Brother Yan is very busy, he is always with me every day, he is really kind to me, and brother Su Yan is also very kind. But brother Su Yan said that he doesn't want to hear this person's name again, I..."

Looking at Yin Ning's somewhat melancholy eyes, Xia Tingwan couldn't help being dazed for a moment.

Before he could answer, he saw Su Yan's familiar Maybach parked outside.

Su Yan was wearing a long black trench coat and stood at the door of McDonald's looking at the two of them.

"Why are you here?" Xia Tingwan froze for a moment, then led Yin Ning limping over.

"I heard from the person who took care of Yin Ning that you are here. I will come to pick you up when I'm done, and send Ning Ning back by the way." Su Yan glanced at Xia Tingwan's right foot lightly: "Your injury is not healed yet. Thoroughly, walk less."

Xia Tingwan felt a little guilty for some reason.

After sending Yin Ning home, he secretly dug out a spoonful of Mai Xuanfeng and fed it to Su Yan. Su Yan glanced at him and said nothing, just bowed his head and ate it.

Xia Tingwan took advantage of the situation and leaned into Su Yan's arms. In the quiet car, the only sound was their breathing.

Their relationship during this period of time is not as good as before, and the invisible barrier makes this shallow warm atmosphere at this time extraordinarily precious.

Xia Tingwan wanted to say something, but in the end he didn't speak.

The next day, Xia Tingwan thought twice, and still sent Wen Zichen a message: "Do you still want to meet?"

Maybe it was Yin Ning's words that made him shake a little bit, or maybe it was in his heart that he still couldn't let go, wanting to know what Wen Zichen wanted to say.

But he knew that Su Yan would never agree, so he didn't mention the meeting with Su Yan at all.

Wen Zichen replied quickly, and the two decided to meet at a small secret coffee house in the Xiangshan community at three o'clock in the afternoon.

Xia Ting arrived early, and after ordering a cappuccino, he huddled in the sofa seat in the corner and stared blankly.

He was a little apprehensive. In fact, he didn't want to see Wen Zichen at all, but he was curious about what Wen Zichen wanted to say.

Wen Zichen arrived on time at three o'clock. He was wearing a pure white overcoat. After sitting down, Xia Tingwan realized that Wen Zichen had lost a lot of weight in less than a month.

Wen Zichen took off the cashmere scarf, exposed his pointed chin, forced a smile and said, "Mr. Xia, hello——Actually, I didn't expect that you would still want to see me."

Xia Tingwan silently glanced at him.

Wen Zichen ordered a cup of hot cocoa, and when the drink was served, he took a breath while holding the warm cup with both hands, and said softly: "During this time, I tried to contact Mr. Su at first, but he took me away. His number was blocked, and WeChat was also blocked, I dare not bother him anymore, but I am really in pain."

Wen Zichen raised his head, and when he said the last sentence, the ending trembled involuntarily: "I, my affairs, my mood, I don't know who else I can talk to—I'm going crazy these days. Mr. Su will never want to hear my words again. Xia Tingwan, no matter how much I envy you, you are the only person I know who can contact Mr. Su. I can only tell you, and only you can Understand."

"I know that in the end, you, you and Mr. Su must think that I'm trying my best to stay by his side for money."

Xia Tingwan looked at Wen Zichen expressionlessly.

Looking at it from this angle, Wen Zichen's eyelashes are very long, and there is a mole at the corner of his eye, which makes him look a little pitiful.

"Yes, I admit, at the beginning, it was indeed like this."

Wen Zichen smiled bitterly, took a deep breath, and said in a low voice, "Yes, I am a person who really wants money."

"I was born in a single-parent family. I am the eldest, and there are two younger brothers behind me. I have always been supported by my mother. I have to help my mother take care of my younger brother's life when I was very young. I don't care about my studies, and my grades are not good. But I have a good temper and patience. Later, I went to the nursing department affiliated to N University and became a nurse. But my two younger brothers are very smart. The older one was admitted to the law department, but the tuition fee is very expensive , my mother’s health has been getting worse and worse in the past two years, she is always in and out of the hospital, my family... the burden is very heavy, I, I really, I have longed for money since I was a child, but I can’t get rid of it..."

Xia Tingwan became inexplicably irritable when he heard it, and couldn't help but interrupt Wen Zichen: "Is it necessary to tell me these things? If all you want to talk about are these private matters, then forget it, I'm going to go back."

"Wait a minute," Wen Zichen said eagerly. He stretched out his hand, but he didn't touch Xia Tingwan. His eyes were already red, and he said tremblingly, "Please, listen to me."

He looked at Xia Tingwan beggingly like a drowning man holding straw, until Xia Tingwan closed his mouth and sat down again, then said softly: "After graduation, I met a man who is very rich. I was always with him for a while, and others thought we were dating, but we were not. That person..."

When Wen Zichen said this, his body seemed to tremble slightly because he recalled something and felt fear. He paused before whispering: "He is a sadist. I knew it when I knew him, but I am too short of money. Yes. My younger brother finally got admitted to such a promising university, but the family has no money. I want to say that it is good to have someone in the family who is promising, and he will be able to get rid of this kind of poverty in the future, so I gritted my teeth and followed him. But that man, he, he is terrible, I really can't describe it. At that time, every time I received a call from him, my legs would tremble, and he liked me like that... Although I was reluctant in my heart, but for money, I had to beg him to mistreat me severely. He hit harder and harder, and I became more and more afraid. Then one time, it really couldn’t work. I went to the hospital in the middle of the night and had several stitches. I have a very clear premonition that if this continues, I will definitely die on his bed, I really dare not."

Looking at Wen Zichen's pale face, Xia Tingwan didn't know what to say for a while.

"It doesn't matter to him, he thinks that I must go back and beg him, because the money he gave me has always been enough for my mother to be hospitalized for one illness, or my brother's tuition for a semester. He knows the situation of my family. , so he was not in a hurry. During that time, I was going crazy... I didn't know what to do, and I didn't dare to tell my family. They all thought I broke up with my rich boyfriend, but it wasn't that at all. It's the same thing, my whole family depends on me alone, I'm afraid if I tell them, the family will be in chaos. That's when you got into a car accident, and that's how I got to know Su Yan—"

"The first time I saw Su Yan, I felt that he was very unusual."

Wen Zichen looked down at his fingers: "You may not know, the more you are like me, the more you will be able to identify who is the richest among the crowd."

Xia Tingwan looked at Wen Zichen, this person made him feel unspeakably uncomfortable, even the coffee in his mouth felt unbearably bitter.

"You must be feeling disgusted,"

Wen Zichen grinned self-deprecatingly, and said slowly: "Actually, sometimes, I also feel disgusted."

"That night, the ambulance took you and Ningning to the hospital. You were covered in blood. I happened to be negotiating something with the emergency department, and it was pediatrics, so I hurried to help deal with it. Ningning's injury was actually serious. Serious, except for the scratches and eye wounds, but you entered the emergency room. Ningning's side has almost dealt with it, and you are out of danger. When I came out to drink a glass of water, I watched from a very hidden corner outside the emergency room. When Su Yan sat on the chair, he..."

When Wen Zichen said this, he couldn't help biting his lips with his teeth, and after a long time, he whispered, "Su Yan is crying."

Xia Tingwan suddenly raised his head to look at Wen Zichen, his fingers trembled, and even the coffee cup almost slipped off.

Wen Zichen seemed to be lost in memory, and murmured: "He covered his face with one hand, and kept holding back—so his shoulders trembled, and he couldn't help it anymore, so he let out a very light inhalation Sound. I walked over and handed him a tissue. He looked up, his nose and eyes were red, and his shirt was stained with blood. He said thank you to me. He was so embarrassed, he didn't look like him at all A person of that status."

"But Xia Tingwan, you know, at that moment, I felt that I fell in love with him. He was so fragile, it felt... It seemed that he was not far away from me at all, but so close that I could hug him, Tell him it's okay."

Wen Zichen looked at Xia Tingwan, and there were tears in his eyes, as if recalling the scene at that time, a faint smile even appeared on his face involuntarily.

"You said whether there was money in my feelings for Su Yan? I think it might have been at the beginning. At that time, we already knew your identity, and of course we knew who he was, but the situation was chaotic. You are the person he swore to marry, how dare I think so much at that time. Only at that moment, I really lost my mind, my heart beat so fast, I couldn't help but want to look at him all the time, I never Didn't think that way about other people. It wasn't about the money, really."

"I'm curious about him, I want to know what kind of feelings he has for you, and I want to know what kind of person he is, and I can't help but think—if it was me, if he could have the same feelings for me , even just a little bit, I think, even a little bit, I am satisfied. I really want to have Su Yan, you know, Xia Tingwan, that night, I was really jealous of you, I wanted to replace you—I I also feel terrible, you are still lying in the ward, but I actually have such a thought, but that is indeed my real thought."

Xia Tingwan felt that he couldn't breathe, he couldn't hear what Wen Zichen was saying, and he didn't care what Wen Zichen said.

His mind is full of Su Yan.

He had never seen Su Yan cry.

For five years, never.

He imagined that scene.

That night in the hospital, Su Yan was alone outside the emergency room, hiding in a corner where he thought no one could see him, weeping quietly.

Su Yan couldn't help but say something to him until recently - "Tingting, I was so scared that night, do you know that?"

But just such a sentence, how can it describe what happened to him that night.

If Wen Zichen hadn't said it, Su Yan would never have told him.

Su Yan won't tell him how much he loves him——

Love to fear.

Love so much that even if he is out of danger, but just think of the possibility of losing him, he will still hide and cry like a child.

He misses Su Yan so much.

I got it, Su Yan, I really got it this time.

"Although I have such thoughts, I don't actually have a chance. Su Yan is very busy and takes care of you all the time. He just asks me about Yin Ning's situation every day. I don't dare to show any thoughts about that, just Try to take good care of Yin Ning. Yin Ning is a very poor and well-behaved child. I accompany him to recover and talk to him every day. He is very close to me later. So Su Yan talked to me and asked me to be Yin Ning's child The full-time nurse, the price he proposed shocked me. In fact, with that kind of remuneration, I don’t have to think about anything else, and I can already afford the expenses of the family—but I’m not satisfied, I’m still greedy, The more I get along with Su Yan, the more I want to have him."

"Later, you got divorced."

Wen Zichen said slowly.

Xia Tingwan stared at Wen Zichen, but Wen Zichen did not avoid his gaze, but said calmly: "Because of Yin Ning, I can move into Xiangshan, and I am a little closer to Su Yan. He is very Pain, pain every day, he doesn't talk much, he doesn't come down to eat too much, he's always gaunt when I see him."

"During that period, there was a horrible thing. The man came back once - he raped me, and he regretted it afterwards. In fact, he has never been a person who likes to be forced. It's ridiculous, such a pervert, but But he is very principled, he only does the kind of people who bow to him for money. But I was injured again, and I went back to Xiangshan after resting for a few days. It was that night, Su Yan was drunk and lay on the first floor, smashing No one is allowed to talk to him. Actually, I was quite afraid of him, and I never dared to disobey his wishes, but that night, I...I..."

Xia Tingwan took a deep breath, he knew that Wen Zichen was about to say that.

The point he couldn't help but mind, when he came, the thing he subconsciously wanted to explore,

"I mustered up the courage, and I thought, that might be the only chance in my life."

"I helped him into my room, then knelt by the bed and begged him, I said, let me spend the night with him, okay, I don't want anything, I just fell in love with him, and I want to be with him. He is uncomfortable If you want to vent it on me, I can bear anything, no matter how rough it is. I will always be with him, no matter how painful it is, it will pass, and I will spend this time with him."

When Wen Zichen said this, he smiled desolately, and paused for a while before saying: "My injury was not healed at that time, but I thought, he was drunk, maybe he wouldn't find out, or, if he found out, I'll just tell him what happened before, and maybe he...will pity me a little bit."

"Have you done it?" Xia Tingwan asked suddenly.

Wen Zichen was silent for a long time before replying: "I gave him a mouthful for a while. But he didn't fuck me—I, I took off my clothes, but he didn't fuck me. Do you know why?"

"why?"

"Because," Wen Zichen raised his head and said word by word, "on my thigh, there was a burn mark from that man's cigarette butt. He touched it and asked me if it hurt. I, I thought at that time that he really He was asking me and caring about me. I was so happy that I couldn't help holding his hand and saying—it hurts. Then Su Yan said that he..."

When Wen Zichen said this, big drops of tears suddenly welled up in his eyes, and he choked up and said, "He looked at my scars and said sadly——When Ting Ting was young, he must have been in so much pain."

"Xia Tingwan...why, you are already divorced, but I still can't even get that little alms. When he saw my injury, he thought of how you felt more than ten years ago. How could I not envy of you."

Wen Zichen's voice was involuntarily excited. He tried his best to hold the coffee cup and paused for a while before saying, "After that night, Su Yan told me that he couldn't reciprocate my feelings. Even then, I didn't give up. Said I don't care if I'm cheap or ridiculous, I told Su Yan that I don't want anything, I don't need him to like me, I just want to be with him, even if I don't do anything, just let me stay Just by his side. He didn't answer me, but he didn't let me go—"

"I think I still have a chance, one year, two years, maybe I wait, maybe one day..."

"Later, on my birthday, Su Yan was going out to watch a play. I asked him if he could take me to see it. After he knew it was my birthday, he asked me what I wanted to eat. I said I wanted Japanese food. You may I thought it was ridiculous, but I only went to eat sushi before, not high-end Japanese food. Su Yan and I said the same thing. Su Yan took me there—that day, I, I really felt that he was He felt sorry for me a little bit, or felt sorry for me. He told me that I am still young, and I will gradually have what I want in the future. Don't be too sad about these things. I..."

Wen Zichen stared blankly at the cup in his hand, and a tear dripped down: "For the first time, I touched Su Yan's gentleness a little bit."

"But soon, you came back again."

"I'm so scared. I don't have any right to make decisions, and I'm in such an embarrassing situation. If you want to come back, as long as you impress Su Yan, I have no place at all. But as long as you want...how difficult is it to impress Su Yan?" I know, the only possible way for me is to make you feel that you and Su Yan are over, and then quit. I deliberately behave in front of you again and again, I think, you are so proud, maybe you can't bear it once Every time I came back, I saw Su Yan staying with me. But—”

"But you didn't give up in the end."

Wen Zichen smiled bitterly, and he raised his head to look at Xia Tingwan: "You said that I was never your opponent, right?"

A complex look flashed across Xia Tingwan's eyes.

For no reason, he felt that Wen Zichen also looked like a bird perched on a tree, maybe a nightingale.

He couldn't explain why, but he still felt inexplicably that this man had a temperament that bloomed in the dark.

Wen Zichen didn't resist depravity, and he didn't even care how humble he was, but he could be so cruel to himself, but he still had to rely on something to live.

If there is no branch to rely on, he will be extremely miserable.Perhaps Su Yan was the branch he wanted most.

Xia Tingwan looked at Wen Zichen and said slowly: "You remember wrongly. I said, my opponent is not you."

Wen Zichen was stunned for a moment, and then murmured: "Yes, what you care about is only Su Yan's thoughts. He is your opponent."

When he said this, he suddenly showed a faint smile on his pale face, and asked abruptly: "I'm completely out of the game now. So... have you won? Have the problems between you been resolved?"

Xia Tingwan's face was a little ugly, he stared at Wen Zichen: "What do you mean?"

That sentence sounded provocative at first, but it seemed to imply some kind of deep meaning.

He couldn't help thinking about it, but he couldn't grasp the clue.

"It's nothing." Wen Zichen suddenly stopped continuing.

"Since I have nothing else to say, I'm going back too." Xia Tingwan completely lost his patience, he reached for his coat and stood up.

"Wait—" Wen Zichen also stood up immediately, his body trembling slightly: "Xia Tingwan, I really like Su Yan. I know it's strange for me to tell you this, but he won't see me again , he is the kind of man who has no room for change after making a decision. So these few words, I can only say to you. "

"Do you want me to help you convey your love for Su Yan?" Xia Tingwan opened his eyes in disbelief: "Are you crazy?"

"No." Wen Zichen looked at Xia Tingwan with painful eyes, and said softly: "I'm not talking about this. I can admit to you everything I do. I don't want Ningning to live with you. I want to stay Ning Ning didn't want to go to Su Yan's side, so I taught him about painting. He only told me that his illness was fake, but I didn't tell you. A few more tries, maybe you guys realize he really doesn't want to live there. But other than that—"

"I definitely didn't secretly instigate Ningning to push you. I don't know how to prove myself, but I swear, I really didn't."

Xia Tingwan looked at Wen Zichen, and Wen Zichen's eyes were full of pleading.

"It's not important." He thought for a while, then said calmly: "Didn't Su Yan say that, he checked it, and didn't blame you for that incident."

"No." Wen Zichen shook his head and blocked Xia Tingwan's way: "He wasn't sure it was me, but he suspected me. He said he would always help me with my mother's illness, but that matter After that, he, he didn't care anymore. I didn't want to ask him for money again. I just thought that after these things happened, he would definitely think that I was only out of money, so he calculated him, calculated Yin Ning, I and Yin Ning before The things he said about liking are all fake."

"But I'm not like that. I really don't want him to think of me like this from now on."

Wen Zichen seemed to be about to cry, and sniffed hard: "Please, Xia Tingwan, I don't expect you to help me tell him this right now. But if one day, you will be completely healed , even after many years—if you still mention me one day, please tell him that my feelings for him are true—I didn’t lie to him.”

Xia Tingwan did not give Wen Zichen an answer in the end.

He really didn't know what to say.

Suddenly he also felt a little dazed, he still didn't have the slightest affection for Wen Zichen, he didn't even want to think about the existence of this person, but maybe he felt that he was a very pitiful man on a certain level.

Once you start to feel that there is something pitiful about a person, the disgust will not be complete.

Life seems to be like this, many things have no answers.

He knew that he would never talk to Su Yan about Wen Zichen now, but many years later... If Qian Fan passed away, would he think of the present, and many things would become understandable.

He really doesn't know.

Before leaving, Wen Zichen told him that if Yin Ning needed anything, he could still find him, and he was willing to help at any time.

But Xia Tingwan flatly refused this matter.

After Wen Zichen left, Xia Tingwan walked slowly outside again.

He didn't return to Xiangshan until his mood gradually calmed down.

Su Yan was reading in the master bedroom when Xia Tingwan walked over and hugged him tightly.

There are thousands of words in my heart, but nothing can be said.

"what's wrong?"

Su Yan took off the gold-rimmed glasses, turned around and hugged Xia Tingwan on his lap, and asked gently: "Are you in a bad mood?"

"I miss you."

Xia Tingwan said suddenly.

For some reason, when those words came out of his mouth, he felt sore in his heart.

He will never make Su Yan cry again, never again.

He swears in his heart.

Su Yan was stunned. He immediately hugged Xia Tingwan in his arms, patted Xia Tingwan's back repeatedly, and said in a low voice: "Little guy, I have something to tell you. I have something urgent to deal with at work. My plane tomorrow morning is going abroad."

Xia Tingwan suddenly raised his head: "So suddenly?"

"Well," Su Yan nodded, and said in a deep voice, "I don't know how many days I'm going to go, it depends on how the matter is resolved."

Xia Tingwan couldn't help but lowered his eyes around Su Yan's neck, he couldn't express his reluctance.

Maybe it was Wen Zichen's question - "Have your matters been resolved?" It made him feel a little uneasy, he really wanted to be with Su Yan, and he was not willing to let Su Yan leave him, even if it was only temporarily of.

"My baby, be good." Su Yan kissed his cheek: "You are fine, you still have to pay attention to your feet, don't worry me."

"Yeah." Xia Tingwan managed to pull himself together, he was surprisingly obedient this time, rubbed his face against Su Yan's chin, and whispered, "I'll wait for you to come back. I will study the script carefully during this time, Su Yan... shall we know video?"

"Yeah." Su Yan nodded.

"Then..." Xia Tingwan looked up at Su Yan timidly: "Will you still write postcards to me?"

He hasn't received a letter from Su Yan for a long time, and he has moved all the love letters from the past to Tianlan Pavilion for collection, and the number has remained at 138.

"I will write it." Su Yan smiled nicely.

In the early morning of the next day, Su Yan was finally checking his small suitcase, and Xia Tingwan got up in a daze.

Su Yan was taken aback, touched Xia Tingwan's head and said, "Why did you wake up so early?"

"I..." Xia Tingwan yawned loudly as soon as he opened his mouth. His eyes were full of sleepiness, but he still said, "I want to see you off."

Su Yan laughed: "You have never sent the plane."

Although he said it unintentionally, Xia Tingwan suddenly felt very ashamed when he heard it.

When he went out to film, as long as Su Yan was not busy with work, he would definitely pick him up in person, no matter it was early in the morning or late at night.

In the past, he always felt that it was all ordinary, but now that he thought about it, how many times when he returned to City H tiredly after work, he always felt at ease when he saw Su Yan waiting for him as soon as he got off the plane.

But when Su Yan was on a business trip, he neither delivered nor picked up the plane.

"I will always send it to you in the future." Xia Tingwan looked at Su Yan and whispered.

Su Yan's eyes were a bit complicated, and then he shook his head slightly: "Tingting, I don't need it today, it's too early, and my secretary and I have to sort out some documents on the way, so I don't have time to talk to you."

As he spoke, he hugged Xia Tingwan horizontally, and gently put her back into the warm blanket. He leaned down, kissed Xia Tingwan's forehead, and whispered, "Honey, I miss you too."

Xia Tingwan couldn't help holding Su Yan's hand, and after a long time, he reluctantly let go.