Before and After Divorce

During Su Yan's absence, Xia Tingwan worked harder than ever before.

He tried his best to immerse himself in the state of Gu Fei every day, even when communicating with Aunt Rong and the others at Xiangshan's home, he would gesture with his hands.

Although it was very inconvenient every day, Aunt Rong and the others knew that he was looking for status, so they were very patient.

Autumn is leaving day by day.

Occasionally, when the temperature of City H suddenly drops, the severe cold makes people on the street suddenly dress thickly.

Xia Tingwan has always been afraid of the cold, so he always wears a woolen hat and sunglasses when he goes out, so his face is covered more tightly, so it's not easy to be recognized by others.

One day he went to 7-11 to buy cigarettes, and for a while he was too immersed in Gu Fei's world, and even used hand gestures when buying cigarettes.

The clerk didn't look up, just took a pack of red Marlboro and threw it to him according to the direction of his finger, Xia Tingwan suddenly became serious, he was clearly not referring to this one.

He held down the pack of cigarettes with his hands, and pointed stubbornly at the black ice blasting beads.

"What are you doing?" The clerk glanced at Xia Tingwan impatiently.

Xia Tingwan pointed to the bag of Hongwan, shook his finger, and pushed it back, but he still insisted on refusing to speak.

"Who knows which one you want?" The young clerk bluntly said a word, turned around and took a few packs of different Marlboro down, and threw them in front of Xia Tingwan unceremoniously: "Here, you choose by yourself Alright."

Xia Tingwan lowered his head and picked out the black ice pop beads he wanted, and when he lowered his head to take the money, he heard the clerk mutter again: "It's so annoying, there are still people waiting behind, and I don't know if it's real dumb or fake dumb .”

Xia Tingwan suddenly raised his head and stared at the clerk, but the clerk didn't even look at him, but skillfully handed him the change he found.

He couldn't help but glanced back at the few people behind him. They all looked at him with indifferent eyes. Although they didn't show much impatience, he still suddenly felt that his face was full of embarrassment. It became hot and red.

He watched the crowd with subtle eyes, walked out of the 7-11 store, and felt that he was so out of place for the first time.

Although he wasn't really dumb, he suddenly felt for the first time how powerless it was to lose the ability to speak at this moment.

When walking out with the Marlboro in his pocket, Xia Tingwan stood on the street, looking at the people passing by in front of him in a daze, no one looked at him more, he felt small and a little lonely.

At that moment, he suddenly felt that he had touched a trace of the real Gu Fei's soul.

In the howling autumn wind, he took out his mobile phone and typed two words thoughtfully, "aphasia".

Aphasia may not only refer to the lack of personal communication skills in general.

For a dumb person, the deeper sadness is that he is completely aphasic in the communication between people and in society.

He suddenly thought of "Looking"——

Gu Fei just came to a big city in the north to look for Xu Rong. He struggled to listen to the northern accent, and walked back and forth in the Academy of Fine Arts. He didn't know who to ask, and he didn't know where to start.

In the end, Gu Fei sat in the stands next to the basketball court with a bottle of Coke in his hand, staring blankly at the boys his age running around on the court and shouting loudly. People talk to him.

In the novel -

"Gu Fei sat until the evening, until the crowd on the court gradually dispersed. He stood up, picked up the unfinished bottle of Coke blankly, and walked outside the school gate. In the night, his shadow was like a thin tree. tree."

Xia Tingwan raised his head, lit a cigarette with somewhat melancholy eyes, and blew out a smoke ring while standing in the cold wind.

The night in City H came earlier and earlier. At six o'clock, the sunset glow had faded into lead blue, sprinkled on the gray streets, making one feel lonely.

He suddenly understood Gu Fei's love and yearning for Xu Rong better.

In the script of "Looking", Gu Fei has no lines at all, but Xu Rong often has long passages of muttering to himself.

Xu Rong is probably the kind of pompous young man who talks a lot, and some of his words are even stupid and unnutritive.

But every time Xu Rong spoke, Gu Fei listened very carefully, not even willing to miss a single word.

Xia Tingwan imagined that he was Gu Fei. In his lonely life, Xu Rong was the first boy who was willing to talk to him so much. Perhaps for him, every syllable, every flexible and vivid word of Xu Rong, Both are charming even beyond sex.

Because this is the first time in his life that he feels accepted equally by his peers.

That feeling seemed like a miracle in Gu Fei's heart.

Xia Tingwan thought about it, and suddenly felt sad.

He can understand Gu Fei.

He also couldn't describe the moment when he took off his clothes in front of Su Yan for the first time to reveal the ugly scars on his body.

He was weeping weakly, but his heart was like a mountain torrent pouring down.

Even if he withers, even if he is unknowingly fragmented.

In this world, there is still a person who is willing to walk through the crowd, extend a warm hand to him, and tell him——

You still have me.

What is that but a miracle?

After Xia Tingwan came home, he drew Xu Rong's lines in the script of "Looking" with a highlighter.

He had been focusing on how to express Gu Fei before, but now he suddenly realized that every word Xu Rong said was equally important to Gu Fei. He had to memorize Xu Rong's lines very carefully, every emotional turning point, every A fluctuating tone.

Because the real Gu Fei must have listened very carefully, his emotional flow was like dancing a beautiful silent waltz with Xu Rong's words.

……

In the evening, Xia Tingwan lay on the bed before going to bed and made a video with Su Yan. It was morning over Su Yan, but Su Yan looked very tired and his face was a little pale.

"You look so tired, Su Yan." Xia Tingwan put his phone up on the bedside table, lay down on the pillow, looked at Su Yan in the video with some worry, and whispered, "Is work not going well?"

"Well, it's a little troublesome, but it can be solved." Su Yan nodded, "How about you, are you okay?"

"It's all good." Xia Tingwan paused for a moment, and said aggrievedly, "I just... miss you. Su Yan, you didn't reply to my message yesterday."

"I was too busy yesterday, so I didn't take care of it for a while." With a trace of apology in Su Yan's eyes, he said softly, "But I dreamed of you at night."

"Really?" Xia Tingwan's eyes lit up.

"Well, it's actually a dream, but it's actually something that happened in the past." Su Yan said slowly: "I dreamed that you stayed up late and smoked three packs of cigarettes to play games. I woke up and saw that you were still awake. The ashtray was full of cigarette butts, and I was so angry that I threw all your cigarettes out of the window on the third floor. That time scared you so much that you didn’t dare to talk to me for a day.”

As he talked, he seemed to be in a daze. He lowered his eyes and remained silent for a while before continuing: "When I woke up, I felt very regretful."

Su Yan raised his head to look at Xia Tingwan, and said with deep eyes: "If only you hadn't been so fierce at that time, it would be great. Thinking of your frightened eye circles are red, I feel regretful. Sometimes, I always feel that I didn't do my best. good."

Xia Tingwan felt an indescribable uneasiness and discomfort in his heart, which was rare for Su Yan.

Su Yan is so powerful that he seldom wastes time regretting such a weak and futile act, let alone such a small thing many years ago.

"Su Yan, you have spoiled me enough." Xia Tingwan whispered, "Really, no one can treat me like you."

When he said this, he suddenly remembered something, stretched out his hand and took the Zippo cigarette case by the bedside, and then opened it to Su Yan: "Look at the new cigarette case I bought, 16 packs, so it's easier to remember , From now on, I will only smoke one box of this a week, an average of two a day."

Su Yan couldn't help laughing, like coaxing a kitten: "So cute."

"Su Yan." Seeing his expression, Xia Tingwan couldn't help but said softly, "I want to kiss you."

"How do you kiss?" Su Yan asked.

"That's it." Xia Tingwan said, approaching the phone with a blushing face, and kissed Su Yan's lips on the screen.

In front of Su Yan, acting like a baby was almost instinctive.Although I feel a little embarrassed, I have done such greasy things before.

"Sweet bean buns."

Su Yan looked at him in the video, his light gray eyes glowed tenderly, "It's getting late over there, should you go to sleep?"

Xia Tingwan was indeed a little sleepy, so he nodded, "Then I'm dead?"

"No need." A trace of reluctance flashed across Su Yan's eyes, and he said softly, "Honey, I'll watch you sleep, and I'll hang up later when I go to wash up."

"En." Xia Tingwan shyly curled up under the blanket, and under Su Yan's gaze, closed his eyes and fell asleep sweetly.

The next morning, Xia Tingwan was woken up by Zhao Nanshu's phone call.

"Boss, get up quickly—" Zhao Nanshu's voice was very anxious: "The program group of "On the Road" released the trailer for the first two episodes on the Internet, and the cut is so messy that you don't know what it is. Go watch it Let's see."

Xia Tingwan was dazed and didn't realize it yet. After a brief answer, he went to the bathroom to get an electric toothbrush, and then came back and sat in front of the computer while brushing his teeth and watching.

He hasn't been on Weibo for a long time, and Zhao Nanshu and the others usually run it, so it was Zhao Nanshu who privately sent him the official Weibo of the "On the Road" program group.

The latest one is a 3-minute short video titled "On the Road" Season [-] Thailand Chapter Preview. It was released in less than two hours, and the number of retweets and comments has already been jaw-dropping.

Xia Tingwan subconsciously clicked on the comment and took a look, but after just looking at it, his face turned blue all of a sudden.

Thousands of people liked the top one, saying, "I've been to Thailand too, and I've always taken songthaews. Movie stars can get special treatment? You can make black faces at will, and you can get five people Did you use your travel expenses for yourself? Have a good time."

There are several articles below, and the content is similar, and he didn't have time to read them carefully for a while.

Xia Tingwan took a deep breath and his fingers trembled slightly. He hesitated for a few seconds before finally clicking on the video.

He hasn't watched many variety shows, and he doesn't know much about this kind of trailer, but he just thinks that the beginning of the credits is really beautiful.

TBN and Shaoguang have spent a lot of money to hire famous foreign natural scenery photographers. Apart from variety shows, they also strive to show the magnificent and vigorous exotic scenery.

The tropical style of Chiang Mai, the colorful parasols, and the pink sunset glow, under such a generous photography, are really beautiful and heart-pounding.

But as the first 30 seconds of scenery and the introduction to Chiang Mai passed, and the interactive editing between MCs gradually began, Xia Tingwan's complexion became worse and worse.

The preview of the first season must have included the program group's introduction to the formulation of the rules, and of course the editing of the budget. When everyone was discussing, Xia Tingwan remembered that he had said a lot, but it happened to be that The sentence: "Will 5000 RMB be a little little?" was cut up.

This was just the beginning, and it got even worse after that.

Xia Tingwan remembered that when he took the songthaew for the first time, he was really uncomfortable.

But I didn't expect that when it was edited, it would be so bad.

When the photographer was filming the laughter and chatting of several other MCs, the pictures were intertwined harmoniously, but when the camera moved to him, he was hiding in the corner alone, looking out of the songthaew with a sullen face, and he really looked like a stinky face There is no meaning of integration.

The editor also specially introduced a suspenseful narrative here, "But what happened to Xia Tingwan?"

The question text marked with special bubbles makes all viewers involuntarily want to explore the reasons behind it.

Then came the fast-paced editing, and soon came the conversation between him and Xing Le under the canopy behind the restaurant.

This passage made Xia Tingwan feel chills all over.

He suddenly remembered what Ji Zhan had reminded him as soon as he left. Even if it was a private conversation, Xing Le's follow-up photographer would follow him all the time. As long as there is a photographer, he must be careful.

He remembered that he had clearly explained a lot to Xing Le, that he had never driven a car again because of the car accident, and when riding in a car, if it was too bumpy, he would feel uncontrollably uncomfortable.

But that entire paragraph was cut away, leaving only a sentence that he seemed to take for granted: "Lele, the songthaew car is too bumpy, I don't feel comfortable braking and accelerating."

Because of this kind of completely personal reason to make a request to the captain, coupled with the poor state of the songthaew before, how can it not make people feel that he is playing big.

What disgusted him the most was that although the program crew cut his parts like this, of course they would not be so stupid as to obviously show the intention of defaming his MC, so they played up the fact that Xing Le and others agreed to take a taxi for him It became the tolerance and protection for him, and in the end he forcibly dropped the landing point back to the core of traveling together with a loving team.

But ending with such a preview will only fuel the audience's dissatisfaction with him, and the emotions that have nowhere to vent will only be poured out with extraordinarily intense language.

Just a few minutes after he clicked on the video to watch, the number of retweets and comments continued to soar. Now it seems that even if the program group doesn't buy it this time, this hot search is still set.

Xia Tingwan didn't want to watch it, but he couldn't control his hand and refreshed the comments, almost all the hot comments were scolding him.

The second one immediately following the first one is a very straightforward sarcasm: "The black-faced actor has been in the past for several years, and the works have not fart, but his temper is good. [狗头]"

Xia Tingwan sat on the seat for a long time, until the toothpaste foam became bitter in his mouth, and then stood up blankly. He even thought for a few seconds before realizing that he should go to the bathroom.

He rinsed his mouth repeatedly, until he spat out the last mouthful of water, and then suddenly felt nauseated.

Facing the sink, he retched a few times, and when he looked up, Xia Tingwan saw that his face in the mirror was abnormally pale.

Again he felt helpless fear.

It turned out that he tried so hard to perform and work well, but as long as the editor moved his fingers, he could invent and create him into another completely different person.

In fact, I don't know how long it has been, but he always has a vague feeling that he doesn't seem to be suitable for this circle, and every year, the ecology of the circle is changing, and he is getting more and more out of place.

He has never been good at getting along with the public, he can't interact with movie fans, and he can't manage character settings. In the past few years, this shortcoming didn't seem to be so fatal.

In those years, unlike now, quite a few celebrities still ran Weibo by themselves, and so did he.

After "Whale Language" won the award, he also frequently posted on Weibo for a while, but sometimes he posted content about his life, but the response was always polarized.

On the one hand, there are always people who support him, but on the other hand, there always seems to be a group of people who hate him to the bone. He was scolded for his poor life because he was drinking outside late at night.

After marrying Su Yan, Su Yan once took him to a luxury cruise ship on the high seas to gamble a few times. It was sprayed, saying that he clumsily flaunted his wealth when he squeezed into a wealthy family.

Gradually, he has become more and more silent in the channels facing the public. To some extent, he may have vaguely realized that the public does not like him as much as it seems.

What they love is an extremely rebellious phantom that overlaps with Xiao Xia in "Whale Language", and they love him who was surrounded by the halo of the actor during that period of time.

The love of the masses is noisy and fleeting.

After the passage of time, the remaining real him is more like an unbearable shadow in people's eyes, not understood.

The phone kept ringing, Xia Tingwan walked slowly to the table, and saw that the caller ID was Zhou Yang.

He couldn't press the answer button all the time.

He fell on the bed, breathing heavily with difficulty.

In fact, he has always had this problem. Whenever there is any bad news and Zhou Yang looks for him, he can't wait to hide in the cave, pretending that there is no signal to reach him, or simply pretending that he disappeared.

He knew he had to grow up, he couldn't handle things like this anymore, but the feeling of suffocation still flooded him like a tide.He buried his head under the blanket, and after a while, he replied a WeChat message to Zhou Yang with trembling fingers: "I'll call you in half an hour."

Just give him half an hour to take it easy, he only needs this half an hour, and then he will work hard to be strong.

After lying down for half an hour, Xia Ting finally pulled himself together and called Zhou Yang.

Zhou Yang's tone was very angry, obviously he was angry.

Xia Tingwan told Zhou Yang about everything during the filming in Thailand. He was really aggrieved. He really paid attention to it, but he was spliced ​​and edited randomly by the program, and finally broadcast this effect. s things.

Zhou Yang asked Xia Tingwan what his plan was, Xia Tingwan's mind was also in a mess, not knowing what to do next.

Zhou Yang asked again, if the whole film of "On the Road" was released, would it give the public a worse or better impression, Xia Tingwan subconsciously said, better.

But then he hesitated for a moment, frankly speaking, he really didn't know.

Zhou Yang sighed deeply, and said in a low voice, "You didn't go to the third and fourth episodes, and the program team hasn't contacted us for so long, but at the same time, the other side is hyping you with malicious editing. Behind this, probably Ye Bingwen is really doing the trick."

While the two were talking, Lu Xiangnan called again. Xia Tingwan talked to Zhou Yang and then answered Lu Xiangnan's call. At first he thought that Lu Xiangnan had seen the trailer and came to ask him, but he didn't expect Lu Xiangnan He opened his mouth and said directly: "Ting Wan, the audition for "Looking" will probably start next week. The candidate for Xu Rong is Xu Zhe's favorite candidate. After talking with the other party, he is also willing to cooperate, so it is directly finalized. He especially I'm happy. But Gu Fei has a lot of actors to choose from. Most of the actors Xu Zhe met before are willing to try it. The challenge here is quite severe, so you have to be prepared."

Xia Tingwan hadn't recovered from the blow from "On the Road". Hearing this series of messages, he couldn't help but feel suffocated for a moment. He pinched the flesh on his arm until he felt the pain. Overwhelmed, he asked, "Is Xu Rong decided? Who is it?"

"He Yanxi."

When Xia Tingwan heard this name, He Yanxi's face flashed across his mind, and he couldn't help but understand Xu Zhe very well.

He Yanxi is definitely the most outstanding male actor in the Mesozoic Era. He has an excellent resume for more than ten years since his debut. He has almost never made a movie with a bad reputation. In terms of awards, he is only one Golden Horse Award away from winning the three Golden Actor Awards.

There is nothing to say about He Yanxi's professional ability, but more importantly, this man's appearance and temperament are really suitable for Xu Rong.

Xia Tingwan hadn't spoken to He Yanxi, but he had seen He Yanxi from afar.

He Yanxi was undoubtedly the kind of man who would be noticed by anyone who saw him in real life.

But in the movies, he can often miraculously reduce the perfection of his appearance to several levels. He has acted as a restaurant owner, a tricycle driver, and many, many little people. No matter how handsome he is, in the atmosphere of the movie, he can miraculously stand out from everyone.

Later, some film critics made a very accurate evaluation of He Yanxi. This person is good at playing ordinary people.

Every movement of his has been carefully considered, permeated with the details of ordinary people familiar to the public, shrugging his shoulders, secretly picking his teeth with the tip of his tongue in his mouth, wandering eyes, in those less elegant movements, He perfectly hides his true identity and builds a natural and plump image in the camera.

This point is important to the character Xu Rong.

Xu Rong is also handsome, but the handsomeness of this character cannot be performed by those handsome male stars in the movie circle with their true colors.

Xu Rong's handsomeness has the force of forcibly holding his breath up to his throat.

Once a person has a lot of energy in appearance, it is impossible to be so calm and not so tall.

His handsomeness belonged to the slightly better-looking little people among ordinary people, and there was an air of self-satisfaction and complacency in it.

One look at him, and one should feel the turmoil and impetuosity in this young boy's heart. He cannot bear it, is not thick, and is not so confident.

This kind of delicate scale, Xia Tingwan thought about it, indeed He Yanxi was the most able to grasp it.

"He Yanxi is indeed suitable." Xia Tingwan thought for a while and said softly.

"During the audition, He Yanxi will come to play the opposite role, so Xu Zhe will definitely refer to his feelings and tendencies seriously."

Xia Tingwan took a deep breath, he knew what Lu Xiangnan meant, and He Yanxi had already made a decision, so his opinion must be crucial when considering Gu Fei's casting.

"Then besides me, on Gu Fei's side, who else will audition?"

"Lu Ping, Xu Luofei, and Shi Miao."

In fact, Xia Tingwan is very familiar with these people. In terms of age and appearance, they are indeed very suitable candidates in the circle, but when he heard the name Shi Miao, he still couldn't help repeating: "Shi Miao?"

"Well." Lu Xiangnan paused, and then said: "That's Shi Miao. Compared with the other two, he should be the strongest enemy. He is young, energetic, and has cooperated with He Yanxi. Advantage."

Xia Tingwan was a little lost.

He couldn't tell what it was like, but at that moment, he might have felt a slight sense of loss.

Shi Miao is very young, he should have just turned [-], but he is the most popular young actor recently.

On the one hand, Shi Miao is indeed too good-looking, even in the entertainment circle, he can be called handsome and outstanding.

His face is flawless, the chin, the corners of the eyes, and the arcs of the tip of the nose are all sharp and delicate, but the eyebrows are heroic and straight, which neutralizes the sharpness of the facial features, but gives him a kind of lonely and clear air.

On the other hand, Shi Miao has acting skills, which is completely different from the usual little fresh meat.

He and He Yanxi played a pair of assassin brothers in "Destiny", and Shi Miao was also nominated for the best actor. Although he lost to his predecessor He Yanxi in the end, he also won the best newcomer award in the end, which was a big hit both inside and outside the industry. affim.

When Shi Miao was born out of nowhere, he really resembled Xia Tingwan back then.

They also had the absolute best looks at the time, and they also had works that could prove their acting skills and talents as soon as they debuted.

Although Shi Miao's achievements are not comparable to Xia Tingwan's, the whole circle pays attention to him, the public prefers him, and has high hopes for him. All these are very similar to what Xia Tingwan experienced back then.

In fact, there are quite a few arguments comparing Shi Miao and Xia Tingwan. Even Xia Tingwan has read several film reviews with such content.

It's just that now, he has become a past actor who people say is weak in succession and has exhausted his aura.But Shi Miao is a rising star with an unlimited future.

His career is at dusk, and he is regarded as a lesson from the past. He chews on it, and then writes articles to admonish a newcomer like Shi Miao who is like the sun.

Xia Tingwan suddenly felt dazed.

He has been silent for a long time, and wants to prove himself again by playing Gu Fei, and the young Shi Miao also wants to cooperate with an international director like Xu Zhe to reach the top in one fell swoop.

He and Shi Miao are like a reincarnation in the circle.

They shine like stars in different time dimensions, but they still collide like fate.

This competition seems to be destined in the dark.

After talking on the phone with Lu Xiangnan, Xia Tingwan only saw the message that Zhou Yang sent him later, saying that the legal department, who had never believed it before, finally replied and asked him to go to TBN tomorrow to talk.

finally come.

Xia Tingwan thought to himself.

The reality show group works in an orderly manner, and there must be Ye Bingwen's inspiration behind it.On the other side of the audition, he faced a young rival.

Xia Tingwan suddenly felt the tide-like pressure rushing towards his face.

He casually clicked on the computer page with the mouse, and saw that the number of reposts and comments on the trailer of "On the Road" continued to rise wildly. He didn't need to look to know that most of the comments were scolding him. Laughed a bit.

The inertia of being self-willed for five years made him instinctively afraid of pressure. Even if he told himself to be strong over and over again, he would still feel a nervous stagnation when breathing.

In fact, he should have known earlier that life was never easy—whether it was for a nobody or a big star.

As early as when Su Yan built him a safe fortress with no worries about food and clothing, perhaps he had secretly understood this in his heart all along.

He was not born with a golden spoon in his mouth, nor is he a little prince who does not eat the sufferings of the world.

He is a little beast covered in bruises that broke out in the bitter cold wind. He has seen cruelty and ferocity, how could he not understand.

But it was also because of this that he became greedy and weak.

He used Su Yan's love for him to escape all the difficulties he should have endured.

The world owed him so much love and warmth, so Su Yan wanted to make it up to him.

He told himself over and over that this was what he deserved.

But thinking about it now, no one owes him at all, not even the world owes him anything.

Every life is just staggering through the world.

What kind of traces you want to leave, bright or dim, is ultimately up to you.

"Whale Language" Su Yan extra episode

Su Yan remembered that since he was very young, he had to get up on time at six o'clock every day, stand outside the door of his father Su Mo's room, and recite the newspaper headlines of the day.

When the sky breaks, the corridor is always gray.

He read each word slowly, and if there was something he didn't understand, he couldn't help but nervously grip the newspaper with his fingers.

My father is very strict, and usually looks calm, but when he turns his face, it is like thunder on the ground, without warning.

When Su Yan was six years old, because he was addicted to playing Lego, he got up late the next day and was beaten by his father that day.

He wanted to explain, but as soon as he opened his mouth, he slapped his face, and when he spoke again, he slapped his face again.

It wasn't until he closed his mouth and lowered his head quietly that his father said coldly: "You are such a disappointment."

In the old family, everyone was afraid of disappointing their father.

Since then, he has been very disciplined.

Perhaps because of this reason, he learned to read very quickly.

Father's study room was locked, and he had no idle books to read, so he secretly brought newspapers back to the room every day.

He likes reading anecdotes from the social editions best, because he finds them novel and interesting.

There are so many strange things in this world.

A husband ran away from home for ten years, only to find out that he had been quietly living in an alley next to the street.

There are also vulgar and bloody news, patched together like tofu blocks in the forum, talking about cheating, love murder, or a teacher who fell in love with a student and was expelled.

Another time, the newspaper wrote a story about a whale named Alice.

In 1992, Alice appeared near the waters of Whidbey Island, and the sound frequency it made was 52Hz.

The sound frequency of ordinary blue whales is 15-20Hz.No one has ever recorded a whale song at this frequency before.

Alice is the only whale in the world. It swims in the deep and boundless sea, sings alone, and even its kind cannot understand its words.Perhaps it has been looking for a partner who can understand itself throughout its life, but it may never have any response.

It is the loneliest whale in the world.

This story has a strange attraction, Su Yan cut out this report and carefully kept it.

That move seemed a bit meaningless, but when he spent a depressing and long teenage life abroad, would Su Yan still think of the whale named Alice?

It's amazing that it was just a year before the movie "Whale Talk" was released.

A research institute has searched for a whale signal with a sound frequency similar to Alice's in the Pacific Ocean.

Alice may have a companion.

Twelve years have passed.

The lonely whale in childhood suddenly had a different possibility, and the grown-up Su Yan felt a childlike impulse stirring in his body.

He quickly hired a professional sea operation team of dozens of people, took advantage of some free time that year, followed the research team's ship from afar, and cruised on the vast sea of ​​the Pacific Ocean for more than a month.

He wants to find Alice's companion, even after 20 years, he is extremely eager to know if there is really a companion of that whale in this world.

During that time, a man named Zhou Yun by his side pestered him to come, and he agreed.

Zhou Yun was quite pleasing to him, she was pretty, of mixed race, and had a pleasant voice.

Su Yan's vision for choosing a bed partner adheres to the principle of pragmatism. He wants someone with fair skin and curvy hips, and someone who is obedient and hard-working. Apart from these functional qualities, he doesn't care much about temper and personality.

The days of searching in the vast sea are actually very boring.

Sometimes Su Yan stared at the calm sea, and it was like a day at a glance.

During the day, the sea surface is a clear greenish light blue, and after night falls, it gradually changes from light to dark blue, and finally completely merges with the night into a thick dark blue like thick ink.

There is always a salty smell in the wind.

After taking Zhou Yan on board, the young boy soon felt bored. He had a little seasickness, but he secretly didn't tell Su Yan about it. As a result, he became sleepy when the sea was rough.

When Zhou Yun felt uncomfortable, Su Yan carried the boy to the sofa bed on the aft deck to let the air blow, and then gently massaged Zhou Yun's temples with peppermint oil.

Zhou Yun huddled in Su Yan's arms, and Su Yan slowly told him the story of Alice and the meaning of his search in the sea.

Under the boundless starry sky, there is only the sound of the waves between the sky and the earth, and the two of them are whispering.

Zhou Yun looked at Su Yan with a trace of resentment because of his uncomfortable expression: "Animals are not like humans. It's okay if they can't communicate and think about it carefully. Besides, even humans are dumb. In fact, that's not the case. Use Don't be surprised."

Su Yan didn't say anything after hearing this, but just smiled calmly: "Go to sleep."

He was not angry with Zhou Yun, but suddenly felt bored.

That kind of boring seems to be expected.

Su Yan has always been called a man who loves his little 0 very much.

But the strange thing is that he rarely seems to really feel distressed or like this emotion.

Many times, the meaning of taking care of the people around me is like...he is a human being, and the other person is also a human being, so a little bit of humanitarian care naturally arises.

Very shallow and hollow.

It was a weird feeling, like a glass shield from everyone around me.

He never wanted to touch a person more deeply.

Sometimes, he feels like Alice in the deep sea, he has his own 52Hz.

A month later, he and the previous research team still hadn't tracked down the whale that uttered the same frequency whale song, and his work couldn't be delayed any longer, so he had no choice but to return.

On the day before leaving, Su Yan stood alone on the side of the boat, watching the magnificent orange-red sunset slowly sinking into the sea.

What a nice view……

Su Yan thought suddenly.

Maybe the whale just doesn't like the noise on the surface.

At this time, it may be in the deep trench, dancing with the afterglow left by the setting sun in the waves.

In "American Beauty", the boy stares at the tumbling plastic bag in the autumn wind, with tears in his eyes and says: Sometimes there is too much beauty in this world... I seem to be unable to bear it.My heart... almost broke.

Perhaps that moment was such an instant.

Su Yan recalled the English line with some trembling: "Sometimes there issomuch beauty in the world. Ifeellike....I can't take it. Andmy heart....is just going to cavein."

……

After returning to City H, Su Yan bought Zhou Yun the sports car that the boy had always wanted, but the contact gradually faded away.

Zhou Yun came to make trouble a few times, Su Yan asked the secretary to prepare three checks, one for each check, and the fourth time he drove him away.

After that, I never heard from Zhou Yun again.

He was less obsessed with tracking down the whale, but he still donated a large sum of money to the marine animal research team.

The person over there asked him if he would consider finding the whereabouts of the second 52Hz whale and naming him. Su Yan thought about it, but still rejected the suggestion.

He originally thought that his obsession with finding whales in his life had already passed away.

But the next year, Xia Tingwan's "Whale Language" was released.

After Su Yan saw it at the Cannes Film Festival, he seemed to have fallen into a magnificent dream ever since.

Before the Blu-ray disc came out, he had to travel to various film festivals after work, just to watch Xiao Xia on the big screen one more time.

One critic wrote——

Xia Tingwan is a gorgeous color from the deep sea.His fragility, gloomy, and faintly longing look from time to time will break the hearts of audiences in any country.

Yes, Su Yan understood that feeling the first time he saw Xia Tingwan.

He seemed to have returned to that evening overlooking the Pacific Ocean in the afterglow of the setting sun.

He couldn't bear the beauty that made his heart almost collapse.

For a person of his status, such a situation is very dangerous, and he should have deliberately avoided it.

But he still didn't.

He knew that he should be the absolute outlier in his class.

What he pursued all his life, he couldn't even explain clearly, and others were destined not to understand.

……

On the night they got married, Su Yan took Xia Tingwan fiercely.

This is the first time I have reached this stage, I shouldn't be too gentle.

But Su Yan couldn't control himself no matter what, he folded Xia Tingwan under his body and invaded repeatedly, and then pressed Xia Tingwan fiercely, making him kneel on the bed and raise his buttocks.

He was riding on Xia Tingwan's body, the boy's slender neck could be wrapped around with only one palm.

He held Xia Tingwan's throat like that, forcing Xia Tingwan to raise his upper body and turn his head to look at him.

Xia Tingwan's teardrops fell down rustlingly, like a rose in the morning trembling in the wind with glittering and translucent dewdrops.

He lowered his head and kissed Xia Tingwan, and whispered, "I love you."

Xia Tingwan turned her head stubbornly, just closed her eyes and sobbed and moaned.

That was the first time in his life that he said these three words.

From then on, his love seemed to open a tsunami-like valve.

During the five years, he couldn't remember how many times he said I love you to Xia Tingwan.

Xia Tingwan seldom responded. Perhaps, if he remembered correctly, Xia Tingwan had never seriously spoken to him.