Cloudy but no rain

"Come on." Su Fengmian wrapped his arms around Ye Fuyi's waist and whispered in his ear, "Don't worry too much, just let nature take its course, and the family members have signed."

At this moment, Ye Fu Yi looked like a little boy who needed encouragement and comfort. He lowered his head, and kissed Su Fengmian's shoulder inconspicuously. Without saying a word, he went to the preparation room.

At the door of the preparation room stood Ji Zhifei and medical staff in twos and threes, and Su Fengmian had already seen Ye Fu Yi when he saw him.

He averted his eyes so that he would not look at the door, and he was relieved until the door was closed. After waiting for half an hour, he saw the light sign at the door of the next operating room light up, showing the patient's name on it.

After another ten, twenty, and 10 minutes, the name followed by "waiting for surgery" changed to "in operation".

These three big characters always make Su Fengmian nervous during the operation. It is not the patient who is nervous, nor the doctor who is nervous about the operation. He will think of his past surgery years, and he will unconsciously have a sense of substitution, which is ten years ago. on the fatal operating table.

In the preparation room, all the doctors silently washed their hands, disinfected them, checked their instruments, and waited for them.

The most important thing is to finally confirm the patient's current condition and ensure that his current physical condition is suitable for surgery.

Ji Zhifei put on milky white rubber gloves for himself, clasped his fingers, turned his palms outwards, stretched his arms, and stretched his muscles and bones to prevent cramps later.

A doctor came here and told Ye Fu Yi: "The patient has been anesthetized and is ready to start the operation." Immediately afterwards, six or seven doctors went to the operating room next door.

For this operation, other cardiologists and surgeons will watch and guide through a large glass outside the operation field, because this is not a simple operation.

This patient's special situation may require two operations at the same time.

One was left chest surgery, Ye Fuyi was the chief surgeon, and it was also the most important surgery in the field. The other was subcutaneous tissue injury repair surgery, which was not necessarily necessary, and Ji Zhifei and the emergency doctor from the surgery were in charge.

This patient suffered from blockage of the cardiovascular system and symptoms of heart failure. If he did not undergo surgery, he would not be able to see the King of Hades for long due to his weak heartbeat.

He was scheduled for a week of cardiovascular bypass and pacemaker implantation.But before the operation, he went home to rest. Unfortunately, he got into a car accident and suffered serious injuries. The subcutaneous tissue of his abdomen was still damaged.

Over the weekend, the subcutaneous tissue was treated and the situation was temporarily stabilized, but there was still the possibility of massive bleeding.But with the poor blood supply of this patient, he may die due to poor blood supply caused by cardiovascular blockage after hemorrhage.

Therefore, the success rate of the operation was too low. When the patient's family members signed the risk sheet, they all had the mentality of treating a dead horse as a living doctor, and the doctors present were all the best in this hospital.

This is a difficult operation. For Ye Fuyi, the operation is successful and he can secure his position as a cardiologist in Jingrong Hospital.

Of course, it doesn't matter if you fail, but everyone will feel sorry for the passing of a fresh human life. Such emotions may last for a while among the doctors present.

Ji Zhifei knew how important this operation was to Ye Fu Yi, otherwise he would not have seen Su Fengmian outside the preparation room.

Every time Ye Fuyi undergoes a major operation, he will bring a person to wait for him outside the venue.Ji Zhifei has watched a lot these years, both men and women. In the early years, it was a woman about his age. She was almost always her, but in recent years, it has been changed frequently.

So seeing Su Fengmian today, Ji Zhifei was not very surprised, on the contrary, he was surprised not to see him.

But when he thought of the scene where Su Fengmian hugged Ye Fuyi at the door, he couldn't feel happy no matter what.

"It's time to start." Ye Fu Yi notified the guiding doctors outside the operating room through the microphone, returned to the operating table, and turned on the instrument.

Ji Zhifei stared at the side, cooperating with the steps of the surrounding doctors.He forced himself to concentrate, to empty his mind of miscellaneous thoughts.

He knew that he was not a saint after all, and Su Fengmian's appearance would inevitably disrupt his mood.

He didn't care whether the operation failed or not, even if it succeeded, it was just a "healing the wounded" pennant sent to him.

Winning or losing is a common matter for military strategists, he doesn't seem to care that much.

Although, if he fails, he will inevitably be depressed, not for anything else, just for a life-even if it is 100% impossible to save.

He has been doing this for so many years, from self-contradiction to self-justification.

After a while, there will be a new operation waiting for him.After being exonerated, he fell into a new contradiction.

Repeatedly.

Life and work are constant repetitions of contradictions, one covering up another, and finally he will forget every failed operation, try to accept new failures, and forget as always.

He often thinks that his work is not love, one after another, love is another form of work, trouble after trouble.

The setting sun shines through the dusty glass of the corridor, and the atmosphere outside the operating room has always been solemn. The air is stagnant into flowing water, and people's every move seems to be a few frames slower.

Su Fengmian didn't sleep soundly on the cold silver iron chair in the hospital, his head sank slowly, and suddenly, like a landlubber drowning in water, his head nodded violently, and he woke up with a start.

Is Ji Zhifei's surgery done...?

He didn't know how long he had been asleep. When he was in a trance, this thought flashed through his mind, and Su Fengmian finally woke up.He opened his eyes slightly, leaned his neck back, and took a long breath, fog enveloping his face.

What he was subconsciously worried about was indeed Ji Zhifei.

Su Fengmian once participated in a first aid competition with him in college - and Ji Zhifei was assigned to a group of classmates who were purely watching the excitement to make way.

The first aid target was a dummy doll. In that match, Su Fengmian couldn't concentrate, maybe they didn't cooperate well. In short, they lost, and they scored at the bottom in terms of professionalism and speed.

Su Fengmian apologized to Ji Zhifei, but Ji Zhifei smiled at him unexpectedly without saying anything.

It's better not to smile, but with this smile, Su Fengmian can feel Ji Zhifei's helplessness and regret, because this is the last competition in college.

Ji Zhifei is a person who cares a lot about winning or losing, at least in Su Fengmian's opinion, he will participate in every school competition and try his best to win the prize.

Su Fengmian's worries dissipated with his sobriety, and he thought to himself, after so many years, maybe Ji Zhifei is also used to countless failed operations.

He stared blankly at the closed door of the operating room. After a while, he turned his neck until the soreness subsided.

He glanced at the monitor next to the operating room.Still in the middle of the operation, I glanced at the phone again. More than two hours have passed, and I don't know how long it will take.

Generally speaking, the longer the operation, the more anxious it will be.

Su Fengmian remembered the last operation of his medical career, which lasted six and a half hours.Looking back now, I can't even stand upright.This operation is still a nightmare that he can't get rid of, and every night he wakes up with palpitations.

He sat in his seat in a daze, not noticing that "in operation" after the patient's name on the display screen had changed to "operation ended".

But the patient's family members were very sensitive and immediately stood up, causing the row of chairs Su Fengmian sat with them to shake a few times. He turned his head and saw the trembling old man being supported by a woman to the door of the operating room.

Even though her steps are not flexible, her steps are like flying arrows, and people are even worried that she will fall.

"It has ended."

Su Fengmian, who realized this, stood up suddenly, his heart beat faster, hit his throat again and again, and was about to jump out.

For some reason, it made him even more nervous than before the surgery began.

He didn't know whether he was worried about Ji Zhifei, Ye Fu Yi or the patient who had escaped death.

Or, because he used to be a doctor, he is more sensitive to birth, aging, illness and death than ordinary people.

After waiting for more than ten minutes, the door of the operating room was still closed.

Su Fengmian heard the family members choking anxiously at the door. The old woman couldn't stand upright, so she just sat cross-legged, covering her face and waiting.

Ten minutes later, it still hasn't come out.Su Fengmian knew the result.

Just like the failed operation many years ago, after the operation was confirmed to be a failure, he spent three to ten minutes sorting out his emotions, and he was reluctant to push this familiar corpse out of the operating room.

The body was not wheeled into the morgue until the nurse enforced the task.

Thinking of these things, his heart palpitations were so severe that he couldn't breathe.

Another few minutes passed, but it seemed like a century.The door of the operating room was opened.Ye Fu Yi came out first. Su Fengmian looked closely into his eyes. Before he took off his mask, Ye Fu Yi's eyes were already very dim.

Su Fengmian stood far away and couldn't hear what Ye Fuyi said in a low voice to his family.

But he also knew what Ye Fu Yi said.

The old woman was stunned at first, not emotionally excited, but suddenly she knelt down on the ground with a thud, and within a few seconds, she beat her chest and stomped her feet and cried loudly: "That's my son...! My son..."

The woman next to him was also secretly wiping tears.

One man, two families, collapsed in an instant - the moment Ye Fu Yi said "I'm sorry, the operation failed".

Afterwards, the door of the operating room was opened, and the numerous medical staff pushed the deceased out. Ye Fu Yi did not walk towards Su Fengmian, but went to the other side of the corridor.

There is the doctor's rest room. After the operation, the doctor usually goes there to wash his hands, change his clothes, eat some nutritional supplements and rest.

Su Fengmian hesitated whether to follow, he was worried that Ye Fu Yi was in a bad mood at the moment, and his appearance would only increase his anxiety.

When Ye Fuyi's figure had disappeared at the end of the corridor, Su Fengmian followed hesitantly.

"Bastard!" Ye Fu Yi grabbed Ji Zhifei's white coat collar and slammed it against the wall with little force, as he was very tired after the operation.

Ji Zhifei subconsciously protected the back of his head, and took the hit for the back of his head with the back of his hand.

"Why bother, it's useless for you to scold me now. It's expected that the patient will have an accident. I tried my best, we all tried our best, but we can't save him." Ji Zhifei said.

He looked very calm, but in fact he didn't have the strength to fight back.

He didn't know how much physical strength Ye Fu Yi had. After more than two hours of surgery, he was still making a fuss.

It may be caused by the difficulty in controlling emotions, and the sense of responsibility of the surgeon is often stronger.

Ye Fuyi let go of him and pushed him away: "I have been following that patient, of course you don't care, but this is a human life, do you dare to say that you have no guilt at all? You gave up before anyone else, and you were the first to give up. Yes."

"So what if you don't give up, it's a foregone conclusion." Ji Zhifei answered him.

Responsibility, yes, but powerless.

He was silent and calm, recalling the turmoil.

When Ye Fuyi thought that the heart surgery could barely be completed smoothly, the patient suffered from unexpected heavy bleeding, and at the same time, his heartbeat suddenly accelerated to supply blood.

According to the degree of blockage in his cardiovascular system, the blood would not flow quickly to the injured area, and several blood vessels were caught in the middle. If the blood flow was slow enough, the surgeon still had time for emergency treatment.

However, the situation is completely different.The patient's blood was surging like the Yellow River, and it couldn't be stopped, because Ye Fuyi had just dredged one of his veins a few seconds ago, and the blood was jubilant like a wild child, and he couldn't catch up.

At this time, an off-site doctor made a suggestion. Compared with traditional hemostasis solutions, this suggestion has high risks, low success rate, and high requirements for doctors. Moreover, the operation will be delayed for several hours, and the patient can hardly survive that. when.

For doctors and patients, it is not a particularly good choice, it can only be said to be a glimmer of hope.

The surgical team negotiated impromptu for a few minutes.

No matter how much Ye Fu Yi asked them to make a decision immediately, they were still unable to make a move, and the off-court coach could not give a definite choice.

Ji Zhifei was already in a state of desperation at the moment, his hands cramped several times in the past few hours, exhaustion and helplessness broke out completely when he was bleeding profusely, disrupting his thinking.

He is very contradictory, because no one in the team can achieve it, and there is no one off the court. The so-called ideas are just ideas, and the glimmer of hope is just hope.

Nearly 20 years of surgical experience told him that no matter which method of hemostasis is used, the patient's life cannot be saved in the end.He dared to say so.

And those doctors asked them to use the second plan, in order to be worthy of the conscience of doctors to save lives and heal the wounded. It may still be possible to use traditional hemostasis in the end. In other words, it is waiting for a miracle.

But in the end the surgical team chose option one.

No matter the cost, no loss, no hard work, no matter everything - and then in exchange for a spectacular failure, Ji Zhifei is actually very unwilling.

He asked another surgeon to go, and retreated by himself. In Ye Fuyi's heart, he became a deserter.

In fact, the doctors at the scene did not blame Ji Zhifei. Everyone knew that there was no success rate in this situation. The surgeon who replaced him was worried that Ji Zhifei would be too stressed and too hard to go for him.

Ye Fu Yi understands that what should come will always come, but he is not reconciled, he can't let go of this tone, and more importantly, Ji Zhifei's almost indifferent expression throughout the whole process and his behavior of not saying a word make him unable to understand and agree .

"I have been a doctor for so many years and I never know what a foregone conclusion is!"

"That's it! If you meet today, we all know that you are suffering. There is no need to label me. We are not sinners who cannot be saved. We are not saints, after all, we are all ordinary people." As soon as he finished speaking, he saw Su Fengmian walking towards them.