Cloudy but no rain

Ji Zhifei stood up tiredly, no longer leaning against the wall.

Ye Fuyi's face also lost the obvious emotions just now, and was as calm as a lake. Seeing Su Fengmian approaching, the muscles on his face seemed to relax all of a sudden, which made Ji Zhifei feel relaxed.

His anger and ferocity were only revealed when Ji Zhifei hit the wall.

"I can't be as calm as you, Doctor Ji." Ye Fuyi left after speaking, walking towards Su Fengmian who was standing halfway away from them in the corridor.

Ye Fu Yi said the word "doctor" very strongly, Ji Zhifei laughed dumbly, he saw Su Fengmian stretching out his hand to hold Ye Fu Yi, this scene looked a bit ridiculous, like picking up children home from school at the gate of the kindergarten parents.

It's just that Ji Zhifei couldn't laugh.

No one has taught him how to deal with two different senses of loss at the same time, one is work and the other is love, no, love that has not been obtained is not love, he is at most a person who has not received love.

He thought about it carefully, he hadn't really gained any love for so many years. He used to regard love as a vulgar thing. As for what Su Fengmian meant to him, he didn't know. After all, what can two big men do?

It wasn't until he saw Su Fengmian and Ye Fuyi that he knew what two men could do.Anything is fine as long as you like it.

Eating and sleeping, holding hands and hugging, even kissing, all those who desire even a little bit of love like to do these things, no one can avoid them, and Ji Zhifei himself cannot avoid having fantasies about these things.

He admitted that he had fantasies about Su Fengmian, and hoped that this fantasies could be called reality.

Before leaving, Su Fengmian glanced at Ji Zhifei from a distance, and it was the first time that Ji Zhifei did not avoid his gaze.It may be that she was too tired, forgot to cover herself, and stared almost blankly.

The two looked at each other for a few seconds across half the corridor. His eyes were very open. He had never looked at Su Fengmian like this before. The emotions he showed were like molecules exposed in the air. They bumped around all the time. Unfortunately, people couldn't see To this grand chemical reaction.

Su Fengmian was stunned for a moment, then led Ye Fuyi away in a panic.

Ji Zhifei also saw this action, he thought Su Fengmian was cute even when he was flustered.

Not the cuteness of kittens and puppies, but cuteness.

It was also the first time for him to know what cuteness is - this word emerged naturally, the cuteness that Su Fengmian had buried for so many years, but it was revealed at this moment, it only made him suffer.

Ji Zhifei sat in the lounge for more than an hour, drank a capful of syrup, regained some strength, and went home to welcome the moonlight.

The operation took a long time, and the cold winter made the fingers less flexible. When stretching or flexing, I felt the muscles and bones pulling each other.

He drove the car to a pharmacy and bought a few boxes of warm treasure stickers. When paying the bill, the clerk looked at him several times and couldn't help asking: "I bought it for my wife and daughter? Buy more, girls are afraid of the cold."

"I use it myself, I don't need that much." The calm and pale answer from the newly furnished single room in the hotel left the clerk speechless.

He gave the money, went back to the car, turned up the heater, made sure the handbrake was on, and stuffed his hands into the down pockets again.

At such times he felt old and alone.

In addition to saving some people, basically nothing can be said - the number of people saved may not be more than the number of people who were not saved.

Thinking about it this way, he did send many people to hell or heaven.

Light cloud and wind.

The word came to his mind again, like a curse.

He was in pain, but he knew that when he returned to the hospital tomorrow, the other doctors and nurses in the department would show more pain than him.

No matter what you are doing, as long as you chat, you will definitely talk about the patient who failed the operation today. So I sigh, regret, and have a lot of life.

At such moments, Ji Zhifei would hide his emotions and leave the role of sadness to them.

He is not good at expressing pain. Since he was a child, his excellent parents would tell him that pain cannot be expressed. Pain is the inner manifestation of human beings. Human beings are already the embodiment of pain, and human beings cannot fully express themselves. Pain cannot be fully output either.

People come to this world to help the body and soul eliminate pain and obtain absolute happiness.

Ji Zhifei is confused about these principles, he simply understands that don't share pain with others but digest it by yourself.

Over time, everyone wanted to say that Ji Zhifei didn't have the so-called "benevolence of a doctor", and that he "rejuvenated his hands" was just for eating.

Although there are some girls who have had a crush on Ji Zhifei who will defend him, "It's normal for food, who isn't for food?"

After they get in touch with Ji Zhifei, they will change their words, "Dr. Ji is a bit unreasonable."

Such messy thoughts would haunt his brain for a long time after each failed operation, and this time was no exception, his brain had already gotten used to it for him.

After being bored in the car for a long time, Ji Zhifei still drove home. The first thing he did when he got home was to open the box of warm treasure stickers, take out one and put it on the folded clothes next to the bed, to make sure he would remember it tomorrow. affixed.

After taking a shower, Ji Zhifei was lying on the bed. The light in the bedroom was broken. He didn't fix it, and it wouldn't be of much use if it was fixed.

The room was pitch black, with three layers of curtains and a thick blackout cloth in between, so the moonlight did not dare to break in at all.

He lay in bed and read a novel for half an hour on a social software, although he didn't understand why such a large same-sex dating software in the same city would be developed in cooperation with a reading software - or a reading software that focused on publishing books instead of Internet literature is booming nowadays.

But Ji Zhifei didn't mind, he thought it would be a good idea, so that people could reap the purity of their hearts after being entertained until death, and be reborn from Nirvana.

really interesting.

He recently read a novel called "Mediocrity". At first, he read this book because of its good name.It is estimated that most people are like this.

He's happy to be the majority—on the Internet, he can comfortably be the majority of whoever he least wants to be.

In addition, the reason why I like this book is Su Fengmian.

Every time he thinks of Su Fengmian, alone, he feels like he is disturbing himself.Asking for trouble, he wants to learn from it to stop losses in time.

He doesn't like the content of Nai He's book. It's about people with social anxiety. The hero is a little crazy and paranoid.

However, he usually looks at the book reviews for a long time.

He finished reading the selected thousand-character comments that were in the front row on the first day he opened the book, and he read it several times. Every time he read it, he laughed that he really had enough time.

Now he started to search for the latest comments again, and one of them made his fingers rest on the screen.

"I love you is mediocre. This sentence has nothing to do with the book, I just want to say it very much."

The comment was made 10 minutes ago by a book friend named "Wandering in the Wind".This person's name is also nice.Ji Zhifei likes everything related to wind.Maybe this is the reason why he likes Su Fengmian.Or, in fact, the causal relationship is reversed.

Ji Zhifei tried to reply to the other party, but he really didn't have much literary talent. He smiled bitterly. He really couldn't express his emotions, whether it was pain or missing, he couldn't express whether he liked it or not.

Ji Zhifei had no choice but to delete all the words that had been carefully considered, and finally lit up the "heart" in the upper right corner of the comment.

He is very grateful that almost all software has a "like" function.

"You received a like".

Su Fengmian's phone ding-dong rang, and this sentence was displayed on the lock screen of the phone.

It's just that Su Fengmian is not looking at his mobile phone at the moment, he is in the kitchen, guarding the pot of porridge.

The inside of the glass pot lid is covered with mist, so the thick porridge in the pot cannot be seen.

Laohuo porridge usually needs to be boiled for several hours. Su Fengmian turned on the fire before going to the hospital, and now when he returned home, he found that it was still a little bit hot.

Although the porridge made in this way is not very healthy, it tastes good, and he hopes that Ye Fu Yi will like it.

After waiting for a few more minutes, Su Fengmian rubbed his hands, turned off the fire, and waited until the water that was too thin in the porridge was absorbed, and the mist condensed into water droplets. After cooling down a bit, he put on the heat shield with a sense of ritual Gloves, opened the lid, white steam came out, like a fairyland.

At the same time, he heard the sound of the shower in the bathroom stop, and a few seconds later there was the sound of the bathroom door opening—Ye Fu Yi had finished taking a shower.

"Very fragrant, what are you doing?" After taking a bath, Ye Fu Yi was not so tired. He wiped his hair, walked to the kitchen and saw Su Fengmian holding a white porcelain bowl full of porridge , and there is still very soft meat inside.

"Cooking porridge, after you have finished the operation, fill your stomach." Su Fengmian replied, carefully placing the bowl of porridge on the dining table.

Ye Fu Yi laughed heartily: "You're talking like I had an operation."

"Isn't it?" Su Fengmian looked up at him suspiciously, he didn't understand what Ye Fuyi meant.

Ye Fu Yi felt that Su Fengmian was cute at this time.

Su Fengmian is indeed cute, no one will deny this problem.

But he inexplicably thought of Ji Zhifei, and the way Su Fengmian looked at Ji Zhifei in the hospital just now.His eyes are like the cherries growing on Ji Zhifei’s body, shiny and vivid—in fact, this is a very illogical subjective judgment of mine, Ye Fuyi justified himself, Su Fengmian’s eyes are like that, not because he has mood.

Ye Fu Yi remained silent, bowed his head to kiss him, and stamped his lips: "It's nothing, let's eat together."

"Okay." Su Fengmian gave the spoon to Ye Fuyi, Ye Fuyi didn't pick it up, just took the bowl and drank it, gurgling.

Su Fengmian frowned: "You are not afraid of being hot."

"I'm not afraid, it's not very hot." Ye Fuyi said, turned on the mobile phone at hand, looked at the time, "Feng Mian, I'm going out in a while, you should go to bed early."

"Go out? Where are you going? It's so late, and you just finished the operation, aren't you tired...?" Su Fengmian felt a little bit in his heart, wondering, the fingers holding the handle of the spoon inadvertently became stronger, and the fingertips turned white.

"A friend of mine came back from Canada today, and I'm going to pick him up at the airport." Ye Fuyi finished drinking the soup in the bowl, turned off the phone screen, and smiled at Su Fengmian, "I'll be back when I pick him up and go back to his home."

"But it's already ten o'clock, why is a friend so important...he can't go back to the city by himself?" Su Fengmian said, "How about I go with you? It's not safe on the road."

Ye Fuyi looked at him for three seconds: "No, there's nothing safe about the two of us. I'll go first, you go to bed early." He put away his mobile phone, got up and put the bowl into the kitchen sink.

is a man.

Su Fengmian had an indescribable strangeness in his heart, far from being jealous.

However, since Ye Fu Yi said it bluntly and didn't shy away from it, it shouldn't be a big deal.

Su Fengmian didn't ask any more, since Ye Fu Yi said he didn't need to go, then no, he didn't want to argue with Ye Fu Yi.

From Su Fengmian's point of view, they were still in the running-in period some time ago. Although Ye Fu Yi would not express great dissatisfaction with him or get angry with him, Ye Fu Yi would keep a respectful distance from him.

"Then you come back early." Su Fengmian followed him to the door, Ye Fu Yi said hello, put on his coat, and before leaving, he gave Su Fengmian a special kiss, which was regarded as a goodnight kiss.