Cloudy but no rain

Ji Zhifei quickly replied to Su Fengmian with a single word "yes", and rushed to the ward.

The patient in bed No. [-] in Room [-] of Area A was a woman with loose long curly hair. Ji Zhifei was suddenly notified to return to the hospital because of this woman patient.

When Ji Zhifei rushed to the ward again, the female patient was not here. It was midnight, and Ji Zhifei frowned when he saw her bedside table scattered with pills all over the table. He understood where she was.

He didn't rush to find her, gathered the white and blue pills in the palm of his hand, put them back into the medicine bottle, and took off the ruined pink lilies in the vase on her cabinet, and threw them into the trash can when he left the ward.

The surrounding environment of the patient is very important. If there are residual flowers and willows, it will affect their mood.Ji Zhifei was very careful in dealing with this issue.

Not long after, he went to the rooftop of the inpatient building.

In this northern city, it is extremely cold in winter, especially at night, when the wind blows over the changing sheets hanging on the rack on the roof, blowing them into white waves, rippling one after another.

Passing through the sea of ​​waves, you can see the woman standing by the railing of the roof, leaning there, her curled hair messed up by the wind.

It's not the first time Ji Zhifei came here to look for her in the middle of the night.

"It's cold, go back quickly." Ji Zhifei stood about ten steps behind her and said to the woman, "Unless you want to go to the intensive care unit tomorrow and find someone to collect the body."

The woman shook her head. She was wearing a one-piece hospital gown without a coat.

The woman is very thin, and the hospital gown hangs on her like a quilt on the railing.

Therefore, there is also a white wave sea floating on her body.

"I won't go back." She turned around, and the words "Song Jiaomei" were embroidered on the left chest of the hospital gown.

In the darkness, Ji Zhifei couldn't see Song Jiaomei's expression clearly, and he tried to face the patient in front of him as calmly as possible.

"What do you want?" Ji Zhifei said, with a condescending tone, "Your parents are throwing money at you to treat your illness, not to make you jump off the inpatient department of the hospital."

"I won't jump." Song Jiaomei smiled, stretched out her right hand, palm facing up, "Don't be so fierce, come here."

Song Jiaomei moved in a year ago, during which time she tried to commit suicide. The way she chose to commit suicide was to jump off a building. The reason for her suicide failure was that Ji Zhifei persuaded her to come back.

So many nights when Ji Zhifei was notified to go back to the hospital, it was probably because Song Jiaomei was not feeling well. Many times, the young doctor on duty could not take good care of her, so the nurse on duty could only call Ji Zhifei.

Ji Zhifei did not pass, Song Jiaomei had no choice but to withdraw her hand, she spoke in a soft but frivolous tone: "I know that Doctor Ji will always see me as a patient because my life span is too short. So Doctor Ji didn't even give me a palm."

"What do you want?" Ji Zhifei came from Su Fengmian, not happy.

"Sure enough, if a man doesn't love you, he will be more indifferent than anyone else." Song Jiaomei said, wearing only thin clothes, she already felt the chill, her shoulders were trembling, and so were her teeth, so a sentence was trembling into many syllables , like a movie with a low frame rate, "Hold me."

Ji Zhifei stood there, stalemate for a few seconds, quickly took off his down jacket, threw it over, and after Song Jiaomei caught it, he left.

When he walked away, he had to cross the sea of ​​white sheets, Song Jiaomei said a lot behind him, and Ji Zhifei didn't stop.

Song Jiaomei could only be heard crying at the stairs, very loudly, for him to hear.

But Ji Zhifei knew that she would not jump off anymore, that was enough, it was enough for him to be a doctor for this purpose.

If Su Fengmian hadn't returned to his life, he might have treated Song Jiaomei better, and might have had a little more time with her, but that's all.

Just like the years when Su Fengmian didn't show up, he was very kind to every woman who courted him, and kept a distance, so that after rejecting someone, women tended to have a sense of shame, accompanied by anger, so he was very emotional. Online reviews continued to be sluggish.

This seems to be the way he treats people who like him. In fact, he treated Su Fengmian in the same way back then.

But Song Jiaomei has an unusual relationship with him. Before her, Ji Zhifei had never tried to treat a woman so nicely that she could give her her own clothes, and would be willing to rush to the hospital to see her at night—and not entirely because of that. Doctor's identity.

Ji Zhifei thinks this kind of kindness is not love, and it is kindness but not affection.

Song Jiaomei was a person with a truly bleak life experience within the scope of his cognition.

It's just that he doesn't know that kindness and kindness can also hurt people, and Ji Zhifei has always been less empathetic to people he doesn't like.

After dealing with Song Jiaomei's matter, Ji Zhifei left the hospital.

When sitting in the car, I always feel stuffy in my heart, as if I have boiled a large pot of water from sudden rainfall in summer, it is hot and stuffy.

Ji Zhifei glanced at his phone. On the social software, Su Fengmian replied to him an hour ago, "Going to bed soon", and then he didn't tell himself whether he slept or not.

But it doesn't matter, Ji Zhifei still sent Su Fengmian a message: Are you asleep?

Same as an hour ago.

He looked at the phone silently, and the phone looked at him silently, relatively speechless, like a couple who are about to break up.

After looking at it for a long time, Ji Zhifei dropped it and drove the car back to his residence.

Surprisingly, Su Fengmian replied to him while he was driving, still saying "ready to sleep".

Ji Zhifei suddenly laughed when he saw this conversation.

Fox Dog: Are you still asleep?I was just driving.

Su Fengmian did not sleep, he has been looking for recipes in the Baidu browser, looking for some dishes that can be cooked without a knife.

In a relationship, the most comfortable time may be the ambiguous period.

Ambiguous love is very similar to secret love. If you can't accurately recognize the other party's intentions, an ambiguous relationship may become a secret love alone, and all intimate contacts are self-fantasy.

Su Fengmian didn't expect to have an affair with Ji Zhifei, he knew that the possibility was almost impossible, but when he was looking up the recipe, a voice kept coming from his mind that I was having an affair with Ji Zhifei.

The foothold is in the word "unclear", so he didn't feel 100% ambiguous happiness, but was very anxious about gains and losses.

I'm free today: I didn't sleep, I couldn't sleep.

Confiding to strangers is an easy task, Su Fengmian turned on the bedside lamp in the bedroom, and turned on the night mode of the mobile phone - so that the light of the mobile phone screen is not so dazzling.

Protecting my eyes while staying up late is really contradictory.

He was just thinking that the other party was probably waiting to say something to him, so he didn't sleep and kept waiting.

Foxdog: How are you doing today?

Free today: It's hard to say.

Fox Dog: A fellow of the same mind.

Free today: Why are you still driving so late?night shift?

Ji Zhifei thought for a while, and chose to lie, he was afraid of the one in [-] chance of being found out.

Spitz: Go for a drive, there are no cars at night, so you can drive very fast.

Free today: Insomnia?

Fox Dog: You too.

Free Today: What if I Tell You I'm Jet Lag?I'd like to go for a ride, too.

lie.

They all like to lie, and social platforms don't have to be responsible for their harmless words. It was the first time he fell in love with a dating software.

Su Fengmian in the dating software is like a person in a parallel world. He is not quite like the one in real life, but it is indeed him, a different him.

Just like a different self, real and frank.

Ji Zhifei laughed, he didn't expose Su Fengmian, and continued to reply: "Okay, but I have to wait until you return to China."

"I'm free today" sent an emoticon package.

It's a small Shiba Inu, an expression pack that doesn't match his age.

Spitz: Stupid.But why are you unhappy today?

Su Fengmian's smile froze on his face. How should I put it, the feeling of being pulled back to reality suddenly was like a free fall. The instant weightlessness felt the weight of the entire earth on his heart.

If this is reality, then the short pure conversation with the fox dog just now is like a dream. He admitted that he felt the warmth from a few words of a stranger.

The power of words.The power of redundancies.

I'm free today: He was going on a business trip, and then, I had guests at home, and I couldn't eat the dishes he cooked for me for the first time.

So it was because Ye Fu Yi was going on a business trip...

Ji Zhifei waited for an unexpected answer. Ye Fuyi was on a business trip and Su Fengmian was unhappy. It seemed to be his own problem.

The hemp rope in his heart was tied up in a mess, and then he thought of something, but he didn't recover Su Fengmian for a while.

Ji Zhifei turned to the QQ work group to check the recent study schedule. He found the Department of Cardiovascular and Cerebral Vessels. Ye Fu Yi's name was not seen.

Ji Zhifei frowned.

What should I say?

The absence of Ye Fuyi's name should mean that he was not arranged for a business trip.

Ye Fu Yi lied to Su Fengmian, how could he tell him about his identity.

He was a little anxious, holding his breath in his throat as if he couldn't swallow it and couldn't breathe it out.

Foxdog: If you two are together, there will be another chance next time, and the future will be long.

Free today: yes.

"That's right." Ji Zhifei repeated what Su Fengmian had sent, and smiled wryly, "Forget it, what should I worry about."

Foxdog: How long is the business trip?Will it be long?

I'm free today: He said a week, which isn't too long, but I haven't had a good conversation with him for a long time, and we haven't lived together recently.

Spitz: Why?

He got a little comfort like star sand.

Free today: I don't know.In fact, I don't know whether to continue or not.It's not complicated to say, but I don't know how to say it.

Foxdog: It's okay, everyone has something to hide.

This sentence is not what Ji Zhifei wanted to say in his heart, but a selected post he saw on the Internet a few days ago, teaching people how to respond to things that the other party is unwilling to confide in the chat. .

According to the feedback from the people who followed the post, this sentence has aroused the desire of the other party to say it.Experience tells them that it works.

Learning more will always be useful.He knows that his EQ is not very high, but he never thinks that he has a low IQ.He can learn many things.

Free today: Yes.

……

Empiricism is out of the question.

This sentence flew through Ji Zhifei's mind. It was told by the university professor that empiricism is not a good thing.

In fact, Ji Zhifei didn't bother Su Fengmian too much, he just doubted Ye Fuyi's behavior.

Ye Fu Yi is lying - then where is he going, he has to hide it from Su Fengmian.

Just as he was thinking, Su Fengmian sent him a message.

Free today: I'm going to sleep, good night.

Good night is a beautiful word.

Spitz: Good night.

Good night typed word by word and sound by sound.

Ji Zhifei exited the interface, went to the QQ group again, looked through the group folders, and searched for a long time, he finally saw the leave notice and stopped his fingers.

Generally speaking, if you ask for leave at Jingrong Hospital, you need to explain the application one week in advance, and the hospital will also announce it one week in advance.

After opening it, Ye Fuyi's name was indeed lying quietly on the top column of the form, and he asked for "personal leave", which lasted exactly one week.

Ji Zhifei cut this page.

Volume Three

he is waiting for the rain

How to bid farewell to the gray moment

People inside never shake each other's hands

—— "Love Letters" by Shen Hao