Cloudy but no rain

Two days later in the early morning, Ji Zhifei offered a few white chrysanthemums to Song Jiaomei's tombstone at the cemetery, lit a few sticks of incense, and placed a fruit plate.

"Let's go." Ji Zhifei stood up and said to Li Jinxiu, "I still have something to do."

"Okay, Ms. Song should have rested in peace too. Alas, life and death are fate." Li Jinxiu sighed, "What's the matter with you? I came here in your car, why don't you take me back to the hospital first?"

Ji Zhifei shook his head: "No, it doesn't matter if you don't go along the way, it doesn't matter if you follow." He thought of something, turned around and said, "It's just right, maybe I need you too."

Li Jinxiu raised his eyebrows, it was rare for Ji Zhifei to still need someone.

The car drove to the gate of a high school and stopped.

Li Jinxiu asked suspiciously: "Why are you here in high school, pick up the kids?"

"..." Ji Zhifei ignored him and just waited.

It was seven o'clock in the morning, and he felt that he should be late, and he wasted some time by going to the cemetery.

He wanted to wait for Su Fengmian at the school gate earlier - Ji Zhifei didn't know if Su Fengmian was at work, so he had no choice but to come to the school to find someone.

He wanted to go directly to his house to find someone, but he couldn't get in that community without swiping his card, and there were many doors, and he didn't know which door Su Fengmian would enter through.

The security guards there ignored outsiders, and even the takeaway and courier boys were not allowed to enter.

Ji Zhifei just stared at the door, just this school gate, Su Fengmian will always come, if he doesn't go to work today, he will come tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the day after tomorrow...

Ji Zhifei didn't speak, and Li Jinxiu sat in the back row like a needle felt.

Until 07:30, no students entered the school, and the school rang the class bell, and Ji Zhifei drove away. Li Jinxiu wondered: "Hey, what are you doing? Come to listen to the high school bell ringing memory The college entrance examination?"

"No, you talk a lot, I'll take you back to the hospital now." Ji Zhifei said helplessly.

"Okay. By the way, see you there at 08:30 the night after tomorrow." Li Jinxiu said, "I've already booked a seat, you, the protagonist, can't help but come."

"Okay." Ji Zhifei perfunctory.

"So quick to promise? I haven't even said where to eat." Li Jinxiu asked in surprise, "Is the matter of going abroad settled?"

"I know, you talk a lot."

Ji Zhifei returned to the hospital earlier than expected, so he was still not on duty.

He went to the dean's office, knocked on the door, and there was a "please come in" from inside, so he pushed the door open and went in.

Dean Qian put down the report at hand, looked up, and saw that it was Ji Zhifei.

"Have you completed the formalities?" He asked, "Give it to the administrative director when you are done, and then come to me for a stamp."

Ji Zhifei watched Dean Qian find a piece of information in a pile of folders, wondering if he should tell the truth.

Dean Qian was considered his bole. Before entering Jingrong Hospital, he had been a junior doctor in a public hospital. After two or three years, he had no actual combat experience and no room for promotion. The public hospital was saturated with talents.

It wasn't until he won the first prize in a city surgery competition that Dean Qian poached him.

So Ji Zhifei didn't want to disappoint Dean Qian, so he didn't explain his worries to him.

"Dean, I, I actually..." Ji Zhifei still spoke. Dean Qian glanced at him and said, "I don't know whether I should go or not."

"Do you feel that you are not good enough to fit in, or is there another reason?" Dean Qian was very patient and kind, which made Ji Zhifei less nervous.

"This is one aspect, but you know, I don't think I will do well. Going abroad is a challenge and an opportunity, and many people want it." Ji Zhifei said, "But, but I am 40 years old. Not sure where this change is going to take me. Also, I'd love to be stable and start a family...”

"Oh, I see." Dean Qian smiled, with a tacit expression, "Let me tell you, career or love, I don't know which one you choose, I will definitely choose career, because love is very important. It's amazing, when you meet someone you love and admire, you can't run away even if you want to, no matter where you go in your life, you still miss that person in your heart."

Ji Zhifei didn't say a word. To him, two years doesn't matter, let alone two years, the past ten years have passed like this.

But for Su Fengmian, he knew that Su Fengmian was still waiting for him, he knew it - although Su Fengmian would not look at him with very hot eyes like before, but he could feel that Su Fengmian had him in his heart.

He wasn't sure before, but after Su Fengmian couldn't get in touch again, he was almost sure that Su Fengmian was still the idiot who always ordered winter melon, oil, wheat and Chinese cabbage. , also like their fools.

This idiot can do everything well, and has grown in everything, except in the point of believing that he loves him, he has not grown at all.

"Think about it carefully," Dean Qian said earnestly, "If this opportunity is not lost, don't come again."

"Thank you Dean, give me three days." After Ji Zhifei finished speaking, he left the office and closed the door, still unable to let go of the stone in his heart.

His head was empty and his heart was empty.

In the past few days, Su Fengmian couldn't be contacted even on the dating software.

He leaned against the wall, let himself go for a while, left the hospital, and drove around the city.

Ji Zhifei seldom has a lot of free time to shuttle in this familiar city road, and he seldom does so.

He drove casually, and when he drove to a congested road, the sun was almost setting, leaving only a little pink glow in the sky, giving this cold northern city a little tenderness.

He suddenly remembered that he had brought Su Fengmian's students along this road.

At that time, Su Fengmian's student said that Su Fengmian liked to drive this road very much. Although this road is far away and traffic jams, due to the geographical location, there are no high-rise buildings around, and you can see a beautiful sunset.

Just like when I was in college.

When Ji Zhifei was studying, the school was in the suburbs, and the air quality in the suburbs was excellent. Of course, the air in the cities more than ten years ago was not bad.

Every day after school, you can see a complete sunset on the bridge between the teaching buildings, like a complete table tennis ball, falling from the sky.

He was still a young man at that time, and he still had a little pursuit of beautiful things, so he walked this way every day after school, and Su Fengmian was walking with him.

It’s just that Su Fengmian will wait for him to leave before crossing the bridge, and Ji Zhifei will visit him in the teaching building every day, as if to confirm whether Su Fengmian still likes him today—Su Fengmian probably doesn’t know that Ji Zhifei is there Keep an eye on his movements.

"Beep--!"

Ji Zhifei's thoughts drifted so far away that he didn't even notice that the car in front had already driven away, and the car behind was urging him to drive away like a debt collector.

He simply drove the car to the gate of Su Fengmian's school, and it was not smooth when he came. He was stuck in traffic for a long time, and it was already past seven o'clock when he drove to the gate of the school. He guessed that he would not be able to wait for Su Fengmian today—he had no idea at all. Has Su Fengmian come to work?

He drove the car onto the parking lot, and as soon as he drove up, the security guard came.

"Open the window." The security guard knocked on Ji Zhifei's car window.

When the car window came down, Ji Zhifei said, "I'll wait for someone."

"You can't stop for too long. This is the school gate, and it's not the time for school. What class does your child belong to?"

The security probably misunderstood that he was waiting for the students.

"No, I'm here to wait for a teacher, Teacher Su Fengmian, is he still in school?" Ji Zhifei asked.

The security guard thought for a while and said, "You don't even know if he's at work or not?"

"Uh, because, because he owed me money, I came to ask for the debt, but he didn't answer my calls." Ji Zhifei made up a random sentence.

The security guard was an honest person. He said, "How could Mr. Su not pay back the debt? It must be a misunderstanding. I'll call him for you! He's at school, and he's not off work today!"

"Thank you, brother." Ji Zhifei was a little nervous.

The security guard immediately called Su Fengmian, and Ji Zhifei stared at him from the window of the car, and when he heard him say "Hello", he breathed a sigh of relief.

"Mr. Su, hello, I'm Liu Bao, you know, right?" The security guard said, "Someone is waiting for you at the school gate, saying that you owe him money, can you deal with it? Don't let him Stop here."

"Ah? Of course I believe that you don't owe any money. Maybe it's a misunderstanding. Come here, okay, okay, thank you!"

"Okay, he will come right away, and drive away after solving the problem." The security guard said to Ji Zhifei.

"Thank you bro."

Su Fengmian hung up the phone, and said to the students beside him: "You go back to the evening class first, I have something to do, I will come back later."

He didn't know when he owed the money, so he ran all the way to the school gate. The security guard waved his hand and pointed to a car: "It's over there."

He glanced at the license plate. This series of familiar numbers made him want to turn around and leave, but he was stopped by the security guard: "Hey, Mr. Su, please cooperate with us. You can't park cars for too long at the gate of this school, let alone people. It is not easy for us to drive away if he says he is looking for you."

He didn't know how Ji Zhifei came up with these reasons. Thinking of this, he felt a little funny.

Su Fengmian had no choice but to pass by, and was not surprised to see Ji Zhifei sitting in the car. When he saw himself, he was stunned for a while, stared at each other for a long time, and then said: "Get in the car, I will take you to a place."

Su Fengmian did not refuse, he got into the car, sat in the passenger seat, and kept silent to see where Ji Zhifei would go.

But the road is getting more and more remote, and there are fewer and fewer cars on the road.

He was a little puzzled, and couldn't help asking, "Where are you going? It's all driven to the outskirts of the city."

"Going to the cemetery, there is something I think needs to be explained clearly."

Su Fengmian said "Oh" and looked at the rows of street lights swaying by the window. He pressed the window control button, and the window lowered at a constant speed.

The evening wind brushed against his face, blowing his broken hair back, and he tilted his head back, leaning against the back of the chair.

After the wind blowing for a long time, Su Fengmian was a little chilled by the wind, rolled up the car window again, and turned to look at Ji Zhifei, he looked very preoccupied.

The car drove unhurriedly to the entrance of the cemetery, but the cemetery is closed today, no outsiders are allowed to enter at night, and there are staff on duty at the door.

It was the first time Ji Zhifei came here at night, he didn't know that the door was not open at night, he frowned, he didn't know what to do for a while.

Su Fengmian turned his head to look at him, Ji Zhifei was very disappointed, but his disappointed expression was rare, like a wronged puppy.

"The cemetery is usually closed at night." Su Fengmian said, "Don't you know?"

"You know why you didn't tell me." Ji Zhifei's tone revealed a bit of blame and grievance.

"......sorry."

Ji Zhifei turned off the engine without saying a word, and the air was so quiet that he could hear the wind outside. After a while, he looked down at the steering wheel and whispered, "I don't have a girlfriend."

"Ok?"

"You must be looking at my phone, so you don't want to talk to me." Ji Zhifei added.

Su Fengmian froze for a moment, Ji Zhifei's words didn't match the preamble, and he didn't know what he wanted to express.

He had to say "sorry" again.

"I don't want you to apologize to me." Ji Zhifei was a little anxious, and he simply told all the things he wanted to say clearly, "Listen to Su Fengmian, first, I don't have a girlfriend, and the one who died was my patient , right here, the message you saw is my colleague who is out of his mind, he always imagines that I have something to do with this patient, but in fact there is no, oh no, if I insist, it was a long time ago, no Worth to talk about;

Second, I don’t want to sleep with you just because I want to sleep with you. I know you must still remember what happened more than ten years ago. When I was in college, I was the one who was sorry for you. I had no initial concept of love at the time. Consciousness is enlightened late, and organs do not grow brains;

Thirdly, don’t just say you’ll disappear in the future, be more mature, although it doesn’t matter if you are immature, but I will be very sad if I can’t find you. "

I will be very sad.

Every word Ji Zhifei said hit Su Fengmian's heart like a bell, but he only repeated this sentence silently in his heart.

Ji Zhifei would feel sad because of him, something he never dared to imagine.

He sat back in a daze, sinking into the soft leather that sloped down at the back of the seat.

"There is a fourth thing." Ji Zhifei took a deep breath, turned his head to look at Su Fengmian, "I think, I want you, I want you to be my partner."

Su Fengmian didn't speak, and looked at Ji Zhifei for a long time.

Ji Zhifei waited so long that he wondered if he really said the sentence "I want you to be my partner", he opened his mouth, intending to fight it out and repeat it again, when Su Fengmian suddenly said, "It's raining outside. "

Then he heard the sound of rain, drop by drop, rattling, and gradually the glass was covered with traces of rain. He turned his head and looked at the traces of rain on the windshield.

This is the first rain since Guyu.

Su Fengmian thought that there would be no rain in this year's Grain Rain, but it turned out that it was only a day or two late.

Ji Zhifei stared blankly for a while, and when he pressed the wiper, Su Fengmian leaned forward and kissed the corner of his mouth, and smiled at him as a response.