Breathe

He tightened his arms, "As long as we are together, nothing else matters."

After falling in love, there will be no bottom line or principles, and nothing is as important as the person in front of you.

Song Dan lowered his eyelashes, and wanted to say a lot in his heart, but he didn't say a word in the end.

Here in Song Dan, the future is always uncertain, there is no eternal thing, and there will be no one who will always be with you.She might be able to, because her age makes her increasingly yearn for stability.

She also hoped that one day after being wronged and frustrated, she could have someone to lean on, but what about Jian Luyao?

Jian Luyao is too young.

What you want at 21 may not be what you want at 25.

It would be too disappointing to say these words.

Song Dan grabbed Jian Luyao's hand, turned around and gave her a kiss.

"I'll stay with you," she said. "Dinner first, okay?"

"En." Jian Luyao kissed Song Dan a few more times with nostalgia, and then sat back on the chair.

The dessert after dinner is naturally Song Dan.

Jian Luyao had a great time eating.

However, there was always an uneasiness hidden in her heart.After confirming their relationship with Song Dan, the relationship between the two is not much different from before.

Life is still the same as before.

Chatting online when they don't meet each other, the difference is that the time interval for Song Dan to reply to her is shortened, but in other respects, Jian Luyao didn't feel much difference.

She felt that maybe she was too greedy, emotional things always need time to settle before they can gradually develop their charm.

Moreover, she herself has a knot in her heart towards Song Dan.

On New Year's Eve, why did Song Dan suddenly ignore her?

Regarding this topic, Song Dan always avoids discussing it, and Jian Luyao doesn't ask openly, but there is always a lump in her heart.

In mid-May, Song Dan asked Jian Luyao if they would like to travel on the first anniversary of their acquaintance.By the way, make up for the overseas trip owed at the end of last year.

Of course Jian Luyao was willing. Speaking of this, she still had a deep heart and said, "You also promised to teach me how to swim..."

Song Dan shook Jian Luyao's hand: "I promise to do what I say."

Jian Luyao believed her: "Then when exactly? I'll skip class."

Song Dan smiled: "There's no need to skip class, I've checked the time for you, weekend plus Monday and Friday, don't you have a class that is about to end? The time is just right..."

Jian Luyao turned around and hugged her: "What if you break your promise again this time?"

Song Dan leaned over and touched her forehead: "It's up to you."

Jian Luyao snorted, and pretended to be savage and said: "If you break your promise, then you can be a model for me and take off that kind of clothes... You still have to listen to me and pose as I want."

Song Dan laughed and said indulgently, "Even if I don't break my promise, I will promise you."

Jian Luyao threw herself into Song Dan's arms, and the two of them wrestled together and rolled onto the bed.

During class the next day, Jian Luyao counted the days, and there were two weeks left, which was the time for the two of them to go to Cat Ba Island.After having something she was looking forward to, Jian Luyao anxiously hoped that the time would pass quickly, and at the same time, she was energetically preparing for the final exam of a single subject.

Song Dan raised her for a few months, and really brought her weight back.

During the weekend, Song Dan unexpectedly received a call from Jian Luxing. He said that he would bring his girlfriend over for two days and asked Jian Luyao to pick him up at the station.

Jian Luyao wanted to refuse on the grounds that the school had no time for the exam, but Jian Luxing said: "If you are not free, then I will come to the school to find you by myself."

Jian Luyao had no choice but to pick him up.

Jian Luxing had already made up his mind about the places to visit, so he sent his plan to Jian Luyao, asking Jian Luyao to help her book a hotel and buy tickets for the attractions.

He finally said: "Grandma said, you have money, you have to take good care of me."

Jian Luyao put down her paintbrush, propped her forehead and said, "I'll buy you a hotel and tickets. You and your girlfriend can go directly to play. You won't come to school to look for me, and I'm not free either."

Jian Luxing said: "Then you still have to give me money, otherwise I have no money to buy things."

Jian Luyao clenched her teeth and said, "I can only give you 2000 yuan."

Jian Luxing agreed, and he will come to play for two or three days.

Jian Luyao originally thought that this matter would pass like this, but unexpectedly, Jian Luxing came to the school to find her. The reason was that he and his girlfriend had never been to college, and asked Jian Luyao to take them around.

Everyone came, and Jian Luyao could only accompany her.

On the way, Jian Luxing's girlfriend wanted milk tea, and Jian Luyao lined up to buy it for them.

That milk tea shop is one of the hottest shops in the school, the price is affordable and the taste is good, so there are so many people, Jian Luyao has to keep an eye on what she ordered, otherwise it is easy for people to take it by mistake.

She didn't notice the back, Xiao Ranxin walked up to Jian Luxing, and asked him kindly: "I'm Jian Luyao's classmate, what's your relationship with Jian Luyao?"

Jian Luxing said, "I'm her younger brother."

Xiao Ranxin looked at Jian Luxing's rustic clothes, and said with a smile: "You came to look for your sister, won't she take you to buy some clothes?"

Jian Luxing didn't spend any money on his visit this time. He felt satisfied, so he said, "My sister is also poor, so I can wear whatever clothes I can."

"Your sister is not poor." Xiao Ranxin said, "She is the best painter in our class, and you can buy [-] for a painting? Moreover, she also has a very rich girlfriend."

Xiao Ranxin raised her chin and pointed at Jian Luyao's clothes: "Just her clothes cost more than 1000 yuan, and the shoes and bags cost thousands, which is still cheap. The bags she usually carries are tens of thousands of yuan. Saint Laurent."

Jian Luxing didn't react.

Seeing that Jian Luyao was about to finish shopping, Xiao Ranxin said, "I still have something to do, so let's go first."

She quickly disappeared into the crowd.

Jian Luyao bought milk tea and handed it to Jian Luxing.

Jian Luxing looked at Jian Luyao with a strange expression, his eyes were strange.

"What's wrong?" Jian Luyao was puzzled.

"It's nothing, I'm going back." Jian Luxing took the milk tea and left with his girlfriend.

Jian Luyao was puzzled, and she didn't feel that she had done anything wrong, she just thought that Jian Luxing was going crazy.

Just after returning to the rental house at night, Grandma Jian Luyao called, calling Jian Luyao for an unprecedented time to go back for dinner.

Jian Luyao asked, "Is there something going on at home?"

Grandma said impatiently: "It's okay, you won't go home? Hurry up and get out!"

Jian Luyao said coldly: "I still have to go to class, so I can't leave."

Grandma said fiercely: "If you don't come back, I will come to your school to look for you! Jian Luyao, I know where you study!"

Jian Luyao's heart was as cold as water, and she asked directly: "I can't come back, what do you want, just tell me."

Grandma snorted: "Jian Luyao, it seems that you are really doing well in the city! Why don't you give some to your family when you have money? You have to be conscientious, you are so unworthy, you will go to hell in the future!"

Jian Luyao lowered her eyes, and guessed that it must be what Jian Luxing and grandma said, she didn't want to waste time arguing, and said directly: "[-], I will call you for my tuition fee for next semester. Next For a year, don't call me again."

"Fifteen thousand?" Grandma raised her voice, "Jian Luyao, don't think I don't know, your bag is more than fifteen thousand! I want 20!"

Jian Luyao accentuated her voice: "I'll only give you [-], if you don't want it, forget it. You can come to the school to find me, but I promise, I will never let you find me!"

"Jian Luyao, are you looking for a beating?" Grandma was furious, "I haven't cleaned you up for a few days, and your wings are stiff? Believe it or not..."

Jian Luyao hung up the phone directly, and transferred [-] to grandma's bank card.

Grandma called again, and Jian Luyao turned off the phone directly.

She squatted down and hugged her knees, her heart was so stuffy that she couldn't breathe.

She could foresee that Grandma's lion opened its mouth wide, and this was just the beginning.She couldn't get rid of her grandma, father, and brother, just like she couldn't get rid of the blood in her blood.

The only thing she can do is to be tougher and hold on longer, even if they will ask for money for the rest of her life, she will never let herself suffer emotionally.

Jian Luyao looked at the phone with a black screen, wanted to send a message to Song Dan, and then remembered that her son's birthday was today, and she wanted to stay at home with him.Jian Luyao threw her mobile phone on the sofa, lit a cigarette, opened another bottle of beer, then opened the easel, and followed her memory to outline the outline of a woman's face.

She wanted to draw her mother while she still vaguely remembered her appearance.

During this period of time, the relationship with Song Dan was stable, and her emotional state was also unprecedentedly good. If there were no accidents, she could draw the image of her mother in her memory.

The night was getting darker, and in the quiet living room, there was only the sound of Jian Luyao's brushes brushing. She was in the middle of painting, when the door suddenly rang, and someone pushed it open.

Jian Luyao was startled, and looked up, it was really Song Dan.

"Why are you here?" Jian Luyao hurriedly put down her brush, "Didn't you say that you want to spend the night with your son on his birthday?"

Song Dan leaned on the wall of the entrance, took off his high heels: "Your phone is turned off, I am worried about you."

She put on her slippers and approached with a smile on her face: "Come and let me see if our Yaoyao is not happy today."

Jian Luyao laughed immediately, got up and threw herself into Song Dan's arms: "I'm very happy today."

She rested her chin on Song Dan's shoulder, with a satisfied expression: "I'm really happy..."

With Song Dan, all unhappiness can be offset.

Chapter 27

Song Dan had to leave after staying for more than an hour, and Jian Luyao sent her downstairs.

It was almost twelve o'clock in the evening, there was no one outside the neighborhood, and the street lights were warm and dim. Before parting, Jian Luyao took Song Dan's arm and leaned over to kiss her on the lips.

"On the road..."

"Mom!" A boy's voice cut in abruptly, Song Dan tensed up, and immediately pushed Jian Luyao away.

Jian Luyao looked in the direction of the sound. A few meters away from the roadside stood a tall and thin boy, staring at them with a gloomy expression. A black motorcycle was parked beside him. Sitting there was a boy who also turned to stare at them.

Song Dan's expression was calm: "Yan Lv, why are you here?"

Song Yanlu stood upright, with an angry and fierce expression, he said loudly, "You are disgusting!"

After finishing speaking, he turned around and got on the motorcycle, the gas pedal squeaked a few times, and rushed out with a bang.

"Song Yanlu!" Song Dan yelled, to no avail.

Jian Luyao's face turned pale, she looked at the direction where the car disappeared in a bewildered manner, and then at Song Dan's uncertain face.

"Go back and rest first." Song Dan said, taking out his mobile phone to make a call.

"I'll accompany you..." Jian Luyao felt that she had caused trouble, if only she hadn't kissed Song Dan on the road just now.

"You go back first." Song Dan emphasized his voice, "You can't help me with this matter, I'll just deal with it myself."

Most of the time she didn't know how to deal with the matter between her and Song Yanlv, so how could others help?

Jian Luyao's face turned even paler, and she wanted to hold Song Dan's hand, but she was afraid of causing trouble again.

"Then what do you need, call me." When she said this, her heart beat inexplicably very fast, and she always felt uneasy.

Perhaps because of Song Yanlu's angry and fierce look, Song Dan would definitely be in a difficult situation when he went back to deal with it.

"Okay, it's getting late, you go back first."

Song Dan watched Jian Luyao enter the community, and then she took out her mobile phone and started calling Song Yanlu, but she didn't answer, so she called her aunt at home.

Song Yanlu invited two good friends to come back for a barbecue during the day, and Song Dan did the cooking at night. After dinner, the boys played games in the lounge.

Song Dan thought nothing would happen, so he came out to look for Jian Luyao, but he didn't expect Song Yanlu to appear downstairs. How long has he been here?

The aunt at home said: "After you went out, madam, Yan Lv sent his friend home and went out too."

Song Dan thought of the boy on the motorcycle, and guessed that Song Yanlu might have gone with her.

She pressed her forehead, and had a premonition that something was going to go wrong after she managed to mend the mother-child relationship.

**

Song Yanlu and his friends went to a KTV. Song Yanlu was very irritable. He ordered beer, took out a cigarette, kicked the sofa and cursed while drinking.

His friend waited for him to vent some emotions before saying: "Your mother just found a woman, what are you doing?"

This kind of thing is the norm in their circle. If they have money and capital, what's wrong with playing around?

Song Yanlu was still swearing, and his anger remained undiminished.

"I know she likes women!" Song Yanlu didn't know what to think of, his face was ugly, "That's why she doesn't like me..."

The friend knew that Song Yanlu had a bad relationship with his mother, so he stopped talking.

Song Yanlu took a few sips of wine, his eyes turned red, and after the mania, the child's fragility and helplessness were revealed: "During this time, she is always away from home. I guess she must be someone outside. I have seen her before... But, Today is my birthday, does she not care about me that much?"

Song Yanlu covered his face: "It's disgusting... If you don't like it, you still have to act as a good mother. It's so disgusting."

As long as he thinks that those women outside have more status than him, Song Yanlu feels like a cockroach in his stomach, and is so angry and irritable that he wants to blow up himself and the world.

The friend silently patted Song Yanlu's shoulder, opened a bottle of wine for him, and drank with Song Yanlu.

Song Yanlu didn't go home all night, Song Dan called the school the next day to make sure he didn't skip class, so he picked up people outside the school in the afternoon.

Song Yanlu saw Song Dan's car, but he ignored it and passed directly.

Song Dan got out of the car and chased after him: "Yan Lv, come home with me, let's have a good talk."

Song Yanlu said coldly: "You talk to those women of yours, I have nothing to say to you."

"Song Yanlu!" Song Dan lowered his face, "Don't let me argue with you at the school gate."

Song Yanlu sneered indifferently: "You are noisy, I am not afraid of losing face, only you are hypocritical and desperate for face."

Song Dan was so choked by him that he couldn't speak, and his face was ugly.

Song Yanlu said with a dull expression: "I will study in the boarding school from tomorrow, and I don't want to live with you, it's disgusting!"

Song Dan took a deep breath and calmed his tone: "I can apologize to you for what happened last night."

Song Yanlu smiled childishly but extremely sharply: "No need, I am the one who should apologize. I'm sorry, I let you give birth to me!"

After he finished speaking, he left without looking back.

Song Dan pinched his fingers, feeling powerless.

**

Jian Luyao's cell phone rang again, it was grandma's call, she hung up the call with a blank expression.After Jian Luxing came, grandma called every day, asking Jian Luyao for money to buy a house.

If Jian Luyao had been a little closer to her family, she might have gritted her teeth and given the 20 yuan, but the long-standing grievances made her unwilling to compromise on this.

Why?

She went to re-apply for a card, and then turned off the previous number, avoiding it first, and seeing grandma's attitude in a few days.She can't do it without directly changing the number.

No matter how unbearable, after all, it was the relatives who raised her.

After Jian Luyao changed the card, she sent a message to Song Dan, informing her of the new number. Song Dan asked her why she changed the number suddenly.

"The leak of the number is a bit serious. It's too annoying to send all kinds of spam messages about training classes, cram schools, and top-secret materials for exams all day long." Jian Luyao made an excuse and asked again, "What happened that day, you and your child Have you explained it?"

Song Dan: "Not yet, he refuses to contact me."

Jian Luyao held the phone, not knowing what to do.

Song Dan: "I may not be able to come to you during this time, you take good care of yourself and don't lose weight again."

Jian Luyao was disappointed, but she quickly replied: "Well, I'm fine. Your child is about to take the high school entrance examination, so you should spend more time with him."

Song Dan: "Yes."

For half a month, Song Dan only came to see Jian Luyao a few times, most of the time just for a meal, and occasionally went to the apartment to stay for a few hours, leaving before dark.

At this point in time, she can still find a way to come and accompany her. Jian Luyao is very content, and usually tries not to disturb her as much as possible.

Apartments and schools are two points and one line.

It's just that a person has lived in an apartment for a long time, facing the empty room and the dark night, sometimes she suddenly feels lost and depressed, and the black beast that tortured her heart appeared quietly again.

Jian Luyao suppressed it hard, warning herself not to think wildly, everything is fine.

Song Dan just can't get away temporarily, and will come back after a while.

Li Yunshan's belly gradually grew, and she was bored at home every day, so she always asked Jian Luyao to go out to play.

When she was with Song Dan, Jian Luyao always rejected her, Song Dan couldn't come over, she took the initiative to invite Li Yunshan to dinner when she had free time.

Li Yunshan still looked the same, wearing loose clothes, she couldn't tell she was pregnant at all.

The two of them ate roast duck, Li Yunshan didn't have a good appetite, she kept drinking soup, and after talking to Jian Luyao about what she had and what she had, she brought up Di Xiaoyi.

Ask Jian Luyao why she has alienated Di Xiaoyi recently.

Jian Luyao took a sip of water from her cup and said, "You know, Song Dan and I...reconciled."

She didn't tell others that she and Song Dan were in a relationship. In her subconscious, Song Dan would leave suddenly, and she always reminded herself to be prepared to accept it.

"But Di Xiaoyi just wants to be friends with you." Li Yunshan spoke for her, "Why are you so unfeeling..."

Jian Luyao lowered her eyes and said nothing.

She didn't want to give Di Xiaoyi hope, and she didn't want to make Song Dan unhappy.

Ever since she knew that Jian Luyao was relatively free recently, Li Yunshan often asked her out to go shopping, eat and watch movies.

"I'm really too free." Li Yunshan said, "I'm so free that I want to play cards with the old ladies downstairs!"

Sometimes Jian Luyao felt annoyed, so she didn't answer her phone calls or text messages, but when she came back from school, she could see Li Yunshan waiting at the gate of the community.

Jian Luyao was convinced, but the other party was a pregnant woman, so she had no choice but to let it go, and then secretly complained to Song Dan, saying that Li Yunshan was too annoying, and she couldn't get rid of it, especially annoying.

June.

Jian Luyao and Song Dan originally agreed to travel abroad, but it was rescheduled again.

Song Yanlu is about to take the senior high school entrance examination, and his relationship with Song Dan is still at a stalemate.Jian Luyao told Song Dan against her will that she had nothing to do with her, let Song Dan take care of work and family matters, and just come and have a meal with her when she has time.

Song Dan said yes.

In mid-June, Li Yunshan suddenly began to experience abdominal pain and slight bleeding. She was afraid that something might happen to her child, so she asked Jian Luyao to accompany her to the hospital.

Jian Luyao said: "Why don't you find your child's father? Doesn't he value this child very much?"

When Li Yunshan was three months pregnant, she was taken to have her sex checked. He was a son. The benefactor was so happy that he bought a lot of things for Li Yunshan.

"Why are you talking so much nonsense? Are you coming?" Li Yunshan asked impatiently.

Jian Luyao had no class that day, so she still agreed.

After a series of examinations, the doctor said that it was a threatened miscarriage, so she should take a good rest, pay attention to mood swings, and so on.

Li Yunshan didn't bother to listen so much, so she asked directly: "So my current situation is, if I get stimulated a little bit, or if I get an injury or fall, will I have a miscarriage?"

The doctor said: "It's possible, and you had a miscarriage before..."

Li Yunshan didn't listen to the doctor's words seriously, she stared at a point in the room with dark eyes, not knowing what she was thinking.

Chapter 28

Li Yunshan had a stomachache and had to walk carefully. Jian Luyao supported her and sent her back to her high-end apartment.

"Would you like to stay for a meal? The housekeeper he found for me cooks delicious food." When they got downstairs, Li Yunshan said, "It's boring to eat alone."

Jian Luyao didn't want to go back to eat takeaway alone, so she agreed.

The apartment is very delicately decorated, bright yellow floor tiles and walls, luxurious and luxurious, Li Yunshan sat on the sofa, pointed to the grapes on the coffee table, Jian Luyao said: "No, I won't eat."

Li Yunshan: "No, I'll let you wash it."

Jian Luyao: "... Where's your aunt?"

Li Yunshan tilted her body and played with her mobile phone: "I went grocery shopping."

Jian Luyao took the grapes, washed them in the kitchen and brought them out, then sat on the other side of the sofa to watch TV.

"Hey." Li Yunshan said suddenly, stroking his still-obvious stomach and asked, "Tell me... if he gets hit by something, will it hurt?"

Jian Luyao thought for a while: "I don't know... Maybe... Yes."

"Actually, when I was just pregnant, I didn't feel it at all." Li Yunshan said, "I didn't feel that there was a little life in my stomach, but it was quite annoying, because this thing in my stomach not only made my back ache, but also nauseated... ..."

She lowered her eyelids: "Later, one day when I fell asleep, I suddenly felt..."

Jian Luyao looked at her lower abdomen: "Feel his presence?"

Li Yunshan nodded, then frowned again: "I can't describe the feeling...it's strange..."

Jian Luyao said: "Then have you thought about your life after you have a child?"

In Jian Luyao's imagination, after having a child, all life trajectories will change drastically.Life and life will be different.

For some people, it is a manifestation of stability, everything is settled, and in the future, as long as they live around the child, they will have a complete life.

But for someone like Jian Luyao, that's actually quite scary.

How a person lives his short life is not decided by himself.

"I haven't thought about it..." Li Yunshan replied, "I haven't thought about it at all. If it wasn't because of poverty, I wouldn't have children if I was killed."

When the housekeeping aunt came back to cook, it was already dark.

Jian Luyao watched the movie boredly. Song Dan sent a message at this time, and she immediately watched it with her mobile phone.

Song Dan asked what she was doing.

Jian Luyao: "I'm having dinner with Li Yunshan, are you off work?"

Song Dan came back after a while: "I went back, but you're not here."

Jian Luyao: "!!! I'll be right back."

Song Dan: "No need, I won't stay for long, and it's too late for you to come back."

Jian Luyao said: "It's okay, I want to hug you for a while, maybe a few minutes."

She got up to leave after posting: "Song Dan is back, I'll go first."

Li Yunshan rolled her eyes hard at her: "Are you serious? The meal is almost ready!"

Jian Luyao picked up the bag: "As for."

Li Yunshan was speechless: "All right, get out of here."

Jian Luyao walked towards the door, and Li Yunshan shouted behind her again: "Remember to come out and accompany me to the hospital in a few days."

"Okay." Jian Luyao answered without turning her head, and closed the door.

She ran out of the community all the way and took a taxi back.

On the way, he said to Song Dan, "I'm in a taxi, there's still half an hour at most."

Song Dan: "Well, I'm waiting for you."

Jian Luyao held the phone and excitedly read the message several times. Song Dan was waiting for her.

wait for her.

Jian Luyao sat on the car seat, urging the master: "Master, please drive faster, I'm in a hurry..."

The master said: "At this point in time, if there is no traffic jam, it will be fast."

In the end, the master really got what he said, and they really encountered a traffic jam.

Jian Luyao anxiously watched the time go by little by little, feeling extremely irritable.

The road was blocked for half an hour, and Jian Luyao sent a message to Song Dan: "There is a traffic jam, I still have half an hour, cry."

Song Dan replied to her: "Oh."

Jian Luyao: "Huh??? Are you leaving?"

Song Dan: "Yes, I have to go back..."

Jian Luyao suddenly froze, and returned her crying expression.

This damn traffic jam.

Song Dan: "Touch your head."

Jian Luyao: "Are you leaving now?"

Song Dan: "What do you think?"

Jian Luyao: "You're teasing me again."

Song Dan: "Hahaha."

Jian Luyao: "There are still 10 minutes left, I'll be right back."

Song Dan: "Yes."

The master speeded up the accelerator and arrived in ten minutes. Jian Luyao got out of the car and ran all the way back.

She opened the door and rushed into the room in a few steps. The lights were on in the living room, but there was no sign of Song Dan.

Jian Luyao froze for a moment, at this moment, the sound of cooking came from the kitchen, and Song Dan was cooking.

Jian Luyao's mind was a little empty, she paused for a few seconds before heading into the kitchen.

The aroma of food floats in the air, the sizzling sound of cooking, the roaring sound of the range hood... These sounds and the bright light in the room form a warm and noisy color. Jian Luyao chased the color and walked out of the kitchen .

She saw Song Dan who was cooking in a white shirt and a floral apron.

Her hair was rolled up, revealing her fair and slender back neck, her apron was tightly tied, framing her slender waist, and her back was graceful.

Jian Luyao stood for a long time before Song Dan felt that there was someone behind her. She looked back, her hair was hanging down her ears, her cheeks were fair, and her peach blossom eyes were full of smiles.

"came back?"

"En." Jian Luyao sniffed, hugged Song Dan, and hugged her human fireworks tightly.

Song Dan patted Jian Luyao's hand: "I'm cooking."

Jian Luyao rubbed her side neck and said in a low voice, "I like you."

Song Dan paused.

Jian Luyao spoke clearly, and said again: "I like you, I like you very much, I like you very much."

Song Dan shut down the fire, turned around and held Jian Luyao's face, kissed her on the lips: "I like you too."

Jian Luyao pressed her on the marble platform, pressed her tightly against Song Dan's body, and gnawed her lips.

Song Dan gave her a slight push: "The pot is still cooking."

Jian Luyao said hoarsely, "I don't want to eat..."

Song Dan glanced at his watch: "I still have half an hour..."

Jian Luyao reached out and turned off the fire: "Enough..."

Song Dan stayed a little longer, and returned home half an hour later than originally planned. As soon as she entered the house, her aunt came over and told her that Song Yanlu was packing up and was going to move out.

A few days ago, Song Yanlu kept clamoring to live on campus, and Song Dan managed to suppress his thoughts. Who knew that he would start collecting things tonight.

Song Dan went upstairs with a sinking heart, and knocked on Song Yanlu's bedroom door.

It didn't respond to her.

"I'm coming in." Song Dan opened the door and found that it was locked, she said helplessly, "Yan Lv, you will take the high school entrance examination tomorrow, where are you moving at this time?"

Song Yanlu replied to her through the door: "The exam is shit, I won't take the exam!"

Song Dan said patiently: "You don't take exams, you don't study, what are you going to do?"

Song Yanlu said angrily, "It's none of your business what I do? It's none of your business if I die outside!"

Song Dan closed his eyes and calmed himself down: "Open the door, let's have a good chat."

Song Yanlu pretended to be dead inside.

The quiet stalemate spread, and Song Dan didn't hold back his anger for a moment, and kicked the door severely in a gaffe: "Song Yanlu, I tell you to open the door!"

After a few seconds of silence, Song Yanlu opened the door and said mockingly, "What, are you going to deal with me now?"

Song Dan walked into the room and said forcefully, "Come on, let's chat."

Song Yanlu slammed the door, and a loud bang echoed piercingly in the villa.

Song Dan glanced at the suitcase stuffed with stuff on the ground, then turned to face Song Yanlu: "Can't you accept that I'm gay?"

Song Yanlu stared at her fiercely: "If I said no, would you be with a man?"

Song Dan said in a deep voice, "I hope you understand me."

Song Yanlu sneered: "I can't understand such a disgusting thing."

Song Dan stood for a while, pulled a chair, and sat down slowly, crossing his long legs, showing a bit of habitual strength unconsciously.

"First of all, this thing is not disgusting, you can't understand it, but at least you have to respect it; secondly," she paused for a second, "even if you don't like me, or what I do, you shouldn't use your own future Angry."

Song Yanlu didn't like his mother's rational and calm appearance very much, it made him feel strange, as if he was talking to the teacher, no, talking to the teacher was better than talking to her.

"Haven't you guys already decided on my future?" Song Yanlu roared, "When you die, I will be the heir of the Song family. Isn't that the purpose of giving birth to me?"

Song Dan frowned and said, "Can you talk to me calmly?"

Song Yanlu kicked the table violently: "This is my fucking virtue, if you don't like it, just leave me alone! Anyway, I can't act in your hypocritical scenes!"

Song Dan looked at him steadfastly: "Do you think I care about you, take care of you, take care of you, is it acting?"

Song Yanlu said: "Otherwise! You don't like me at all! I know, you have always disliked me, and I hate you too!"

Song Dan became silent, she used to use silent pressure to force others to calm down.

But Song Yanlu was extremely resistant to this, so he turned around and left.

"I admit it." Song Dan said, "I admit that I didn't like you once."

Song Yanlu stopped, his back tensed.

Song Dan lowered his voice: "I was pregnant with you because your father raped me."

Song Yanlu suddenly turned his head and stared at Song Dan with wide eyes.

Song Dan habitually suppressed the fragility in his heart, and continued to say calmly and calmly: "So I..."

"That's why you hate me and wish you had never been born to me." Song Yanlu interrupted her and clenched his fists, "That's why you never treated me well when I was young, so when I flattered you when I was young, you would only call me roll!"

He roared: "So you're telling me your innocence now, so you think you're showing your pity now, so I should forgive you!"

Song Yanlu's sharpness as always made Song Dan's face turn pale and his pupils tremble.

"But why?" Song Yanlu stared at her fiercely, "Since you don't like it, then don't give birth to me! You are innocent, so am I not innocent? No matter what you say now, you are disgusting!"

Chapter 29

Song Yanlu finally slammed the door and left, leaving Song Dan with a pale face.

The room was extremely quiet, and Song Dan seemed to hear his own panting.

Auntie walked over cautiously, looked at the pale and fragile Song Dan, opened her lips, and didn't know how to comfort her.

Song Dan put his hand on his forehead and said in a low voice, "Go and rest, and leave me alone."

"Hey..." Auntie agreed, and closed the door for Song Dan, leaving her a secret space.

Song Dan closed her eyes forcefully, and a second later, she laughed silently.

Song Yanlu was right. When Song Yanlu was a child, she had thrown countless cold words and silent hurts at him. Those things could not be smoothed away with just one or two words.

She is both a victim and a perpetrator.The same is true of Song Yanlu.

But what can she do?

At least give her a chance to redeem herself...

Song Dan was so uncomfortable that he couldn't breathe, and Jian Luyao's gentle and bright smile suddenly appeared in his mind, thinking of her warm embrace and soft fingers.

She wants to go to her.

Song Dan stood up, took a few steps to the door, but stopped again.

She is getting old, and she doesn't want to be like a child, so childishly opening up the wounds in her heart for others to see, that's embarrassing.

She is a mature and steady adult, in front of Jian Luyao, in front of everyone, she looks omnipotent and powerful, she does not allow herself to cry in front of outsiders.

Although, she really wanted to be comforted and supported by someone.

Song Dan stood there blankly, clenched his fingers tightly.

After a long time, she went back to her bedroom alone, smoking on the balcony, one after another until she calmed down.

After calming down, Song Dan started calling to find Song Yanlu's whereabouts.

This time will not be at school, mostly in bars or KTV, or with friends.

Bars and KTVs are hard to find, and friends will definitely not answer her calls. Song Dan called Du Jiangjin and asked him to try to find people in bars and KTVs, while she drove to some friends of Song Yanlu Home.

Song Dan went to the house of two of Song Yanlu's friends, but got nothing.

When she was about to go to the third one, Jian Luyao sent a message and asked if she was asleep?

Song Dan stopped by the side of the road, holding her mobile phone, and was silent for a long time before she replied: "Not yet."

Jian Luyao: "Then what are you doing now? Can I call you?"

Song Dan didn't return, she lit a cigarette, and after smoking half of it, she still said to Jian Luyao, "I had a quarrel with Song Yanlu, and he ran out now, I'm looking for someone."

Jian Luyao's call came right away: "Where are you now, I'll come and look for it with you!"

Hearing her worried look, Song Dan smiled: "It's useless for you to come here, I don't even have a clue, I'm just looking around."

Jian Luyao said: "Have you looked for him in the places he usually likes to go?"

Song Dan said: "The places he usually goes to are bars and KTVs, but there are too many and it's hard to find."

Jian Luyao said: "There is always a neighborhood that I am used to going to, near my own home, or near a friend's home, or far away from my home..."

People will not go to a place they are completely unfamiliar with for no reason, especially children who are not yet adults.

Song Dan paused for a moment, realizing that she had no idea about it. She didn't know her child, so she could only think of the KTV where Song Yanlu had an accident last time, but that KTV was later investigated.

Song Yanlu knocked/drugs inside, the source was that KTV, and Song Dan reported that KTV the next day.

However, you can take a look around there...

"I think of a place right now, I'll go over and have a look." Song Dan started the car, "Don't follow me to find gods, take a good rest."

Jian Luyao said: "Where can I sit, tell me the location, and I'll take a taxi."

Song Dan smiled and said, "It's really unnecessary, I can solve it myself."

Jian Luyao was silent for a while: "Are you so unwilling to let me help you?"

Song Dan paused: "No..."

Jian Luyao also paused for a few seconds, and said: "You always don't tell me about you, obviously we are in love, but you don't let me participate in your life."

Song Dan is indeed kind to Jian Luyao, doting and gentle, but love is not just about being nice to the other party.It was a fusion of two worlds.

"I'm not..." Song Dan retorted in a low voice.

It's not that she doesn't want Jian Luyao to enter her life, she doesn't want Jian Luyao to see her embarrassed and weak.She hoped that she would always be perfect and impeccable in front of Jian Luyao.

In this way, when she gets old and has fish patterns on her face, unable to hide them, she can still leave a strong image for Jian Luyao that others cannot match.

Jian Luyao didn't speak, and the two of them were silent through the mobile phone.

"If you are not afraid of trouble, then come here." Song Dan said.

Jian Luyao heard the reluctance in her tone, she felt cold in her heart, and said sullenly: "Forget it, I still won't bother you..."

"Yaoyao, that's not what I meant." Song Dan said, "I'm just... afraid that you will think that I'm not good enough."

Jian Luyao thought about her own gloom, and remembered the depression she had never told others, and said softly, "I'm not good either, and I'm also... afraid that you'll dislike me."

Song Dan smiled, she could predict the following conversation.

She said to Jian Luyao, I won't dislike you, and then Jian Luyao would say the same to her.

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