Breathe

Unconditional tolerance.

Song Dan slowed down the car and said, "Actually, I wanted to come to you before."

Jian Luyao asked: "Then why didn't you come?"

Song Dan laughed: "Because I want face."

Jian Luyao: "Hmph."

Song Dan breathed out the deep depression in his heart: "Come here quickly, I want...to hug you."

Jian Luyao took a taxi late at night and went to the west block of the city center. Song Dan had found several Qing bar restaurants there, Du Jiangjin was also here, and he brought a few people with him.

After Jian Luyao got off the car, she trotted to meet Song Dan.

Song Dan was a little bored and irritable as he couldn't find anyone.Song Yanlu will take the high school entrance exam tomorrow, but now he doesn't even have a shadow. If he doesn't go to the exam tomorrow, he will have to repeat the grade.

"Song Dan..." Jian Luyao crossed the road and quickly leaned against Song Dan, "How is it?"

Song Dan shook his head, and stretched out his hand towards Jian Luyao.

Jian Luyao immediately grabbed her and hugged Song Dan into her arms: "I'll help you find it together."

Song Dan lightened her body, leaned her chin on Jian Luyao's shoulder, her warm body temperature passed through her clothes and spread to Song Dan's skin, the warmth was bewildering, and Song Dan's eye circles felt hot for no reason.

The grievance and anger that had been suppressed in her heart were vented out, and she really wanted to cry in Jian Luyao's arms.

"Lu Yao, why are you here?" Du Jiangjin suddenly interjected, Song Dan took a breath, suppressed tears, and stood up straight.

Jian Luyao said: "I'll come and see if I can help..."

Du Jiangjin nodded: "Then you all go together, let's go to the other side."

"Okay." Jian Luyao said.

Du Jiangjin left first, Jian Luyao and Song Dan got into the car and went to the next place.

They searched all night, but still found nothing.

After dawn, Song Dan asked Jian Luyao to go back to school first.

Jian Luyao didn't want to leave: "Two people are better than one..."

Song Dan paused for a while, then said, "I'm going to rely on my relationship to directly locate Song Yanlu's phone."

Jian Luyao looked up at her: "Why didn't you use this method last night?"

Song Dan turned her head and looked out the window: "Because I have to contact Song Yanlu's father, he has a good relationship with him."

Jian Luyao was silent suddenly, Song Dan turned his eyes to look at her, and suddenly smiled, the smile was somewhat clear and mocking, which made Jian Luyao feel guilty.

Would Song Dan be angry if she found out that she went to inquire about her past?

"So you go back first." Song Dan didn't continue the topic, and raised his hand to touch Jian Luyao's cheek, "Thank you for being with me last night."

Jian Luyao shook her head, leaned over and hugged Song Dan.

"If you need anything, give me a call, and I will come too." After she finished speaking, she rubbed Song Dan's cheek.

Song Dan pressed the back of her head, and kissed her on the lips: "Okay."

Jian Luyao got off the car and took a taxi back to school by herself.

After finishing her morning class, she sent Song Dan a message to ask her about her situation. Song Dan said that the person had been found and had just been sent for the exam. Now Song Dan was guarding outside the school, waiting for him to come out after the exam.

Jian Luyao replied: "That's good."

In fact, she wanted to say that if Song Yanlu refused to take the exam, it would be useless to send him to the exam room.But the words were inappropriate after all, she just chatted with Song Dan for a few words in the end.

During the three days of the high school entrance examination, Jian Luyao and Song Dan hadn't met each other, and the two of them had little chat.

I don't know if it's because Song Dan is in a bad mood and doesn't want to talk, or because he doesn't have time.

Jian Luyao has always been uneasy. She wanted to see Song Dan but was afraid of getting into trouble. Fortunately, Song Dan later realized Jian Luyao's uneasiness and made a phone call to comfort her. Only then did Jian Luyao feel at ease.

After class, she went back to the apartment and opened the original mobile phone card. Sure enough, there were a lot of missed calls and text messages from grandma. The text messages were probably sent by Jian Luxing, which meant whether Jian Luyao wanted or not to pay before the summer vacation. If so, grandma will come to the school to find her in person.

Jian Luyao finished reading the text message with a blank face, and continued to turn off the phone.

After the high school entrance examination, Song Yanlu stubbornly decided to move out.

Song Dan was exhausted, and he didn't want to continue the stalemate with him, so he let go.She sometimes even has that kind of thought of giving up in the bottom of her heart - "whatever you like, whatever you want".

Song Yanlu moved to an independent apartment the next day.

Song Dan stayed alone in the villa, looking at the empty room, suddenly began to doubt the meaning of his flattering Song Yanlu.

She gave in and endured again and again, but in the end, the relationship between mother and child was still a mess, and it was just a waste of time.

She propped her forehead, closed her eyes, and smiled wryly.

Song Dan had been drinking at home for a long time, and when she got drunk, she fell asleep, and when she woke up the next day, she had the energy to deal with all the messy life again.

However, before she woke up, something happened to Song Yanlu again.

Chapter 30

When she received Li Yunshan's call, Jian Luyao just fell asleep from the uncomfortable insomnia, she connected the phone with a hoarse voice: "What's wrong?"

"Jian Luyao, I'm in the park..." Li Yunshan said in pain, "My stomach hurts..."

Jian Luyao hurriedly sat up, changed her pants with one hand and said at the same time: "Your stomach hurts, why didn't you call an ambulance, what if something happened to the child?"

Jian Luyao suppressed her voice and said, "I've been blocked in the park, and his wife wants to mess with me."

"What's the matter? Doesn't his wife also want that child?"

Li Yunshan burst into tears and said, "I don't know... Come and find me quickly, I can't hold on anymore..."

"I'll put on some clothes first." Jian Luyao put on her bra and clothes, grabbed her phone, and went out, saying, "Send me your address, if it's too late, call the police and call an ambulance for yourself , nothing is as important as your own body!"

Li Yunshan didn't answer, only the sound of panting in pain came over.

Jian Luyao was afraid that something would happen to her suddenly, so she didn't hang up the phone, and hurried downstairs, took a taxi and rushed to Li Yunshan's place.

Half an hour later, she arrived at the park and started talking to Li Yunshan, asking her where she was.

Li Yunshan herself was running in a hurry at the time, and she couldn't remember clearly, she said a lot of nonsense, which confused Jian Luyao, and walked around the park in a big circle, and finally saw the small grass that Li Yunshan was talking about.

"I'm on the grass..." While she was talking, another call came from the phone at this time, it was Song Dan.

Jian Luyao subconsciously wanted to pick it up, but she also thought of Li Yunshan's current situation...

"Jian Luyao!" Li Yunshan suddenly uttered, leaning out from behind a flower bed, she staggered up while supporting the flower bed.

Seeing her, Jian Luyao immediately hung up the phone, wanting to pick up Song Dan, but at this moment Li Yunshan's body tilted, and she fell to the ground with a plop.

"Li Yunshan!" Jian Luyao was startled, and hurried over to help her, "How are you?"

Li Yunshan was completely limp, her fingers tightly pinched Jian Luyao's arm: "I'm bleeding..."

Jian Luyao saw that there was indeed a dark color between her legs: "Is it serious?"

Li Yunshan shook her head, and said in a breathy voice: "There are many times when I don't have my aunt, but it hurts..."

"I'll take you to the hospital." Jian Luyao knelt down and wanted to carry her back.

"No, it will hurt my stomach, you help me..."

Jian Luyao raised Li Yunshan's arm and supported her to walk outside.

In the quiet night, there was a sudden roar of motorcycles, from far to near.

Jian Luyao raised her eyes and looked around, afraid that a group of lawbreakers would suddenly rush out like in a TV series, but that group of motorcycles just passed through the park.

The surroundings became quiet again, and Jian Luyao supported Li Yunshan to continue walking. After a few steps, the phone vibrated again.Song Dan made a second call, Jian Luyao supported Li Yunshan with one hand, and swiped the answer button with one finger on the other hand.

Li Yunshan couldn't stand steadily, and the two walked with difficulty, but she stepped on the ground again, and her body tilted heavily, causing Jian Luyao to fall with her, and she couldn't hold the phone firmly, so she dropped her hand and smashed it to the ground.

"Hey!" Jian Luyao exclaimed, helped Li Yunshan to walk in confusion, and kicked her mobile phone in a daze.

The mobile phone with the screen on was like a flexible fish. It slid and fell into the sewer with a splash, and continued to vibrate and shine unyieldingly inside.

Jian Luyao was dumbfounded, there was an iron fence on the sewer, and she couldn't pick it up at all.

Li Yunshan's stomach hurts so much that she can't stand up anymore, almost her whole body weight is hanging on Jian Luyao's body.

Jian Luyao was too afraid that she would kill someone, so she gritted her teeth and decided to go to a nearby hospital first.

"Where are those people blocking you?" She asked as she walked.

"No...know...know..." Li Yunshan was in pain so hard to speak, her whole body was trembling.

Jian Luyao suspects that there is no one blocking her at all, she just got into trouble on her own and doesn't go to the hospital, but at this juncture, it's not good for her to quarrel with Li Yunshan.

After leaving the park, she snatched Li Yunshan's mobile phone and called 120 directly. After calling, she took the mobile phone and took Li Yunshan, who could no longer walk, to sit in the flower bed under the street lamp.

Li Yunshan was so weak from the pain that she couldn't sit still, and kept shaking. Jian Luyao sat down next to her and asked her to lean against her so that she wouldn't fall.

In a bright place, Jian Luyao saw a slap on Li Yunshan's face.

"Who beat you?" Jian Luyao asked.

Li Yunshan gritted her teeth and said three words: "His wife."

After speaking, I kept inhaling and panting because of the pain.

Hearing her pain, Jian Luyao couldn't bear it anymore, and stretched out his hand to support her. Li Yunshan lost his strength a long time ago, and immediately leaned into Jian Luyao's arms, moaning softly.

"What's going on? Why did his wife suddenly beat you?" Jian Luyao asked again.

Li Yunshan was trembling and couldn't speak at all. Jian Luyao saw that her head was covered with cold sweat, so she took a tissue to wipe her forehead.

In the dead of night, there were occasional vehicles passing by on the asphalt road outside the park. Jian Luyao took a few glances and wondered if it would be faster to take a private car to the hospital.

Li Yunshan had a threatened miscarriage, just in case...

Just as she was thinking, Li Yunshan's cell phone vibrated again, and the caller only had one word - brother.

"Your brother." Jian Luyao handed over her mobile phone, and while speaking, a car drove by on the road in front of her.

Jian Luyao glanced at it, it was an Audi.

She thought of Song Dan, and wondered why Song Dan called her at this time...

"If you don't answer, you turn off the phone." Li Yunshan said hoarsely, "Shut off the phone..."

Jian Luyao asked, "Why didn't you answer it? This is your brother's call!"

Li Yunshan didn't speak, and after a few seconds of pause, she grabbed Jian Luyao's wrist with trembling hands.

"I...had a lot of bleeding..."

"What?" Jian Luyao saw that there was a large amount of blood between her legs, and it even flowed down the flower bed, which was shocking.

Jian Luyao was so frightened that her thoughts went blank, and she called out after a second: "Why isn't the ambulance coming yet? I'll go to the highway and stop the car for you!"

But when she got up, Li Yunshan fell straight to the ground. Jian Luyao couldn't get rid of her hands, and she was sweating coldly. Fortunately, the sound of the ambulance approached at this time.

The white ambulance drove over quickly, and two nurses got out of the car and helped Li Yunshan into the car.

Jian Luyao followed her into the car, her mind was confused but clear, she stared blankly at the nurse and doctor giving first aid to Li Yunshan.

Li Yunshan entered the emergency room, while Jian Luyao stood alone in the corridor. After a while, she realized that her trousers were stained with blood, dried and stiff.

She sat down on the rest chair and had a premonition that Li Yunshan's child would not be kept.

In fact, Li Yunshan's child was indeed lost.

She was asleep on the hospital bed, and Jian Luyao stood by the bed, looking at her pale face, her thoughts were confused.

For a while, he thought about Song Dan, for a while, he thought about why Li Yunshan had a miscarriage, and for a while, he thought about her lost mobile phone...

Li Yunshan woke up the next morning and asked Jian Luyao calmly, "Is the child gone?"

No questioning tone.

Jian Luyao also asked her directly: "Did you never really plan to give birth to the child from the beginning?"

Li Yunshan closed her eyes, and after a long time, said: "The child was beaten by his wife, it's not my fault."

Jian Luyao said angrily: "Even if you don't like this child, can't you cherish your own body? This is the second miscarriage!"

Li Yunshan turned her head to the side: "My own body, what does it matter to you? You go, I want to rest alone."

Jian Luyao was so angry that she lost her voice, she nodded, got up and left.

After standing silently at the entrance of the hospital for a while, she went to the mall to buy a new mobile phone, reissued a phone card, and then called Song Dan back as soon as possible.

Song Dan didn't answer.

Jian Luyao edited the text message and said: "Last night, Li Yunshan was sick. I went to take care of her. I didn't receive your call, and I lost my phone..."

Until noon, there was no movement from Song Dan.

Jian Luyao called her again, this time the phone was turned off.

Jian Luyao intuitively felt that something was wrong with Song Dan.

She waited restlessly until the evening, then called Song Dan again, but still turned off the phone.

Jian Luyao's heart began to beat faster, and one bad idea after another jumped out of her mind.

What I think about the most is, is Song Dan going to break up with her?

Just like last time, he left suddenly for no reason.

She sat on the sofa in a daze, feeling inexplicably suffocated, as if something grabbed her heart.

But no, Song Dan won't just leave without leaving her a word...

If this is still the case this time, then she will never forgive Song Dan for the rest of her life.

In the evening, Jian Luyao called again and turned off the phone.

She tossed and turned in the middle of the night, and finally remembered Du Jiangjin coming in, so she immediately called Du Jiangjin to ask about Song Dan's situation.

But it was already two o'clock in the morning, and Du Jiangjin didn't answer.

Jian Luyao didn't feel sleepy, restless, she felt like a balloon that was inflated to the extreme, and could explode violently just by touching her.

While waiting for dawn, Jian Luyao opened another phone card to see if there would be a message from Song Dan in it.

What if...

But the only thing that came over was the information from grandma's phone. The latest one was--your dad fell on the hillside and went to the hospital.

Jian Luyao stared at the message and was stunned.

Her first reaction was that it was a lie, a lie told by grandma to coax her back.

Jian Luyao wanted to ignore it, but she couldn't do it either, because it was her father after all.After thinking about it, she still sent a message to Jian Luxing, asking him what happened at home.

At this point in time, Jian Luxing did not reply to her message.

It was still dark, and the lights were still bright outside the window, but the room was depressingly quiet.

Jian Luyao bit her lip, pinched the back of her hand tightly with her fingers, the pain spread, and she felt much calmer.

Going downstairs, Jian Luyao went to the 24-hour convenience store, bought cigarettes and alcohol, returned to the empty room, and continued to wait.

Chapter 31

Song Dan's mobile phone was not turned on for another day, Du Jiangjin did not return Jian Luyao's call, and Jian Luxing's tone of voice stammered, obviously because she lied that something happened at home.

Jian Luyao curled up on the sofa, holding the phone in a daze.

She hasn't eaten or drank all day, but she doesn't feel hungry.

She felt hopeless, the kind of hopelessness that seemed to have lost all meaning.

Why is she obsessed with Song Dan, why does she care about that cold and heartless family, why does she come here to learn painting, why...she wants to live.

As soon as the last thought popped out, Jian Luyao took a deep breath.

She knew that thought was dangerous and shouldn't be allowed to grow.Jian Luyao stood up all of a sudden, she knew she should find something to do.

But what to do?

She walked around the living room a few times in a daze, finally stared at the bright and clean floor, and burst into tears.

In fact, she didn't want to do anything, she was very anxious and uncomfortable, her body seemed to be dragged by something, sinking, submerging, sinking... She was almost drowning in the suppressed emotions.

ill.

Jian Luyao knew that she was ill, but the more she knew, the more hopeless she felt.

She is already so unbearable, but now she is going to suffer from such a hypocritical disease, making her already broken life even more bleak.

What else is she good for?

No money, no one, not even a bright soul.

She is trash.

Jian Luyao knelt on the floor and cried out in pain.After the emotional outpouring, she ushered in a brief period of calm.

Go to the bathroom, wash your face with cold water, then pick up the phone, wanting to continue calling Song Dan, but when the screen turned on, she hesitated again.

What I was afraid to hear was the cold beep.

Jian Luyao squeezed the phone tightly, but she didn't let go even though her knuckles were hurting.

There must be something urgent... Jian Luyao thought, there must be an accident.

Otherwise, it wouldn't keep shutting down like this, even if you don't want to answer her calls, what about other people... So, there must be something wrong.

Jian Luyao closed her eyes tightly to calm herself down.

late at night.

Maybe because she didn't sleep for two consecutive nights, Jian Luyao started to have a headache. She lay on the sofa, tossing and turning, forcing herself to sleep.

The doorbell rang suddenly at this time.

Is it Song Dan?

Jian Luyao sat up suddenly, jumped off the sofa, rushed to open the door, but the person who came was Li Yunshan with a pale face.

She stood at the door of Jian Luyao like a walking corpse, staring at her blankly.

Jian Luyao was stunned for a moment, suppressing the disappointment in her heart: "What's wrong with you? You're not resting in the hospital, what are you doing here?"

Li Yunshan didn't reply, walked into the room in a daze, and sat down on the sofa with a plop.

"I am starving……"

Seeing that her condition was very wrong, Jian Luyao asked, "What's wrong with you?"

Li Yunshan looked at her straight: "I'm so hungry."

Jian Luyao had no choice but to heat her a glass of milk, and then simply made a sandwich.

Li Yunshan gulped down half a glass of milk, picked up the sandwich and ate it in silence.

"Is it okay for you to be discharged from the hospital now?" Jian Luyao asked, "You bled a lot at that time..."

Li Yunshan shook her head and said, "I'm fine, it's just so empty..."

Jian Luyao was puzzled: "Huh?"

Li Yunshan didn't explain, she finished her food in silence, then curled up on the sofa and asked Jian Luyao, "Can I sleep for a while?"

Seeing her pale appearance, Jian Luyao agreed.

"But... are you really okay? Do you want to go to the hospital for a check?"

Li Yunshan shook her head and closed her eyes tiredly.

Jian Luyao packed her things silently, then sat on the sofa on the other side, glanced at Li Yunshan who was sleeping soundly, and then looked at her phone again.

Song Dan has no news yet.

Jian Luyao waited more and more desperately, she went to the balcony to smoke two cigarettes, trying to calm down, but the reality was that she still wanted to cry.

I want to squat in a corner and cry with my head in my arms.

Jian Luyao took a deep breath and suppressed her crying.

She was thinking about her own illness. With her current state, would she die like this if Song Dan had conflicts with her in the future?

Too useless.

Jian Luyao pinched her arm, telling herself not to be so unpromising, let alone let those depressed emotions occupy her.

She didn't want to one day, when she woke up, to scratch her wrist with a knife in her hand.

She didn't want her life to be miserable until she died.

After standing for a long time, Jian Luyao suppressed her emotions and returned to the living room.

Li Yunshan woke up at some point and was looking at her phone.

"How do you feel?" Jian Luyao asked her, "Is it better?"

Li Yunshan put the phone under the pillow, and said wanly: "My stomach hurts."

Jian Luyao thought about it: "Did the hospital prescribe medicine for you?"

"No." Li Yunshan said weakly, "Can you buy some painkillers for me? There is also porridge, I want porridge."

Jian Luyao was a little uneasy: "Do you really not need to go to the hospital?"

Li Yunshan closed her eyes: "No need."

Jian Luyao took her a cup of hot water and put it down: "Then wait for me for a while."

She took her mobile phone and went out to buy medicine and porridge for Jian Luyao.

It's nearly eleven o'clock, and I don't know if I can buy porridge.

She walked around half a circle, but she really couldn't find porridge, so she finally found a hot pot restaurant, and the kind shopkeeper sold her a bowl of white fungus soup alone.

Jian Luyao went back alone with her things. Just as she walked to the door of the apartment, her phone vibrated suddenly. It turned out to be Song Dan's call!

Song Dan called her!

As soon as Jian Luyao stopped, she quickly picked up her finger, and at the same moment when her fingertip landed on the screen, there was a sudden "touch" sound not far in front of her.

Like a big watermelon that fell from a height and then shattered.

Jian Luyao was stunned for a few seconds, then raised her eyes to look.

Under the dim streetlights, she saw a woman lying in a distorted posture at the door of the apartment building, facing the dark sky, lying limply with one hand crossed.

Bright red blood dripped from her back and the back of her head...

That is Li Yunshan.

Jian Luyao's ears were buzzing, and her vision became a whirling blur. She seemed to have lost touch with reality and fell into a nightmare.

After being stunned for several seconds, Jian Luyao finally recovered and rushed over.

"Li Yunshan!"

The bright red on the ground, as well as Li Yunshan's strange posture, and the appearance of her shattered skin and bones, were like a huge boulder, slowly and fiercely smashing into Jian Luyao's brain.

Her legs were limp from the beating, her brain was filled with scarlet, her ears were buzzing, and she fell to the ground with a plop.

After a while, Jian Luyao let out a scream.

Someone rushed out from around, chaotic voices, sharp screams, and flickering lights...weaved into a real and illusory dream.

Terrible nightmare.

She sat on the ground in a daze, watching the doctors and nurses in white clothes squatting beside Li Yunshan, watching them shake their heads regretfully, and then covered Li Yunshan's distorted body with a white cloth.

She finally cried out.

Li Yunshan died, an ugly death.

She fell from a [-]-storey building, turning herself into a pile of rotten flesh. The forensic doctor had to use a shovel to dig up her shattered muscles and bones.

Jian Luyao was taken to the police station for a record.

She never came back to her senses, she stared blankly at the female police officer's lips opening and closing, unable to hear a word clearly.

After the female police officer said a few words, she sighed and brought Jian Luyao a cup of hot water.

When Jian Luyao took the cup, Jian Luyao realized that her hands were shaking, and half of the warm water spilled on the back of her hand.

Holding the cup, she was in a daze and wept unconsciously. The female police officer handed her a tissue again.

"Thank you." Jian Luyao felt herself calm down.

"Are you very good friends?" The female police officer began to ask her.

Jian Luyao nodded.

"Is there anything wrong with her these days?"

Jian Luyao was stunned, she just had a miscarriage... But can we talk about this at the police station?Li Yunshan is a mistress, and she is pregnant with a married man's child.

Jian Luyao sniffed, and a few more tears fell, she said with trembling voice, "I can't remember now..."

The female police officer was still asking, but she saw her colleague waving at her, so she asked Jian Luyao to think about it, and got up to go to her colleague.

Jian Luyao looked up.

A male policeman was carrying an evidence bag, which contained Li Yunshan's cell phone. After saying this, they went to the office next to them.

Jian Luyao stared at it for a while, then remembered Song Dan's call.

She quickly took out her mobile phone and saw two missed calls and a text message from Song Dan.

The first few words of the text message appeared on the page: "Yaoyao, we share..."

Before finishing watching, the mobile phone was taken away by another policeman.

"Before the confession is recorded, you can't play with your mobile phone." The policeman said, and buckled her mobile phone on the table.

Jian Luyao's mind went blank, the first few words of the text message blew through her mind like a hurricane, her back was icy cold, and she trembled even more.

Song Dan wants to break up.

Break up.

Jian Luyao squeezed the paper cup flat, and all the warm water gushed out, covering her hands and wet her knees.

"Are you okay?" The policeman frowned at her, "Are you sick? You look so ugly..."

"I want to check my phone, there is a very important text message..."

"You can watch it after recording the statement. Wait for half an hour." The policeman took another cup of hot water and placed it on the table next to Jian Luyao.

Jian Luyao shook her head and cried, "No, I want to see it now..."

The policeman said: "The rules are the rules, it's useless for you to cry..."

Jian Luyao rushed over to grab it, but was stopped by the police, and her tone became strict: "I'm going to handcuff you for this!"

"I'll just check the text message..."

"What are you doing?" The policewoman came out at this time, "I found a recording of last words in my phone. The girl named Li Yunshan must have committed suicide."

Jian Luyao stopped and looked at the policewoman in confusion: "What?"

The policewoman said: "Your name is Jian Luyao, right? The last words are for you, come in and listen."

Chapter 32

"I got the house." Li Yunshan's voice came from the phone, very calm, "But my brother is not coming back, he is going to marry that Korean woman."

After a pause of half a minute, Li Yunshan's voice sounded again: "Jian Luyao, I'm sorry, I have to trouble you once before I die to collect my body. After I burn it, please send my ashes to my brother. If he doesn't want to , then you can throw it away, and I have returned to the starting point. Lu Yao, I hope your future will not be as sad as mine. Goodbye."

After the recording was played, Jian Luyao didn't react. She stared at the phone with the screen turned off, as if it was something she couldn't understand.

The policeman next to him was talking: "The ashes cannot be mailed directly. It has to go through a process, which is very troublesome."

Jian Luyao stood still for a long time, and finally recovered her voice. She asked, "Can I make a statement now?"

"Yes." The policewoman took her kindly and went outside to take notes.

They asked Jian Luyao to tell what happened tonight and what prompted Li Yunshan to jump off the building.

Jian Luyao thought for a while, but she still didn't say that Li Yunshan was acting as a mistress. She lied and said, "Li Yunshan is an orphan with only one older brother who is studying abroad. During the Chinese New Year, she found a girlfriend because of her older brother." There was a quarrel about something... Li Yunshan's personality is quite extreme, and she cares about her brother very much... A few days ago she quarreled with her brother again because her brother was going to marry a Korean woman..."

The policewoman asked, "What happened to the house in the last words?"

Jian Luyao said that it was bought by Li Yunshan's boyfriend because she was pregnant with his boyfriend's child, but the child had an accidental miscarriage...

Except for Li Yunshan's mistress, Jian Luyao told the truth about the rest.

After the policewoman finished recording the last few sentences, she raised her head and asked Jian Luyao, "Who is Li Yunshan's brother you are talking about?"

Jian Luyao froze: "What?"

The policewoman asked repeatedly: "Who is that brother who repeatedly appeared in your last words and your dictation?"

Jian Luyao said in confusion: "It's Li Yunshan's brother... She said that she has no parents, but only one brother."

The policewoman said: "We checked Li Yunshan's household registration. She is a collective household registration registered in the orphanage. She is not related to her elder brother. So, do you know the name of that person?"

Countless chills crawled up Jian Luyao's back: "I... I don't know... She never mentioned his name."

The policewoman asked again: "Has he had contact with Li Yunshan recently?"

Jian Luyao still shook her head: "I don't know, I haven't seen him..."

The policewoman nodded: "Okay, the transcript is done, you can go."

Jian Luyao was still in a state of dizziness and didn't move for a while.

"By the way, we will contact the orphanage to deal with Li Yunshan's death certificate and remains."

Jian Luyao came back to her senses: "Can you leave this to me? She finally asked me to... handle it."

The policewoman smiled: "I heard it, but you have to discuss this matter with the orphanage. This is a phone call."

She handed over the already transcribed paper.

Jian Luyao took a breath and called after she calmed down.

After hearing the matter, the dean agreed without any hesitation, and thanked Jian Luyao, saving her from having to make a trip in the middle of the night.

Jian Luyao hung up the phone, feeling a little cold.

The policewoman smiled as usual, and said to Jian Luyao, "Then I will trouble you", and then handed over Li Yunshan's death certificate.

Jian Luyao held the paper and looked at it blankly.

This thing will prove that Li Yunshan no longer exists.Thousands of worlds, all living beings, she will disappear without a trace.

How can a person be so sad from birth to death?

Why is fate so unfair.

why?

The policeman also returned the phone to Jian Luyao, but she suddenly lost the courage to look at it.

She held the thin piece of paper in one hand and the phone in the other, standing in the police station like that.

I don't know how long it took, but someone asked her if she wanted to sit down.

Jian Luyao shook her head, squeezed her mobile phone, and walked out of the police station.

She walked along the shoulder of the road for a long time without a clue, and her mind was still in a mess.

She was wondering if Li Yunshan's brother would regret it, feel guilty, or be sad after knowing that Li Yunshan had committed suicide?

When she was thinking about Li Yunshan's jump, was she afraid or regretted it?

why?

Why do you have to end yourself?

Is there really no room for turning things around?Is life really hopeless like that?

Why do you have to die?

Jian Luyao couldn't figure it out. When she was most depressed, she just wanted to hurt herself and use pain to get relief...

Relief... Jian Luyao seemed to understand a little bit.

That is the end, the end, and the release.

But—as for?

She walked in a daze for a long time, and when she came back to herself, she had no idea where she was, the phone was still in her hand, and the screen was wet with sweat.

Jian Luyao stared at the pitch-black screen, remembering Song Dan's unfinished text message.

She wants to break up.

Jian Luyao clearly thought that Song Dan wanted to break up.

Break up.

The more Jian Luyao thought about it, the more she quickened her pace, almost running as fast as she could, as if she could vent out the violent depression and pain accumulated in her heart.

Break up.

She thought about these two words over and over again.

Break up.

Jian Luyao finally started to run, and she ran wildly along the road.

There was no destination, no direction, just running desperately, desperately running... until she was exhausted, her stomach was churning, and she vomited yellow water.

Jian Luyao fell on the side of the road. She propped herself up on the ground, retching and crying.

Its daybreak.

The light awakened the city, and there were more and more pedestrians and vehicles on the street. Jian Luyao stood up, unconscious, she still didn't know where she was going, and just kept walking in a daze.

The sun rises, creeps, noon.

The police station called to inform Jian Luyao that she could take the body to the funeral parlor for cremation.

Jian Luyao cheered up and went to the forensic department to collect the corpse. She was alone, dazed and dazed, and didn't know what to do. In the end, the kind staff contacted the funeral home for her and brought a car to transport the corpse. cremation.

In the afternoon, Jian Luyao got a dark red jar containing Li Yunshan.

That color reminded Jian Luyao of the blood blooming on Li Yunshan's back. She felt uncomfortable, so she asked the funeral home to buy a wooden box, and put the jar in it.

When closing the lid, Jian Luyao stared blankly at the jar.

This is Li Yunshan.

Jian Luyao's eyes were sour, and she wanted to cry again, she bit her lips hard to hold back the crying.

He walked out of the funeral home with the casket in his arms.

The rationality that had been on strike all night finally started to function, she thought, she had to contact Li Yunshan's brother, whether he wanted the ashes or not, she must let him know that Li Yunshan died because of him.

Jian Luyao didn't have Li Yunshan's brother's phone number, so she called the orphanage to find out about the man who had been with Li Yunshan since childhood.

The dean helped to recall, and remembered the person's name, Li Yuanwen.

"Their relationship is very good. I remember that they were inseparable when they were young. Li Yuanwen even fought for Li Yunshan many times and caused a lot of trouble."

Jian Luyao asked dumbly: "Do you have his phone number? I want to contact him."

"Let me look for it for you... If there is one, but it was left several years ago, I don't know if it can still be opened. I will send it to you."

Jian Luyao got the call and got through, but the caller was not Li Yuanwen.

Li Yuanwen changed his number.

Jian Luyao failed to contact him.

At night, she brought Li Yunshan's ashes back to the apartment, put them on the coffee table, and watched them silently for a long time.

The room was quiet and dead, and the air seemed to gain weight, making Jian Luyao unable to breathe.

She thought, she had to go out and walk, she couldn't stay here.

But where do you go when you go out?

go home...?

Jian Luyao turned on another phone card, and she saw grandma's missed calls, text messages, and MMS from Jian Luxing.

It was a picture of her father lying in the town hospital, half of his face covered with gauze, the other half of his face still had scratches, and the back of his hand was also tied with infusion water, lying unconscious.

Dad really fell.

Jian Luyao stood up, hesitated a few steps, and walked out of the room.

She had to find something to do, otherwise the leisure and quiet would overwhelm her, even if she went home and had a big fight, it was better than staying here alone.

It was already night, and she couldn't get on the bus, so Jian Luyao took a taxi directly, and drove back to that remote village from the apartment.

On the way, she fell asleep exhausted, and was awakened by the nightmare of Li Yunshan jumping off the building, and her head started to throb.

She hasn't slept well for too long, and her body is almost unable to hold on.

Sleeping and waking up along the way, the car finally stopped at the end of the country road. Jian Luyao used the remaining power of her mobile phone to light the lights, and walked slowly towards the house alone.

There are no street lights, and the surroundings are pitch-black. When the wind blows, the trees shake and the atmosphere is gloomy.

Jian Luyao folded her arms in fear, thinking of the days when she was a child, walking for an hour in the dark alone to go to the town's elementary school for class.

When mother was around, sometimes she would hold Jian Luyao's hand and send her to the flat road.After her mother passed away, she walked all the roads alone.

She stumbled through the last section of the path and reached the finish line.

Grandma's house.

There was a light on the side of the room, which was Jian Luxing's room.

"Jian Luxing." Jian Luyao walked into the yard and shouted at the same time, "Open the door, I'm back."

Soon there was movement from inside, the wooden door squeaked open, and Jian Luxing jumped out: "You're back?!"

Jian Luyao hummed without energy: "Where's Dad?"

Jian Luxing said: "In the bedroom, just discharged from the hospital."

Jian Luyao wanted to say, didn't you say he was going to die?But Jian Luyao was too tired and didn't want to talk, she wanted to go into the house and sleep.

"Sister." Jian Luxing followed her, "Will you give me money to buy a house? If I don't have a house, my girlfriend won't marry me."

Jian Luyao stopped for a while, then continued to walk into her room: "Let's talk about it tomorrow, I'm so tired now."

"Sister!" Jian Luxing chased after him, "Give me an accurate word! You have been delaying for many days! I heard that you are very rich, so why don't you share it with me? Anyway, I'm your younger brother. The only man!"

Jian Luyao looked at him blankly, and wanted to tell him to get lost, but she didn't want to quarrel with him at this time.