Breathe

She had a terrible headache.

"Let's talk tomorrow."

"sister!"

"Hey, you're back." Grandma also came out, staring at Jian Luyao with bare eyes.

Jian Luyao tensed her back and looked at her silently.

Grandma took two steps, turned on the incandescent headlight in the main room, and the white light poured down, making Jian Luyao's face even paler.

"Grandma, tell me about my sister and let her buy me a house!" Jian Luxing said urgently.

Grandma glanced at Jian Luxing: "Why are you in a hurry, your sister is back, which means she still has a conscience."

After finishing speaking, she said to Jian Luyao: "I think you are tired at such a late hour, you go to bed first, and we will go buy a house tomorrow morning."

Jian Luyao pursed her lips, but still didn't say anything, she just wanted to fall asleep.

Back in her bedroom, Jian Luyao sat at the desk, looking at the pen holder at the corner of the desk, with a few old pencils stuck in it.

In the past, my mother taught her to draw and accompany her to do homework here.

But later, she jumped into the fish pond in the village and committed suicide.After she died, grandma burned everything about her mother.

Photos, drawing paper, pencils... and all traces of her life were burned by grandma.Since then, the family no longer mentioned her, nor did the villagers mention her.

It was as if my mother had never been here before.

She died, disappeared, and left no trace.

Jian Luyao lay on the desk and began to cry.

Mom, I miss you.

Miss you very much.

Jian Luyao lay on the table and fell into a drowsy sleep.

Half asleep and half awake, she suddenly heard a knock on the door, and Jian Luyao woke up immediately. She opened her eyes and saw that a strange middle-aged man walked into her bedroom, and her grandmother stood at the door with a gloomy face and said, "I will You talked about marriage, you are not young anyway, it's time to get married."

After she finished speaking, she pulled the door shut and clicked the lock.

Jian Luyao's entire scalp exploded, she immediately stood up and retreated to the corner.

The man in front of him was a bachelor from some village, with waxy skin, a wretched and poor look, messy greasy hair, and wearing a dark blue undershirt.

He raked his hair and laughed embarrassedly: "Your grandma has made the decision, saying that you will live with me in the future."

Jian Luyao groped and grabbed the upright of the old-fashioned electric fan on the side cabinet, and held it tightly.

"How much did you give my grandma?" she asked hoarsely.

The man grabbed his pants, and Jian Luyao reacted disgusted seeing him.

"10 yuan." The man looked at Jian Luyao's shapely and slender body, and said with a smile, "Your grandma has already received a deposit of [-] yuan from me. I heard that you are studying outside, study well, you and me, in the future we will pay you [-] yuan." For your study."

As he spoke, he approached, wanting to hold Jian Luyao's hand.

Jian Luyao grabbed the heavy electric fan and smashed it on the man's forehead.

The man screamed in pain, and instinctively covered his bleeding forehead and squatted down. Jian Luyao took the opportunity to pass the man, rushed to the door, and pulled the wooden door.

The old copper lock of the house was aging, Jian Luyao pulled it hard a few times before it became loose, but before she opened the door to go out, the man had already chased after her.

His iron-like hands pressed hard on the back of Jian Luyao's head, and Jian Luyao screamed, her cheek hit the door panel with a bang.

"Smelly bitch!" He pressed his body over, "Look at how I can subdue you!"

Jian Luyao was so disgusted that her whole body swelled up. The hand on the back of her head was so strong that it made her dizzy and unable to struggle. Jian Luyao touched the man's place with her backhand and broke it hard.

"Ah——" the man let out a scream, and Jian Luyao knocked him away with the back of his head, and the man stumbled back, bowing his waist and covering his crotch.

Jian Luyao's mind was blank, she picked up the metal folding chair, and slammed her red eyes on the man's body again and again.

The man hugged his head, rolled on the ground and screamed, he waved his hand to stop, grabbed the chair leg in confusion, and tore the chair out of Jian Luyao's hand.

Jian Luyao has lost her mind, she feels like a pot of boiling water, and what is tumbling is all the ruthlessness that will destroy the world.She scoured the house for anything that could be used as a weapon.

The man on the ground had already got up, and in anger, he swung his hand and smashed the chair on Jian Luyao's back. The momentum was heavy, and Jian Luyao's eyes turned black. She threw herself on the desk and grabbed a gun at the same time. Sharpened pencil.She turned around, and before the man hit him a second time, she stuck the pencil in his face, pierced his face, and inserted half of the pen.

The man roared, dropped the chair and covered his face.

Jian Luyao trembled all over, and the anger in her chest flowed to her whole body along with the blood. She grabbed another pen and held it in her hand. She stared at the man's neck with scarlet eyes, and walked over step by step.

She is going to kill him.

The bedroom door was opened at this time, grandma rushed in, and saw the man with a pen stuck in his face, and Jian Luyao had a fierce expression, full of murderous looks.

She couldn't help but cursed: "Jian Luyao, are you crazy too?"

Crazy - the word suddenly woke up Jian Luyao, she came back to her senses, glanced blankly at the pen in her hand, and hurriedly put it down.

Grandma stepped over in two steps, raised her hand and slapped Jian Luyao across the face.

With a buzzing sound in Jian Luyao's ears, she fell down on the desk, half of her face felt burning pain, and the moment her back was hit by the chair, she also felt a strong pain.

"Bitch! Bad things happen!"

After the grandma scolded him, she immediately went to help the man: "Oh, Second Jiang, are you okay?"

The wound on Jiang's second face began to bleed, and he still had a pen stuck in his face. The description was horrific. He faltered and couldn't say a complete sentence.

"Let's go, go to the hospital!" Grandma supported him and hurried out.

Father didn't know when he came out. He stood in the main room with a gauze on half his face, watched this late-night farce, and cursed with a smile: "Bitch!"

Grandma called a neighbor who had a tricycle, and took Jiang Laosan to the hospital overnight.

Jian Luxing came over, took a look at the chaos in the room, and said, "Sister, if you had given us the money earlier, grandma wouldn't be in such a hurry to marry you off."

Jian Luyao's eyes were red: "You asked me for 20, but that man only gave you [-]!"

Jian Luxing said: "Grandma said, when you get married, you will be honest, and all your money will be taken out in the future."

Jian Luyao laughed, and said coldly: "Even if I burn my money, I won't give you a cent!"

She threw down her pen, didn't want anything, and wanted to leave immediately.

When her father saw her going out, his face immediately became fierce: "Bitch, where are you going?"

Jian Luyao clenched her fingers and walked out quickly.

"Bitch, don't go!" My father chased out viciously with a lame leg, "If you dare to go, I'll drown you bitch!"

Jian Luyao stopped suddenly, and looked back at her father who looked crazy.

She opened her mouth and asked in a hoarse voice that didn't seem to be her own: "My mother, how did you die?"

Father said harshly: "Drown! Drown! Bitch!"

Jian Luyao's body swayed, she could hardly stand up, she clenched her fists tightly, her joints turned white.

"You drowned mother..." she cried, "did you drown mother?"

Father limped over, cursed with murderous eyes, "Bitch! Bitch!"

Jian Luyao couldn't help but retreat.

"Tell you not to run away! Slut!" The father suddenly roared, and rushed over unexpectedly, grabbing Jian Luyao's neck, "Slut! You go! I let you go!"

Crazy people not only have great strength, but also don't know pain.

Jian Luyao struggled desperately, scratching and scratching at her father, but to no avail.Her breathing was choked, her face flushed, and she rolled her eyes from suffocation.

"Kill you!" Father tightened his fingers and muttered, "Kill you!"

Jian Luyao raised her face, her eyes almost popped out from the boredom, her nails dug deep into her father's arm, and then, she gradually lost her strength.

Her eyes turned black, and Jian Luyao felt that her sad life was about to end...

In the blur, someone rushed into the yard and pulled his father away from Jian Luyao.

"Cough—" Jian Luyao covered her aching neck, coughing and panting.

"Jian Luyao, how are you?" It was a neighbor couple who came.

The father was dragged away by the neighbor uncle and Jian Luxing, and Jian Luyao was helped up by the neighbor aunt. She grabbed the aunt's arm and asked hoarsely, "Aunt Wang, do you know how my mother died?"

Aunt Wang glanced at her father, who was still cursing, and said hi, "It's been so long, what are you doing looking through those?"

Jian Luyao slowly let go of the neighbor's hand, and she had an answer in her heart.

She has been wondering... How could her mother, who was good at drawing and well educated, marry her father.And why she never heard her mother mention her natal family, why her mother never left the village, not even the market...

"My mother was abducted and sold." Jian Luyao said to Aunt Wang, "My mother was abducted and sold!"

Aunt Wang looked away: "What are you talking about, your mother married herself..."

Jian Luyao shook her head, she didn't believe it.

She is going to call the police, she is going to reveal all the truth, she wants her father and grandma to pay the price.

Jian Luyao went into the house to look for her mobile phone. The neighbor knew what she was going to do when she saw Jian Luyao, and she quickly shouted: "Jian Luyao, don't do stupid things! It's been so many years, and your father is still crazy , what can you do?"

Jian Luyao suddenly raised her head and stared at Aunt Wang fiercely.

Father, grandma, is the murderer.And these people are accomplices.

They watched Jian Luyao's mother being trafficked, beaten, insulted, and drowned by her father!But they did nothing!They just watch.

Father kept swearing, his madness and arrogance were magnified infinitely in the silent night, Jian Luyao felt an unprecedented hatred and cruelty.

She wanted to kill her father, kill everyone.

Anger and hatred made her think about the past grudges over and over again.She seemed to see her father throwing her mother's brush and sketchbook, then grabbing her hair and cursing her viciously...

There is also the mother holding her, sitting at the dining table, watching grandma, father and younger brother eating hungry...

And that day, when she came back from school, there were a lot of people talking in the yard, and her mother's wet body was lying on the ground in the yard, eyes closed, straight.

Grandma said to her indifferently, "Your short-lived mother jumped into the river and drowned herself."

Jian Luyao's hands began to tremble. She wanted to grab something, preferably sharp, and stab it into the chests of these murderers.

Are they painless?

No way, they are so selfish and indifferent, how could it hurt?

Jian Luyao's mind was in a mess, full of extreme and angry thoughts, the neighbor called her several times before she heard.

"Do you want to open some, we are all a family, have raised you for so many years, blood is thicker than water..."

Before the neighbor could finish speaking, Jian Luyao went to the kitchen and came out with a kitchen knife.

"Ouch!" the neighbor yelled, "Jian Luyao, what are you doing with a knife? Don't be impulsive!"

Jian Luyao laughed abruptly, her face was pale, her hair was messy, and her eyes were blood red like ghosts.

She smiled and murmured, "I want to open up..."

The father stared at her viciously, still cursing: "Bitch! What dare you do! Bitch!"

Jian Luyao raised her knife and rushed over: "I'll kill you!"

The room suddenly became chaotic, Aunt Wang yelled to escape, her husband and Jian Luxing didn't react, Jian Luyao slashed her father's shoulder with a knife, and warm blood splashed on Jian Luyao's face .

She is still laughing.

Reason turned into a black vortex, she knew what she was doing, but she didn't want to stop it, she didn't want to stop, she was even willing to indulge herself.

Anyway, she has nothing left but this life.

Nothing to care about, nothing to fear.

Father screamed, slapped Jian Luyao on the face, and pushed her away.

Jian Luyao tightly grasped the knife and wanted to slash a second time. Jian Luxing finally came to his senses, picked up the bench and knocked Jian Luyao over with one beat.

"You're crazy!" he yelled.

Jian Luyao wiped the blood off her face with a smile: "You guys are crazy."

"Get her out!" Aunt Wang was yelling, "Get her out quickly, or something will happen!"

Jian Luxing and the neighbor's uncle teamed up to snatch Jian Luyao's kitchen knife, pinned Jian Luyao's arm, and drove her out of the main room.

The door was tightly locked, and it was pressed against the stool, as if it was really guarding against some devil.

Jian Luyao kicked the door a few times, but couldn't open it.

She couldn't move the people in the house, but grandma was still outside, her mind was clear and crazy.She turned out the hatchet in the corner, held it in her hand, and walked out of the yard to the road.

As dawn approached, the sky turned a translucent gray-blue, and the distant skyline glowed with hot orange. Today will be a bright early summer weather.

Jian Luyao saw a pond.The pond where my mother drowned.

She stopped and stared straight at the slightly rippling water.

She can't kill grandma, there are so many people in the hospital, they will hold Jian Luyao.And her mother has been dead for ten years, and nothing but ashes are left.

No one will make decisions about her being kidnapped and murdered, and Jian Luyao herself will be tortured by these things and people for a lifetime.

Jian Luyao walked towards the pond in a daze.

Step by step, faster and faster, faster and faster, until finally she was running.

The morning breeze is faint, but she only feels cold to the bone.

This cold world.

She has had enough.

Jian Luyao jumped up, and there was a splash——the cold pool water submerged her in an instant.

Jian Luyao closed her eyes, and calmly remembered one thing, whether Song Dan taught her to swim or not.

Chapter 33

Song Yanlu got into a fight with people in the park and stabbed a person.The man went to the emergency room and cut out one of the man's kidneys.In order to wipe Song Yanlu's ass, Song Dan ran for two days without touching the ground.

Spending money, making an apology, these are trivial things, and the fact of intentionally hurting someone makes Song Dan feel terrible and chilling.She had Song Yanlu locked up at home.

After the injured person stabilized and her family members were appeased, and promised not to call the police, Song Dan was free to sit in Du Jiang's car.

The two of them didn't speak for a while, and after smoking a cigarette in silence, Du Jiangjin took Song Dan to a nearby coffee shop for something to eat.

Song Dan had no appetite and just sipped his coffee.

When her mind was free, she began to think about Jian Luyao.

The night Song Yanlu had an accident, she called Jian Luyao, but at that time, Jian Luyao and Li Yunshan were in the park.

Song Dan closed his eyelids and rubbed his sore temples.

She saw Jian Luyao handing the phone with the screen on to Li Yunshan who was leaning against her, and then Li Yunshan shook her head, but Jian Luyao didn't answer the phone.

Song Dan can't recall her mood when she saw that picture now. In fact, at that time, her mind was a little blank, and even suddenly, she looked at Jian Luyao's blurred figure in the halo, suddenly in a vague I remembered a photo.

She has seen Jian Luyao with such a blurry figure.

where is it?

Song Dan didn't think about it that night, because the subsequent incident of Song Yanlu hurting someone was already enough for her to get tired of dealing with it.

Now that she was in the coffee shop, she remembered that blurry photo instead.Immediately took out the dead mobile phone and asked the waiter to borrow a charger.

After turning on the phone, I started to browse the circle of friends.

"What's wrong?" Du Jiangjin asked.

Song Dan didn't speak, she suddenly had a strange intuition, which made her click on Di Xiaoyi's circle of friends, and then found the photo in Japan.

Looking carefully at the woman with her back facing Di Xiaoyi, she was sure that it was Jian Luyao.

Du Jiangjin also glanced at it, picked up the cappuccino and took a sip, coughed and said, "You just saw it now."

Song Dan raised her eyes, her complexion was not good after being busy for a few days.

"You already knew?"

Du Jiangjin didn't deny it, he knew about it when Di Xiaoyi first chased him to Japan.It's just that I was too lazy to care about it at that time, I didn't expect Di Xiaoyi to be so courageous and dare to post on Moments, and what I didn't expect was that Song Dan didn't notice it at all.

It can only be said that Song Dan didn't care enough about Jian Luyao at that time.

"It's all in the past, what do you care about." Du Jiangjin said, "It's true that Doudou has a crush on Jian Luyao, and Jian Luyao only has eyes for you. Doudou usually has a meal with her, You have to ask three times and five times to be successful..."

Song Dan turned off the phone and didn't speak.

Du Jiangjin also changed the subject and asked Song Dan how he planned to punish Song Yanlu for what happened today.

Song Dan said with a cold face: "Send him abroad, I don't care what he likes in the future."

Du Jiangjin nodded, hesitant to speak, but he didn't say anything in the end.

You can't get involved in other people's family affairs.

"You haven't contacted Jian Luyao these days, she must be worried, call her back."

Song Dan stroked the cup: "I know, let's go back first."

After she finished speaking, she got up and left.

Du Jiangjin felt that she was in a strange mood. Thinking about the past few days, he finally understood that Song Dan was too tired, so he dug out Jian Luyao and traveled to Japan with Di Xiaoyi. He must be in a bad mood.

But thinking about the relationship between Jian Luyao and Song Dan recently, he felt that it was okay.

Between couples, occasional quarrels are inevitable.

Song Dan returned home, stood in the living room for a few seconds, then went upstairs and pushed open the door of Song Yanlu's bedroom.

Song Yanlu immediately got off the bed and looked at Song Dan anxiously and stubbornly.

"Pack up your things and send you abroad next week." After finishing speaking, Song Dan turned around and left.

"Mom!" Song Yanlu stopped her, with an awkward expression on his face, "I don't want to go abroad at this time..."

Song Dan stood at the door, looking at him expressionlessly: "I don't want to care about you anymore."

Song Yanlu widened his eyes and looked at her.

Song Dan couldn't bear it for a moment, she looked away, and then said: "Don't you feel disgusted? Then go abroad, and we will see each other less in the future."

"I don't want it!" Song Yanlu took a few steps forward with an anxious expression.

Song Dan looked at him calmly, without any sign of joking.

Song Yanlu stood still for a while, still bowed his head and said, "I know I was wrong, don't send me abroad, and don't... leave me alone."

Song Dan looked at him, and said after a while: "I care about you, but you say it's disgusting, I don't care about you, and you... what do you want?"

Song Yanlu sniffed, his eyes turned red: "I know I was wrong."

Song Dan said: "Then tell me, where did you go wrong?"

Song Yanlu turned his head and remained silent again.

Song Dan lost his patience, and then turned to leave.

"Mom!" Song Yanlu hastily grabbed Song Dan's hand, "I was really wrong..."

Song Dan suddenly pulled out his hand, turned around and roared, "You almost killed someone, do you know that? You let others lose a kidney! Do you think that if you make a mistake, you can offset the harm done to others?" ? Do you treat other people's and your own life as a joke!"

Song Yanlu looked at Song Dan in bewilderment, and cried, "I didn't think I would really stab him, he pounced on him..."

"I don't want to hear that." Song Dan said, "I'm very tired. Since you don't like me or this family, then you can move out. If you don't want to go abroad, then go to other provinces..."

"I don't dislike..." Song Yanlu held Song Dan again, crying like a child, "I just...don't like you ignoring me."

Song Dan paused.

"You see me as if you don't see me, you won't coax me when I cry, you only look at me when I make trouble..." Song Yanlu sobbed and cried, "I just want you to care about me, mom. "

Song Dan also had red eyes.

Song Yanlu pleaded: "Don't send me abroad, I really know I was wrong."

He lowered his head, tears fell one by one, not as sharp as usual, only the fragility and helplessness of a 15-year-old boy.

"After I quarreled with you that night, I regretted it after I went out. I shouldn't have talked to you like that...but I don't know what to do...Mom, don't leave me alone..."

Song Dan closed his eyes and held back his tears, after all, he was still his own child.

She opened her eyes, and said a little less coldly: "Tomorrow, go to the hospital to apologize to others."

"Yeah." Song Yanlu responded again and again, and said proactively, "I can still write a review..."

Song Dan just nodded.

The mother and son reconciled unexpectedly, the next day Song Yanlu really went to apologize obediently, but was slapped by the other party's property without even saying a word.

Song Dan hoped that he would always have such awareness.

On the way home, Song Yanlu took the initiative to ask a tutor to come back for tutoring, to study hard, and to take the high school entrance examination. Song Dan was very pleased, but he didn't take it seriously.

Learning is not an impulsive thing, its boring and complicated requires great patience and persistence.

"So..." Song Yanlu put forward the conditions carefully, "Can you stay at home...with me for the past two months of your summer vacation?"

Song Dan parked the car on the side of the road, and after a moment of silence, he said straight to the point: "Do you want me to break up with her?"

Song Yanlu shook his head: "I just miss you...supervising my studies, just two months of summer vacation."

Song Dan thought for a moment and agreed.

It's only two months, look at Song Yanlu's determination, and at the same time, let Song Dan think about things with Jian Luyao.

If the two of them wanted to continue walking, Song Dan had to ask all the things in his heart.

But the question is, is that necessary.

Song Dan also hesitated, she still couldn't spare the last step, and always felt that once those questions were uttered, she would admit defeat.Falling in love with Jian Luyao admits defeat.

But she also felt that, given her age and experience, it would not be so easy to fall in love with someone.

She has to think about these things.

Song Dan just agreed to Song Yanlu, drove the car home, and saw Di Xiaoyi and Du Jiangjin at the door.

She got out of the car and asked strangely, "What's wrong?"

Di Xiaoyi said with a pale face, "Do you know Li Yunshan? Jian Luyao's only good friend."

"I know," Song Dan became uneasy, "What's wrong?"

Di Xiaoyi said: "She committed suicide by jumping off the building, and died in front of Jian Luyao."

Song Dan was shocked: "What?"

Di Xiaoyi choked back her sobs and said, "Now Jian Luyao is missing, and the phone is turned off forever. The school said that she hasn't gone to class for many days. I also asked at the apartment, saying that since Li Yunshan's accident, Jian Luyao was arrested. After taking it to make a record, she never came back..."