Love is like a dream

The release time of her new album is getting closer, and her daily schedule is getting more and more tense. We only send messages occasionally to say hello. It has been a while since we talked late every night like before. The more this is the case, the more I miss her, especially late at night, when I think of the little things I met with her, my heart throbs. I can't see her, I can't touch her, I can only rely on memories to connect me and her camaraderie.

My roommate saw that I was either bored typing in the room all day, or my eyes were always staring at one place in a daze, and my expression was always sad and happy, and asked me if I was broken in love.I said, I haven't been in love yet, how can I be broken in love.

I still use crazy work to fill my thoughts on her.Under my nervous follow-up, the progress of this batch of books is very fast, and they have reached the printing process, and they will be on the market in a short time. Although I am confident in the sales results after the listing, I am also very nervous, because this is This is the first time I have curated a group of works independently, and I need this success to give me a little more confidence in my future career path.

Until around 8:16 pm on August 9th, I saw a message on her Weibo that the pre-release version of the new album had been announced. I couldn’t wait to click in to listen, and found out that it was the pre-release version. Each song only had a few sentences. Really dissatisfied.I sent a message to her line.

Me: Not addictive, I want to listen to the full version.

Xiao Zhen: The final stage of the full version is still in the final sprint, don't worry, it's coming soon.

Me: In a hurry, I want to listen.

Xiao Zhen: Then let me sing a part for you, okay?Which song do you want to listen to?

I sent a kissing emoji: Wu... Mai Le... Wu Mai Le... you know!

Xiao Zhen: Why do you like this song?

Me: I don’t just like this one, but I like all of them. Sing this one first!

Xiao Zhen: All right.

Listening to Xiaozhen Rourou's faint singing and the last soft whisper, I couldn't restrain my heartbeat and the feeling of wanting to cry.After singing this song, Xiao Zhen sang another one.

Me: Why do I want to cry when I hear you sing.

Xiao Zhen: Because you are a crybaby.

Me: I want voice, can I?

Xiao Zhen: Good.

After the voice is connected.

Xiao Zhen: "Little Jasmine, why don't you talk, are you crying again?"

I was choked up all the time, tried my best to adjust my emotions, and said softly: "I...I miss you so much."

Xiao Zhen: "How much do you think?"

Me: "I'm going crazy thinking about it."

Silence, after 1 minute.

Xiao Zhen: "Do you really love me that much?"

Me: "I can't control myself."

Xiao Zhen: "I... may not be able to give you anything."

Me: "I know it all, I know it all, I just can't help myself, I hate it."

There was silence, and then her muffled voice: "Jasmine, I... understand how you feel, because I also have... that person in my heart that I have never been able to love."

Me: "Is it true that feelings should be like this: I love you, you love her, he loves her, and he loves her? Why don't people know how to look back at the person who is waiting so hard?"

She said calmly: "Then... can you go back and agree to that boy's pursuit?"

I was stunned for a moment, I could say no clearly and simply, is this the answer she wanted to give me?

Feelings are always so obsessed with the authorities, watching from the sidelines, when you look at yourself from an outside perspective, it is clear at a glance, if you love wrong, you love wrong, give up early, and get rid of it earlier?give up?relief?Who would be willing to give up?Which is not a moth to a flame?

Forced myself to calm down: "I understand, sorry."

Hanging up the phone, I closed the door and burst into tears, the very appropriate song was still playing in the room: No one should come to comfort or hug me at this time, just let me go alone, the pain is so unbearable, I am going crazy thinking about it , it's okay if you can't die...

After that, I never contacted her again, and I forced myself not to read her Weibo anymore, and she never contacted me again. I thought, okay, long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, why not just forget about it, what happened once Everything was just a dream, I gritted my teeth and uninstalled the circumvention software and line directly.

At around 8:27 p.m. on August 9th, I was still writing crazy code words. Suddenly, the phone rang. I picked up the phone and saw the strange number with her name printed on it. I was surprised to remember that she He gave me a call, because I have been using the line to contact, but I have never answered.

I hesitated for a moment, answer, or not?Finally, I pressed the answer button with trembling fingers.

Me: "Hello."

Xiao Zhen: "Why haven't you been online?"

Me: "Because... I understand."

Xiao Zhen: "What do you know?"

Me: "People who are obsessed with obsession will never know how to look back."

Xiao Zhen: "You—"

Me: "What do you want to say?"

Xiao Zhen: "Where are you now?"

I'm at home."

Xiao Zhen: "Tell me the address."

I was so shocked that I sat on the bed and jumped up: "What are you doing, you are not in Beijing, are you?"

Xiao Zhen: "I'm in Beijing, I'm going to find you."

Me: "Are you crazy?"

Xiao Zhen: "You want me to go crazy."

Me: "None of my business."

Xiao Zhen: "You... are so heartless."

Me: "Don't be heartless, do you want to die without a burial place?"

Xiao Zhen: "I don't care, I want to see you."

Me: "Okay, it's good to be clear, where are you, I'll go find you, I don't want to be chased downstairs by paparazzi."

Xiao Zhen: "I've already driven out, tell me the address."

I hesitated for a moment: "I'm texting you on your phone, I hope you don't attract paparazzi."

My roommate went on a business trip a few days ago and hasn’t come back. I don’t think it’s a big deal to come to my place, as long as I don’t get disturbed by reporters.

After sending the address, I washed my face, tidied up the room briefly, and then lay on the bed quietly in a daze.Half an hour later, the doorbell rang.I suppressed the throbbing in my heart and opened the door.Seeing her covered tightly with a hat and mask, she took her bag and put it on the sofa.

I said calmly: "Sit down, what do you drink, coffee?"

Xiao Zhen: "No need."

I still made her a cup of coffee, but it was instant. I know she likes coffee, but I don’t usually drink it myself. Occasionally, I drink instant coffee from the supermarket.I stood up and made sure to close the doors and windows, and draw the curtains to prevent any paparazzi from secretly taking pictures.

She didn't sit down, nor did she drink the coffee I put on the table for her. She just gently took off the mask and hat, and just watched my every move in a daze. The phone on the bed rang.

Me: "Wait a minute, I'll go get the phone."

As I walked towards the room, I heard footsteps following behind me. As soon as I entered the door of the room, she hugged me from behind.

Xiao Zhen: "I'm sorry."

Me: "Excuse me for what?"

Xiao Zhen: "It's not that you are too heartless, it's that I am too cruel."

I smiled wryly: "There is no such thing as cruelty or cruelty, it's because I'm thinking too much."

She leaned against my body: "Turn around and look into my eyes."

I could feel the slenderness of her body, and I didn't dare to push it away, I only twisted slightly and made a resisting movement: "No."

She simply let go of me and turned in front of me, and I followed suit and gave her my back again. I don't know where she got the strength to push me onto the bed, and then unceremoniously pressed me body, I was forced to meet her eyes.

I tried my best to control my emotions that were about to collapse, and let my eyes look cold: "I see, what do you think?"

I didn't get an answer. I saw her gradually enlarged face and her lips approaching slowly. I closed my eyes, but tears flowed out.

Her lips touched mine lightly, touched and kissed gently, then left, got up from me, and sat on the bed: "I don't want to do anything, I just want to make sure how long you can bear it."

Me: "You—"

I saw her nasty little expression of getting her way, and my heart trembled violently, I was so angry that I wanted to tremble, not at her, but at myself, hating myself for surrendering in front of her so easily.

How stubborn can I be?Vulnerable, okay, I'll be knocked down as soon as I touch you.