Embroidered Pillows and Paper Tigers

On the third day after leaving Fu Youcheng's family, Shen Yan still didn't go to school. He hadn't seen Qu Ya for three days. He was afraid that something might happen, so he had to send a WeChat message to tell Qu Ya that if he didn't open the door again, he would call the police.

The door finally opened, and Shen Yan went into the room to help Qu Ya wash all the dirty clothes that Xiaotong had changed. He was afraid that he would not be able to open the door when he came back after going out, so he asked the takeaway to deliver fresh vegetables and cooked a lunch for Qu Ya .

The two sat together to eat, Qu Ya didn't move her chopsticks, she looked at Shen Yan with indescribable love in her eyes, her consciousness was a little confused, she couldn't tell if the baby in the room was Shen Yan, or the one in front of her. yes.

Suddenly Xiaotong's cry came from the room, Shen Yan put down his chopsticks and ran to the room to hold the child, and seeing the two children appeared in his line of sight, Qu Ya slowly woke up.

Xiaotong slowly calmed down in Shen Yan's arms, and Qu Ya couldn't help but think of the things before and after their mother and son moved to this house, the grievances the child suffered in this house, and what Fu Youcheng jumped out to expose that day.

She suddenly asked with a trembling voice: "Xiaoyan, you don't like girls... Is it because your mother has let you down."

Shen Yan hugged the child and froze on the spot, he even stopped the "hush" sound from his mouth, he never thought about the reason why he fell in love with Li Shi'an, so he could only answer instinctively: "No. "

Qu Ya stayed quietly and blankly for a while, then slowly said: "That's good, Mom can't be sorry to Xiaotong, and I'm sorry to you."

"Mom, what did you say?" Shen Yan didn't understand what Qu Ya meant.

Qu Ya shook her head with a smile and said, "It's nothing." Then she grabbed her chopsticks and ate as if nothing had happened.

Shen Yan noticed Qu Ya's strangeness, but before he could ask anything, he heard Qu Ya say: "Didn't you always want to leave here? Mom packs up things today, and tomorrow you come to pick up Mom, let's go together?"

Qu Ya's change came so suddenly, Shen Yan couldn't believe it: "Mom, are you serious?"

Qu Ya smiled: "Really."

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Li Shi'an saw Shen Yan next to Qu Ya's cold body. The young man didn't know what parting between life and death was. He only knew that this woman was still alive yesterday. She had knitted gloves for him and cooked food for him.

Qu Ya jumped down from the upstairs, and the lush greenery downstairs scratched her clothes and cheeks. This woman who wanted to live no matter what, died in such an embarrassing manner at this moment.

Shen Yan knelt down next to Qu Ya's body and couldn't make a sound, he couldn't make a sound. He got a room in the hotel and contacted a renting agency to inspect the house in the afternoon. He came back to pick up Qu Ya.

The police examined the body and looked at the house, and concluded that it was a suicide. Fu Youcheng had been on a business trip for three days, and he was on his way home now.

Shen Yan watched Fu Youcheng wail on Qu Ya's body in front of many community workers after he came back, and watched him rushing about for Qu Ya's funeral, without saying a word.

People in the community came and went, came and went, they enlightened Shen Yan, and kept popularizing the concept of "postpartum depression", but Shen Yan remained expressionless, like a walking dead.

Li Shi'an had no idea when Li Qishan told her that Liang Jing was suffering from postpartum depression. He was even more shocked that his own mother wanted to strangle him to death. Qu Ya also jumped off the stairs.

But now that Liang Jing is alive in a certain corner of the world, maybe she is still alive and well, and he suddenly feels a sense of relief.

Li Shi'an didn't come home that night, he and Shen Yan squeezed together on Lao Yu's narrow folding bed, Shen Yan wept softly on his shoulder, Li Shi'an comforted him in a low voice, and gently stroked Shen Yan's messy hair .

His mind is full of questions, what should Shen Yan do?Where should he go?Fu Youcheng hates him so much, will he give him a place to stay?How should I continue my studies in the third year of high school?

However, there was no other way, Li Shi'an could only ask Li Qishan to help Shen Yan.

It was the fifth day after Qu Ya's death when he made this request, but Li Qishan flatly refused: "Impossible. If you don't have that relationship, I can consider it, but now I tell you it's impossible."

Li Shi'an choked with sobs: "He has good grades, and he will definitely be admitted to a good university, so he can't just be useless like this."

"He is not my son, and I have no responsibility to worry about his future." Li Qishan was even more determined. He took out a cigarette and lit it, and threw the lighter on the coffee table. He watched his son's face with a more bewildered look, and felt that When it was time to propose an exchange, he said, "Hasn't he always learned to dance? You let him study abroad, and I will pay for it."

Li Shi'an: "You want to send him out?"

Li Qishan said in a deep voice: "Otherwise, what else do you want? Do you want to celebrate my son finding a boyfriend by beating gongs and drums? I let you be free since I was a child, but that is freedom within the right range! But now this matter has gone far beyond the right range!"

Li Shi'an smiled wryly: "As for the range, it's up to you, right?"

Li Qishan didn't answer directly, but said: "Your wings are too young to afford your choice! If you could, you wouldn't be begging me here now."

For the first time, Li Shi'an understood what Li Qishan meant by being small. He didn't blame Li Qishan for being ruthless, but only blamed himself for being small. He was a paper tiger, only falsely powerful, but he still tried his best to prove it to others, desperately trying to get others to admit it, how ridiculous.

But he couldn't promise Li Qishan, because he had already promised Shen Yan that he would not give up.

Li Qishan originally thought that the two children could be separated with certainty this time, but he underestimated Li Shi'an's stubbornness, so he couldn't persuade Li Shi'an, so what about Shen Yan?

Li Qishan followed his son after school, and after Li Shi'an came out of the building, Li Qishan knocked on the door of the studio.

Shen Yan thought it was Lao Yu who had gone shopping, but when he opened the door, it was Li Qishan.

After seeing Shen Yan, Li Qishan still tried his best to maintain the demeanor that an elder should have. He used to admire Shen Yan very much, but now he had to restrain the urge to do something.

When the two met, there was silence for a while, then Li Qishan looked around the studio that was almost emptied and said, "You live here?"

Shen Yan nodded.

Li Qishan stepped into the door and said, "I'm very sorry about your mother's matter. Is there anything I can do to help?"

Shen Yan knew that the purpose of Li Qishan's coming was definitely not as simple as helping, he said: "Thank you, but it's not necessary."

Li Qishan didn't expect Shen Yan to be easy to deal with, he smiled and said: "Your mother passed away, Fu Youcheng should not bear any of your expenses anymore, have you thought about what to do in the future?"

The question Li Qishan raised is very realistic. He is convinced that this is the most troublesome thing for Shen Yan except Qu Ya's death accident. He can solve the difficulties Shen Yan is facing, which is an important weight in the negotiation, so he hopes that Shen Yan will say it himself I don't know what to do.

However, Shen Yan said: "I can take a year off from school and work, and then repeat my studies."

This answer was beyond Li Qishan's expectation, but at the same time he had to admit that Shen Yan was just as stubborn and stupid as Li Shi'an.

He tried to persuade Shen Yan from another angle: "I believe you have the ability to take care of yourself, because you are a child with talent and IQ above ordinary people, and you can also take a deviant path, because you are outstanding, People always tolerate good people deviant, but ten safety is not good, he is just an ordinary child, he has to live in the world, if he chooses to be with you, he has to bear the prejudice of the world, I hope you will be more for him Consider it."

Shen Yan smiled, the Li Qishan he saw today was completely different from the Li Qishan he had seen before, this person ignored the tragedy of his mother's death and was eager to get rid of him, he was a businessman through and through.

Shen Yan said: "You are not for Shi'an, you are for yourself. It is you who cannot bear the prejudice of the world."

Li Qishan was not in the embarrassment of being exposed. He admitted that he could not bear the prejudice of the world, but he also believed that the two children did not have that kind of coping ability.

Threats and lures couldn't convince Shen Yan, so he played the emotional card: "Even so, for a father who has been dragging him for more than ten years, is it too much for me to seek stability and ordinaryness from my son?"

Shen Yan replied seriously: "Not too much."

Li Qishan said: "But because of your appearance, the peace and ordinaryness is gone now. I am the closest person to him. Now he has almost broken with me because of you. Shen Yan, you really think you deserve it." Is he doing this? Is it worthy of Shi'an abandoning his only relative?"

Tears welled up in his eyes, Shen Yan had to admit that what Li Qishan said was right, if he didn't show up, Li Shi'an would live a very stable life, he would be obedient and sensible, and be filial to Li Qishan's father and son, never Will do anything that Li Qishan is not allowed to do.

He will inherit the modest family business, marry a wife and have children, and live the most ordinary life.

But since the reality made him meet Li Shi'an, why did he say "if"?He raised his head and said, "Whether I am worthy or not is up to Shi'an to decide. In short, I will not leave him."

Li Qishan nodded apprehensively, he never thought that he could convince Shen Yan once, it was common for him to be frustrated on both sides, he didn't care, he knew there was still a chance.

When leaving the studio, Li Qishan ran into Lao Yu, and Lao Yu went up to say hello to Li Qishan, and the two chatted about the closure of the studio.

During the chat, Li Qishan thought about it, he knew that Lao Yu and Li Shi'an had a good relationship, and he could take in Shen Yan, so he naturally had feelings for him, so he suddenly changed the topic: "Mr. Yu, can you help me persuade the two children? You know, Compared with the stereotypes against homosexuality, I am more afraid that he will not be able to withstand the rejection of the world when he is fledgling."

Old Yu looked embarrassed: "You have always been a good father."

Li Qishan shook his head: "I haven't done enough, otherwise my son would not have come to this point. The two of them have a good relationship with you, and maybe they are willing to listen to you."

Facing Li Qishan's proposal to persuade the two children again, Lao Yu said: "I'm afraid young people nowadays can't stand listening to so many lectures, I think some things should be left to the end."

Old Yu's indifference made it difficult for Li Qishan to understand, he suddenly asked: "Teacher Yu, you will have children in the future, if your child tells you that he likes the same sex, what will you do?"

Lao Yu said seriously: "The world belongs to young people. The progress of the times lies in the fact that the new generation overthrows the established rules of the old generation. They establish a new order and then their descendants break it. Parents dominate so much that they can't dominate for a while. For the rest of my life, I think...it is better for the children to decide on their own affairs."

Li Qishan smiled stiffly and said, "You have never experienced the hardships of raising a child."

"Yes, yes," Lao Yu smiled, "so I can't preach from the perspective of an elder, please understand that."

Li Qishan no longer forced others to be difficult, and left after a few polite words.

Lao Yu lit a cigarette alone in the corridor, when Li Shi'an suddenly appeared from a corner of the corridor, he hadn't left just now, when he came to see Shen Yan, he knew that Shen Yan hadn't eaten much all day, so he went down to buy food .

Li Shi'an walked up to Lao Yu and said, "Thank you."

Lao Yu guessed that he heard the conversation between himself and Li Qishan, nodded, and said slowly: "My hometown is in the countryside. In our place, my father is the one who speaks the truth, but since I was admitted to university, there are many people in my family My father began to discuss things with me, because he felt that his son’s admission to university was better than him, and he was more knowledgeable than him.”

Breathing out a puff of smoke ring, Lao Yu watched the smoke gradually drift away, and continued: "To be recognized, you must surpass your parents, and then they will believe that your decision is reliable. To say that you look down on money, you must first be able to look down on money before you can say that. Similarly, you cannot say that you are not afraid of the world before you have experienced it. You have to have experienced it and not be defeated by the world. Say. It will take a long time."

Li Shi'an looked at the disappearing smoke, nodded and said, "Understood."

Lao Yu suddenly let out a long sigh: "I don't know if what I said makes sense, just listen to it and let it go, after all, I myself have been through such a miserable life."

Li Shi'an bumped into his shoulder, smiled, and said, "Understood."