don't take my blame

Speaking of it, Li Xingyu and Yan Suling are actually stubborn people.If either party is willing to give in a little bit, the trouble between mother and child will not be like this.

Although Yan Suling just had a minor operation now, she was unavoidably worried before the operation. She was thinking, what if she really got sick one day and left Li Xingyu alone?

At this time, holding Li Xingyu's hand, Yan Suling said, "Xingyu, do you have someone you like?"

Regarding this question, Li Xingyu's first reaction was Ji Wen, but he chose to shake his head.

Yan Suling was a little emotional. In fact, before Ji Wen, it was hard for her to imagine who Li Xingyu would fall in love with one day. She felt that Li Xingyu was too closed to herself.

She said: "It's almost there, let's find someone to live with."

Li Xingyu looked at Yan Suling and asked, "Can men do it too?"

Yan Suling was not angry, she said: "You choose the person yourself, if you think it's right, you can."

For a long time after her husband passed away, Yan Suling herself couldn't figure it out.She has a very deep relationship with Li Xingyu's father, her husband loves her, and her son is obedient and well-behaved. Yan Suling feels that she will be the happiest woman in the world.But the accident came so suddenly, she was caught off guard, and even blamed God for why he tortured her.

She was a little bit of a dead end, but she couldn't get out of it for a long time.

The older Li Xingyu was, the more he could understand how difficult it was for Yan Suling at that time. Although he still disapproved of what Yan Suling did, he could accept it.He won't complain anymore, he tries hard to get close to and understand his mother.

Regarding Ji Wen, the mother and son never talked about it.

Today, Li Xingyu asked her for the first time: "Then why did you think Ji Wen was not good at that time?"

Yan Suling's palms were a little cold, she stroked the back of her son's hand, and said, "It's not because of Ji Wen, it's because the time is wrong."

Li Xingyu asked her: "Because he is too young?"

Yan Suling nodded, "It's also because you depend on him too much."

There was a brief silence between the two.

Afterwards, Yan Suling continued: "Maybe you will think that my view of feelings is too extreme, but I think it is not a good choice to put all your feelings on one person. You should have a career, friends, and a close lover. At the same time, you should also have hobbies and pursuits, which constitute the whole of your life. It doesn’t matter whether your lover is a man or a woman, but he can’t be everything to you, he should only be a part of your life. In this way Even without him one day, you haven't lost all of you, you know what I mean?"

Li Xingyu raised his head and took a deep breath, he said, "I understand."

At his age, with past experiences, it is already difficult to put all his emotions into a relationship.Even if you experience a lovelorn again, you may be sad, but you won't have the heart-piercing pain like the sky is falling.

Yan Suling asked him to fall hard once first, so that when he got up, he would not be hurt again. The reason for this was that Yan Suling herself was hurt too deeply, and she was afraid.

Li Xingyu is no longer willing to comment on whether Yan Suling's doing this is meaningful, anyway, it is a past thing, whether it is good or bad, he has already experienced it, and there is no way to do it again.

Yan Suling looked at Li Xingyu with a softer expression.

Li Xingyu held her hand backhand, and said, "Mom, I've asked for a few days off, you should rest well, and I will accompany you until you are discharged from the hospital."

Yan Suling smiled and said, "No need, work is important, go back when you are busy."

Li Xingyu lived in his hometown for a few days, and went to the hospital to sit with Yan Suling for half a day every day.

Although it was a minor operation, Yan Suling was old after all, so her recovery was not too fast, and she stayed in the hospital for a few days before being discharged.

After she was discharged from the hospital, she was going back to her current husband's house. It was inconvenient for Li Xingyu to stay, so she said goodbye to her and went back.

Just after getting off the plane and turning on her phone, Li Xingyu received a text message from Ji Wen, saying, "Xingyu, I'm coming to pick you up at the airport."

He froze for a moment, then dialed Ji Wen's phone number, "How do you know I'm coming back today?"

Ji Wen smiled, "I heard what your colleague said."

Most likely the director, because Li Xingyu mentioned in front of him that he and Ji Wen are good friends, so no matter what, if Ji Wen asks, the other party will tell him without reservation.

He asked his colleagues to help book the air ticket, so Ji Wen even asked about the flight number.

He didn't know that Ji Wen gave their director a 2000 yuan car wash card in order to inquire about him.

Everyone from Ji Wen came, but Li Xingyu went to take a taxi for no reason.

So he dragged his luggage out, saw Ji Wen waiting for him, and followed Ji Wen to the parking lot.

"Is Auntie okay?" Ji Wen asked him.

Li Xingyu nodded, "I've been discharged from the hospital, and I'm recovering pretty well."

Ji Wen said, "That's good."

At this time, Li Xingyu thought of Ji Wen's mother, he slowed down and asked, "When did your mother die?"

Ji Wen looked a little sad, "Four years ago."

Four years ago, Ji Wen was only 19 years old.

Li Xingyu suddenly raised his hand and patted Ji Wen's shoulder lightly.

Ji Wen immediately grabbed his hand, "Xingyu?"

Li Xingyu still withdrew his hand, but this time the action was not so violent, he just slowly broke away, and then said: "Let's go."

It was three o'clock in the afternoon when the plane arrived.

Ji Wen drove Li Xingyu home, and on the way he said, "What are you going to have for dinner?"

Li Xingyu got up very early today, and sat on the plane for another two hours. At this time, he inevitably felt a little tired. He rubbed his shoulders and said, "I don't want to eat, go back to sleep."

Ji Wen said, "Let me cook some porridge for you."

Li Xingyu did not refuse.

In the past few days, he and Yan Suling had talked a lot.

Yan Suling also told Li Xingyu how she felt at that time for the first time about what they had been avoiding, what happened when her father just passed away.

The reason why I found a man in a short period of time was because at that time I had a very unpleasant dispute with my husband's family over the matter of her husband's inheritance. The man was a little greedy for Yan Suling's money at the time, and Yan Suling came to him because she hoped to face her husband's problems. When she was a sibling, she was able to have a man stand up and help her.

Li Xingyu didn't say anything after hearing this, but just sat quietly beside the hospital bed.

Yan Suling said: "I also regret it now, and feel that I wasted a lot of time on those meaningless men, so Xingyu, find someone who suits you and grasp it. I believe you are capable of handling a relationship now."

Whenever Yan Suling mentioned Li Xingyu's relationship problems, Ji Wen was always the first thing he thought of, and he couldn't escape.

Ji Wen drove Li Xingyu home.

After opening the door, Ji Wen followed Li Xingyu in.

Li Xingyu put the suitcase aside and didn't pack it up in a hurry, but sat down on the sofa. He saw the pen he threw on the coffee table.

The pen had been left on the tea table since that day, and he hadn't had time to clean it up.

At this time, Li Xingyu became embarrassed, and reached out to hold the pen in the palm of his hand.

Ji Wen didn't see clearly what he was taking, but noticed that his movement was a little sudden, and asked, "What?"

"Nothing," Li Xingyu replied calmly.

Ji Wen went to the kitchen to cook porridge for Li Xingyu.

Li Xingyu sat for a while, then stood up and walked to the kitchen door, and asked him, "Where's Ji Yuan?"

Ji Wen said, "At home."

Li Xingyu asked: "Then what does he have for dinner?"

Ji Wen smiled, "He can do it himself, you don't have to worry about him."

There was the sound of chopping vegetables and washing rice in the kitchen, and seeing Ji Wen's busy figure, Li Xingyu suddenly felt a little overwhelmed. He knew that he wanted this, but he was still repelling it.

Why repel?Because he had a past with Ji Wen.

But even if they separated at that time, it wasn't Ji Wen's fault. He didn't blame Ji Wen, and even carefully reflected on his responsibilities, but why did he still resist starting over?

Probably still afraid.

Maybe he didn't need to resist, even Yan Suling told him that he was strong enough to face a new relationship, even if he fell out of love again, it wouldn't hurt him that much, he could try again once.

Hearing that Li Xingyu was quiet, Ji Wen said, "Go to sleep for a while, and I'll call you after dinner."

Li Xingyu did not leave.

"Xingyu?" Ji Wen was about to look back at him strangely, when suddenly Li Xingyu hugged him from behind.

Li Xingyu's movements were not violent, but very gentle. He wrapped his arms around Ji Wen, and instantly felt Ji Wen's body become stiff.

Ji Wen didn't expect Li Xingyu to do this, and for a moment he didn't even know how to respond.

Li Xingyu said: "Sometimes I also feel very tired alone, Ji Wen, do you think we can go on?"

Ji Wen grabbed Li Xingyu's hand. He was a little agitated, and his voice became unstable, "Okay, Xingyu trust me."

Li Xingyu leaned her head on his shoulder, closed her eyes and said, "I believe you for the last time."

If the letter is wrong this time, there will never be a next time.

In the evening, the two sat face to face in the dining room to eat.

Li Xingyu picked up the bowl to drink the porridge, he didn't look at Ji Wen for a long time, he still felt a little uncomfortable for some reason.

But Ji Wen had already calmed down. When Li Xingyu was drinking porridge, he looked at him, and when Li Xingyu looked at him, he smiled gently at Li Xingyu.

There is a feeling of going back to the past, but there is always a little more rigidity under this kind of warmth. If there is no seven years of separation, maybe they are familiar with each other now, but they may be completely separated because of other things. became a stranger.

When Li Xingyu finished his porridge and got up to take the bowl to the kitchen, something dropped from his pocket on the ground.

Ji Wen heard the sound and went to pick it up, but found that it was a pen, and it was the one he stuffed into Li Xingyu's pocket that day.

It's a bit inexplicable, because Li Xingyu has changed into pajamas at this time, Ji Wen doesn't understand why he still puts this pen in his pocket, and when he is about to ask, Li Xingyu walks over and takes out the pen from his hand, and walks towards the kitchen go.