vaguely past

I avoided his gaze with some fear, and I couldn't help thinking sadly that Yue Xun was still handsome, he was probably the only person in the world who was not afraid of Shen Qingpei, and even dared to walk away.But I'm different, I'm the only person left with no strength to bear his temper.

What surprised me was that he didn't get angry, but pulled me to him with a bad expression. I saw what he wanted to say, so I quickly explained to him to save him from misunderstanding: "Just now I didn't know what to say." Okay, get emotionally nervous."

He was taken aback for a moment, and then reprimanded sharply: "If I knew you wanted to die so much, I might as well let you stay in prison until you die."

My heart tightened, thinking back to that dark place, life would be worse than death. Just thinking about it makes me feel like I can't accept it.It was probably my fearful face that caught his conscience, he sighed softly and pushed me onto the dining chair, and said, "Why are you shaking? It's just a random word, why are you so scared?"

For his understatement tone, I suddenly felt very disgusting.A person like him who has never suffered grievances and setbacks by nature, who can easily control other people's lives, how can he understand the despair and helplessness of a small person like me.There is a saying that is true, if the needle is not stuck in your body, you don't know how painful it will be.

I glanced at him in disgust, stood up and wanted to go upstairs, he grabbed my hand angrily: "Why are you losing your temper? Just don't bandage it like this!"

He obviously hates me to the extreme, but always shows that he cares about me. It is this hateful illusion that makes me think that he actually has me in his heart, which makes me pester him for so many years, until This is how it is now.This realization made me unbearably turned my head and shouted at him: "Get out!"

Probably because my voice was too resentful, and my expression was disgusted like never before, he dragged me even more angrily, dragging me abruptly to a room downstairs.I resisted desperately until I was forced to be pressed on the bed by him exhausted. His expression was restrained and patient that I had never seen before.

I saw the medicine box on the table not far away, he pulled off my shirt forcefully, stared at me and shouted: "Be honest! I will give you the medicine, you don't... .”

Before he finished speaking, he opened his eyes wide in surprise, looking at the scars and bruises on my body in disbelief.Some of those scars had turned into old scars, horrible and ugly, and some wounds that hadn't healed in time, looked even uglier with those blue and purple bruises.My self-esteem was stepped to the bottom at this moment.

I stopped resisting, and looked at him motionless, no matter what he thinks, it's fine, anyway, it's just a worthless body, and I don't care.But he looked at those scars with a shocked and annoyed face, and even stroked them with trembling hands. I didn't realize that his voice trembled imperceptibly until he spoke: "This...how did this happen? ?”

"How did you do it? It's probably the reason why you forced me into a corner and sent me to prison for ten years. How is it? Are you happy and relieved now? If it's not what you want, then go ahead .”

He choked up suddenly, took a deep look at me, and said, "Don't you deserve it? If you didn't harm Aiyu to such a degree, why would you need to make amends?"

"Atonement?" I was about to vomit blood angrily: "What sin do I have? My biggest sin is knowing you!"

He raised his hand again angrily, and I looked at him without fear. For some reason, his hand slowly lowered again, and then he turned around and picked up tweezers, clamped a cotton ball and dipped it in medical alcohol to disinfect me. Let him do what he does.It wasn't until he sorted me out that he said in a deep voice, "If you dare to tell me that you regret knowing me in the future, I will never forgive you."

What does it mean?Demonstration?

I took a cold look: "What exactly do you want?"

"I don't want to do anything!"

"Shen Qingpei, let me tell you again. Whether you are planning to imprison me here for the rest of my life, or sending me back to prison, I will not feel guilty until I die."

But he ignored me, just went downstairs with a bad face, and brought a bowl of egg water after half a day.He placed it heavily on the bedside table next to me, and only one word popped out: "Drink."

I pretended not to care and picked it up, lowered my head slightly and sipped it.I don't intend to fight him, maybe when he gets tired of playing I will put me aside.The familiar taste filled the whole mouth in an instant, and my tears almost fell down again.Shen Qingpei is the eldest young master who stretches out his clothes, stretches out his hands, and opens his mouth. Wherever he goes, he hugs and hugs, hooking his fingers will make everyone follow him, but only for me, he lacks a sense of aloofness.

I met him who had never been in the kitchen before and made me a bowl of egg water.It was one night not long after I lived in Hejia. I forgot what it was that day, but I suddenly developed a high fever in the middle of the afternoon. After taking two antipyretics indiscriminately, I lay down on the bed and fell asleep.I, who was in a deep sleep, was violently shaken awake. After opening my eyes for a long time, Shen Qingpei yelled at me anxiously: "Are you stupid? Why don't you know to go to the hospital if you have a high fever!"

I want to say that it is not that serious. When I was sick before, I just took medicine and lay down and slept.But the mouth can't seem to keep up with the tongue, and I can't say a word I want to say.Now his expression became even more anxious, he hurriedly pulled me out of the quilt, dressed me indiscriminately, and ran out with my back on his back.

In a daze, I didn't know when I arrived at the hospital, so I leaned against his shoulder, looked down, and saw that one hand was being dripped.I never thought that being sick was such a serious thing before. It was at that time that I suddenly felt that being sick was actually not so unbearable. If I let time freeze at this moment forever, I probably hope that I will live like this forever Sick, on a drip.

It was already three and a half hours after the drip was finished, and I was still reluctant to part when the nurse came to remove the needle for me.I thought that a busy person like him would leave me in the hospital at most, but who knew that he would accompany me for an infusion until he sent me home, and when I thought he might have left, he opened the door and served a bowl Steaming egg water.

I remember that I cried all of a sudden, he was a little at a loss, he didn't seem to know why I was, in fact I didn't know why, but at that time I found that I didn't want to leave him even more, no matter how he felt about me, I want to be with him forever.In the next five years, he would make egg water for me from time to time. He only did this, but it was enough for me.It's just that the world is impermanent, who would have thought that what would happen to us later.

I took another sip, using the steam to cover up my emotional changes.Now I no longer look forward to this bowl of egg water. I really don't expect it anymore, but I feel sad because of this bowl of egg water.He watched me finish drinking quietly, and went out with the bowl without saying a word.After he left, I locked the door of the room and stayed alone in a quiet room.