[Titanic] I can't help myself

When I woke up again, I could already see the bright sunshine outside the window through the gap in the curtains.The window between the bedroom and the balcony was not closed tightly, and the wind blew in through the crack of the window, and the beige curtains swayed gently with the wind.

I opened my eyes blankly, staring at the bright light slit that was constantly changing with the fluctuation of the curtain for a while, and then my brain gradually started to work.

Indistinct voices came from outside the house.

"What's the matter with him?" It was Rose's voice. "Is he sick? Has he been seen by a doctor?"

"I've seen it." This is Mr. Lai Fujie's voice, "The doctor said it's just that the wind blows too much, just rest and drink more water."

"That's good."

There was a sound of high-heeled shoes hitting the ground.

"I'm sorry, madam, but the Count is sleeping and you cannot go in."

"Why? I just want to see how he's doing without waking him up."

"Sorry, miss."

"Please step aside, I just want to see how Henry's situation is. My brother is sick. As a sister, don't I even have the right to see him?"

"The earl is fine, it's just..."

"Ah, I haven't asked you yet, Henry brought his own servants, why are you serving here? What about them?"

"Sorry, Miss..." His voice dropped, and Mr. Lai Fujie seemed to be explaining something.

"Then let me go in and have a look. I don't understand why you're stopping me... Did you guys do something to Henry! Let me in!" The argument became heated.

The soreness in my body is not so severe, but I am still very tired.The bite on the shoulder seemed to have scabbed over, and it only hurt when the skin was pulled.

I struggled to sit up, and wanted to open my mouth to let Rose in, but when I opened my mouth, I found that my voice was very hoarse, and I coughed a few times, which only made my throat itchy more and more, and I wanted to drink water more and more.I was about to get out of bed to open the door myself, when I saw the rattle on the bedside, hesitated for a moment, picked it up and rang it.

The voice outside the door stopped immediately.

"Get out of the way!" Rose said aggressively, "Henry has woken up!"

In the next second, the door was pushed open, and Rose walked in quickly.

"Oh, my God!" After she saw my state, she immediately exclaimed in surprise, "Henry, what's wrong with you? What happened?"

She quickly sat down beside my bed: "Why are your eyes swollen like this? Are you crying?"

I shook my head, covered my neck and said with difficulty: "A glass of water...cough cough..."

Mr. Lai Fujie who followed her immediately poured a glass of water and handed it over.I didn't refuse either. I took it and drank it all before I felt able to talk again.

"It's okay." I cleared my throat again, "It's okay."

"Nonsense, you look terrible!" Rose's eyes widened.

I shook my head, "It's not a big deal, it's just a quarrel with Mr. Hockley."

"...Hockley, sir? It seems that you have had a really serious quarrel." Rose pressed her fingers around my eyes, "Ice compress, otherwise you won't be able to see each other for several days people."

"Okay. Don't tell Mom." I added quickly, "I don't want her to worry."

Mr. Lai Fujie immediately sent a bucket of ice and enough gauze.Rose made me lie down, wrapped the ice cubes in gauze, and pressed them lightly on my swollen eye sockets.The cool feeling made me couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

"It's enough to have me here, Mr. Lai Fujie, you can go out." Rose drove the man out of the room, and then asked, "What are you arguing about? You are actually crying like this."

"It's not a topic you would be interested in." I closed my eyes and smiled, feeling my face was a little stiff and numb, "Why are you here?"

"You forgot that it's Sunday, and you're going to church in the restaurant?" Rose said. "Mother asked me to call you. But it seems that you will only be in bed for the rest of the day."

"Yes." I said.

"Mum had a blast last night," Rose added, sounding very upset. "She told me not to go to Jack again. She said that since I'm going to be engaged soon, I should behave like a married woman." , stay true to Carl, and behave yourself."

Hearing this, I felt another sharp pain in my heart.

"Rose." I took off the gauze wrapped in ice cubes from my eyes, my vision became very blurry because the eyeballs had just suffered some pressure, I couldn't see Rose's face clearly, there was only a rough outline, I rubbed Rubbing her eyes, she lay there and said, "Rose, I have good news for you: you don't have to be engaged to Cal Hockley."

Rose seemed to be stunned. She was stunned for several seconds before asking hesitantly, "What did you say?"

"You don't need to marry Cal Hockley." I repeated slowly and clearly in a low voice, feeling that my eyesight was gradually recovering, "Without the engagement ceremony, we will not have too many stays in the United States, I will Let the servant book the return boat ticket, and strive to go home in the shortest possible time after getting off the boat. And in the future, we don’t need to have any contact with him again. It will never happen.”

"Oh God." Rose covered her mouth, and then pressed her palm to my forehead, "Do you have a fever?"

"Aren't you happy?" I said with a smile.

"Of course I'm happy!" Rose showed a big and bright smile, as if she was about to cry out of surprise, "But, but why did you suddenly, suddenly want to cancel this marriage? Obviously last night you still hoped that I... ...It has something to do with the content of your quarrel, doesn't it?"

"I just found out he's a scum." I whispered, with a gentle smile and trying to make it look as unsad as possible. His poor conduct is what made me decide to call off the marriage."

"Oh my God..." Rose covered her mouth again, her eyes opened wide, "I can't believe it... I must be dreaming... You used to like him so much, but now you call him a scum... "

The word "like" immediately stung my heart. I felt my eyes sore, as if I was about to cry again, so I quickly put the gauze wrapped in ice cubes on my eyes to cover them.

"Henry," Rose said suddenly and seriously, "you won't reconcile with him in a few days, and ask me to fulfill the engagement again."

"Of course not!" I immediately put down the gauze, raised my upper body halfway, and looked into her eyes, "I promise, I will never let you marry him again. I can never forgive him. Never will be possible."

Rose smiled nervously, and I lay back down again. She quickly reached out to help me hold the ice packs on my eyes, "This is simply unbelievable... It's a gloating thing to say, but I'm really glad you had a fight with him Turned over. At least now..." She laughed again, "Why are you arguing like this? What happened?"

I didn't answer her, and after a while, I let out a long sigh.

"Sorry," I said, "I'm so sorry I almost ruined your life by marrying you to a jerk."

"It's okay, anyway, you corrected your mistakes in time, didn't you? It's incredible..." Rose's voice sounded very light, "Oh, yes, Mommy..." She became hesitant, "Mom, are you going to..."

"Let me speak. I will persuade her. Don't worry, she will not disagree. Besides, I am the Earl of Richardmond. In your marriage, I have the same say as my mother."

"I thought you would never resist her in your life." Rose laughed.

I smiled at her ridicule and said, "Although I am single again, I still want to remind you about the relationship between you and Mr. Dawson."

"Oh, here we go again." Rose immediately became impatient, "Mom has already said it, I don't need you to repeat the status gap between us, how impossible we are, how unworthy Jack is for me ..."

"Rose, do you remember who Cousin William's great-grandmother was?" I interrupted her.

Rose stopped, thought for a while, and said, "I remember being a Bucket too?"

"Yes, her name is Catherine Bukett," I said, "before she married Cousin William's great-grandfather, she had a secret love affair with a tenant's son in Acton, and she even became pregnant. "

"I didn't know there was such a thing." Rose said in surprise, "Where did you hear about it?"

"Of course you can't know, since she can marry the Duke of Prestbury, it proves that this scandal has been dealt with very well. But this scandal has been recorded in Catherine's brother, that is, No. In the diary of the 14th Earl of Richardmond." I said, "What I want to tell you is not that our family had such a scandal, but what happened to the tenant's son."

"...What did they do to him?" Rose asked hesitantly.

"They killed him," I said. "They hanged him in the town square on the grounds that they had sneaked into the castle and robbed them. They found a great deal of jewels belonging to the earl from him and from his house, and the evidence is solid."

"That's despicable!" Rose exclaimed.

"Catherine's child was sent away far away after she was born, and she never saw her child again until she died." I opened my eyes and looked at her, "So, if you insist on talking to Dao Mr Sen, I can't guarantee what will happen to him."

"What are you doing to him!" Rose screamed softly.

"I won't do anything, but I can't promise mom."

Rose pursed her lips tightly, her face was completely drained of blood.

"This is ridiculous!" she said tremblingly, "it's the twentieth century, how could such a barbaric thing happen!"

"As long as the privileged class exists." I said succinctly, "You must learn to be responsible for your actions, Rose, and you must know that your every action not only affects yourself, but also affects others."

Rose didn't speak again.

With ice cubes on my eyes, I lay quietly with my eyes closed for a while, and then I felt drowsiness began to surge up again.

"Go to church." I said weakly, "I want to sleep a little longer."

"Okay." Rose bent down, hugged my shoulders, and kissed my cheek, "Thank you, Henry."

Her hand just pressed the wound on my shoulder, and I shivered in pain, a sharp pain quickly radiated to all parts of my body, making me feel that the little bit of strength I had just accumulated was dissipated along with the shortness of time. The severe pain disappeared, and my whole body softened.

"What's wrong with you?" Rose immediately noticed my abnormality, and quickly let go of me, "You were twitching just now."

"You've crushed my hand, miss." I resisted the urge to press the wound, and joked with a forced smile, "Be careful, I'm a sick patient."

"Are you all right?" Rose believed my excuse.

"Hurry up, Mom should be waiting." I urged, "You just say I have a headache and I'm still sleeping."

After Rose left the room, I rolled over and soon fell asleep again.I didn't sleep well at all. I don't think I need sleep, but I feel very tired physically and mentally. Maybe it's just subconsciously wanting to use sleep to escape reality.This sleep is too heavy, I have been wandering between half-dream and half-awake, my heart is beating violently, my limbs are as stiff as lead, and it is difficult to breathe, as if there is not enough oxygen in the air. The strange feeling caused by Karl’s atrocities was magnified one after another. For a while, I felt pain all over my body, and for a while, I felt something flowing in my body. Yes, make people feel comfortable.

I don't know how long it took before I struggled to wake up from the dream, gasping for breath, and immediately found that the area around my eyes was icy cold.I was startled and shrank back suddenly.

There was a figure in front of me, and my eyes were still blurred due to the pressure, but I immediately realized that this person was Karl.

He was holding a gauze wrapped in ice cubes in his hand, it seemed that the coolness around the eyes he felt in the dream was due to him.

The author has something to say: Thanks for going around, black room, 13382258, thunder at [-]:[-]

My mother urged me to sleep and posted it secretly, I wanted to add more. .that's all