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Jing Xintan told Jing Xiang that she wanted to drop out of school and go to work, but Jing Xiang cried and scolded her severely. She said that she would pay for Jing Xintan to finish college if she didn’t eat, but Jing Xintan didn’t mention dropping out of school anymore. thing.After discussing with his aunt, he transferred his mother's shop and took her to rent a house near his school.Jing Xiang said that she quit her job and went there to look for it again. She worked while taking care of her sister, but was rejected by her nephew. Jing Xin said that your resignation is the same as my dropping out of school.

Just like that, Jing Xintan rented a small apartment near the school. The house was old but relatively clean. She used a wheelchair to push her mother into the house and carried her to the bed.

When he went back to the dormitory to pack his things, Lei Zhuo followed him all the time, saying that he would go to the rented apartment with him to have a look, but Jing Xintan disagreed, so Lei Zhuo grabbed his woven bag and refused to let him go.Song Xiaohai and Liu Chenghong sat in their seats as if watching a show, turned around and watched the two naively fight, Jing Xintan noticed their eyes, frowned, and let Lei Zhuo follow with his things.

Jing Xiang had already gone back to work, Jing Xintan went to the bedroom to check on her mother after she opened the door and entered the house, and seeing that she was fine, she went back to the living room to pack the things she brought.

"What do you do after you prepare? Take care of your aunt while you are in class?"

Lei Zhuo sat in the Maza and asked, Jing Xintan hesitated for a moment, but answered him anyway,

"I may need to find a nanny to take care of my mother temporarily. There will be fewer classes next semester. I plan to go to work after class."

Lei Zhuo thought about it,

"Let me help you find the babysitter. We have an aunt in our family. I'll ask if there is any reliable aunt."

Jing Xintan looked up at him, smiled slightly,

"Thank you."

Lei Zhuo's heart felt as if he had been swept by a dog's tail grass, although the smile disappeared for a moment, but Jing Xintan never showed any expression other than disgust towards him.

Lei Zhuo felt a little hot on his face, he got up and looked around,

"Well, I'll go back first. Call me if you need anything."

Jing Xintan also got up and nodded, Lei Zhuo didn't dare to look at his face, turned around as if he was in a hurry, Jing Xintan watched him leave, then continued to squat down to pack his things, thinking about buying some food and cooking after finishing packing .

Lei Zhuo walked out of the building, took the copy in his pocket and slowly walked out of the courtyard to the road.He seemed to feel that Jing Xintan had unknowingly walked into his life and into his heart, and his uncontrollable care and concern was no longer simply a simple feeling that he owed him.Lei Zhuo frowned, raised his hand to caress the position of his heart,

"No way..."

Lei Zhuo quickly introduced an experienced aunt to Jing Xin Tan's house to take care of his mother. I don't know what Lei Zhuo's relationship with him is, and the aunt asked for very little money.

After the discussion, Auntie came to Jing Xin to talk about the house on the first day, and Lei Zhuo also followed.The nanny's surname is Chen, and she looks very neat and capable.

"Xiaojing, right? Just go to school at ease. Auntie will take good care of you."

Jing Xin chatted and smiled, and took her to the bedroom to meet her mother. He leaned into Jing Jing's ear and said softly:

"Mom, I have invited an aunt. This is Aunt Chen. I am not at home when I go to school on weekdays. Auntie will take care of you."

Lei Zhuo leaned against the door frame, seeing his gentle and whispering appearance, he was speechless, he had never been treated like this before.Auntie Chen searched around, familiar with the environment, Jing Xintan stood up and glanced at Lei Zhuo, walked past him to the living room, Lei Zhuo also followed,

"Thank you for helping me so much."

"Should be."

Lei Zhuo looked at him and smiled, Jing Xintan hesitated, looked at him,

"Lei Zhuo, you don't owe me anything. Although it's impossible to let go of what happened before, I don't want to worry about it anymore, so you don't need to do anything for me."

Lei Zhuo looked at him for a while, then said:

"Heart talk, you said that we have our own lives, but I'm actually just doing what I want to do, and you don't have to care about it at all."

Jing Xintan felt a little strange when he asked him to talk to himself, but he had already deeply felt Lei Zhuo's persistence. Since he said so, no matter how much he said, he couldn't change what he wanted to do. .

"Let's not talk about that, Auntie has already found it, what do you plan to do next?"

"I found a few jobs and started interviewing the day after tomorrow to try."

Lei Zhuo nodded, and Jing Xintan suddenly realized that she had been able to answer his question unconsciously, and the disgust gradually disappeared, replaced by an inexplicable sense of familiarity.

"I'll have a class in the morning the day after tomorrow. What time is your interview? I'll go with you."

Jing Xintan turned her head unnaturally, as if avoiding something,

"no need."

After finishing speaking, he turned around and walked to the bedroom, Lei Zhuo stood there looking at him, thinking about something.Aunt Chen looked around and said that she would be able to come to work tomorrow, and the time was easy to say. Jing Xintan thanked her and discussed with her about the time and some of her mother's usual habits. Aunt Chen wrote down one by one with a smile. , and left with Lei Zhuo.

After Jing Xintan finished her morning class, she hurriedly took the bus to the bustling commercial street in the city. There were many restaurants looking for waiters. Jing Xintan had no working experience, so she wanted to find a few more restaurants. one look.The interviews with the two companies were all due to the lack of time. It was getting dark, and Jing Xintan leaned on the railing on the side of the road a little tired, with her eyes closed and her hands between her brows.

"Jing...Jing Xin talk?"

Jing Xintan raised her head upon hearing the sound, the...boy in front of her?He looked familiar, frowning and staring at him for a while, the boy saw him gradually put on a smile on his face, when he smiled, Jing Xintan seemed to remember something.

"Are you Lin Shu?"

Lin Shu nodded shyly.Jing Xintan stood up straight, and looked at this...beautiful boy in surprise?Lin Shu wore a short black skirt and suspenders. It should be a tight black dress and a denim jacket on the outside. It looks cold this season.Her brown hair reaches her shoulders, and she looks like a cute girl from behind.Lin Shu's skin is fair, and as long as he doesn't speak, no one can recognize him as a boy when viewed from the front.

Jing Xintan must have been startled, and didn't know what to say for a while, Lin Shu looked at him looking at him, but he didn't show much discomfort, he had long been used to the way others looked at him, and now he just faced ridicule His, he can also laugh it off.

"You, this is..."

Jing Xintan couldn't understand the outfit, Lin Shu smiled, turned around and pointed not far away,

"I work in a bar over there, so I have to dress like this because of work."

Jing Xin talked and nodded, apparently he hadn't recovered from the surprise.

"Why are you here? I wasn't sure at first, I stared at you for a long time before I dared to ask."

Although Lin Shu and Lin Shu broke up unhappy back then, Lin Shu was a friend to Jing Xintan, and he was one of the rare people who regarded him as a friend from the heart.After that, Lin Shu didn't go to school anymore, and Jing Xintan went to look for him secretly, but he couldn't find him again, but he didn't expect to see him here after so many years.

Jing Xintan hesitated for a moment, and simply said that she also wanted to work part-time, so she came here to apply.After hearing this, Lin Shu became interested.

"How about it? Hired?"

Jing Xintan shook her head helplessly.Lin Shu laughed,

"Tell me, I can help you, what time period do you want to find?"

Jing Xintan was a little surprised. Lin Shu explained that he had been in this city all these years. Due to his life, he had worked many jobs and had a lot of contacts. Finding a job to do this was easy for him.Jing Xintan hesitated for a moment, Lin Shu glanced at the phone,

"Give me your cell phone number. It's time for me to go to work. I have to go there first. I'll send you a text message after get off work in the evening and I'll talk about it in detail."

Jing Xintan nodded, and the two exchanged their mobile phone numbers, and Lin Shu hurried towards the bar.Jing Xintan looked at his back, feeling a little funny but also a little sad.He also regretted what he did to Lin Shu at that time, but even if he went back to that time again, he would still do that. After all, at that time, being said to be gay was the greatest shame in his life.Thinking of homosexuality, Jing Xintan unnaturally thought of Lei Zhuo again, he shook his head, reprimanded himself not to think wildly, looked up at the commercial street, then turned and left.

Sure enough, Lin Shu contacted him that night, and Jing Xintan sent him several text messages back and forth, thinking that he was still as lively as ever, but the side that he used to show only when he got acquainted with him had completely let go of it now.Lin Shu looked at the time slot he sent, and told him that a friend he knew had opened his own coffee shop and was recruiting people, and the workers were calculated by the hour, and asked him if he would like to take a look.Jing Xintan thought for a while, then agreed to go to see him tomorrow afternoon, and asked Lin Shu to have lunch together, Lin Shu readily agreed, and sent a series of excited expressions.

When we met at noon, Lin Shu was no longer wearing stockings and short skirts, a pair of jeans, and an oversized SpongeBob SquarePants sweater on his upper body, which grew to his thighs and hung loosely on his thin body.Jing Xintan sighed secretly, even if it wasn't a skirt and stockings, he still had a vivacious girlish air.Lin Shu has been chattering non-stop since meeting him, and Jing Xintan's mood has become rare joyful because of him. This feeling is the same as it was many years ago, because being with him can make him inexplicably happy , so even though everyone stopped playing with him because of Lin Shu, Jing Xintan didn't feel that he was at a loss, because they didn't understand, didn't understand Lin Shu's friend's "superpower".

"So, where did you go in high school?"

Lin Shu choked up when he heard the word high school. He lowered his head and stirred the juice in his hand. After hesitating for a long time, he said calmly:

"My dad stabbed someone and went to prison. I was sent to a relative's house, but it didn't take long for me to come out and live on my own."

Jing Xintan frowned, Lin Shu finished speaking with a layer of sadness, the two of them didn't speak for a while,

"Lin Shu, I... At that time, I'm sorry, I was ignorant and said something that hurt you."

Lin Shu looked at him with a smile,

"It's okay, I can understand you now, there are a lot of homophobic people in the society, I understand."

Jing Xintan didn't say much, but just lowered her head and took a sip of juice.

"Oh, yes, I almost forgot the business."

After hearing this, Jing Xintan looked up at him, Lin Shu took out his phone and glanced at him.

"My friend, I'm a little cautious about opening a store by myself. Well, he wants your school certificate, can you get it?"

Jing Xintan thought for a while,

"Okay, I'll drive to school after dinner."

"Really? Then can I go to your school with you?"

Lin Shu looked excited,

"I haven't been to college, and I'm curious what it's like in college."

Jing Xin nodded with a smile, saying that she would take him for a stroll after dinner.