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Jing Xintan retired the rented house and moved back to school. He asked Jing Xiang to go back and continue her life, telling her that she was an adult and could take care of herself, and promised to finish college.

When Jing Xintan returned to the dormitory, Lei Zhuo couldn't be happier. Everyone in the dormitory knew about Jing Xintan's family affairs from Lei Zhuo, and they sympathized with him. When they came back this time, the three of them helped him clean up early. The bed, table and chairs are ready, and I am more enthusiastic about him.Jing Xintan smiled slightly and thanked them.

Back to the days when I went to school to work, except that my concern for my mother has turned into a longing, my life is still the same as before.But there is an invisible layer of ambiguity between him and Lei Zhuo.That person would still buy two drinks in the library and sit opposite him, he would still urge him to go to the cafeteria to eat at a fixed time, and he would still wait for him next to Harley outside the coffee shop on time.In fact, the person who really changes is himself.At the beginning, Jing Xintan's attitude remained the same as usual, but gradually, he was so warmed by Lei Zhuo's warmth that he could no longer respond coldly.

He will drink the drink bought by Lei Zhuo, he will patiently explain Lei Zhuo's math problems when he asks him, and he will pack his schoolbag and follow Lei Zhuo when he asks him to eat.Lei Zhuo was delighted and excited. He felt that every day when he got up and saw Jing Xintan, it was beautiful and full of expectations. He fantasized that one day Jing Xintan would break through himself and accept him.Jing Xintan came out from the store and looked at the people below from the wooden ladder, Lei Zhuo smiled and waved to him, Jing Xintan sighed, Lei Zhuo saw him walking straight towards him, stretched out his hand , Lei Zhuo looked at him, some couldn't believe it,

"Hurry up, I have homework when I go back."

Lei Zhuo smiled, and passed the helmet to him excitedly, Jing Xintan had a smile on his face, he put on the helmet, sat behind Lei Zhuo with his legs, and put his arms around his waist.Lei Zhuo looked down at the hand on his waist, he stretched out his hand to pick up Jing Xintan's wrist and pulled it hard, Jing Xintan hugged his waist tightly, Jing Xintan who was behind frowned, seeing him Not seeing himself, he smiled helplessly.Lei Zhuo was filled with sweetness all over his body, stepped up the accelerator and rode out.

After the final exam, there were so many people who hadn’t seen each other for a long time, Xie Wei yelled to go to the skewers together, Lei Zhuo also dragged Jing Xintan this time, Xie Wei looked at the two people behind, raised his eyebrows,

"It's rare."

Jing Xin talked and smiled, but said nothing.Several people ordered something, the wine was served first, Xie Wei raised his glass first,

"One more year, brothers, come on!"

Jing Xintan also picked up the cup and touched everyone. Xie Wei said that it dawned on him that he would be graduating from university in one year.Jing Xintan frowned slightly as he sipped the beer, the number of times he had touched alcohol was very few, Lei Zhuo turned to look at him,

"Are you used to drinking? Forget it. I'll get you a drink."

As she said that, she was about to turn around and call the waiter, but Jing Xintan tugged him, shook her head, and realized that it was all right.

A few people were eating, drinking and chatting. With Xie Wei around, they would not be lonely. He recounted all the interesting things in school during the days when Lei Zhuojingxin was away. Liu Chenghong laughed and yelled at him.Lei Zhuo laughed non-stop while listening to what they said, and kept peeling the grilled shrimp in his hands. After peeling one, he put it on the plate in front of Jing Xintan, and Jing Xintan ate with his head down. , but I also listened to Xie Wei and the others joking in my ears, and my heart relaxed a lot.

Song Xiaohai shook a cup, looking at the two people in front of him who didn't know they were showing affection, Xie Wei seemed to have noticed something, he put a peanut in his mouth, chewed it and looked at the two people opposite ,

"Hey, I said you two, this, this, this."

Xie Wei pointed at the shrimp in Lei Zhuo's hand with his chopsticks while talking,

"Tsk tsk, don't be afraid of our sharp eyes."

Lei Zhuo gave him a blank look, his hands kept moving, Song Xiaohai smiled wickedly,

"Old Jie, what do you know? Why don't you have a date? Follow Lei Zhuo's example and use the same tricks to chase your wife."

As he spoke, he raised his eyebrows and glanced at Lei Zhuo,

"what?"

Both Xie Wei and Liu Chenghong stared at them in surprise,

"You two? Really or not?"

Xie Wei saw something terrible, Lei Zhuo was stunned for a moment, he turned his head to look at Jing Xintan worriedly, as expected, Jing Xintan stopped the chopsticks in his hand, frowned, Lei Zhuo cursed secretly in his heart.Looking up at the three of them, he gave Song Xiaohai another serious look.

"You can't stop your mouths after eating, so what are you talking about?"

Song Xiaohai gritted his teeth and suppressed a smile, and casually slapped Xiewei on the back,

"After just a few sips, you're fucking talking nonsense. Hurry up and eat."

Xie Wei raised his eyebrows and glanced at him, who the hell talked nonsense first.Song Xiaohai hurriedly said where he met a girl, and successfully diverted their attention.Lei Zhuo looked at Jing Xintan with some anxiety, he looked down at the plate, it seemed no different from before, but Lei Zhuo knew it was over, he finally gave himself a good face for a few days, now let these shit-stirring sticks Have a good time.

It was almost eleven o'clock after eating, Xie Wei and Liu Chenghong were almost drunk again, Song Xiaohai and Lei Zhuo gave each other a wink, they were about to leave, Lei Zhuo glanced sideways, Jing Xin talked about the shrimp on the plate. He didn't even move one of them, and he cursed countless grass-mud horses in his heart.Jing Xintan's expression was indifferent, he had actually drank a lot of wine, his face was flushed, and there were so many worries in his heart, everyone would get drunk if he wasn't drunk.Lei Zhuo asked worriedly, "Are you okay?" Jing Xin didn't respond to her talk, she got up, turned around and walked out.Lei Zhuo frowned and sighed, Song Xiaohai smiled like a fool,

"Oh brother Lei, your love life is not going very well."

"Shut up the fuck. I'm telling you, don't make such jokes in front of him again, I really can't afford to be hurt!"

Lei Zhuo had an expression of wanting to slap Song Xiaohai to death, and he got up to leave after speaking. Song Xiaohai stared and reached out to stop him, but he turned around and avoided it.

"Hey! Lei Zhuo! What should I do if you leave! Hey!"

Song Xiaohai looked at the two paralyzed people in front of him with a dazed expression. Liu Chenghong was alright, and there was Xie Wei. Xie Wei had been raised well in the past three years. Neither of them might be able to lift them up. Song Xiaohai closed his eyes, Or run away by yourself...

Lei Zhuo ran out, Jing Xintan was standing at the door blowing the wind.

"Are you ok?"

Lei Zhuo looked at his face and said concerned, Jing Xintan glanced at him sideways,

"It's okay, let's go?"

"Walk."

Jing Xintan glanced back, indicating where they were, Lei Zhuo dragged his arm and went down the steps,

"Don't worry about them, there is Song Xiaohai."

Jing Xintan was suspicious for a moment, but she didn't care, so she followed Lei Zhuo and walked away, the two of them walked along the road with no one else in their pockets, the weather in May and June will be hot but there is still some spring breeze.Jing Xintan stared at the front, as if thinking about something, Lei Zhuo glanced at him, and asked cautiously:

"Heart talk, don't pay attention to the nonsense they were joking about just now."

Jing Xintan glanced at him, but said nothing, Lei Zhuo was a little uneasy, just about to explain something,

"never mind."

Hearing that he said it didn't matter, Lei Zhuo stopped in his tracks and looked at him suspiciously.Jing Xintan also stopped and looked at him,

"Doesn't matter?"

"Who can control other people's mouths. So it doesn't matter what they say."

Lei Zhuo felt that this seemingly reassuring words were a little inconsistent, but he couldn't tell what was wrong. Jing Xintan suddenly smiled, shook his head and continued walking, Lei Zhuo followed with a puzzled look on his face past.

"Lei Zhuo, why do you like me?"

Lei Zhuo was even more confused, was it because he drank alcohol?For Lei Zhuo, Jing Xintan took the initiative to talk about this, which was both surprising and somewhat elusive.

"Can't say, it's a weird feeling. I always feel like you need me."

Jing Xintan looked at him with a hint of a smile on his face, and Lei Zhuo began to speak on his own,

"Zhong... Zhong Shuo told us before, he said he was willing to be close to you, because he felt that you need such a friend, your surface and your inside are different, at that time... I didn't have any special feelings for you , I found his reasons hard to understand. But until I really got in touch with you and got along with you day and night, I really gradually felt that you are a person who wants people to get close to you and protect you. There are thousands of people."

Listening to what he said, Jing Xintan inexplicably smiled naturally.Lei Zhuo looked at him for a long time without speaking, and then Jing Xintan raised his eyes to look at him.

"Xin Tan, you really look good when you smile, and it's rare."

Jing Xintan gradually suppressed her smile when she heard this, Lei Zhuo suddenly stepped forward and put his arms around his shoulders,

"Don't be stingy with your smile, don't be stingy with your feelings. I know that you have pretended a lot of sadness and resentment in your heart from beginning to end, so you wrap yourself up like that. Talk to your heart, would you like to give it a try? Try to open your heart, do and feel what you want in your heart, don't restrain yourself, don't wrap yourself up anymore."

Lei Zhuo's eyes were full of seriousness, Jing Xintan stared at him for a long time, then opened his mouth with a smile:

"it is good."

Lei Zhuo thought he heard it wrong, his eyes widened in surprise, he never thought that he could get a positive answer from Jing Xintan, Jing Xintan's attitude was beyond his imagination.

"You, you agree?"

Jing Xintan kept smiling and nodded.

Lei Zhuo shook his head, he really felt that this was Jing Xintan that only happened in a dream, it was too abnormal, maybe it was because of drinking.

"Heart talk, are you serious when you say yes? Are you sober now?"

Jing Xin laughed, he was sober, but whether he was serious or not, this is an unanswerable question.But tonight's laugh was indeed his sincere feeling.

"Lei Zhuo, I am willing to give it a try."

Although there will be doubts, but the big surprise hit Lei Zhuo in a daze, and he didn't care about anything anymore. Jing Xintan watched him happily walking on the road like a big child. Jumping up and down and whistling, he even came over to rub himself some tofu from time to time. Although Jing Xintan felt a little uncomfortable in his heart, he was soon infected by his happy mood.

Lei Zhuo jumped down from the third and fourth steps, and hugged Jing Xintan below, Jing Xintan staggered two steps by him, Lei Zhuo stopped moving around him, he stared into Jing Xintan's eyes , swallowed, the Adam's apple rolled,

"Heart talk, I...I want to kiss you."

Jing Xin was stunned, he glanced at Lei Zhuo's lips reflexively, and suddenly his heart beat faster,

"I...uh..."

Jing Xin didn't say anything, but was stopped by Lei Zhuo.At first, it was just a light touch, Lei Zhuo saw that he had no objection, so he boldly deepened the kiss, Jing Xintan had never kissed anyone before, and after a while she pushed Lei Zhuo away with all her strength, breathing heavily, Lei Zhuo looked at him, his heart was filled with bubbles of love, he took a step forward and pulled Jing Xintan into his arms,

"Talk, I love you so much."

Jing Xintan rested her chin on his shoulder, listening to him say that she loves herself, her heart was suddenly filled with a combination of touch and warmth, it seemed that when he said he liked her before, there was also a flash in the past, However, this time it filled the chest cavity.

Thank you Lei Zhuo, thank you so much...but...I'm sorry...