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As the end of the new year was approaching, Jing Xintan received a call from her aunt, saying that she wanted him to go to Shanghai to celebrate the new year with her.Jing Xintan refused, but Jing Xiang faltered.

"Auntie, what happened?"

"Talk about it, auntie...Auntie wants to get married in the next year. I want you to come over for a new year and then meet your uncle."

Jing Xintan was stunned holding the phone, and then a long-lost joy emerged in her heart.

"Okay, I'll go."

Lei Zhuo originally hoped that Jing Xintan would go back to celebrate the New Year with him, if not, the two of them would go out to play for a while.In the morning, Jing Xintan had an optional class, and Lei Zhuo just followed him over to take the class.

"What? Are you going to Shanghai?"

Lei Zhuo's voice attracted the attention of many students, and the professor looked at him angrily.Lei Zhuo nodded and bowed to apologize, and then sat down obediently.The professor continued to give lectures, and Lei Zhuo looked at Jing Xintan with displeasure and asked:

"Why go to Shanghai? What are you going to do?"

Jing Xintan looked at him and smiled helplessly,

"My aunt is getting married, let me go and have a look."

When mentioning aunt, Lei Zhuo thought of Jing Xiang, he had seen it before.Lei Zhuo held his head and thought for a while,

"I'll go as well."

Jing Xintan gave him a sideways glance,

"What are you going to do?"

"I...I'm going to play."

Jing Xintan turned her head to look at the blackboard, with a suppressed smile on her face.Lei Zhuo tortured him all morning, and sent him to the coffee shop in the afternoon, Jing Xintan took off his helmet and handed it to him, but Lei Zhuo didn't pick it up, but just looked at him with resentment.

"You go to Shanghai with me, what about your family?"

Seeing that Jing Xintan was a little loose, Lei Zhuo immediately regained his spirits,

"I've thought about it. I'll stay with them at home for a day on the first day of the new year, and I'll go find you in the afternoon on the first day of the new year."

"Oh, you can do whatever you want."

Jing Xintan was helpless, but Lei Zhuo immediately came back to life, grabbed Jing Xintan and kissed her face, Jing Xintan looked around, smiled helplessly, turned and left.

On the afternoon of New Year's Eve, Lei Zhuo took Jing Xintan to the high-speed railway station and watched him enter the station before leaving.Jing Xintan got on the high-speed train, and Jing Xiang waited at Shanghai Hongqiao Station with a tall and thin man on his arm.We went around Nanjing once, and it was already dark the day after we arrived. Jing Xiang saw him and hurried over to meet him.

"Talk about it when you're tired."

Jing Xintan looked at her and smiled, saying she was fine.The tall and thin man walked up to Jing Xintan and said that he would help him with his luggage. Jing Xintan looked at him, and Jing Xiang introduced shyly:

"Tell me, he is your uncle, He Jun. We have already obtained the license, but we haven't served the wine yet."

Jing Xintan looked up at the man in front of him, smiled at him, the man also smiled shyly, the two of them shied away, and he took Jing Xintan's luggage on his own initiative.

Uncle drove up, put away the luggage, Jing Xintan sat in the back seat, the phone vibrated, he glanced at it, it was Lei Zhuo's call, hesitantly looked at the aunt and his wife in the row in front of him, disconnected the phone and switched to After sending the text message, he realized that he had arrived, Lei Zhuo replied "Okay, I miss you", Jing Xintan glanced at the text message, even though everything happened between the two of them, every time he received this kind of confession from Lei Zhuo, The heart will still be throbbing.

I followed my aunt to the new uncle's house for a New Year's Eve dinner, only to find out that my aunt is almost four months pregnant, and the wedding is scheduled for the eighth day of the first lunar month.Jing Xintan felt warm in his heart, and his eyes were soft when he looked at Jingxiang.During the meal, Jing Xintan could feel that Jingxiang's in-law's family was very kind to her, and her uncle was also a talent from a university, and her job income was good. Jing Xintan felt very relieved that Jingxiang could have such a family.

After dinner, my uncle drove them home, my aunt sat in the back seat, stroked Jing Xintan's hand,

"Talk about it, you've grown up. But with my aunt, you'll always be a child. When you're away, tell me and my uncle if you need anything, and don't fight yourself."

Jing Xintan nodded, listening to Jing Xiang's chanting, in his world, Jing Xiang was the only relative who was related to him by blood and would miss him.The phone buzzed again in his pants, Jing Xintan secretly reached out and pressed the mute button.Back at my aunt's house, both my aunt and uncle went back to rest in their own rooms, Jing Xintan took out his phone, there was already a Thunderbolt 3 call missed.Jing Xin chatted and smiled, pressed back and dialed, and within three rings, the phone was picked up.

"Hello? Happy New Year baby, what did you do and you didn't answer my calls."

Lei Zhuo took the phone and complained.

"I went to eat at my uncle's house, so it's not convenient to pick me up."

Lei Zhuo curled his lips on the phone,

"I'm flying there at three o'clock tomorrow afternoon, and you send me the address."

airplane?Jing Xintan was puzzled for a moment,

"Where are you now?"

"Beijing. I'm going back to my home in Beijing for the New Year this year."

"Then don't come here, it's far away and cold."

"I don't, the tickets are all bought."

Jing Xin couldn't hold back him, she said that she would pick him up at the airport tomorrow,

"No, it's too cold, just give me the address, and I'll take a taxi after I get off the plane."

Jing Xin talked and smiled but didn't speak, she looked up at her watch, it was already twenty past midnight, she paused for a while,

"Happy New Year, Lei Zhuo."

The phone was quiet for a while before replying:

"Happy new year heart talk, I love you."

Jing Xintan didn't answer, just looked out the window in a daze, the two held the phone in their hands and were relatively speechless, after an unknown amount of time, a beep sound came from the phone, Lei Zhuo took down the phone and took a look, sighed, Throwing the phone on the bed, wrapped himself in the quilt.

Jing Xintan was wearing a long beige down jacket and the red and white scarf, standing at the airport waiting for Lei Zhuo.Lei Zhuo was also wearing the blue and black scarf, jeans, a messenger bag, and a short black down jacket on his upper body, which made his legs long and straight.Jing Xintan waved his hands, Lei Zhuo smiled like a baby, ran over quickly, and hugged him.

"I miss you so much, thinking that I can't eat and can't sleep."

Jing Xintan was pressed between the necks by him, and said amusedly:

"It doesn't matter, anyway, it was just yesterday, and I can't die without eating or sleeping."

Lei Zhuo raised his head, with resentment on his face, he was about to reach out for a kiss, but was pushed away by Jing Xintan,

"There are so many people, don't make trouble. Let's go."

Lei Zhuo stood there motionless like a wronged daughter-in-law, Jing Xintan had no choice but to reach out and grab his hand, leading him to the airport gate.

Jing Xiang welcomed Lei Zhuo's arrival very much. In her impression, Lei Zhuo was a warm-hearted and kind child, a rare friend of her little nephew.Jing Xiang and her husband were busy with the wedding, Jing Xintan was afraid that she would worry about her, so she and Lei Zhuo went to the city to play.Unable to resist Lei Zhuo's small thoughts, he directly stayed in a hotel in the city, saying that he would go there after they got married.Jing Xiang persuaded them a few words at first, thinking that they were getting older, maybe it was inconvenient to live with her, so she ignored them.

Even though it was snowing, there were still many people on the Bund.Lei Zhuo and Jing Xintan held each other's hands hidden in their sleeves, and walked along the Huangpu River.Lei Zhuo stood still, looking at the tall Oriental Pearl which was very dazzling at night, Jing Xintan stood beside him and also looked up.

"I really hope that ten or 20 years later, we can hold each other like this and stand under the Pearl."

Jing Xin talked for a while without speaking, Lei Zhuo turned his head and glanced at him, and saw him staring at the Pearl Tower intently,

"Conversation?"

"Lei Zhuo, I want to ask you a question."

Lei Zhuo listened with some doubts, and turned to look at him, Jing Xintan was still looking at the Pearl Tower, but asked:

"Have you ever loved Zhong Shuo?"

Hearing Zhong Shuo's name suddenly, Lei Zhuo frowned first, then looked at Jing Xintan with some anxiety, seeing that he had no special expression, he hesitated and said:

"Have loved."

Jing Xintan was quiet for a while, then turned to look at him, her face was very calm,

"Then why don't you love me now?"

Lei Zhuo frowned, he wasn't sure what Jing Xintan was thinking, but he didn't want to hide anything.Looking into Jing Xintan's eyes, she said seriously:

"because I love you."

Jing Xintan looked at him, and suddenly smiled, there seemed to be a kind of relief in that smile, which made Lei Zhuo a little unpredictable.

"That is to say, you may also fall in love with others later."

The kind of calm Jing Xin talked about seemed to be gossip about other people, and she didn't care about it, which made Lei Zhuo very upset.

"In my heart, it's true that I loved Zhong Shuo, even before him. But I never told him that I must be with you in this life, and I will never love others again. But today..."

Lei Zhuo glanced at the Oriental Pearl, pointed at it,

"I swear under the pearl, no matter what happens in the future, even if you and I are not together, I will not love others."

Jing Xintan frowned, this was not what he wanted,

"Lei Zhuo, don't do this, I... hope you will love others."

When Jing Xin said this, he felt a little uncomfortable in his heart. He felt a little against his will, but he still wanted to say this.Lei Zhuo didn't understand,

"What did you say?"

Jing Xintan paused, looked at Lei Zhuo and hesitated for a long time, Lei Zhuo frowned, stared at him, but found that there was a feeling that he couldn't understand Jing Xintan.Jing Xintan suddenly smiled,

"It's nothing, I just said it casually, let's go."

Jing Xintan walked out first, Lei Zhuo looked at his back, feeling a little uneasy.

My aunt's wedding was unexpectedly lively. Although Jing Xiang didn't have any relatives, she had made many friends outside these years. The new uncle's family had quite a few relatives and friends. There were nearly a dozen tables at a wedding.

The master of ceremonies asked with a smile if Jing Xiang would like to take care of He Jun for the rest of his life. Jing Xintan looked at her aunt shyly at her uncle and nodded, saying yes.Jing Xintan suddenly had a sore nose, and a rush of heat rushed to his eyes, his eyes were red, and his heart was also sore.My aunt is beautiful, and he is happy for her happiness, but if my mother can have such a wedding, my mother can also wear a beautiful wedding dress like my aunt, and my mother can also have a man who is willing to accompany her for the rest of her life... Scene Xin Tan put his head down, feeling extremely uncomfortable, Lei Zhuo, who was sitting on the side, frowned and looked at his sweetheart who looked strange, and stretched out his hand from under the table to hold Jing Xin Tan's hand on his lap.Jing Xintan looked at the hands that were attached to her hands on her knees, and after staring at them for a long time, she suddenly grabbed that hand with her backhand, clenched tightly, the joints and texture were clearly visible, as if she was hanging by herself. Under the cliff, this hand is the only thing that can save him.Lei Zhuo frowned and looked at Jing Xinchao who was motionless with his head lowered, his hands felt a little painful from being clenched, Lei Zhuo didn't care, he only cared about the abnormality of the person in front of him.

"Do you want to go out and get some air?"

Lei Zhuofu whispered in Jing Xintan's ear, Jing Xintan seemed to be startled, trembled a bit, then raised his head to look at him.Seeing that his eye circles were red, Lei Zhuo frowned even more, he didn't ask any more questions, but just told the person next to him to go to the bathroom, and quietly led Jing Xintan out of the wedding hall.

Lei Zhuo led him to the fountain in front of the hotel gate. Jing Xintan stood by the pool and looked at the statue in the center of the fountain. He didn't know what he was thinking. Lei Zhuo looked at his profile. Soft, but there is still a strange feeling that cannot be understood or grasped.Lei Zhuo grabbed his hand and turned to himself,

"What are you thinking?"

Jing Xintan looked at him with gentle eyes, he shook his head,

"It's nothing, maybe it's just that I feel a little touched when I see my aunt finally survived to happiness."

Lei Zhuo stretched out his hand to hold his face, and rubbed it lovingly,

"fool."

Jing Xin chatted and laughed, and reached out to grab the hands that were rubbing her face.Lei Zhuo held his face and didn't move, he just raised his face and looked into his eyes,

"Heart talk, are you willing to take care of Lei Zhuo for the rest of your life?"

Jing Xintan looked at him in a daze, the two looked at each other for a long time, Jing Xintan's eyes suddenly became very affectionate, seemed to have some bitterness, he just looked at Lei Zhuo without saying a word.Lei Zhuo also looked into his eyes, he felt that Jing Xintan probably wouldn't answer his question, but he had a feeling in his heart that Jing Xintan's refusal to say this time should be the default.Lei Zhuo blinked his eyes, feeling a little happy in his heart, he held this pretty face and approached him, and within a short distance, Jing Xintan opened his mouth,

"I do not want to."

Lei Zhuo froze, he moved away in a daze and looked at Jing Xintan, with puzzlement written all over his face,

"why?"

Jing Xintan looked at him without saying a word, the bitterness in his eyes could be seen clearly, and even the eye sockets started to turn red again.The two just looked at each other in such a relatively silent manner, Jing Xintan lowered his eyes first, turned around and left, leaving Lei Zhuo standing there with a confused and sad expression on his face, he felt painfully that he really couldn't see Understand this person who has fallen in love deeply.