impossible

After dinner, Jing Xintan was lying on the bed studying her mobile phone, feeling bored, she got up and planned to go for a walk.Strolling along the main road, I happened to come to the restaurant where Lin Shu worked. I checked the time and planned to wait for him to get off work.The restaurant is not busy today, Lin Shu got off work earlier than usual,

"Hey~"

Lin Shu raised his head when he heard the voice, and saw Jing Xintan sitting on the railing beside the road.

"Hey, why are you here?"

"I just happened to walk here, thinking that you are going to get off work, so I will wait for you for a while."

Lin Shu was very happy, and the two planned to go shopping in the commercial building next to them before going home.

Jing Xintan bought two cones and handed one to Lin Shu. Lin Shu had never spent money on ice cream, and stared at the cones, but he was still a little embarrassed to accept them.

"You don't want me to eat it all."

Lin Shu smiled and took the cone and licked it, it was so sweet.Jing Xintan also laughed,

"Lin Shu, I treat you as a friend, so you don't have to be so polite with me."

Lin Shu raised his eyes to look at him, and nodded shyly. Jing Xintan looked at his shy expression. Although he looks good, but a boy... felt goosebumps a little bit, so he turned around and walked in front.

The two chatted, laughed and walked around, Jing Xintan suddenly saw two men coming out of the Cantonese restaurant in front, the taller man in front was holding the hand of the man behind.Jing Xintan froze there, the two of them took a few steps and took the ladder to the lower floor, Jing Xintan immediately followed.

Even in public places, Tan Gongyi would hold Jiang Kang generously. At first Jiang Kang would care about being seen, but after so many years, nothing is as important as the man around him, so he doesn't care about these things .The two walked to the underground parking lot talking and laughing, Jiang Kang got into the co-pilot, Tan Gong put the bag in his hand on the back seat, and sat in the driver's seat.

"This Cantonese cuisine is still on the sweet side."

Jiang Kang licked his lips and said, Tan Gongyun looked at him and smiled evilly,

"Really? I'll try it."

As he spoke, he stretched out his head and licked his lips, Jiang Kang pushed him away and blushed,

"Don't make trouble, it's still outside."

Tan Gonggong took advantage, laughed like a fool, started the car and drove out.

Behind the pillar, two dazed faces hid there motionless.Lin Shu seemed to have opened the door to a new world, and stood there in disbelief.On the other hand, Jing Xintan looked at the parking space where the car was parked in shock, and was in a daze.

Coming out of the parking lot, Jing Xintan walked forward as if he had lost his soul, Lin Shu followed behind him chattering about the scene just now, Jing Xintan didn't listen to a word.He never thought that such a thing would happen, even this was the first time he knew that men would kiss men, the actions of those two people played back in Jing Xintan's mind over and over again.

"vomit..."

Lin Shu watched in surprise as Jing Xintan suddenly ran under a tree beside the road and vomited.He hurried over and patted him on the back,

"What's the matter with you? Are you okay?"

Jing Xintan scratched at the tree trunk with her hands, bent over and vomited in pain.Lin Shu looked around, took out a wrinkled one-dollar bill from his pocket, ran to a small shop and bought a bottle of water to feed him.Jing Xintan took the water, rinsed her mouth and took another two sips.Squatting down helplessly,

"Are you ok?"

Lin Shu asked anxiously.Jing Xin talked so much that tears flowed down her face, she shook her head feebly, he couldn't believe what he saw, he couldn't understand it.

After returning home, he lay down on the bed exhausted. The two people kissing in the car couldn’t get away from his mind. He knocked on his head angrily. When Jing Jing entered the door, she saw her son knocking on her head like crazy. Put down the things in your hands and walk to the bed,

"Talk! What's the matter? Is it a headache?"

When Jing Xintan heard her mother's voice, she quickly put down her hands and sat up,

"Mom, why did you come back? It's okay. I suddenly had a headache. I'm going to bed first."

Jing Jing looked at her son worriedly,

"Why does it suddenly hurt, don't scare mom, let's go to the hospital tomorrow."

Jing Xintan didn't answer her, but lay down on her side under the quilt. Jing Jing reached out and touched her son's forehead, sighed and turned to wash up, thinking about taking him to see a doctor.

As Jing Xin grew up, it was the first time he suffered from insomnia for the first time. This night, he recalled the two people who took him out to play when he was young, and recalled the relationship between his father and mother. The more he thought about it, the more he found it unbelievable.Early the next morning, Jing Jing wanted to take him to the hospital, but he said that I was fine, and ran out.Go out and get on the bus, go straight to the city library.After spending a whole morning in the library, browsing through the bookshelves of psychology, physiology and emotion, Jing Xintan deeply realized that men still fall in love with men in this world, and there is another kind of emotion called homosexuality.Jing Xintan closed "Our Love, You Don't Understand".Yes, he didn't understand, the book was written in a high-sounding style, he just felt sick, and thinking of the scene in the parking lot, Jing Xintan felt nausea again.

He walked out of the library, closed his eyes and calmed down his restless heart.He took out his mobile phone and called Tan Gonggong, and the phone rang twice before answering.

"Talk about?"

This is the first time that Jing Xintan has called Tan Gongyi on his own initiative since he got a mobile phone. Tan Gongrong is a little happy and confused.Jing Xintan frowned when she heard his voice,

"Do you have time today?"

Jing Xintan's voice was cold, and Tan Gonggong felt upset when he heard that he didn't even call his father, but thinking about what Jiang Kang told him, he said softly:

"Why, do you miss your father?"

"I'm in the city library, come pick me up if you're free, I'll wait for you at the door."

After finishing speaking, Jing Xintan hung up the phone, and Tan Gongrong listened to the busy tone on the phone with a puzzled and slightly angry expression on his face.

Jing Xintan stood under the tree outside the library with a cold expression on his face, and waited for nearly two hours before Tan Gongyi came. Tan Gonggong called him three times on the way, but he didn't answer.Parking was not allowed at the gate, so Tan Gong parked the car in front of him, and frowned when he saw that he was fine, so he knew that he should get in the car quickly.Jing Xintan glanced at the co-pilot, feeling restless, took two steps back, opened the door of the rear seat and sat on it.His various behaviors seem to be looking for trouble when talking about fairness, and he doesn't talk about fairness, just want to see what he will do.

"where to?"

Tan Gongyun drove the car onto the road and asked in a bad tone.

"Go to your home."

Jing Xintan looked out the window, her tone was not much better.Tan Gongyun frowned when he heard this, he glanced at his phone, Jiang Kang was about to leave work.

"The house is messy, and I haven't cleaned it up. I'll take you to a new Japanese grocery store to try."

Tan Gongrong was about to change course as he spoke, Jing Xintan turned his head to look at the back of his head, and sneered,

"Why, is there anything ulterior in your family?"

After Tan Gongrong heard this, the fire in his heart suddenly flared up, he turned the steering wheel and parked the car on the side of the road, he took a breath and calmed down, then looked back at Jing Xintan,

"Talk, are you talking to Dad like this now? What's the matter with you? If you have any dissatisfaction, you can talk to Dad. I don't want the relationship between our father and son to become more and more out of control. "

Jing Xintan looked straight at his father's face, with a smile on his face,

"Okay, I'll talk to you. But go to your house or I'll get out of the car and go back."

Tan Gongrong nodded angrily, boy, he didn't speak anymore, turned around and started the car, and drove home.Tan Gongyi bought a high-end apartment a long time ago and changed houses.It was Jing Xintan's first visit to this new home, and the moment he entered, the room was clean.Jing Xintan was not polite, and looked around with her sizing eyes after changing her shoes.

Tan Gongrong was unprepared for his son's arrival, and was dazed with anger. He brought him here in a fit of anger, only to find that the room was full of traces of the lives of two men. He only hoped that his son would be more nervous and not notice these things.Seeing that Jing Xintan was about to go to the bedroom, he hurriedly stopped him,

"Talk, sit on the sofa, and Dad will pour you a glass of juice."

After speaking, she walked towards the kitchen, but Jing Xintan didn't listen to him, and opened the bedroom door directly.There was a big bed in the bedroom, the quilt was neatly folded on the head of the bed, the photo of the two of them on the bedside table and the box of condoms came into Jing Xintan's eyes.Just as Jing Xintan was about to go in, Tan Gonggong dragged her out and closed the door.Jing Xintan looked at him coldly, Tan Gongrong frowned,

"You can't just enter other people's bedrooms."

"Others, hum."

Jing Xintan sneered, passed him and sat on the sofa, Tan Gonggong knew that he had said something wrong, so he walked over and sat aside and put the juice in his hand in front of him.

"Talk about it. Is there anything you need to do with your father?"

Jing Xintan sat on the sofa, looked at his father, was quiet for a while, and said:

"Are you gay?"

When Tan Gongyun heard this, he froze for a moment and frowned, his heartbeat suddenly accelerated.He swallowed,

"Who did you hear that from?"

"I saw."

Tan Gongyun looked at his son in surprise, Jing Xintan's expression was cold, even a little angry, he hesitated for a moment,

"Talk, you listen to Dad. You are still young and don't understand..."

"I'll ask you if you are!"

Jing Xintan yelled, teenage children are not enough to be intimidating, but the sudden yell also startled Tan Gongyi, he sighed,

"Yes, I'm gay."

Tan Gongrong lowered his head and admitted that the incident was so sudden that he didn't think about how to tell his son.Jing Xintan stared at him, gritted her teeth, her heart was pounding, and she felt restless all over her body.He got up and wanted to get out of here, this house, the people in this house made him sick.

"Talk."

Tan Gonggong walked up to him and stopped him,

"Where are you going? Listen to what Dad tells you."

"Go away."

Tan Gongrong stared at his son,

"What did you say?"

"I tell you to go! You make me sick!"

Jing Xintan passed him, put on her shoes, opened the door and ran out.That sentence made me sick, like a spell, it fixed Tan Gonggong in place, his mind was in a mess, and he couldn't even figure out how it happened.

There was a fire in Jing Xintan's heart, which made him feel like he was about to go mad. He left the apartment building panting, and just stepped down the steps when he bumped into Jiang Kang who was coming back from work. Jiang Kang frowned and looked up. Never expected to see Jing Xintan with an angry face,

"Talk about?"

Jing Xintan turned her head when she heard the sound, and when she saw it was him, she felt even more disgusted, ignored him and ran out.Jiang Kang looked at him, worried, and ran out just as he was about to turn around and go upstairs to talk about fairness. Jiang Kang stopped him,

"what happened?"

"You go home first, I will go back and talk to you later."

After Tan Gongrong held his shoulder and finished speaking, he chased him out.