impossible

Tan Gongyun chased after him but couldn't find Jing Xintan, so he took out his mobile phone and called him twice but no one answered, so he called Jing Jing and said something briefly, Jing Jing panicked after hearing this, She told her little sister who was working for her, and hurried home by herself.

It was already dark, and Jing Xintan hadn't returned home yet, Jing Jing was standing at the gate of the courtyard so anxious that she was about to cry.For the first time, Jing Jing felt a deep sense of self-blame towards herself, blaming herself for letting her son experience such a life.

Jing Xintan came from a distance dejectedly, Jing Jing saw her son hurried over to hug him,

"Where did you go? I'm so worried about my mother."

Jing Xintan let his mother hold her unconsciously, Jing Jing pushed her son away and looked him up and down, she had nothing but lack of energy, she touched his son's face,

"Baby, Mom is sorry for you. Let's go, let's go home, we'll talk when we get home."

When Jing Xintan returned home, she sat by the bed and lost her energy.Jing Jing went out and secretly called Tan Gongyun, then went back to the house and closed the door.

She sat down in front of her son with a Mazza and looked at his tired face

"Talk about..."

Jing Xintan looked at her mother,

"Mom, he's gay, you know that?"

Jing Jing looked at her son and didn't know what to say, but her tears fell first. Jing Xintan looked at her mother, her nose sore unconsciously, and she shed tears too.

"Talk about it, mom is too selfish. It's mom who is sorry for you."

"You didn't apologize to me..."

Jing Xintan knelt on the ground and hugged her mother's head, the mother and son sobbed,

"I don't want him to be my father. Let's not talk to him anymore, okay?"

Jing Xin talked while weeping, Jing Jing held her son in her arms for a while and then nodded with sobs.

After that, Jing Xintan refused to have any more contact with Tan Gongyi. When Tan Gongyi came to see him, Jing Xintan didn't even open the door. Tan Gongyi felt that his son was still young and would naturally understand when he became an adult, so he didn't bother him anymore. After the mother and son, they just call Jing Jing from time to time to inquire about the situation of their son, or occasionally buy something and send it to her store.Until entering high school, Lin Shu was fortunate to find that he and Jing Xintan were assigned to the same class again. Jing Xintan didn't express much about it, but just smiled and said to him, take care of him.

Lin Shu didn't know what Jing Xintan went through, and he didn't talk too much about his family's affairs. It was just a friend relationship for many years. Lin Shu vaguely knew that Jing Xintan was also a single parent. Besides, he didn't know when it started. , he became a little colder, not against anyone, but the whole person was cold and indifferent.Lin Shu knows that Jing Xintan hates homosexuality very well, but he never thought that Jing Xintan would reject the word homosexuality to such an extent...

The two have been classmates and friends for many years, so the relationship is naturally inseparable.But Lin Shu's sissy behavior has become a habit, even though he is already a high school student, his behavior is still awkward.After one semester, he succeeded as before, and became the key person laughed at by everyone in the class and even in the department.Lin Shu seems to be used to this, he doesn't care about it and doesn't care, even if someone imitates his movements in front of him, he tries his best to avoid seeing them as much as possible, occasionally being seen by Jing Xintan a few times , he will intentionally or unintentionally block Lin Shu's sight or drag him away.Lin Shu is very grateful to him, grateful that he will not laugh at and dislike him, and grateful that he has always been his friend.

However, such two people will obviously become the imaginary objects of many boys and girls in the class.Jing Xintan has gained a lot of stature, and his appearance is as bright and handsome as Tan Gonggong's. Although Lin Shu's appearance is ordinary, but his body is thin and small, the kind that makes people feel protective.Jing Xintan naturally has no desire to protect him, but as a friend for many years, he doesn't like to see others pointing fingers at Lin Shu, and if he can help him, he will do his best to help him.

Monday afternoon was the time for general cleaning. Lin Shu was assigned to sweep the floor in the sanitation area of ​​his class outside, and Jing Xintan was in charge of the indoor glass.In the outdoor sanitary area, besides Lin Shu, there were three other boys. The three of them watched Lin Shu shyly walk out of the class with a broom as thick as his own arm. The large school uniform seemed to be hung on a thin hanger. in his body.The three of them whispered something to each other, then they laughed and walked to the flower bed with a broom, threw the leaves in the flower bed into the sanitation area one after another, then sat side by side by the flower bed and laughed at Lin Shu's sweeping posture, what kind of work? Neither do.

Lin Shu didn't make a sound, just lowered his head and swept the ground silently, sweeping the leaves into piles little by little.A bad boy in the class passed the sanitation area on his way back from going to the bathroom, so he went over and said something to the three of them. The four of them laughed together and got up to go to the class. The pile of leaves, one person swept his legs, the original piles of leaves were scattered all over the ground, and when the wind blew, Lin Shu's labor returned to zero.

Jing Xintan was wiping the glass from the inside of the room, and this scene was fully reflected in his eyes. He frowned, speeded up and wiped the last piece, then turned to the door, took a broom and went downstairs.Lin Shu secretly wiped away his tears, while sweeping the leaves again, when he suddenly heard a "rustling" sound behind him, he turned around and saw Jing Xintan was helping himself to sweep the leaves seriously.

"No, no, I'll do it myself."

He walked over and tugged Jing Xintan with a crying voice, Jing Xintan helplessly pushed his hand away, but didn't say anything, and continued to do his work.Lin Shu wiped his tears with his sleeve, and lowered his head to speed up his movements.A few boys and girls were lying on the railing upstairs looking at them, talking and laughing at each other, and taking photos of the two of them with their mobile phones from time to time.

The sanitation area was almost cleaned, so Jing Xintan picked up the trash can and went upstairs with Lin Shu. Two girls came down from upstairs, looked at them, covered their mouths and smiled inexplicably, Lin Shu lowered his head Following behind Jing Xintan, turning around the stairs, Jing Xintan heard the two laughing and saying:

"Did you see, he even helped him carry the trash can, it's really spoiled."

"Yeah, it's really sweet to me."

The joking between the two made Jing Xintan frowned.Back in the class, everyone basically finished their work and sat back in their seats.Seeing the two of them enter, an inexplicable ambiguous smile filled the class. With a sound of "boom", Jing Xintan threw down the trash can irritably, turned around and returned to her seat, Lin Shu watched him return timidly. seat, I quickly set up the brooms for the two of them, and returned to my seat.

This week, Jing Xintan ignored Lin Shu's love. Lin Shu didn't know what was wrong with him. He took the initiative to talk to him, but he ignored him. He thought that Jing Xintan was in a bad mood because of something at home. It's not like she didn't do this before, so she always followed him and stayed with him. He didn't talk much and he didn't talk too much.After school was over on Friday, Jing Xintan was packing her schoolbag, when Liu Mengmeng, a classmate, suddenly ran over and asked viciously:

"Jing Xintan, let me ask you something."

Jing Xintan looked at her,

"what happened?"

"That...is..."

Liu Mengmeng hesitated, Jing Xin talked and smiled,

"What's the matter? I have to go. I have something to do later."

Liu Mengmeng blinked, then turned to look at Lin Shu standing at the door, Lin Shu was looking over here, Jing Xintan followed her gaze to look at Lin Shu, then looked at her again,

"That's right, everyone is very curious... Well, are you and Lin Shu a couple?"

Jing Xintan's smiling face suddenly became ugly after hearing this sentence.Seeing that his brows were wrinkled, Liu Mengmeng's face became more and more stinky.

"How boring and disgusting you are."

Jing Xintan rolled her eyes, took her bag and walked out past Liu Mengmeng.

"Hey, you!"

Liu Mengmeng didn't expect him to react so strongly, and was so angry with his actions, she turned her head to look at his back and yelled a few words.Jing Xin didn't pay any attention to it, and walked to the door, Lin Shu stood there waiting for him, but he walked past him as if he didn't see it.Lin Shu didn't know what happened. He raised his head to look at the angry Liu Mengmeng in the class, then looked at Jing Xintan's back, and chased after him.

Walking out of the school gate to the commercial street, Jing Xintan's face was extremely stinky, and anyone who saw it would know that this person is in a very bad mood right now.Before Lin Shu left the school gate, he caught up with him and asked a few words, but he ignored him, and Lin Shu followed him as usual, not bothering him.At the intersection, there was a red light, Jing Xintan stopped, and Lin Shu stood behind him and waited.Jing Xintan turned around suddenly, and said coldly:

"Don't follow me anymore. Don't follow me again in the future."

The green light happened to be on, and Jing Xintan turned around and crossed the road after finishing speaking. Lin Shu was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly chased after him. Before following two steps, Jing Xintan suddenly turned around and shouted angrily:

"What? Do you have brain problems? Don't you understand what I'm saying? I said don't follow me anymore!"

Lin Shu took two steps back in fright, and asked in a low voice:

"What, what's wrong?"

Jing Xintan looked at him, the more he looked at him, the more he hated him,

"Do you know what everyone is talking about us! You make me sick, stay away from me, and don't bother me from today on!"

After finishing speaking, Jing Xintan turned around and strode out.Standing on the side of the road, Lin Shu watched him walk away in shock, then cried aggrievedly.

Since then, the two have been strangers, and have never communicated with each other again. Even if Jing Xintan saw Lin Shu being bullied a few times, he would act as if he saw nothing and had nothing to do with him.Lin Shu returned to a life where no one talked to anyone, only being ridiculed and disgusted, and he became more submissive.On the other hand, Jing Xintan was even colder, more handsome and excellent in grades, but he didn't even have anyone who was willing to talk to him. Except for his studies, Jing Xintan ignored everything. He felt that the whole class environment made him uncomfortable. He hates it.

The rumors about the two of them in the class gradually disappeared. Although many people were curious about what happened to them and what happened, Jing Xintan's aura of not disturbing others made people dare not ask more questions.Until entering the third year of high school, everyone was studying hard, but Lin Shu disappeared on campus. No one knew what happened to him, but the students in the third year of high school always had a lot of changes. They went to study art, went to tutoring classes, Those who go abroad, etc., so a person who is already inconspicuous, no one cares about it.On the surface, Jing Xintan had nothing to do with him, but no one knew that he had secretly gone to the shop where Lin Shu worked, and did not see him.He also estimated that he would take a long way to go to school, passing by the dilapidated building behind the vegetable market where Lin Shu rented, but he never saw him again...

Jing Jing watched her son grow taller day by day, becoming a handsome young man.At first she was happy and happy, but with Jing Xintan's increasingly quiet and indifferent personality, Jing Jing became more and more worried.But the most important thing right now is that her son is about to take the college entrance examination. Although Jing Xin said that she doesn't need to worry about her excellent grades, this is a major event in life after all. Jing Jing temporarily closed the store three days in advance to focus on taking care of her son.

The night before the exam, Jing Xintan was leaning on his clothes and reading a book, while Jing Jing was sitting beside him cutting fruit for him, when the phone rang.Jing Jing picked it up to take a look, then took a sneak peek at her son, seeing that he was reading seriously, she hurriedly got up, opened the door with her mobile phone and went out, Jing Xintan looked up at the closed door, feeling unhappy for a while.

"Hello? Brother Yun."

"Oh, Xiaojing. It's been a long time since I called to ask. Tomorrow is the college entrance examination. How about talking about it?"

"Well, his grades have been very good, so there should be no need to worry."

"That's good..."

The two said a few more words about their son, Tan Gongyi hung up the phone, Jing Jing looked at the phone for a while, sighed and turned back to the house.

Putting down the phone, sitting in front of the fruit plate, just picked up the unfinished apples, Jing Xintan looked at the book and said:

"Mom, if I rely on the university I want, you can promise me something, okay?"

Jing Jing smiled and looked at her son, saying that anything is fine.Jing Xintan put down the book and looked at her, looked at her for a while, and then said leisurely:

"Change your phone number and throw this away."

Jing Jing was stunned for a moment, she turned her head to look at the mobile phone on the table, paused and said:

"What are you doing changing your mobile phone number? Mom is buying something. It's troublesome to change it."

Jing Xintan didn't speak, but just looked at his mother, her smiling face gradually turned cold.Jing Jing thought for a while, pursed her lips,

"Okay, let's talk about it after you finish the exam."

Jing Xintan withdrew her gaze and continued to pick up the book in her hand to read. Jing Jing felt bitter in her heart, with helplessness on her face, she continued to cut the fruit in her hand.

The college entrance examination is not an important event for Jing Xintan, his grades have always been stable and excellent, so there is nothing to worry about.Sure enough, the score of more than 100 points higher than the first line was admitted to a university not far from home. Although this score was more than enough, Jing Xintan insisted not to leave home too far. Jing Jing knew that he missed her, and she was reluctant to let her son go. If it's too far away, I don't want to stop it.

On the second day after Jing Xintan received the admission notice, he walked into the mobile phone store indifferently, bought a mobile phone card, and bought a very ordinary and simple smart phone for himself, and then sold the mobile phone that Tan Gongrong gave him cheaply to store.Back home, under the calm gaze of her son, Jing Jing took out the original SIM card from the phone and gave it to him, and replaced it with a new one.Jing Xintan looked at Jing Jing's face full of reluctance and helplessness, pretending she couldn't see it at all, she could rely on her mother for everything, but only when it came to Tan's fairness, Jing Xintan had no negotiating here.