Leftover temperature

Xia Shenyan was taken aback, suddenly sore.

In this world, probably only Si Jinqing would remember him, no matter where he was, he would come to him, and he would definitely find him.

He used to look forward to the future with Si Jinqing, but whenever he thinks about it, it seems to be wishful thinking.

Being well-matched is never just a talk, he is not worthy of Si Jinqing, no matter in what way.Si Jinqing's parents and sister don't like him either, and staying by his side will only hinder him.

So you see, even God wants to deprive himself of the right to love him.

Xia Shenyan was completely convinced.

So he chose to give up, quit, and leave.But why, why when he was in despair, disappointment and pain, when he was almost determined to abandon everything, every time he appeared, he saved him, protected him, and never let him go.

"I..." Xia Shenyan was suddenly at a loss.

In fact, he was already satisfied, and he didn't dare to be too greedy.

"do not talk."

Si Jinqing suddenly softened his tone.His voice is low and deep, but tender as water.

He will never be able to get angry at Xia Shen.

Si Jinqing calmed down in his heart for a while, then slowly raised his eyes, smiled at him and said, "Yanyan, come here."

Si Jinqing opened his hands slightly, looking at Xia Shenyan who was in a daze with warm eyes.

Tears welled up suddenly, and crystal beads swirled in the eye sockets.Like a sunny afternoon, the bright sun shines into the clear puddles in the alley, shining brightly.

Xia Shenyan's vision blurred, but the figure of that person was so clear and bright.

It is really longing for his embrace for too long, if Xia Shenyan has any regrets in this world, this is one of them.

Without hesitation, he threw himself into the embrace that was warmer than the warm sun.

A faint, cold fragrance lingered at the tip of his nose.

It was a familiar smell, and it was also someone he couldn't imagine.

Xia Shenyan's memory suddenly returned to the winter of a certain year.

His body was not good when he was very young, and the serious illness that destroyed his intelligence planted a deep root of the disease in his long future life.

Summer ginseng will definitely get sick when the season changes, especially in spring and winter.

Si Jinqing knew his physical condition, but couldn't help understanding Xia Shenyan's inexplicably stubborn sense of responsibility, so he could only quietly reduce Xia Shenyan's workload in the most gentle way.

Once Xia Shenyan got sick or had symptoms of illness, Si Jinqing insisted on keeping him from going out to work, and didn't let him go out until Xia Shenyan recovered from his illness.

This was Si Jinqing's rare toughness in their young days.

Later... Later Xia Shenyan didn't let him care about it.

Si Jinqing knew that he had his own plans, and also understood that he could not interfere too much in Xia Shenyan's life, so he basically let him do what he wanted to do these years.And he would only sneak in and help Xia Shenyan when something happened.

After all, Si Jinqing was getting engaged, and Xia Shenyan, who was a nominal lover, had to avoid suspicion.

But inexplicably, Xia Shenyan always remembered the heated room that winter.

Xia Shenyan couldn't remember which year it was, he only knew it was a very cold winter.He had a high fever, and his whole body was so feverish that he was unconscious, but he was still in a daze and refused to go to the hospital because he thought it was cold outside.Si Jinqing couldn't hold him back, so he had to find a private doctor to come to the door in person.

In the past few days, Si Jinqing turned down all the company affairs for him, and took two days off to take care of him at home.

Xia Shensheng was a bit clingy when he was sick, and after Si Jinqing fed him the medicine, he pulled his sleeve to prevent him from leaving.Si Jinqing had no choice but to take off his coat and lie beside him to coax him to sleep, but Xia Shenyan was also uncomfortable, sweating all over his body, pulling the quilt constantly, and his breathing was not smooth.

Knowing that he was not feeling well, Si Jinqing sat up from the bed, wrapped Xia Shenyan's body in a quilt and put it on his lap, letting Xia Shenyan sit on him with his chin resting on his shoulder.Then she patted him on the back slowly while shaking him with her legs, humming softly the song he likes to listen to.As soon as Xia Shenyan groaned and wanted to push the quilt, Si Jinqing kissed his forehead and coaxed him softly. It lasted like this for most of the night before Xia Shenyan fell into a drowsy sleep.

Originally, Xia Shenyan shouldn't remember these tender feelings after burning like that, but that long and unexpectedly warm night suddenly became so deeply etched in his heart at a certain moment, and he couldn't forget it even if he wanted to.Occasionally, when he thought of it, it was like being cut by a blunt knife, and he couldn't breathe in pain.

Those who swim in the dark all year round cannot see the light.

Xia Shenyan originally thought that Si Jinqing might take him back to Xin You when he came this time, but Si Jinqing not only did not take him away, but he also did not leave himself. He probably came in a hurry and did not bring any clothes, so he On the first day I came here, I went to the town to buy clothes, and then I settled down quietly.

Of course, their current situation is not suitable for sleeping together.Si Jinqing slept in the guest room, next to the master bedroom.

The relationship between the two has changed a lot compared to before, as if an inexplicable bondage has been added to the original warmth.

Si Jinqing finally no longer had files and computers in his hands.He will cook for Xia Shenyan, and when he is bored, he will tease the old cat who comes over on time at noon every day to collect the heat. If he has nothing to do, he will hold a book and sit next to Xia Shenyan who is also reading in a chair Read quietly.

Xia Shenyan is very happy and enjoys it very much. He is probably also selfish, but he doesn't like the short time like a song even more.

Dreams will wake up.

He and Si Jinqing once had an unspeakable relationship, and now Si Jinqing has a fiancée, so it is inappropriate for him to stay here with Xia Shenyan.

So on a rainy afternoon, Xia Shenyan finally couldn't help asking him.

"Chi... Miss, do you know you're here?"

Si Jinqing was taken aback, and unconsciously rubbed the corner of the book with his finger, but said lightly, "Why do you want her to know?"

Xia Shenyan pursed her lips, grabbed the palm of her hand, and said hesitantly, "She is your fiancee."

Si Jinqing didn't speak.Her thin lips were pursed, looking a little displeased, and the profile of her face was tense.The air froze for no reason, and Xia Shenyan could feel Si Jinqing's sudden depression.

Xia Shenyan felt that he might have asked something out of bounds, so he closed his mouth in embarrassment, and continued to turn to read the book absent-mindedly.

For a long time after that, neither of them continued on this topic.Si Jinqing refused to say, Xia Shenyan naturally didn't dare to ask again.

Si Jinqing stayed here for a week, and even the opposite door, Uncle Zhang, knew him, and asked Xia Shenyan who he was.Xia Shenyan told the truth, saying that he was a relative, he smiled and said: "You are so young."

Xia Shenyan smiled and said nothing.

So sometimes Xia Shenyan even wondered, is he punished by heaven?Everything he loves but can't get is torture against God's will.

If so, he has nothing to say.

Xia Shenyan's illness has always been hidden from Si Jinqing, and he hides his medicine in his personal belongings. Si Jinqing respects him very much and will not go through his things casually.

He also quietly greeted Uncle Zhang and told him that he didn't want to make him sad for the time being. Uncle Zhang was reluctant, but he still agreed.

But who is Si Jinqing, the cheetah in the shopping mall, who can tell at a glance that something is wrong with Xia Shenyan. Xia Shenyan has been prevaricating him, saying that he is not suitable for the change of seasons, and he is a bit overwhelmed by the legacy of his stomach.

Now that the weather is turning cold, even if Si Jinqing wanted to take Xia Shenyan to Nanyang City Central Hospital for an examination, he did not dare to go because of his health.

Usually in this season Xia Shenyan usually does not go out except for work, and every winter his workload will be suppressed by Si Jinqing.His physique is too poor, and he can easily get sick when he catches a cold. Si Jinqing used to not let him go out to film in winter, but Xia Shenyan insisted, so he couldn't say anything, so he could only follow his footsteps and help him The crew arranges the best conditions.

Xia Shenyan's current situation, except for his paler complexion and thinner person, the symptoms are actually the same as the previous cold, so Si Jinqing will not doubt it for a while.

Although he knew that he would know sooner or later, Xia Shenyan still wanted to hide it for a while, it was better than Si Jinqing knowing that he would be sent to the operating table in such a cold weather in the future.

For Xia Shenyan, Si Jinqing's arrival was a panic-stricken salvation, and it was also an invisible torture that could make him easily flustered.

When he didn't come, Xia Shenyan was afraid that this person would come; now that he is here, he was worried that he would leave.

Xia Shenyan is used to being alone, and it is estimated that no one will be interested in his life except Si Jinqing.He really couldn't bear the emptiness after any sweetness, so he tried his best to keep the most suitable distance from Si Jinqing.

However, it is always difficult for people to control their emotions when they are vulnerable, especially when there is no sanity at all.

Xia Shenyan didn't understand why there was lightning and thunder at night in Nanyang winter.

He was not afraid of thunder, but he was worried that the air would become stuffy when it rained the next day.

But he seems to be a child who will never grow up in Si Jinqing's heart.

He almost forgot that before the age of 20, he was also very afraid of this kind of night when lightning struck the sky, but he didn't need to think too much at that time.He could open Si Jinqing's door privately in the middle of the night, get into his quilt, and curl up in his arms.

Later, Si Jinqing didn't lock the door to make it easier for him to escape.

He can still stay by Si Jinqing's side logically, enjoying the sweetness and warmth with peace of mind.

The thunder was loud that night, and the lightning struck the sky as bright as day. Si Jinqing was worried that Xia Shenyan would be afraid to sleep alone, so he knocked on his door in the middle of the night.

At that time, Xia Shenyan was suffering from an illness. In the deafening thunder and the terrible scene of dawn, he curled up with his hands on his stomach, and his whole body was in convulsions and pains, as if his body was split in half by the lightning. .

Dazed in pain, he actually agreed to let Si Jinqing into the room.When Si Jinqing saw his dying and painful appearance, he thought he was frightened by Lei. Without thinking for a while, he lifted the quilt and pulled him into his arms, coaxing him to hold him, holding him in his ear. He coaxed softly and softly, "Don't be afraid."

Xia Shenyan felt a lot more relaxed when he first smelled the familiar fragrance.

He knew that he was despicable, and relying on the fact that he was still tormented by the illness and lost his mind, he groped and leaned into Si Jinqing's arms, enduring the pain that was still wreaking havoc into his arms.

After many years, he finally hugged that man's thin waist again, and he could even hear the powerful and beating heart in his chest.

And he could only call him in a humble low voice, begging: "Hug me..."

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