Leftover temperature

I'm Si Jinse.

My younger brother is Si Jinqing.As the young master of the Si family, he was also the greatest pride in my life.

And I never thought that I would destroy my pride with my own hands.

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Jinqing and I grew up together.But even if we live in one place, we live far apart because of different responsibilities.

He has been an eye-catching presence since birth.He is the hope of the Si family and also the future of the Si family.

However, it is precisely because of the arduous task that his life is very different from mine.

As the only eldest daughter of the Si family, I was spoiled by the tribe.

Growing up, no matter what I want or do, I can almost get what I want.

I am a real princess living in a castle.At the same time, she is also receiving a good high-quality education, so she is not as ignorant as an ordinary young lady in terms of warmth and well-being.

I have many friends in school, and there are countless people who flatter me and rely on me.It is also common to be pursued and admired because of a wealthy family background and outstanding appearance.

And my love affair first opened in the sophomore year of high school.

This was the biggest calamity in my life, because of this calamity, I lost everything in the end.

His name is Xiao Ling, my class monitor, he is the most charming boy I have ever seen with a smile.

He has excellent grades and is a very nice person.That year the teacher arranged our seats together and asked him to take me to study.

He is very patient, never swears in his mouth, he is polite and polite to girls, and many girls like him.

He is an only child, born in an ordinary working family, and his parents have stable jobs.He is very economical and doesn't buy things randomly. He usually only has a few sets of clothes, and he doesn't pursue famous brands and big money, and he doesn't care who looks down on him or not.

This kind of him is actually not particularly attractive, but I just like him inexplicably.

He is very good to me, he will help me bring breakfast, give me lectures, stand up for me, and like to pinch my face, and when other girls come to him, he will put his face on the table and smile look at me.

I don't know why I'm so tempted.

But he is really good.

Obviously the clothes on his body are only a thousand, but because I like a very expensive skirt, he secretly went out to work and saved a long time to buy it for me as a birthday present.

That is the most special and precious dress I have ever received.

Later, I was with him, from the sophomore to the senior year of high school, for six years.

In fact, the trajectory of my life should not have been like this.

I should obey my parents, study abroad, and become one of the dignified and upright ladies.

But I don't want to, I hate him, I like him.

His kindness to me has not been diluted by time.

He treats me as always, even if there is occasional friction, he will call me awkwardly to apologize after a while, or just break into my dormitory and risk being headshot by the dormitory aunt and angrily say to me "Why can't you coax me."

He's childish and cute, but I like it like hell.

I thought that the Si family would not allow me to be with him, so when I had a showdown with them, I had already bet everything on me, and as expected, I was opposed.

I was devastated, but I still couldn't make up my mind to leave the Si family, and I didn't dare to contact him for several days.

And when I was most hesitant, Jinqing appeared.

At that time, he was already a young boy out of dust.But he is a bit precocious, not very talkative, cold.Only when I see me, there will be a trace of tenderness and warmth uncontrollably in those eyes that are as quiet as stagnant water.

I was at a loss, crying and asking my younger brother helplessly: "What should I do? I like him so much, but they won't let me be with him..."

My brother was silent for a long time, until I stopped sobbing, I heard him say in a low voice: "Sister, I will always support you."

So I finally severed ties with the Si family, eloped with Xiao Ling, and left Xin You.

Everything went well in the beginning.We graduated from college, went to a strange city, rented a small house, and each found a good job. Although we were tired, we were happy.

He has always been good to me, I love him very much, and as time goes on, I love him more and more.

His eyes are bright and pure, and he says he loves me firmly and sincerely.

I thought we could go on like this forever.

But his change came too suddenly.

It wasn't the years of dislike that made them alienate, but a sudden change, gradually becoming less fond of laughing.Although he didn't lose his temper with me, he became indifferent.I had a relationship with him, and he stopped coaxing me, and he would not go home for several days if he said "make trouble for no reason".

Thinking about it now, if I had cared more about him and thought about it more, would I have discovered that something was wrong with his sudden change earlier?

But at that time, I was still an ignorant girl. I needed a sense of security and became suspicious.Once or twice, I will reflect on whether I am really too self-willed. Gradually, the number of times increases, and I will be afraid and suspicious.

So after another quarrel I followed him.

Then I just watched him enter a gay bar.

At that moment, the five thunderbolts were nothing more than that.

But I don't believe it, he never lied to me.

I used to believe that in this world, everything can be disguised, except love.

Later I discovered that love is the best thing to pretend.

Of course, when I was old, I gradually realized that his love for me had never deteriorated, but was drowned in my long and painful past with the torrent.

After all, that night, I saw him and another man kissing in the empty and blurred box.

I forgot everything in an instant, and I just felt extremely sick.So much so that I will never forget this scene, and even after seeing gays for many years, I will subconsciously feel sick to my stomach.That's why, when I learned that my proud brother was gay, I resented it so much.

What's more, the person Jinqing likes has eyes similar to Xiao Ling's.

I don't remember how I got home that day, I only know that the next day after that I asked him about it plainly, and he was silent for a while, leaving only a sentence of "you go", and then slammed the door and left.

My heart is ashamed, and of course I won't stay here again to bring shame on myself.

When I was young, I just died in that noisy midsummer that year.

After I left from him, I didn't go back to Si's house. I didn't have the face to go back, and I didn't dare to go back, so I wandered alone for a long time.Later, I passed out in the hotel, and when I opened my eyes, I was lying in the room I used to be, and my younger brother was standing on the head of the bed, with red eyes, silent.

Then I found out I was pregnant.

I was in a trance for a long time, and when I realized it, I wanted to abort the child like crazy, but when I lay on the operating table as I wished, I regretted it again.

Every time my father came to see me, he would scold me severely. Later, when he saw that his once lively and cheerful daughter had become taciturn, he couldn't bear to blame me anymore, and the number of visits decreased.It is the mother who often sheds tears secretly.

I told them that I wanted to keep the child, and they agreed after a while.

But there is one condition, I must get married.

After all, getting pregnant before marriage would hurt the face of the Si family, and at that time, I no longer cared about my future.

It's just that my child has to be hidden for a few years first.After all, my status was embarrassing at that time.The news of abandoning the family and eloping with others has already spread inside and outside, so a child can't appear so soon, leaving a handle for others to play with.

So the child's external age has always been false.

So I have to gain a firm foothold in the Si family, so that those people don't dare to chew my tongue behind my back anymore.I also have to protect my children.

I agree to all the conditions, I have no problem.

So I got married to a man I hadn't met a few times in such a daze.

Jinqing approached me before we got married, and he asked me, "Sister, are you happy?"

I smiled and said, "Whether I'm happy or not, this marriage has already been prepared for me."

The Si family has always only cared about profit.

After we got married, my husband and I respected each other as guests, and we got along peacefully.But in fact, they are just two strangers who are bound together for profit.

My husband probably knew that there was always someone in my heart, and that the father of my child was someone else.But he doesn't care about that at all.He only cares about how much profit the Si family will bring to their family.

But he is a very qualified husband, and he is kind and amiable to children who are not his own sons like a real father.He also never goes to those erotic places, and always pays attention to the scale of interacting with people.To the outside world, he is indeed a man who is good everywhere.

But I know, in fact, he is not afraid of me, he is afraid of the Si family.

Under his influence, I gradually sank into the glamorous skin of the Si family. I learned how to deal with others. I began to accept things that I used to avoid, and I even gradually got used to the dirty and bad things .

I began to ignore the world and ignore the warmth and warmth of human relationships.

But because of this, I climbed up step by step, and finally became a member of this family with high status and high status.

I almost forgot about myself.

And my only softness seems to be reflected only in my son and younger brother.

However, during the years when I was confused and lost, the distance between me and my brother has become farther and farther.Even though they are under the same roof, sometimes they only see each other once a whole year at the family annual banquet.

I thought my younger brother was strong enough and didn't need my help.

Later, I climbed to the position I dreamed of and was admired by others. Even my husband looked at me differently, and my parents were overjoyed. Only my younger brother became more and more distant from me, and looked at me as if it was nothing to do with me. stranger.

Like my people, I am full of hope for Jinqing, he is the pride and belief of the whole family.

In the future, his every step will be under Si's control.

I know in my heart that this is the mission and foregone conclusion of every Patriarch of the Si Clan.At that time, not only did I not have the slightest consciousness to save him and give him a hand, but I went to squeeze him together with those selfish wolves and tigers, forcing him to be a puppet of the Si family.

After all, at that time, I had already been in the Si family for many years, and I understood how deep the Si family's water was, and blindly resisting would only be counterproductive.Which patriarch in the history who tried to change this mutual checks and balances had a happy ending?

I don't want my brother to be a precedent for failure.

Originally, he was also very obedient, he would listen to the opinions of his clansmen, and do things that he should not be exposed to at his age in a numb and mechanical way. Fortunately, he is very smart and can learn everything very well.It is no exaggeration to say that he is Si's hope.

Sometimes I even forget that he is my younger brother, but morbidly regard him as the god of the family, respect and love him.I fused my flesh and blood into the Si family's profit chain, but I pushed my younger brother into a bigger abyss with my own hands.

But no one expected that a child would appear on the way and destroy this balance.

He began to rebel against the Si family.

At first, Xia Shenyan was kept by my side without telling my parents and me.Of course it is impossible for us not to know.But after thinking about it, Jinqing is already so old, it is normal to have normal physiological needs, even if it is just a 16-year-old child.

In fact, I didn't like Xia Shenyan very much at that time, and even because Jinqing liked men, I accused him at the Si family meeting, in order to warn him that it's okay to play around, but don't cross the line.

Yet I underestimated my brother.

If there is any similarity between him and me, it is probably the attitude towards feelings.

I should have thought that he would not be the kind of person who would play with a child's emotions at will, but when I realized it, it was a done deal, and he had already developed a heart of compassion.

I started to get scared, I was afraid that he would leave the Si family.His father is old, but even his father when he was young may not be as good as Si Jinqing now.Looking at the entire Si family, there is no one who can beat him. He is so powerful that even the ancient clan who usually suppress the Si family are afraid.

The Si family without him is like a fish out of water.

And my younger brother at that time still carried all my hopes.I want to use his perfect life to fill the regrets of my youth.

He has changed a lot in these years, and he and I are no longer the simple and ordinary sibling relationship as before.I don't know him well, but I know how terrible he is.So even if he realized that he had other thoughts, he didn't dare to act rashly.

I also thought about starting with Xia Shenyan.At the worst time, he even thought about killing the child secretly. They didn't get along very long, maybe he would forget about it after the incident, and would continue to stay in the Si family obediently as a puppet.

But Jinqing protects Xia Shenyan too well, our people have no chance.So we began to spare no effort to find this opportunity.

But then maybe he started to perceive our intentions, so he didn't take the risk of doing anything out of the ordinary.

He didn't move any more, so we naturally wouldn't do anything to Xia Shenyan.

But for the safety of the clan, and for Jinqing not to be questioned by others, I proposed to hold a clan banquet and ask him to bring Xia Shenyan over.

Unsurprisingly, he declined.

This proposal is personal and only he and I know whether to reject or be rejected.I wasn't surprised, but I didn't back down either, I said I wanted to meet Xia Shenyan.He thought for a long time before agreeing.

I first met Xia Shenyan when he was 19 years old.He is not short, but not tall for a boy of his age. He is good-looking, gentle and polite.

He seemed to be a little afraid of me, with his eyebrows lowered all the time, stirring his long, white fingers uneasily.

He was wearing a very clean white shirt on his upper body and regular black trousers on his lower body.The bangs are a little long, slightly covering the delicate eyebrows and eyes.

But the first thing I noticed were his eyes.

Those eyes are all too familiar to me.

Clear and clear, like a clear brook in the mountains, with the sparkling sky floating on the ripples, innocent and brilliant in the flow.

Much like that guy.

At that moment, I felt a chill almost immediately, and then pushed him far away from me in involuntary disgust.

"Enough is enough."

The cold voice was sullen, and the cold eyes fell on me.I raised my head and met Jinqing's icy eyes.

He embraced the bewildered Xia Shenyan in his arms, and looked at me sharply and coldly.

I suddenly felt a little sorry, but when I thought of that person and Xia Shenyan's eyes that were so clear that it made people palpitate, I immediately felt disgusted.

So I stared fiercely at the person in his arms, and said with a sneer: "If you don't learn well at such a young age, you have learned the vicious skills of a prostitute."

He didn't seem to understand what I said last, and he was still clutching Si Jinqing's sleeve tightly.I know he's not acting, he's really scared.But I'm that bad.

"Get out."

That was the first time Jinqing spoke to me like that regardless of any feelings.His voice was deep, his brows and eyes were cold, and I saw a violent man like never before.

I looked at him in disbelief, was stunned for a while, then laughed, and reminded: "Si Jinqing, have you forgotten what you promised us?"

"Go away." He still said.

I was sad and angry at the same time, and I couldn't choose what to say in a fit of anger.

"You also like an idiot with a defective IQ, Si Jinqing, do you have vulgar taste?"

He covered Xia Shenyan's ears and roared angrily: "Si Jinse, I'll say it one last time, get out of my house!"

That time, he was the one who made people kick me out.

Since then, I have never had the opportunity to step into his house, and I have never had the opportunity to meet Xia Shenyan except on the screen.

But Jinqing fulfilled his promise.

In just a few years, he did as we expected, leading the entire Si family to several higher floors. Under his leadership, the Si family reached an unprecedented heyday.

He did it.

I am happy for him and proud of him.

The whole family is in awe of him, and even those old-fashioned people who were once dissatisfied with his youth are convinced by this step.

But none of us thought that this would be a sign that he would start to rebel against the Si family.

He performed so well that I was also kept in the dark by him.

At that time, he had already separated from Xia Shenyan, and even announced that he would be engaged to Miss Chi's family, Chi Beining, but we were still complacent thinking that we had broken things off.

When we came back to our senses, it was too late.At that time, whether it was the entire Si family or the internal core of the Si family, he had almost been included in his pocket.

After many years, the long-lost anxiety surrounded me again.

I knew it would be useless to look for him, so I turned to Xia Shenyan.

I'm not stupid. After all the things he's done over the years are put together, you can understand who he is for.

At that time, Xia Shenyan was already 25 years old.

I had a chance to meet him at an internal dinner.I came anonymously and blocked him in the box.

What surprised me was that he changed so much that I could hardly recognize him.

He became more and more handsome and clean, gentle and delicate.He was wearing a well-tailored light gray suit, which was a bit big on his body, but it didn't violate the harmony, on the contrary, he had a different kind of tallness.

And he is no longer the kid who hid behind Si Jinqing's back when he saw me in fear.

His facial features are clear and delicate, gentle and elegant, and his gestures are comfortably alienated and polite, and he behaves appropriately.When he saw me, he seemed not surprised at all, as if he had expected it a long time ago.

"Miss Si." He nodded to me lightly, polite and polite.It is indeed the tone that should be given to a stranger.

I froze for a moment, nodded, and was about to say something when he smiled lightly and said, "Did Miss Si come here to tell me about President Si?"

This time I really couldn't believe it.

He didn't flinch in fear, on the contrary, I couldn't say a word for a while.

"Don't worry, I know myself." He said with a smile.

I was stunned for a while, and suddenly felt a little bored. I frowned uncomfortably, and said, "Jinqing is the head of the Si family, and the Si family cannot live without him."

He smiled and said, "I know."

Just when I thought I had persuaded him, I heard him say: "But he is also a person, he has his own thoughts and freedom, neither I nor the Si family, nor Miss Si, you are qualified to shut him down." Hold him."

I squinted my eyes and sneered after realizing what he said: "What do you know? The Si family is his responsibility."

He was still so polite, his face never changed a bit, but he didn't answer my words, but said: "Miss Si, your so-called responsibility is to let him be a puppet of the Si family for the rest of his life?"

I was taken aback, and looked at him sharply.

How could he know this?Isn't he IQ defective and doesn't understand anything?

But before I could continue to think about it, he said, "Miss Si, I want to ask you something."

I frowned. I was already restless at the moment, and I didn't think much about it. I subconsciously asked, "What?"

He lowered his eyes, and there seemed to be some emotion in his eyes, and then disappeared quickly.Then I heard him say, "I'd like to make a deal with you."

I looked at him puzzled.

"I can help you get him to leave me," he said, "and I can have his memory erased."

I was startled, looked at him in disbelief, and suddenly felt that the person in front of me was so strange.

He seemed to have noticed my astonishment, and said with a smile: "You don't have to be so surprised. To tell you the truth, my time is numbered."

My heart trembled, and I looked at him in astonishment and said, "What do you mean?"

He paused, lowered his eyes and smiled, and said indifferently, "I only have five years to live."

five years of life...

Does Jinqing know?

"Miss Si, give me some time with him in these five years."

"I will stay away from him slowly. I only have one condition, I just hope you don't force him anymore, he has not been very happy these years. I know I am not qualified to say this to you, but I think you are his sister, you You should understand."

After he said this lightly, without staying any longer, he nodded politely to me, then turned and left.

I looked at his back, watched his figure drown in the crowd, and then disappeared around the corner, suddenly like a dream.

After that, Xia Shenyan did indeed do what he said.

In those few years, he had almost no contact with Si Jinqing, and Jinqing never made any bold moves.

But what Xia Shenyan said to me before leaving still made me uneasy.

Think about it carefully, has Jinqing really been happy all these years?

He seems to have never had anything in particular he wanted since he was a child, and he has no one he loves very much.It wasn't until Xia Shenyan appeared that he seemed to be a normal human being with independent thoughts and life.And as the elder sister, I actually forced him to continue to be that walking dead frame just like those people.

What have I done all these years?

But I thought again, did I really do something wrong?Everything I do is for the Si family, since I can do everything for the Si family, why can't he?He is the original head of the Si family, and this is his born responsibility.

This questioning continued until Xia Shenyan left.

I thought that Xia Shenyan's voluntary departure would make him give up, but I didn't expect that it would become the fuse for him to break the relationship with the Si family.

At that time, his influence was already so strong that the Si family could not track him down, so he left the Si family in such a silent manner without showing any sympathy. For half a year, we couldn't even find a trace of him.

Only then did I realize how important Xia Shenyan was to him.

It's so important that he can tear off the balance film with Si Shi at any time for him.

Is it really worth it?

I don't understand.

Just after everyone in the Si family thought that he had taken Xia Shenyan to retreat completely, someone suddenly contacted us through an unknown dark net.

The man told us that as long as we did what he said, he could help us find Si Jinqing.

Little tricks like his father breaking his leg in a hurry and his mother going to the emergency room are not worth mentioning to Jinqing, and he might be able to see the flaws without looking too deeply.

That's why we can't do anything about his departure.

But that man made Si Jinqing believe everything so easily.

I don't know how he did it, but I have some bad premonition in my heart.

The day Si Jinqing decided to return to the Si family, the man told us in advance, so we were able to surround him quickly and accurately.

That same day, that person sent me the last message, and he told me: Xia Shenyan is going to die.

I thumped in my heart, I didn't expect that I would suddenly panic.

I asked who he was, and why he knew everything, but no matter how many times I sent him messages, that person never replied to me.Then, the dark web was destroyed, all the chat records between me and him were smashed, and that person disappeared as if he had never appeared.

I thought I would be very angry after seeing Jinqing, but the anger only came out for a moment when I saw him, but it collapsed when I saw his panicked expression.

Xia Shenyan was about to die.

This sentence has been in my mind continuously since I saw him.

Why did Xia Shenyan die on this day?

Why did Jinqing just come back to the Si family?

I dare not think about it any further.

At this time, Jinqing was unaware.And I can't imagine what it will be like when he goes back and finds out about it.

So I relented and let him go halfway.

I shut myself in my room the whole day after he left.

I am waiting for news.

In that quiet afternoon, I thought a lot by myself.I thought of my taciturn younger brother who protected me with his thin body when I was young, and thought of my brother's unconditional support when I was going to pursue happiness and freedom.

Jinqing has been good since he was a child. He is very obedient and smart. He knows everything.Because I was his only playmate since childhood, so he cherishes me and loves me, I know it.

And as he grew older, he was oppressed more and more by the Si family, and his every move over the years was under the supervision of everyone in the Si family.

He also longed for freedom.

and I?What am I doing?

I, who loved him the most when I was a child, ruined everything about him.

The next day, someone came to tell me that Xia Shenyan was dead.

My mind went blank, and Nene stood up from the sofa.When my hand touched the cold handle of the door, I was a little afraid to go out.

I'm afraid.

Soon my parents also knew about it.I thought they would be happy, after all, for them, Xia Shenyan is Jinqing's greatest resistance, and if the resistance is gone, they will naturally be able to control him better.

But unexpectedly, after hearing this sentence, they fell silent for an instant.

The mother was in a daze for a while, she had been in a daze since Jinqing left, and now she heard the news, she couldn't help crying softly.

Rarely did my father not speak out to reprimand him for his behavior as a woman, and he was not as happy and relaxed as I imagined. Instead, his face sank and he sighed after a long time.

In the next few days, inexplicably, the entire Si family was shrouded in a low pressure.

Xia Shenyan was cremated on the fifth day of the lunar new year.

On the sixth day, Si Jinqing came back, holding Xia Shenyan's ashes.

And in just a few days without seeing him, I hardly recognize him.

He is no longer the high-spirited Patriarch of the Si family, and he no longer sees the bright moon entering the sea.

It's not just me, the Si family went up and down, from parents and clansmen to servants and subordinates. When they saw him, they couldn't say anything except shock and sadness.

He didn't bring anyone else with him this time except Ren Zhan and Xia Shenyan.

He didn't enter the house, and stood in the Si family's compound facing the heavy snow for half an hour, then knelt in the snow with Xia Shenyan's ashes in the snow, kowtowed three times in the direction of his parents, then turned and left, from beginning to end , without saying a word.

I was suddenly terrified and I didn't think I could just let him go, so I grabbed him just as he was about to leave.

Maybe I should scold him and call someone to lock him up, but when I looked into his dead eyes, those words were all blocked in my throat, extremely sour.

We were silent with each other for a long time, and finally he turned his head to look at me stiffly, and said to me in that broken and shapeless voice: "He is dead, are you happy?"

"Jinqing..." I wanted to say something, but I didn't know what else to say at this moment.

"Get what you want, be overjoyed." He said calmly, "The illness six years ago has dragged on until now. What did you tell him, how much the Si family forced him, he never Tell me. Sometimes I really don’t know whether it’s luck or misfortune that he met me.”

I watched his car slowly disappear into the heavy snow, and suddenly felt that I had lost something again.

On the seventeenth day of the new year, Ren Zhan told me that Jinqing had died.

In a small town in Nanyang, he committed suicide by cutting his wrist while holding Xia Shenyan's ashes.

My brain exploded with a bang, and I passed out at home.When I woke up again, it was already a day later, and they told me that Jinqing's body had been cremated.

I asked why Ren Zhan didn't let me see him for the last time.

Ren Zhan was silent for a long time before he said to me: "The master said that he doesn't want to see you again."

I burst into tears.

I didn't go to the day when his ashes were mixed with Xia Shenyan's and were to be buried in Shixi Mountain.

I have no face to go.

In fact, according to the family rules, he should be buried in Si's cemetery, but he doesn't want to, and we don't have the face to trap him with Si's anymore.

After Jinqing left, the Si family was no longer as good as before.

When the parents heard the news, they entered the hospital one after another, and the two elders didn't have time to send them off for the last time.

Half a year later, my mother passed away. Before leaving, she took my hand and said to me, "Scatter mother's ashes in the deep mountains. Mother has been trapped here all her life, and she also wants to see the mountains and rivers."

I agreed to her and did the same, my father didn't stop me.

After the mother left, the father's health also failed, and he became confused. He no longer had the energetic appearance before, and he was no longer the strict patriarch who used his arms to resist the entire Si family.

In the next few years, the Si family gradually declined, from great prosperity to great decline, only a short ten years.

And not long after that, my husband and I divorced.

It was I who filed for divorce.Of course, there is no other reason, he is very good, he has been very good to me and my children these years, but I don't want to live under the shadow and control of the Si family anymore.

When I was 55 years old, with the decline of the Si family, some things that had been covered up gradually surfaced.

This year, my people found some things.

At that time, my physical condition was already very poor, and the appearance of that incident was undoubtedly a fatal blow.

It's about Xiao Ling.

My subordinates told me that he passed away 30 years ago.It was suicide by slit throat.

He gave me a piece of information about the truth about the whole incident that year.

He didn't apologize to me, but was coerced by the Si family to perform that scene in front of me, which made me return to the Si family willingly and successfully, and became a tool of the Si family.

Later, the Si family was afraid that I would find out the truth if my deeds were ruined, so they forced me to marry someone else, and forced him to cut his own throat with a knife.

He is so afraid of pain, he is a person who would groan at me for a long time after being pricked by a needle, what kind of persecution and despair made him make up his mind to commit suicide in this way.

The Si family hid the news of his death so tightly that I didn't know until 30 years later that my boy had already left me.

And I used my youthful regrets to kill my younger brother with my own hands.

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