Died Before the Wedding

One day in advance, Xie Chenmin called all his relatives and friends, including his relatives, friends, colleagues and classmates, and of course the three outstanding roommates.

The group chat of "Anti-Xie Chenmin Union" is still there, but there are fewer chats and less contacts.

They don't know I'm dead yet.

He turned on the speakerphone with the volume turned up to maximum.Move the lucky small bowl of dog food to the feet to attract the big dog, Xie Chenmin will pet its white head while talking.

It's like sharing the blessings on the other side of these phones with someone.

For the sake of his poor fortune, I don't mind him pawing.

I hear every single one of them.

He said, Lin Chu and I are getting married.

they said.

That's awesome, Xie Chenmin, why did Brother Lin agree, did you record it, send it over quickly and I'll listen to it.

It becomes legal to throw dog food in the future, can I still live in the future?

Brother Min and Brother Lin gave birth to a precious son early, and they have been together for a hundred years.

Xie Chenmin rubbed Zhaocai's head and said, thank you.

I heard the other side of each phone call silent for a while, not just a coincidence or a tacit understanding of four years, and then they all asked, Brother Min, what's wrong with you.

The former Xie Chenmin should go back one by one, and then meet for a meal when he is happy. In short, he would not say thank you.

They made an appointment with "no thank you between great love", and they will be fined to treat guests if they say thank you.

Xie Chenmin said, happy, so happy that I was a little nervous.

The silence was relieved for a while, they seemed to think that Xie Chenmin's reaction was the maturity polished after several years, and the emotion of persevering to this point despite the hardships, as if they understood Chinese reading.

They said, where is Brother Lin?

He said he was asleep.

When they returned, it was already dawn, hurry up and ask Lin Ge to get up and answer the phone.

Xie Chenmin smiled, how dare I.

They finally relaxed and said, yo, the years have worn down our Brother Min's face.

I heard his relatives were silent for a long time, some said to take care of themselves, and some hung up the phone directly.

I heard the voice on the other side of the phone mixed with scattered cool rain, or embarrassing and hypocritical pandering.

But Xie Chenmin remained the same, the first thing he said after dialing was, Lin Chu and I are getting married.

I don't know why he made these calls, I just watched him finish and stayed there for a long time.

Zhao Cai licked his fingers.

He came back to his senses, looked at Zhaocai, and dialed the phone again.

He said to his mother, Mom, take care of me for a few days to attract money.

His mother didn't ask any more questions, she just said, yes.

She added another sentence, don't let it be alone for too long, it has spirituality and will miss people.

She said, Xiaochu is gone, so let him accompany you.

I saw Xie Chenmin's black pupils looking out aimlessly in a daze, and then turned to Zhaocai at hand.

Zhaocai looked at him, stuck out his tongue, and tilted his head.

He said, oh.

To attract money is to think about people.

Up to now, it still hides the blanket that Jinbao sleeps on its stomach in the nest, and no one will let it move.

Every day after welcoming Xie Chenmin back, he would habitually turn his head to the door and wait for a while.

I remember when he gave it to me, it was very small.It is too smart, and it is timid to please me in an unfamiliar environment, for fear of being thrown away again.

Xie Chenmin said, Chu, you have been waiting for me for a few years, and I will go to your city.

When you are alone, let this little guy accompany you.

By the way, it's called Lin Zhaocai.

I think this guy will remember my temperature and smell.Every night when it has nightmares, it always likes to arch its white dog's head into my elbow.

My co-workers asked me if I was single.

I said no.

They said, why haven't you seen your partner.

I said, he is not in this city.

They laughed and advised you that long-distance relationships don't last long.

I said, well.

He is not in this city, but he is by my side.

Lucky luck is miserable, Xie Chenmin, as a Samoyed can be disassembled just like a Erha.Every day when it wakes me up with its tail and tongue, I feel like some fool never left.

……

Xie Chenmin hung up the phone and said to Zhaocai, are you afraid of being alone.

Zhaocai's black eyes looked at him bewilderedly.

He thought about it, and put it another way, are you afraid of a dog?

I don't know if Zhaocai understood or not, but he let out a bark anyway.

Xie Chenmin rewarded it by stealing a piece of dog food from the lucky bowl.He stroked the dog's head and said, me too.

I don't know what it feels like, like swallowing a glass of ice water in a cold night, the hysterical coolness stung my internal organs, and my beating blood was frozen.

I stretched out my stiff and empty hand, vainly trying to touch his head.

Xie Chenmin stood up suddenly, his body passed through my palm, and I probably touched a living heart.

He said, you wait here for a while.

Zhaocai groaned, and Xie Chenmin's figure running out in a hurry was reflected in his eyes.

……

I remember my birthday that year, I worked overtime.

I'm too busy to look at my phone.

Until the traffic in the city continued to flow in the steel cage, the night didn't know how deep it was.

I just remembered that today is my birthday.

It was cold at night.The tip of my nose was a little red from the cold, and I was finally free to take out the mobile phone that I forgot to charge yesterday and left a pitiful tenth of it.

Xie Chenmin didn't speak for a day.

I remembered that he said yesterday that he had something to go out tomorrow, so he might not be able to reply to my message in time.

He may have forgotten, and with his busy schedule, the meaning of this day is not so important.This is understandable.I put down my phone, wrapped my clothes tightly, and caught the last subway.

The lights and shadows outside the window are more colorful than people's life. I can't appreciate these bustling arts, I just feel noisy, and I tilt my head to take a nap for a while.

I just arrived home as usual and met Xie Chenmin.

He was sitting on the stairs in front of my rental, sitting quietly with a stray dog ​​that had been lost.

He saw me from a long distance, didn't speak, and kept his eyes on me, staring at me resentfully as I walked over.

I took my words for a while, and said, aren't you busy? Why are you here?

He was still sitting on the stairs, looking up at me.

I seem to see some anger in his eyes.

He stuffed the box on my side into my arms, and said coldly, I will have two days off today and tomorrow, so I wish you a happy birthday.

I said, what's wrong with you.

He said, I'm going back.

I didn't understand, grabbed his wrist and said, where are you going? If you are on vacation, you can stay here tonight.

He said, I'm here to break up with you.

My heart skipped a beat suddenly, and then I choked on my chest, all I could say was, what.

Xie Chenmin said, let me go.

I held on to it, and asked suspiciously, tell me clearly, what is the matter.

He took a deep breath and said, I am very angry with Lin Chu right now.

I've never felt so scared, and I never thought about where Xie Chenmin's anger came from. I just tried to grab the straw that could save me, and pretended to be indifferent. Today is my birthday. If you want to break up, don't do it today. .

Xie Chenmin turned his head to look at me and said, Lin Chu, are you careless?

He said, you said it yourself, what did you promise me.

It's already 11:30 and you just came back.

Who promised me that I didn't have a night shift.

The neighbor's aunt said that you don't go home until ten o'clock every day.

You lie to me every day.

You also know that today is your birthday.Why don't you come back half an hour late and achieve the achievement of No Homecoming?

The computer smells so good, you can follow it in your next life, what do you want me to do.

Break up.

After many years, the ellipsis floated in my heart again.Embarrassedly swallowed a heart that was stuck.

I said, Xie Chenmin, you have something to say, can you stop being weird.

He said, I've been waiting for you here since the off-duty time you lied to me.

He got angry by himself, vented his own anger, and complained, in the end, with your attitude, you won't stay and comfort me?

That's okay, I won't break up with you today, tomorrow we will be strangers, we don't know each other, and you will send me to the station the day after tomorrow.

I really couldn't help laughing.

Laugh out some tears.

He said, you give me serious.

Scared the fuck out of me.

I opened the door and said, come in stranger.

Xie Chenmin came in like a balloon that wasn't fully deflated, watching Xiao Zhaocai wagging his tail to welcome me and licking my palm.I couldn't bear it anymore, and said to me awkwardly, I miss you, Chu.

I said, I miss you too.

Xie Chenmin's anger dissipated immediately.

Then it was time for me to settle the score with this stranger.

If it wasn't for his joking temper, I didn't know Xie Chenmin was so important to me.

The slightest harbinger of loss terrifies me.

I looked at him who was unpacking the cake box for me, and thought to myself, how can there be such a nice and stupid person.

His roommate said that he quit playing games and studied hard almost every day. He said that he is also a person with dreams, and it is in another city.

He ran from there to me, holding a custom handmade cake, and waited at the cold door from seven to eleven in the afternoon.

After he lost his temper, he carefully observed my expression, for fear that I would get angry with him for being unreasonable for a while.

It never occurred to him to blame me.

My eye sockets are a bit cold, and I can't see anything unusual under the light of a candle.

Xie Chenmin held Zhaocai and sang birthday songs to me. He sang surprisingly well, but this man was never honest. He kissed me on the cheek as if singing a prank.

Met a line of cool tears.

He was a little startled and said, Chu.

I said, don't talk.

Before the candlelight was extinguished, I made a wish, wishing it was a world with him in it.

I forgot what the cake tasted like, I just remember being a little crazy that day.

I could hear him leaning down, panting heavily in my ear, and said, Chu, do you want to take a break.

I said, whether you can do it or not, you can replace me.

He said, please forgive me.

……

Xie Chenmin bought a cake and came back, and cut two pieces to attract money.

Zhaocai took one piece back to the nest, put it on the blanket where the kitten used to sleep, ran back, and ate another piece beside him.

Xie Chenmin said, can you sing?

Zhaocai said, oh, oh.

Xie Chenmin sang.

He looked at the candlelight and said, happy birthday.

The candlelight clipped his appearance, his voice, reflected on my empty body, and it slowly began to take shape.

After twelve o'clock, today is my birthday, my first seven.

Even though I am the only one who can see my own form.