Died Before the Wedding

After Xie Chenmin finished his graduate studies, he was recruited to the headquarters of a well-known large company in the country.

This is the dream job of many people.

But he applied to go to the branch.

He fulfilled the promise he made to me when I graduated and came to the city where I am.

I watched his high-speed train pull into the station, saw him throwing his luggage and rushed over, and heard him say.

At first, I miss you.

I said, me too.

He said, I miss you more than you miss me.

I didn't bother with this big boy, I helped him on the back and said, let's go, Lucky is waiting for you.

Xie Chenmin was in his 20s at that time, he was tall, and he could be seen at a glance in the crowd.

He always likes to wear a white T-shirt and a red peaked cap, and his smile is very clean, like a ray of sunlight breaking through the clouds in the morning and entering the station.

His handsomeness is flawless and clear. It is the kind of appearance that people can't take their eyes off when they find him in the crowd.

At that time, the station was bustling with people, and there were countless bustling things outside the station that caught people's attention. My eyes stayed on him without any distractions.

I don't know why, but I just want to see him for a while.

Even when we first got together, when we were frantically entangled on the bed, I didn't look at him so carefully.

I said, in fact, you are quite handsome.

Xie Chenmin formatted his mind for a while, and after recovering, he said to me, Chu, you scared me.

I continued to say that my brain is a little bad.

If he had a tail, I guess it would be wagging by now.

The morning light entered his eyes.

In the crowd, he took my hand and held it tightly, my heart skipped a beat.Then it seemed that everything in front of me lost its color, only this fool who was holding me was in color.

He said, at first, I miss you very much.

I said, hmm.

He said, let's go open a room.

I said, go away.

If he's a dog, I'm guessing he's got Teddy blood mixed in.

……

Xie Chenmin slept until the afternoon, and when he got up, he sat up with his fried hair and a haze like thick red wine, and stayed alone for a long, long time.

He touched the side and shouted, Lucky?

No voice answered him.

He remembered that after celebrating my birthday, he sent the big dog to his mother in the early hours of the morning.

He sat alone in the dim sun, as lonely as a lone tree with no crows.

When I was alive, if I didn’t have a job, I would avoid taking a nap and oversleeping. When I woke up and found that the daylight in the sky had ended, I would feel an indescribable loneliness in my heart.

But when Xie Chenmin finished his graduate studies and came to me, I didn't have any worries.

Because there is always someone around when you wake up.

I landed on him and said, you bastard.

Today is my first seven, the only day I can touch him again.

But he did nothing all day and went to sleep.

I stood by the bed and gently stroked the side of my face with my fingertips.

I can touch it.

I can feel the temperature above belongs to him.

A gust of wind just passed by, and the white gauze curtains drew the footprints it left behind.

Xie Chenmin looked in the direction of the wind, as if looking at me.

My eyes were moist, and I thought, enough, this is enough.

It is enough for me to have another look at the light in this fool's eyes.

You've lost weight, idiot.

If I'm not by your side in the future, you have to cook for yourself, don't make instant noodles all the time.

If you feel lonely, find someone who loves you more than your love.

I won't mind, don't worry about it, and besides, I won't see it haha.

I just want you to be happy in the future.

From now on, go away and fly high, don't worry about anything, and take good care of your heart.

I'm sorry, I broke in irresponsibly, and forced my way out jokingly.

I've never cried like this in my entire life except when I was born human.

So choked up that I couldn't cry.

Live once for yourself and die once for him, this life is considered complete.

He can't hear me.

But he stood up, looked out the window, in my direction, dressed like crazy, and ran downstairs with the door unlocked.

He said to himself, Chu, don't go, don't, I'll go find you, wait for a while, just for a while.

My heart fluttered.

The gust of wind walked for a long time, opened the books and diaries on the table, and walked page by page, as if time passed between these pages.

The gust of wind passed by Qun Ye's side, took a few leaves to wander, or just left them trembling waves and nothing else.

The gust of wind went to the horizon.

Xie Chenmin stopped suddenly on the last step of the stairs.

He couldn't catch up.

I saw him standing there for a long time, and called out, Chu.

He said softly and a little aggrieved, just wait for me, just for a while, can't you just for a while.

I don't know what is covering my eyes, tears, or the shadow of less than half my life but like half my life.

The last clear picture I know is of him walking into the middle of the road.

On the other side of the sidewalk, the dazzling red light and the honking of the horn pierced the sky.

……

That day I remember he sent a voice to me and said, at the beginning, I set the wedding on your birthday.

I was at work and my fingers froze on the keyboard.

I said, very good.

His tone sounded like a child's exuberance looking forward to a trip.

He couldn't hide his surprise, and told me the secret he had kept for a long time.

He said, I wrote a program.

I thought I heard it wrong, so I smiled and said, what are you doing?

He said, I didn't invite a master of ceremonies, and the computer will read the white on that day.

I just want to laugh when I think of the scene where the Google girl's emotional mechanical voice asks "Would you like it?"

I smiled and said, are you out of your mind?

He said that fifteen pieces are missing, and when put together, it can just write a Lin Chu.

I said, love words have no effect on me.

He told the truth, think about it, it would be great for my rival to be my wedding witness.

The computer had messed with him after all.

I said, if there is a next life, I will choose to marry your love rival.

Ruthless man, he said.

Every member of the hustle and bustle in the city has a relaxed and happy daily life for himself, the daily noise, laughter, unintentional jokes, and mood at a certain time and place.

No one will worry about what is wrong with which frame in daily life, what is the historical commemorative significance of that period, these questions that extraordinary or destined people think about.

I thought I was like that too.

I never thought that this sentence "if there is a next life" was the last sentence I said to him before my death.

……

The doctor seemed to say that I had a chance to be rescued, but the driver deliberately injured me a second time.

Because the money I would pay if I die directly is less than the possible follow-up expenses after I am seriously injured.

I don't understand these things either, it seems like this is what I heard when my soul was still a little painfully connected to my body.

After an unknown amount of time, my ear nerves were dying to transmit the familiar ringtone of my mobile phone.

until it goes out.

……

I didn't expect that we would meet again in this way.

The cold lights of the operating room cast on his comatose body.

Beside him is a doctor who is expressionless and trying to rescue him.

Standing outside the door, his mother, his friend, and the panicked young driver rushed over after hearing the news.

The doctor said with great effort, "We're doing our best," and then closed the door.

The lights inside were on for an unknown amount of time.

When he stood in front of the operating bed and slowly opened his eyes, the doctor was still trying to save his weak pulse.

The two of us looked at each other.

He looked at me for a long time, until tears filled his eyes, and tremblingly said, Chu.

I looked exactly like him, and I said, you bastard.

Behind him, the doctor was sweating and said, tell the family to be ready, his life signs are too weak, we may...

He said, I know, you are always by my side, right?

There were tears on my cheeks, I went up and grabbed his collar, and said, what the hell... what the hell did you do!Give me a good time back in your body!

I saw no surprise in his eyes when he looked at the oncoming car.

I'm not stupid enough not to see that he did it on purpose.

I didn't expect him to be so stupid as to commit suicide.