Jujube

That night, after my brother fell asleep, I lay next to him and felt a nervous anxiety.The night was really quiet, and I heard my rapid breathing intertwined with my brother's sleeping snort, rising and falling one after another.

Unlike under the bed, I feel like I am falling asleep in lingering.

At that time, Lu Xinyao was approaching adulthood day by day, and he was taller than ever before. The beauty that he had revealed since he was a child became more and more prominent as his bones grew.The old matchmaker at the entrance of Baiquedang Village told Sun Yuemei that she had talked about so many marriages, and Lu Xinyao was born with the face of an official bridegroom—the only fly in the ointment was that he had a scar on his face.

I remember that when the gauze was removed from my brother's face, Sun Yuemei's face suddenly turned pale. The next day, she went to the pharmacy to buy ointment for scar removal, and asked Sun Yanming to bring it to Lu Xinyao, but Lu Xinyao threw it into the trash can Here, he doesn't seem to care about the scar on his face at all.

I wanted to get it back, but I didn't dare to disobey my elder brother. Later facts proved that even if there was a scar, it still didn't detract him from becoming someone else's groom.

The first time I saw Mei Qingqing was by the suspension bridge, she was wearing a floral skirt with two braids dangling on the butterfly bone.Pan Guizhi pointed at her, and a wisp of white smoke rose from the cigarette end between his fingers towards the direction of the bridge. He said to me, "Brother, do you see that, that is Mei Qingqing, your future sister-in-law."

I said I don't have a sister-in-law.

"Your brother likes Mei Qingqing," Pan Guizhi breathed out a puff of smoke at me, and said slowly in the smell of smoke, "...'s ass."

I asked Pan Guizhi which brother he was.

Pan Guizhi showed his teeth, and smiled at me: "Which brother are you talking about? What's the matter, brother, didn't your brother tell you?"

"You're talking nonsense, my brother doesn't like her."

"Hey, what's the matter, brother? Are you unhappy that brother is in love?" Pan Guizhi put his arms around my shoulders, flicked the cigarette ash, and said in a melodious tone while looking at the suspension bridge, "Yeah, stand on the bridge to see the scenery, look People from the scenery are looking at you upstairs——Mei Qingqing is waiting for someone, brother, you can see Lu Xinyao later..."

Pan Guizhi's voice stopped abruptly on my brother's name, and my brother suddenly appeared in our common field of vision, as if he was about to walk towards the suspension bridge.

"Hey, it's here." Pan Guizhi whistled briskly, tapped my shoulders rhythmically with his closed fingers, and suddenly said something.

He said: "Lu Xinyao really has a dick face."

The "groom's official face" in the old matchmaker's mouth turned into a dick face in Pan Guizhi's mouth. He looked into the distance, as if caught in a memory, and continued to insult my brother with vulgar and obscene words.

My eyes followed Lu Xinyao, as if he was the only one on the whole road, Pan Guizhi was clearly chattering in my ear, but I felt like I was standing alone on a high wall, and I only heard Lu Xinyao's voice saying: "Jump down!" .”

I subconsciously shook my head.

"I'll count to three, and I'll leave if you don't come down."

Lu Xinyao always kept his word and did what he said. On the count of three, I saw him walk away without looking away, away from the wall and me, and approach Mei Qingqing.

Pan Guizhi said to me at this time: "Go back and ask your brother, how does Mei Qingqing's ass work?"

I heard myself screaming terribly, and fell off the high wall. In the whirlwind, only Lu Xinyao's outline was clear.

"Brother!" I yelled at Lu Xinyao, tears drowned my brother in sight, and when I wiped it away, only Pan Guizhi's shocked face remained.

Pan Guizhi glared at me and said, "Meng Li! Is there something wrong with you?"

Pan Guizhi must have practiced sharp eyes, he saw the signs of my illness before it fully attacked, and I only saw my brother walking towards me.

Lu Xinyao turned his head towards me when I called him, and his eyes fell on my face with precision.I saw his eyes narrowed slightly - my brother's eyes are a little short-sighted, and when he narrowed his eyelids lowered to cover a little pupil, I felt that I was being watched intently by his eyes.

"Come here," he said to me.

I was about to leave, but Pan Guizhi's arm was firmly pressing on my shoulder. He said to my brother, "Long time no see, Lu Xinyao."

Lu Xinyao glanced at him, and said expressionlessly, "It can be longer."

I have seen my brother look at people with this kind of eyes. In my brother's eyes, Pan Guizhi is obviously a lump of dirty air.His originally smug expression froze for a moment on his face, and then he spoke again: "What's the matter, you don't care if I catch up with my brother?"

"Let's talk about the past with me first." Lu Xinyao said.

Pan Guizhi once had a fight with my brother, and he still seemed to have lingering fears. He turned pale for a moment, and was about to say something when Mei Qingqing from the other side of the suspension bridge called out "Lu Xinyao" in a clear voice.

I felt my heart constrict suddenly, and looked at my brother in panic.My brother didn't respond, but his brows were wrinkled, and he looked a little impatient.Lu Xinyao stretched out his hand to grab me, and pulled me out of Pan Guizhi's restraint. When my brother let go, I panicked and held on to his two fingers.

Pan Guizhi's face turned from white to blue, he looked at me, then at Mei Qingqing over there, his eyes rolled around subtly, and suddenly he showed a strange smile, and said in front of my brother: "Tsk... Lu Xinyao, you really have a dick face!"

A half-smile flashed across my brother's face, he ignored Pan Guizhi, lowered his eyes and said to me, "Go home."

I didn't dare to look back at Pan Guizhi, but he shrewdly saw through my thoughts and shouted behind me: "Brother, you really hurt brother's heart like this."

Lu Xinyao took a deep look at me, and pulled me away with the two fingers that were held.Mei Qingqing had already come over, and I smelled a fragrance, as if wafting from the hem of her floral skirt.

I always remember Mei Qingqing's appearance that day, her body in the skirt looked soft and full of vitality in the sun, and a few strands of hair fell down on her smooth neck.

"Is this your brother?" Mei Qingqing's voice was like a sweet date.

My brother said "hmm", and I saw Mei Qingqing's ruddy lips move, and said to Lu Xinyao, "Do you want to bring your brother with you?"

Pan Guizhi didn't lie, Mei Qingqing was waiting for my brother, they seemed to have made an appointment somewhere, and Lu Xinyao was about to abandon me.

However, I always guessed wrongly what my brother was thinking, he seemed to be easy to talk to in front of Mei Qingqing.Lu Xinyao actually asked my opinion: "Do you want to go?"

He didn't say where he was going, so I nodded.My brother didn't seem surprised at all, and didn't intend to say more, his eyes swept over me, and then said to Mei Qingqing: "Then let's go."

The skating rink in Baiquedang was built in the year of Lu Xinyao's high school entrance examination. I once sneaked in to find Lu Xinyao, but I dared not let him find out.This is the first time I was taken into the skating rink by my brother openly.

Lu Xinyao had a lot of cronies. As soon as he entered, a man named "Xiao Wu" came out at the front desk. He had dyed yellow hair and couldn't tell his age.

Xiao Wu took a few pairs of roller skates and said a few words to Lu Xinyao, then sat next to me and asked with a smile, "Brother, can you skate?"

I shook my head, and he said to me while putting on his roller skates: "No, it's okay, Little Angkor will take you to play, and keep it for one day to teach you."

As he spoke, he winked at my brother, then raised his chin in Mei Qingqing's direction.

At this time, someone changed their shoes and opened the door to go in. A deafening sound came from the crack of the door. Amidst the noise, I looked at my brother, and my brother also looked at me. We just looked at each other for a few seconds, and then My brother withdrew his gaze and said to Xiao Wu, "You go there first, I'll take him to play."

"Your brother is still afraid of life?" Xiao Wu looked at me sideways, tied his shoelaces and stood up, "tsk" twice, "That's all right, I'll go first." After walking for a while, he turned his head back , pointed to the front desk and said to me: "Brother, there are knee pads over there, wear them if you are afraid of falling."

"Are you afraid of falling?" Lu Xinyao asked.

I have been a coward since I was a child. I dare not cross the suspension bridge alone or climb the fence. A scarecrow can make me huddle in the rice field and dare not go home.But with my brother here, I am not afraid of anything.So I shook my head.

The roller skates are double row, but when I stood up, I still couldn’t stand firmly. My brother grabbed me and led me into the dimly lit interior of the skating rink.The changing lights on the ceiling made the room look like a noisy dance floor, surrounded by people flashing by quickly, and my brother and I stood by the wall, as if there were fleeting lights all around us.

"What happened to you, Pan Guizhi?" Lu Xinyao asked.

I said, "No."

"Really. Then why are you crying?" He continued.

because of you.I said.Because I saw you leave me and go.

Because you are going to like Mei Qingqing.

I took a few breaths of air from the skating rink, my nose suddenly became sore, and I suddenly became uncontrollably sad.I lowered my head and said to my brother, "I don't know...because I have a problem."

After speaking, my tears fell.I seem to often cry in front of Lu Xinyao, even though the light is too dim to see my face clearly, but he still guessed it. My brother reached out and lifted my chin, and wiped my tears with the back of his hand.

The ground was slippery, and the roller skates led me to slide back for a while. My brother said "don't cry" to me, and then he held my back and led me to slide along the periphery.My heartbeat suddenly missed a beat, and then accelerated suddenly, tears also hung in the corners of my eyes and forgot to fall.

Lu Xinyao took me for a lap, and suddenly said to me in the middle of the second lap: "I let go."

I called out "Brother" in a panic, but Lu Xinyao didn't seem to hear him, and he counted: "Three—two—"

"one."

As soon as the voice fell, I felt the temperature behind me disappear. Because of the inertia, I was still sliding forward, but I felt that I was falling.I panicked and my knees suddenly softened.

"elder brother……"

I looked around for my brother's back, and the moment I thought I was about to fall, Lu Xinyao grabbed me in time.

The light slid into his eyes like rolling balls. My brother seemed to be smiling a little and asked me, "Are you afraid?"

I nodded to my brother, and he asked again: "Then do you dare to come again?"

I always lose my ability to think when facing my brother, and I always answer him instinctively.And my instinct with my brother was to obey.

I hadn't read the book at the time, but the fateful words appeared in my mind out of thin air: For you, thousands of times.Since then, a certain desire has been unstoppable.

That was my most rebellious and ignorant age. At that age, I knew nothing about many things—including love and lust—but inevitably had a vague and strong obsession with my brother.