Jujube

My brother taught me a lot, but I'll never learn this one.

I didn't sleep all night until dawn to be sure it wasn't my fantasy.

Lu Xinyao's behavior on the second day was as usual. He didn't ask why I made such a nasty move towards him, nor did he treat me with a different attitude because of it, as if there was nothing wrong with teaching me how to type and how to skate. different.We just did an insignificant thing that could happen to any brother.

So, what are the things that brothers can't do?Can the elder brother teach the younger brother everything?I fell into a new confusion, suddenly not sure where the insurmountable boundary between me and my brother was. It seemed to have sunk into that ditch, and above the swallowed ditch, the two beds were against each other and clinging to each other. coincide with each other.

Can my brother and I be like these two beds?

My weak ethical concepts could not answer these questions. During that time, I was struggling with my brother’s affection and lust, and I had to count the money in the piggy bank several times when I came home from school every day.I didn't know how much money I would have to save to get my brother to teach me something else, so I set myself a few goals, but every once in a while I found that these goals were not enough.

Later, much later.When I told my brother about this, my brother said that what I saved was not called "tuition fee", but "prostitution money".But what he said was not right, I said to my brother: "I didn't go whoring for nothing, I still want to take you away from Baiquedang." My brother nodded and agreed with me, he said: "Yes, you still want to Redemption."

I remembered a phrase, "I would like to use food and clothing for 20 years to redeem my body", but unfortunately I don't know how to sing it to my brother.

Apart from money, Mei Qingqing still floats in my field of vision like a lingering shadow.I often worry that she will pass my door, stop and call my brother's name in the same sweet voice I remember.She can always pronounce the word "Lu Xinyao" as beautifully as singing.

"Mengli."

Once, I met Mei Qingqing on the road, and she also called my name with a singing voice, and waved to me with a smile.

My friend Zhang Buyu looked at Mei Qingqing leaving gracefully, and said to me enviously: "Mei Qingqing called your name."

Before the senior high school entrance examination was approaching, Zhang Buyu, like many classmates, packed up the second-hand textbooks in his schoolbag and sold them.He had money for selling books in his pocket, and after Mei Qingqing's back disappeared, he turned back and continued to stare at the cotton candy machine, begging like a mantra: "More candy. Bigger, bigger."

After Zhang Buyu got the marshmallow, he licked it with relish and urged me to sell the book.I rejected Zhang Buyu and told him I didn't want to sell.

Zhang Buyu couldn't understand. He said in surprise, "You're about to graduate, what are you still studying? Meng Li, do you still plan to go to high school or go to university?"

I understood very early on that I was studying for my brother, because he would be happy if I got the first place in the exam, so I want No.1.The same is true for the senior high school entrance examination. I have an intuition that for my brother, I must take the exam.

I nodded to Zhang Buyu.Zhang Buyu stared blankly with his mouth open for a while, then slowly licked off the sugar stains stuck to the corner of his mouth, and said to me, "Ah...then we have to separate ways to raise eagles."

Zhang Buyu always makes mistakes when saying idioms, so I nodded and said, "Well, we are going our separate ways."

Zhang Buyu frowned, and gnawed the marshmallow until there was only a bare bamboo stick, and then smiled: "Whatever the sheep or the carving! Meng Li, if you come to play with me in the future, we are still good buddies. "

Zhang Buyu was my best and only friend since I was a child. I watched him go home and knew that our years as friends of wine and meat were over, but I didn't feel sad.I think of many years ago, when I was a toddler, the back of my father Meng Guanghui walking towards the sunset.I looked at Zhang Buyu's distant figure just like I looked at Meng Guanghui at that time, and I felt that time had passed.

I imagined that everyone followed Meng Guanghui's figure into the sunset, but I couldn't think of Lu Xinyao.I believe from the bottom of my heart that my brother and I will depend on each other for life. Our lifelines are sewn together, and neither of us can live without it.

It wasn't raining, so instead of heading home, I went to the factory to find Lu Xinyao.Outside the iron gate of the factory, I found the bicycle that belonged to me and my brother, sat on the back seat and waited for him while doing homework.I haven't bought this car for a long time, I will clean it every day, and when I am in high school, I will ride it away from Baiquedang's house.

There is a hand bell in Baiquedang's school, which will ring when school is over, but there is no one in the factory. I don't know when my brother will come out.So during the waiting process, every once in a while, I would raise my head and look inside the iron gate.

I never get tired of seeing my brother's tall and straight figure. When he walked towards me, there were several other people talking and laughing beside him, some men and some women. The one closest to my brother was the last time I saw him at the skating rink. Xiao Wu with yellow hair.

Before I came to see my brother, my brother didn't know about it, and I didn't know that they had a party at night.So when Xiao Wu saw me, he said "Yo" in surprise, and said to my brother, "Brother Yao, did you bring your brother?"

Lu Xinyao responded calmly, did not tell him that I came here by myself, but asked me a seemingly insignificant question when unlocking the bicycle: "Have you finished your homework?"

The tacit understanding of getting along with my brother day and night made me instantly understand what my brother meant, just like my brother didn't have to ask me why I didn't go home but came here, and didn't ask me whether I wanted to go home or follow him next.

No.There's a lot left.I wonder.But what I said was a lie, and I said, "It's over."

I am a troublemaker by nature, and I became my brother's trouble again intentionally or unintentionally, but my brother's face couldn't see the clue. He opened the lock and said to Xiao Wu: "I will take my brother first." past."

"Oh no, wait!" Xiao Wu scratched his head, and asked my brother Mei Qingqing what to do with a look of embarrassment on his face, "I'll just wait for you to pick it up...I really can't pick it up this time."

This question made Lu Xinyao frowned faintly.

But Xiao Wu quickly came up with another way, and suggested: "Why don't you let Qingqing wait a little longer because it's still early?"

Lu Xinyao agreed.

The place where they met was in a night snack stall. After my brother stopped the car, he handed me over to Xiao Wu.Xiao Wu came over and took my shoulders, and said enthusiastically, "Brother, stay with Brother Xiao Wu for a while, and you can order whatever you want, you're welcome!"

My brother had already turned around when Xiao Wu was speaking, and left by bike.I suddenly felt at a loss among my brother's friends. Xiao Wu gave me a can of Jianlibao, and chatted with other people.

The elder sister he carried had the word "Wen" in her name, and Xiao Wu called her "Sister Wen".Sitting opposite me, Sister Wen pointed to the direction we came from and said to me, "Your brother has gone to pick up your sister-in-law."

The rest of the people laughed at this sentence, and the laughter was buzzing.

"Sister Wen, don't make trouble with my younger brother. Brother Yao is very good to my younger brother. Be careful and sue you later!" Xiao Wu said.

"How come?" Sister Wen looked at me and smiled, then asked me how old I was.Someone next to me handed her a cigarette, and when she heard about my age, she gave him a sideways look and said angrily, "Damn it! How dare my brother smoke while I'm here? My old lady doesn't smoke, and you stinky, shameless mortals, stay away from it!" "After speaking, he smiled again: "My brother is really going to sue now."

The first time I saw the word "feminine" was not in Mei Qingqing, but in Sister Wen.I can't describe that feeling, I just remember the smell of perfume that makes me dizzy after smelling it for a long time. In my opinion at the time, that was the real feminine smell.Whenever I think of this smell, I also think of the scene where Lu Xinyao appeared with Mei Qingqing.

Mei Qingqing sat sideways on the back seat, pressing her skirt with one hand, and hooking my brother's waist with the other. When she got out of the car, whoever yelled first, everyone at the table followed suit.

Mei Qingqing showed a shy smile amidst the noisy voice, and turned to look at my brother.

Sister Wen said, "Oh, Qingqing, do you want to come here hand in hand?"

Mei Qingqing's face was completely red, she stopped waiting for my brother, walked over with her head down, and immediately found that the two places reserved were close to each other.Mei Qingqing pursed her lips forcefully, her lips turned red, and I heard her whisper, "Why are you so annoying!"

Sister Wen pulled her to sit down, and I saw my brother walking towards the last empty seat, and sat down without any hesitation.Everyone else was laughing, Xiao Wu toasted with a smile, Sister Wen cursed with a smile, Mei Qingqing had a shy smile on her face... I suddenly felt sad.

elder brother.It didn't rain today.But why do I feel that today's weather is the same as the day I was at Aunt Yin's house, so boring to death?

I stared at my brother intently, and when I asked my brother this sentence in my heart, my brother seemed to hear it, turned his eyes slightly to me, and then stopped.

I forgot what I was thinking at the time, and completely gave control of my body and consciousness to my brother's eyes. He looked at me, and I walked towards him.

It seems that this is a matter of course, a matter of course.

"That's right, a family needs to be tidy." When I sat next to my brother, Sister Wen said, "Brother, haven't you greeted your Sister Qingqing yet?"

"Brother Mengli is here too?" Mei Qingqing looked at me, then turned to Sister Wen and said, "...We have already said hello."

As soon as she spoke, she was taken advantage of, and Sister Wen said again: "It's terrible, this goblin's skills are extremely high, look, it's all penetrated inside!"

"Empty mouth and white teeth..." Mei Qingqing's coquettish voice sounded like singing, she said to Lu Xinyao with a voice that I couldn't imitate, "Brother Yao, I can't beat her."

Sister Wen giggled: "Is this the case? I dare not say it even if I'm killed! Don't talk, can I drink?"

Lu Xinyao also put a few bottles of beer in front of him. I have never seen him smoking or drinking at home, but I know that my brother can do both, just like he can skate and billiards. Lu Xinyao seems to be born omnipotent.

I quietly asked my brother if he would be drunk?My brother asked me if I thought so.

Everybody gets drunk, but I don't think he does.My brother laughed for some reason, and said to me, just try it.

When my brother opened the bottle cap, he suddenly asked me: "If I'm drunk, would you dare to ride back by yourself?"

I told him: "If you dare to get drunk, I will."

The tails of Lu Xinyao's eyes turned up, and the wine bottle reflected the scars on his hands and face green at the same time.

I don't know how much is too much, but as far as I can remember, my brother just drank a lot. ——Perhaps not so much in fact, because he was still sober when he sang happy birthday to Mei Qingqing.

My brother hasn't sung this song to me yet.I can't help thinking.

After eating the cake, Sister Wen said she was going to sing karaoke, Mei Qingqing asked my brother if he would go.I thought my brother would agree, but I don't want him to.

Lu Xinyao couldn't hear my voice, but he fulfilled my wish. I heard him reject Mei Qingqing's invitation: "You guys play, my brother has to go to school tomorrow."

Mei Qingqing begged my brother, asking him to come back after sending his brother back, so they could wait a little longer.

Her face was flushed, so shy, and so pretty, no one could refuse her, even Lu Xinyao.My brother agreed.

Sister Wen smiled at me again. Before she left, she said to me: "Brother, your brother is so kind to you."

I smelled her perfume again.

What Lu Xinyao taught, his stupid younger brother can't always learn well.I can't ride a bicycle, and I can fall on flat ground.

When night falls, there are frogs in the rice fields, one after another, and they are connected from far to near.I shrank my legs on the back seat, the road was not flat at all, I saw my two legs bouncing, and I remembered that not long ago, it was probably on this road, the rider was still my brother, but on the back seat It was Mei Qingqing who was sitting.

Mei Qingqing's hair is very long, it can float up when the wind blows, and when it floats up, it can touch Lu Xin's back.No, she has already touched my brother's back, with her hands.

I remember Pan Guizhi said that Mei Qingqing's chest is very soft.Are her hands just as soft?But the picture of that hand on my brother's back made me feel pain, even more painful than when Pan Guizhi attacked Jiuyin White Bone Claw.

I suddenly wanted to say something rebellious to my brother.

For example, I want to ask, brother, can you stop picking up Mei Qingqing?Can your car take me alone?

But I didn't ask, but said to him: "Brother, I don't want to learn to ride a bicycle anymore."

"Why?" Lu Xinyao's voice was blown by the evening wind like a leaf, "Do you want to live on campus?"

"I don't want to live on campus either." My brother and I were the only two people in the seemingly endless field, as if we could talk about anything, my heart beat faster for no reason, and I heard myself asking, "Brother, when I'm in high school, how about you?" Come pick me up?"

"What if I don't have time to pick you up?" he asked.

"I've been waiting for you."

"Can't wait?"

My brother seemed to have become a little more patient. Instead of rejecting me in a hurry, he asked me down the line, as if luring me to chase after a glimmer of hope that didn't exist.

"I'm going home. But brother, you will come..." I swallowed the last "isn't it?" My brother seemed to recognize it, and he rang the bell lightly, noncommittal.However, after a few seconds, I heard him say: "Learn to ride a bicycle, I will pick you up."

lie.I poked him out: "If you learn how to ride a bike, you don't have to pick me up."

"So you don't want to learn to ride a bicycle because you are afraid that I won't pick you up." Lu Xinyao didn't turn his head, but I had the illusion that his eyes swept over every word.

"elder brother……"

My brother told me not to confess in a few words. I stared at his back and didn't dare to say more.For the rest of the way, I concentrated on sniffing the smell of alcohol on my brother's clothes. It was so strong, why wasn't he drunk?

I dare to hug him when I'm drunk, I use one more hand to hug him than Mei Qingqing.

When Meng Guanghui was drunk, sometimes his face would be flushed and he would crow like a crowing rooster, and sometimes he would burst into tears and recite the poems he knew by heart passionately, and finally fell straight on the bed, Belly swelled into a grave bag, as if dead, and then came back to life like a dead body while snoring.

But Lu Xinyao was not like this.

The first time I witnessed my brother getting drunk was at the end of the summer. I remember very clearly that there was a group of children playing dates at the entrance of Baiquedang Village that day.Zhang Buyu later told me that the dates he had harvested were not yet ripe, and his teeth were so sour.He scolded those kids as idiots, at least half of the dates from the tree were knocked off by the idiots, they would never grow ripe again, and would rot in the ground.

The first time my brother and I kissed was on the night when the sour dates started to rot.

Zao'er fell to the ground, and I climbed onto my brother's bed to seduce him for the first time.